I pick my head up an inch and look at him under my eye lashes.

"oh my god, Lily.. I.. I am so sorry!" He stammers, gently he tries to cup m face but I wince in to his hand. He rips his hands away and grabs the towel and dabs gently at the blood. After about ten silent minutes the blood is gone. I glance in the mirror, the bridge of my nose is slightly swollen and my lower eye bone is black and swollen as well. I sigh and try to fix my hair, making some sort of acceptance of my image.

I turn to Harry and am taken back by the face of anger he's wearing.

"What?" I snap.

"Why did you kiss him?" He asks, trying to keep under control.

"Really? Did you not see him come at ME?" I defend myself.

"You stood there and let him kiss you. Why?" The first part he sounded mad, but the next sounded like betrayal. He was right but he couldn't know it.

"Wow, Harry. Just wow." I say bluntly and leave him in the bathroom. He reaches for me but I pull back before he can. As I stomp in to the living room I ru smack dab in to the Mckenzie chick.

"Why the fuck are you still here?" I snap, Harry joins us in the hall.

"Louis want's to speak to you." She snaps back.

"Tell him to fuck himself." Harry rolls his eyes, I raise my brows at him.

"Where is he?" She side steps and motions in front of her, I walk from Harry and in to the living room, she leads me out the front door and down the street a little ways where Louis is sitting on the hood of his car, smoking a cigarette.

The anger came back in waves. Each wave with each step. When I got closer he nodded to his friends and they walked out of ear shot, he smirked at me as I came up.

"What the fuck was all of that?" I snap, shoving his shoulders when I reach him.

"Care to elaborate?"

"Hmm let me think. OH YEAH kissing me, fighting with my boyfriend, showing up with your gang, commenting on me like I'm a piece of meat, and bringing that slut!?" I hiss at him.

"Jealous, L?" He smiles and take a breath of his cigarette. I rip my hand out and rip the stick out of his mouth and stomp it in to the pavement. His eyes turn dark, before I can turn he grabs my wrist and yanks me to the car so I'm in between his legs.

"Don't touch me!"

"Hey, c'mon. Don't be like this. I was pissed, what did you think I would do?" He whines.

"Um, grow the fuck up and talk to me!" I yell exasperated.

"With Harry around?" He lets go of my wrist but I don't step away.

"You kissed me right in front of him but you can't talk to me infront of him. Alright. Perfect logic!"

"Hey, babe, you kissed me right back." He defends.

"NO I did no such thing!"

"You didn't move me off. You like it. Admit it no ones here!" He says lazily.

"I didn't kiss you, Louis." I snap, taking a step back.

"But you did like it and for now that's enough for me." Outrage fills me up, who did he think he was?!

When I can't think of a reply he reaches out and yanks my waist to him. My shins hit the bumper and his hands find my ass. I don't move him.

"Now you finally see you have feelings for me." He mumbles. Even though he's sitting he's taller than me and when he looks down and says that my knees feel weak. I shake my head no but he moves his head closer and for some stupid reason I still don't pull away.

He leans in to kiss me and suddenly pulls back when he sees the tear that just fell down my cheek.

"What's wrong?" He's asks outraged at my mood switch.

"I can't do this anymore..." I stammer and then turning away I walk away with out a word. Harry, Niall, and Zayn are all standing watching. They don't say anything to me as I walk past them and go inside. It's empty except Perri and Rae whom rush to my side.

"Whats wrong, bae?" Perri asks. I wipe my eyes and shake my head.

"This whole thing is all my fault. I can't keep doing this to these two boys. I won't. It's not fair.. I'm going home." My voice cracks.

"With your mom there? Like hell. You're staying with me!" Perri insists.

"No I'm not imposing on you like that!"

"It's not. It's like I live alone anyways since my dads always working!" She whines.

"Just until I make a plan." I decide. She nods excitedly and hugs me. "Can we go get my stuff?"

"Yeah, lets go now." She giggles. We walk in to the brisk air and walk past the boys, no one speaks to one another, Louis and his friends are gone. We get in the car and drive to Harry's.

-

When we let ourselves in Lauren and Liam must already be in bed because the lights are all off. We go in to Harry's and I's bedroom and pull out my suit cases. Before we can even get one packed we hear the front door open and slam close.

"Lily?" I groan, I wanted to be gone before he got here. He comes in to the bedroom and freezes when he sees my suitcases. "What the fuck?"

"I'll give you guys a minute." Perri says quietly before retreating in to the living room, closing the door behind her.

"Lily, what in the hell?" He yells, opening his arms in front of him.

"Harry.. I can't do this anymore." I keep my back to him, if I see him I know what will happen...

"Do what?"

"Do this .... It's not working out." I sniffle. It clocks in his brain and hes quiet for a moment.

"Don't do this, baby." He says it quietly.

"Harry, we both know it's hell. I don't understand why we even tried this long. It's too hard."

"But that's why were doing it! Because it's worth it in the end to try, because we both have these feelings!" He urges. I spin around to him

"Feelings? What feelings? Caring for one another?! That's not enough anymore, Harry!"

"I don't understand... I don't want you to go. You can't just leave me here. I'm half a man, at best with out you here... don't do something you're going to regret." He says softly coming up to me.

"Harry, we fight all of the time, it's like we don't even like each other, much less care about each other! We tried and that's great but it just isn't working!" I snap, slapping the hand away that reaches for me. His face is a mix of emotions.

"I can not believe you're doing this for him....." Hold the fuck up.

"Excuse me?" My pitch shoots up.

"Don't play stupid, you like him. I know exactly whats going on here!" He yells at me.

"You're an idiot Harry." It's no use fighting with him. That's not why I'm doing this and I know he knows that.. this is just his way of making it seem like its my fault. Not ours. I turn and start packing my bag again, he spins me around and plants a kiss on my mouth.

"You're not doing this, I'm forgetting pride this time. I don't care about being right or wrong. All I want is you. To be with you. That's all I care about is you... So, please... Please. Don't do this..."

My heart broke there as he pleaded with me.. he eyes vivid and dancing their usual beautiful shades of green. But I can't make them fight. If I'm out of the equation they can go on exactly how it was meant to be. I can't lean on either of them anymore. I leaned on my father my entire life and when he died... it ruined me. Now I'm doing the same thing with these boys. Leaning and supporting my sprained ankles on their shoulders and it's not fair to them or to me. I need to learn to be able to take care of myself and be myself before I can be with anyone....

"Harry it's not a fight. There is no right or wrong. No swallowing pride. It's me saying I can't anymore." I grabbed my bags and walked past him. He didn't stop me.

I wished he had.