You Were Mine For The Summer
I wake up with throbbing headache. I look around me. Where Am I?... I look down at myself but something’s wrong, I don’t see any clothing on me. When I look on my left I see someone. Someone I don’t recognize. I sit up in a seconds but it wasn’t that good of a thing to do. I felt myself getting dizzier. I groan and put my hand on my head trying to stop the spinning. Where am I?
The person beside me starts to stir, his eyes opens and I can see he has a beautiful blue colour and he has blonde hair. (I AM NOT DESCRIBING NIALL OKAY?) He looks at me with a grin and I feel disgusting as he stands up and I see that he’s naked. I just wanna throw up. He comes back from the toilet and lie down beside me again with that stupid grin of his.
“Last night wa-“
“What happened last night?!” I say before he could finish that dreading sentence I’m sure I don’t want to hear.
“You were all over me at the club, I took you home (his house) and yeah… We fucked. God it was amazing! Up for round 2 sweetie?” If he won’t stop talking I swear I will kick him where it hurts most and puke on him.
“Did you use a condom?”
“Of course I did! I’m not an idiot” “Do you want any breakfast?”
I didn’t answer him, I just sat up quickly and got dressed and then I ran through his house, straight against the door. I even forgot to get my shoes but who cares I can’t run in them. I don’t know where I am, but I just keep running straight forward anyway and see where I come. I come to a place where there are a lot of people but I keep running, bumping in to people sometimes that looks back at me like I’m a mad woman. I must look like one, a girl with tears streaming down her eyes.
In my purse I’m holding I feel something vibrate and remember that I do have a phone. I look at it and I see that the clock is showing 11:37 AM and that it is Madeline that’s calling me. Even though I don’t know where I am, I decide on declining the call. I need to just run away for moment, and think. I stop running when I see a river in front of me. I lean forward with my hand on my knees and pant like a dog. Literally. I walk to the verge and sit down on the grass and dip my feet in the water. It’s warm.
I haven’t stopped crying since I ran away from that unknown boy. I’m only crying more. He probably didn’t know that he took my virginity. The worst thing is that I was so drunk that I didn’t even know what I was doing, I don’t even remember anything from the club. I’ve always wanted my first time to be romantic and with a guy I have strong feelings for. Not like this. Drunk.
It’s only the beginning of my vacation here and I don’t really feel any better. I feel the opposite way. Much worse. I just wanna go home. But I know that I can’t do that. I tell myself that it will get better, that this is just a bad dream I have, I’m good at having nightmares. But it’s not. This is as real as it can be. I just hope it will go away soon. So I can enjoy this trip I’ve wanted to have for years now. It’s clear to say that I didn’t come here for this. The tears have subsided by now but I’m still crying a little bit. I’m sitting like a ball. Knees tight against my chest while my head are hanging down against my knees and then my arms around my neck.
Every time I just wanna be by myself, I always go to a river nearby my house. I can sit there in hours and just do nothing. I don’t know why, but hearing the water comforts me. After and hour of crying and it still hasn’t stopped. I’m better now though, I feel much calmer now then I was before. (She’s still crying but less)
After a while with me still sitting on the grass I hear footsteps behind me and I get shocked when I see someone standing there. Curly hair. Tall. And I recognize him but I can’t just think of where.
“Hey… Are you okay? Sorry but I’ve been here a while and I think I heard you crying? I wasn’t trying to be nosy but yeah… Are you okay?”
My eyes are probably red and like he said, he heard me so need to be lying.
“Ehm… Yeah I have but I’m okay…” I’m not okay I’m lying anyway… I used to lie a lot when I was younger, being afraid of what my mum and dad would say if I had done something bad. So I said it was someone else. I lie sometimes when I feel like I should. And I guess this is a moment like that.
“You sure? You don’t seem to be okay?” He’s now moving forward and sitting beside me on the grass. I just now remember that I’ve been staring at him quite a while. But I can’t stop.
“I’m okay” I say with no emotion. I didn’t want anyone to find me. But he did. A total stranger for me but in a way not.
“Okay… what happened? If you don’t mind me ask…” He’s annoying me with all his questions
“Don’t you have anywhere else to be?” I just want him gone.
“Nope” he says popping the p
“I want to be alone…” I don’t know if he heard me cause right when I said I curled up in my ball again, trying to hide myself. He didn’t answer which I found kind of weird but when I looked up to see if he was still there, he was staring at me with a worried look in his green eyes.
“Sorry… Want me to take you home?” I actually considered having him taking me home; since I don’t know where I am nor do I know the way home.
“Yeah… I don’t really know where I am so that would be good” I gave him a small smile and grabbed my phone from the grass and texted Madeline the address to the house.
For him to give me the drive home I really much needed, we had to walk back to his house, but he said it wasn’t a long walk. He knew I didn’t have it in me to talk in the moment, so we just walked in silent. Drove to Madeline’s house in silent. Of course when we were there I thanked him for the drive home and that I really appreciated it, but nothing else happened. I just didn’t feel like talking to anyone.
My jetlag had hit me hard. Therefor I could barely sleep anything and on top of that, woke up to early for my liking. I decided to go for a long walk and be a real tourist for the day. Who knows, I will maybe find something interesting. I decided that I would hire a house when I’m staying so I won’t need to pay for a hotel room every night. Live in a house would be much better since I don’t know how long I’m staying. It wasn’t to big and not to small. It was a perfect size for me. I don’t really like to live alone in a big mansion when I’m alone; it makes me feel… alone… how smart I am… anyways… So a house between the sizes would be good for me. I was living a little bit outside the city so I decided to just walk there; it wasn’t that much of a walk really, maybe 15 minutes. I walked in shops, bought souvenirs and just walking around. It felt good, no one had recognized me yet and I hoped it would stay like that.
I had left the house when then clock was like 8AM in the morning. It was now 10AM. I told you I woke up early… You maybe didn’t think that early but I can’t deal with jetlag. And remember when I told you that no one had noticed me? I shouldn’t have said that, I saw more and more people keep stealing glances at me. And the paparazzi’s had woken up to. I decided to call a taxi instead of walking home. I paid the driver when I came and sighed, relieved that no one had followed me to this little neighbour-hood, at least I think no one followed after me…
I decided to walk a little bit more, just around where I lived. But first I went inside my rented house and left all the stuff I knew I wouldn’t need. The scenery is really beautiful here, I love being here, and we didn’t get to explore much of Adelaide when we were on our tour though, since we would only get mobbed if we went outside.
After a while of walking I came to this beautiful river, but I saw someone sitting there. A girl was sitting there alone. When I walked closer I heard that she was crying, and it wasn’t a little bit, she cried a lot... Whatever happened to her, she don’t deserve at being alone. Me being the gentleman I am approached her and asked her if she was okay and that I heard her crying but that I didn’t try to be nosy. I always care for people. No one should be left alone. She just said that she was okay. I know when people say that when they’re “just fine” they’re at their worst. I got the feeling that my questions were irritating her but when I asked if she wanted a drive home, she accepted. Even that we were quiet for the rest of the time, I was still happy I could do something for her.
omg I updated and it was pretty fast! I feel proud :D lol just kidding
SUNNY AND HARRY JUST MET EACH OTHER OMG YES YES but omg poor Sunny for the 'lost the virginty thing when she was getting drunk for the first time' *crying*
I'LL TRY TO UPDATE THIS WEEKEND!
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