I Understand. An AU/punk story.

I felt distance and tension between Harry as we got ready for the party at Liam's and Lauren's place. He didn't often talk about other woman or our past relationships, but it burned in my stomach when he did.

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"You look perfect." He mumbles softly as I make my way from the bathroom.

"Thanks..... so do you." I offer in a small voice. He gives me a light smile and takes me hand, pulling me to his chest.

"Can we please stop whatever... this.... is." he pleads. I huff and pucker my lip at him. "I'm sorry about being rude.... I just really love you, Lilian." He murmurs, bringing the skin on the back of my hand to his lips. I whimper at the undeniable heat that cascades over me just from the light touch of his lips.

"Yeah.... I'm sorry, but you really don't have anything to worry about." I scold, he sits on the edge of the bed, putting his arms around me, pulling my stomach to his chest, leaning his head in to me.

"I know that... doesn't stop me from worrying, doll." He sighs.

"Well, it's good to worry a little. But not to the point where you don't trust me.... I mean, look at you! I worry about you and girls at the bar all the time." I tell him, wrapping my fingers in his pushed back mop of curls.

"I know... And I do trust you. But you don't need to worry about any of those girls. They aren't you." He says happily, standing up, kissing my flushed cheeks.

"I'm glad you do.... and none of those guys are you, so you don't have anything to worry about other guys either." Taking the hand he offers, he leads us from my place and down to his car.

-

"Wanna drink?" Lauren asks me as we make our way in, I was glad to see it was mostly our regular group of friends, a knot formed in my stomach, awaiting Louis's arrival.

Harry sensed my discomfort and his large hand went on my thigh, giving me butterflies. He grins and his cute dimples make a rare appearance at my face's reaction to his simple touch.

Pretty soon we're all just drinking and having a real good time, the guys playing a friendly game of pokers and the girls dancing around like the dorks we were. I look up and catch Harry smiling at me as I slowly move my hips to the beat of the song and trail my fingers up my torso.

He winks before turning back to his gang.

Then the door opens and closes.

"Hey, Lou, glad you could make it!" Zayn cheers, I don't doubt he missed his best friend.

"Yeah, no biggie." Louis muses, making his way in to the apartment and over to the dining room where the guys sat. I glance at Harry, at the head of the table, like always. His shoulders stiffen and he doesn't look up at Louis. Even though he takes the chair right across from him at the opposite end of the table.

They all greet each other, Perri and Rae skip to Louis and give him big hugs before walking around the table, checking out everyone's hand of cards.. Lauren gives me uneasy glance, sensing my and her cousins discomfort at the tall boys arrival.

I make my way to Harry's chair and stand behind him, wrapping my arms around him and laying my chin on his shoulder. He leans his head in to mine and hums lightly, enjoying my touch. My eyes flicker to Louis who wears a masked face. But I know it too well. It's a mixture of sadness and .... anger? Regret?

I nod my head slightly and he rolls his eyes.

"So, Harry...'' Harry's head flicks up to him. They haven't had a normal conversation in months. It must be tough on the both of them. But I know Harry, and I know the cynical, smug, grin he's wearing on his face even though I can't see it. Harry's hands land on my arms, that are still constricted on his shoulders. "I just wanted to apologize." Harry laughs.

Here we go.

"For?" Louis bites his bottom lip, his new lip ring gently pulled between his teeth. He was definitely struggling.

"For every thing that happened." He retorts, his face getting meaner by the second. Everyone stays quiet.

"That's all you have to say?! For everything!? You mean when you tried to steal the best thing in my life I don't even know how many times?" Harry snap, leaning forward my arms are shaken off so I take a step back in the kitchen.


"Look, half the time you weren't even dating her so -"

"What about the other half?! Mates don't do things like that." Harry snaps, I frown between the two... Wanting them to just fucking make up already!

"Oh, please! Like it was all me! I didn't trick her in to spending the night at my place or constantly wanting to be with me. She came on her own."

My jaw hits the floor.

"And you know why she always come to me? Because you're an ass!" Louis hisses, the mood of the room shifts drastically.

"If I was such an ass to her, she would be with you. Not me."

"Um, she has a name, and I think we can be -"

"Oh like she isn't?" Confusion smears on everyones faces.

"What the hell are you talking about?" Harry snaps, standing up, knocking his chair to the floor. "What the fuck is he talking about?" He yells in my direction.

"How do you know shes not fucking around with me whiles she's out 'shopping?.' " Louis chuckles, using his fingers for air quotes on shopping.

He wouldn't.

Harry is getting even more mad by the second, but every time he looks to me, I see nothing but fear and paranoia and betrayal in his eyes. Anger isn't present when he looks at me.

