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Perri's P.O.V.

"Harry stop fidgeting, you look like a junkie." I scold him.

Perri to the rescue.

That is right.

I have a plan.

I managed to get Harry out of the house for it so you should know it's a good one.

"What if shes there with him?" he says. His sunglasses hide his blood shot eyes and his hair is at its most unruly.

"She won't!" I snap, smack his arm and exit the car, he follows suit. We walk to the back of the alley of Lou's club where she's waiting.

She gives us a little smirk when we come up. Harry looks like he's about to puke. As soon as she sees him she backs up. Oops. Did I forget to mention he'd be with so she couldn't toy around? Yep. Yep, I did.

"What the fuck?!" she spits. Harry rolls his eyes through his shades.

He was used to people being afraid of him.

"Where and when." I snap, using my 'big girl,' voice.

"Cash." She stammers, her eyes not leaving Harry.

He takes a wad out of his pocket, hands it to me and I stretch my arm out. She eyes it unevenly.

"I thought only you needed her.." She trails off. This bitch better not back out.

"Well you were wrong." I snap. Harry shifts, getting impatient.

"I can't do this. You fucked her up. Big time. Shes fucking insane now and I won't let you do it again!" She suddenly lashes out at Harry.

He laughs.

A cruel, bitter, laugh.

He takes a step towards her, grabs her upper arm, tight, and pushes her back in to the wall behind her.

"You better tell me. You think she's crazy? I was fucking delusional to start with and now I'm sitting in my rivals alley being pestered by an annoying little girl. You think she will react bad when she see's me? How do you think I'm going to get my emotions out if you don't tell me, huh?" He growls, his old gang threatening skills coming to play. "You open that damn mouth of yours and spill or I'm going to go take a trip inside, get your prick of a boyfriend, and smash his face in to the curb. And then Perri here, will finnsih with you."

Well, damn.

"The girls and her will be out at the Pump House at nine." She breathes, her eyes wide and moist."

Harry snaps the cash from me, holds it in front of her, she takes it slowly and then he backs off.

"Have a lovely day." He says with a smile that makes my skin crawl." We start walking and when we reach the curb he turns back around. "Oh, and Beth! If she's not there..." He trails off tsking his tongue while he taps the cement curb. She gasps and he smirks.

Easy enough.

"This better fucking work." He hisses.

"It will."

Lily's P.O.V.
"Lil, you ready?" Louis calls in to the bedroom. I frown in to the mirror. I looked like a hooker and my feet hurt.

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After adjusting my lipstick I make my way to the bedroom where Louis is playing on his phone. We haven't kissed or acted any difference since the kiss the other night and I'm glad...

I miss him...

For the first time I'm not sad or mad.

I just miss him....And it's hard.

He looks up as I come in and a huge smile erupts on his face.

"You look amazing." He gushes, coming to me. I smile nervously and fidget with the hem of my dress. He rolls his eyes and laughs and my nervousness.

"I don't wan't to go.." I pout, crossing my arms. I haven't dressed up in a long time and I don't like it. I wan't to go to bed and sleep even though for some reason I can never manage to fall asleep. I sigh and rub my eyes.

"YOu said you would." He points out. I frown and looks away.

"I know.." I trail off.

"Well then go and have fun!"

Not possible.

Louis pecks my cheek on the way out the door and I blush like a little girl and it both thrilled me and riddled me with guilt.

The girls parked outside and they all greeted me with smiles and hello's which I awkwardly returned.

We arrived at the club and Angela towed us to a booth. I felt out of my element, crowded and cramped, and hot. I needed to go home...

"OK, what do you girls want" Mariah asks.

"Tequila!" Angela yells over the music, dancing lightly in her seat.

"Water.." I mumble form my dry lips. Beth who is across from me zones out, watching the door anxiously. Weird. No weirder than me so I guess I shouldn't talk.

"NO! Tequila for all of us!" Angela giggles, mussing my hair. I give my best fake smile which turns out pathetic. She smiles reassuringly and pats my knee before turning to Beth. "You OK?"

"Um, sorry. what?" She stammers, keeping her eyes off of me.

"Are you OK?" Angela says slower. Beth nods once, takes out her cell and starts tapping away on it nervously, looking up at the door every so often. Angela shrugs and Mariah goes off and returns a few moments later with a tray of shots.

I really can't drink...

The day I promised him not to drink comes back to mind. It makes me gasp, the girls give me bewildered smiles and I wave them off.

WHy should I keep my promise?

He didn't keep his?

I loved him with every ounce of my sould that exists and he hrew it away.

I don't need to keep any promises.

I just wan't to.

"Drink!" Mariah encourages sliding me a shot and a slime with salt.

"I don't drink.." I say softly. Beth's face seems to lighten for some reason while the other two girls frown.

"You haven't been out in ages and it's our first girls night! Take the shot! And you!" She turns to Beth whom doesn't meet her friends eyes. "Stop moping you're bugging me!" She teases.

Beth frowns and takes a shot, only taking half of it.

Take the shot, Lily.

No.... He wouldn't like it..

Oh, I'm sorry did you like it when he fucked Carissa?

My subconscious challenges. The thought of it makes me wan't to hurl. I reach for two shots and drown them in seconds. Praying to the god that must hate me to make me forget.

The girls cheer at my delirious escapade for alcohol as I take a third shot. My throat burns as does my head but it feels good because my mind is instantly blurred.

"More?" Mariah asks with a giggle. Beth frowns and shakes her head.

"Let's pace.." She stammers, her eyes wide with nervousness.

"No!" I snap, taking Mariah's hand I pull her from the booth to the bar. She laughs when we get there she orders stronger alcohol and turns to me while it's being brought out.

"Listen.. I know you have been having a rough time... but Lou told me to be careful with how much you drink." Her face crosses with worry and I flush. That dang Louis. "It's none of my business, but lets just take it slow. If you really feel the need t get piss drunk, tell me first so I can watch you and drink water, OK?" She says sweetly.

Her sympathy would usually swell up inside of me but right now I'm too numb to feel it.

I wan't to feel something.

And Alcohol is how I'm going to go about it.

Notes

I. am. so sick...

i think im dead...

oh my god....

puke...

so tired, cold, hot, sore and crummy.

wheres my cuddle buddy bringing me hot soup?? AKA A certain Harry Styles...

ANYWHO, IM GOING TO THE DOCTOR TOMORROW, I HAVE INSOMNIA AND MY MOM THINKS MY MED. IS MAKING ME SICK SO I MIGHT NOT BE ABLE TO UPDATE.

ALSO THE NEXT CHAPTER IS REEAALLLYYY WEIRD..

WARNING.