"She would never!"

"Would you!?" Louis laughs, standing up too, knocking his chair over.

"I would never cheat on her!" Harry spits.

"Never now?" Louis says, smug.

What the fuck!?!?!

"You both are so incredibly, immature and unintelligent!" I snap, biting my bottom lip to keep the tears in. If Lou was suggesting I was with him when Harry thought I was doing other things, which I was sometimes. Then him suggesting Harry has cheated make it a valid thing to consider?

I push those thoughts as far from my head as possible. Trying to remind yourself of the fair you two shared, the way he told you he loved you, he meant it. He wouldn't.......?

"Oh get off your damn high horse!" Louis snaps at me. Harry doesn't come to my defense.

"Why the fuck did you even come if you were going to turn this in to a fight?" I scream at him, storming out, I rip my arm from Harry who tries to grab me. I was sick of games. Harry wouldn't cheat..... He wouldn't give what we had up. He promised, he promised he would take care of me.

"Well, I thought we could be friend, Lily! But I decided I don't want that anymore!" He yells after me. I stop in my purple heels and spin around, he didn't want me in his life??! I couldn't picture not having him around.... I bite my lips in desperation, tears pricking the corner of my eyes.

"Yep! I decided I only want you one way! And to be frank, that's between the sheets! That's all girl like you is good for lil, is a good shag!" He snaps, venom in his words. I know in my heart they aren't true... but that doesn't make it sting any less.

Harry is instantly trying to rip Lou's throat out but Zayn grand his shoulders, as Louis throws me one last dirty look and leaves.

"You see what I fucking mean!" Harry yells, turning the aggression on me.

"YEAH, SORRY I'M TOO STUPID TO LISTEN TO THE ONE AND ONLY HARRY STYLES!" I scream back, everyone is taken back by my tone. But I don't care. I storm to the back of the house

"Don;t you walk away from me, Lilian!" He screams at me. But I slam the bathroom door, stopping his words. The music is turned back on, louder than last time as I hear Harry stomp to the bathroom door. His rapid knocks sound on the wood. "Open this door." But I can't because I'm crying and I'm not entirely sure why... Maybe it's Louis's words to me. Maybe it's Harry's. Maybe its the way they treated each other. Maybe it's because now I had a terrible feeling in my stomach that the love of my life was/had been cheating on me. I put my palm over my mouth so he can't hear the tears but they fall regardless....

"Lilian, please open this door." His voice now ragged and disheveled. I frown, I wan't him in here/ Kissing me. Well it would be more ideal at home, but I wanted him to hold me and kiss me and make love to me and promise his truce....

I go to the mirror and blot my eyeliner, ignoring some threat he makes I swing the door open, keeping my head turned to the side. He closes it behind him.

"I'm sorry for yelling at you....." His hands find my hips, trying to pull me to face him, but I keep my back turned. I shrug as if it's nothing and sniffle. "are you. crying?!" He asks outraged.

"No!" Your voice breaks and he takes your arm, spinning me around his green eyes meet mine.

"Liar.." He says softly before picking me up and putting me on the counter, coming in between my legs, Harry takes both of my hands and puts his forehead on mine. "Please don't cry.. I hate when you cry!" He practically begs. I sniffle again let my head fall on his shoulder, his arms constrict my back.

"Are you cheating on me?" I ask him, hoping he didn't hear. His large hands find my shoulders and he pulls me back to look at him.

"I would never." He frowns, sad I'm questioning him fidelity.

And I believe him.

"Sorry.. he just said -"

"I now what he said!" He snaps. I flinch at his tone and he frowns, putting his forehead back on mine, he glides his nose down my jaw bone, leaving me a little breathless. "Sorry... I mean, I know. Thats why I don't want talking to him, doll." He says softly.

I sigh but shake my head.... was he right about Lou.

About my Louis?

The one who spent hours just carefree hours watching hours with me, my mind wanders later in to that night when he kissed my neck... I shake the memory and go back to Earth to Harry.

"I'm sorry..."

"When are you going to learn to listen?" He half jokes.

"Probably never." I admit, half heatedly, he chuckles.

"Good, it's kind of sexy, in a total infuriating way." He chuckles and gets a giggle out of me. "Thats my girl." He smiles, pecking my lips.

I wrap my arms around his neck and pull him back in to a killer hug, loving his tattooed covered muscles ripple over you...

How could one man be so full of flaws yet be so undeniably perfect at the same time?

Notes

New story coming..... real good. Have been working on it for a while. I guarantee it will be better than this one, even though I Understand is my baby<3
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