I Understand. An AU/punk story.

Pouting in the bathroom for a little while, I couldn't stop thinking about Aubs.....

I make my way from the bathroom, Harry's behind the bar, he frowns at me as I make my way to him. Sitting on the stool I slump my head in my arms and give him my puppy dog eyes, he drops his head on his arm in front of my face.

"Don't be sad, boo." He pouts his bottom lip and furrows his brows. Shaking my head, I bury my face in my arms. His hands find mine. "Why don't you take the car and go do some shopping?" He suggests. I did love shopping but... I don't know....

I shake my head and he sighs.

"Well, do you wan't a drink?"

I shake my head. It's silent for a minute.

"Wanna go home and have sex?"

"HAROLD!" I shoot my head up and smack his arm. He chuckles.

"Just kidding!" He smiles, leaning on the other side of the bar from me he kisses my mouth. The same old fire burns it heats. "But I'm serious about shopping, go call the girls and go buy some... shoes.... or bras... or necklaces. Or whatever you guys buy." he muses, putting a hand under my chin. I huff. I did need to talk to Lou...

"Fine..." I mumble. He smirks, fishes his wallet and keys. Handing me the second item he pulls a few bills and slips them in between my clevage with a huge smirk. I roll your eyes, pull it out and take his hand, yanking him over the bar, your hand switches to his hair, pulling him in to a big kiss. When he pulls away his cheeks are flushed. "Be back soon."

"Have fun." He calls after you. I give him a little wave and head to the car, while pulling out I dial Louis's number.

"Hello?" He answers on the third ring.

"Hey. You wanna talk now?"

"Yeah, of course. Where?"

"Urm, the mall ok? I'm headed there now."

"Yeah that works, meet you at Starbucks." He chuckles.

"Kay, sounds good, see you soon."

"Yep, bye."

-

I get there first but it doesn't take him long to arrive, he smiles bright and sits across from me at the table.

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"How are you?" He leans forward on his elbows, keeping his eyes on mine.

"I've been better, I guess." I frown.

"What, Harold, still treating you like his dog on a leash?" I glare at him and cross my arms over my chest, leaning back in my chair.

"Is that all you want to talk about? If so I'm gonna go." I snap. He rolls his eyes and leans back too.

"I'm kidding, relax!" He says, but I can still feel a sense of mischief. I sigh and wait for him to continue... "Listen, I hate not having you in my life. OK? I said it!" He strains, leaning forward towards me again.

"Lou -"

"And I know your with Harry, but I know I can treat you better. Despite how I have recently, I'm always there for you... and he isn't!"

"Louis I really -"

"And if you don't wan't to be with me, I still want to be your friend! And to be frank; I don't give a fuck if he likes it or not because you mean too much!"

"You need -"

"And I really need you to just be honest with me!" He interrupts be yet again.

"Maybe you -"

"And I am sorry for the whole -"

"LOUIS!" I snap,finally getting a turn to talk, stopping his desperate ramble. "If you would let me talk, you would know, I do want you in my life.... but I'm not leaving Harry... we've been through too much." His face falls slightly, but I don't know what to tell him. What does he expect!?

"I'm glad, but he doesn't want you by me."

"Well, in his defense. You haven't given him much reason to." He laughs, remembering all the times he's kissed/ made moves on me in Front of Harry. "Not funny!" His face straightens.

"Well, what do you want me to do, apologize?!" He groans. I raise my eyebrows, indicating hes right. "NO! No way in hell!" He snaps

"How bad do you want me in your life." I frown at him, getting up from the table, motioning for him to follow.

"More than anything." He pouts as we walk.

"Well suck it up and try..... I'll talk to him... he trusts me." But it didn't sound too convincing.

"Does he?" I frown up at him. "OK, whatever, not my business." I roll my eyes and pull him in to bath and body works. He groans. I smirk.

-

We actually have a really great day. Until we sat at the fountain and he watched a particularly slutty girl walk bye in a short skirt and practically invisible shirt.

"Damn." He mumbles, watching her walk by. She smirks down at him. I frowned at him, I really didn't like him looking at other women. Even if he wasn't mine.. he was still mine.

"Oh, fuck me..." I groan, irritated as he watches her go. He turns to me and smirks.

"OK, but only since you asked. He adds a playful wink and leans in like hes going to kiss me and puts a hand on my upper thigh until I give him 'the look,' "Just kidding!" He grins a cute grins and leans back but doesn't move his hand.

I take his hand in mine, pick it up, and put it on his own lap, leaving mine on his a second longer than I though I should. But he didn't seem too phased. Once we're done at the mall he follows me out to Harry's car, I drop my bags in the back and lean against the drivers door, he stands in front of me.

Before I can say anything he puts his hips on mine, looking down at me, his hands on my upper arms.

"Louis!" I snap, trying to push him off. He groans and steps back.

"I'm sorry you're too gorgeous to not touch." He teases.

"It's not funny..." But I smile and look at my toes.

"There's a party at Liam tonight, talk to Harry before then, yeah?"

"Are you going to apologize?" He nods once, a big smile goes to my mouth, I run to him and let his arms squish me in a bid hug. My arms on his neck, his at my waist, his chin on my head, while mine buries in his neck. "Maybe we can go back to the way things were in high school. When we were all friends..." I mumble in to his shirt, sighing happily at the familiar scent of his clothes and skin. He pulls away, but keeps his hands on my waist, frowning down at me.

"Lily... that was along time ago..."

"Yeah but -"

"A lots been said and done since then."

"I know -"

"Don't expect to much from Harry when it comes to me. He ruined a life long friendship over a girl he knew for three weeks." His tone sour. I can't help but feel a little hurt. It wasn't my fault they both liked me in high school. It wasn't my fault this feud happened. They chose all of their own actions and I didn't appreciate being blamed. I take a step back.

"Oh, damn, L. I didn't mean it like that." He says softly, taking my hand in his for a moment.

"No, it's fine.. I understand."

-

Later at home that night, Harry are curled up in bed before Liam's party.

"Harry, babe?"

"Yeah, doll?"

"Do you miss Louis?" He shifts under me, uncomfortable with the topic.

"I guess.... why?"

"Well, he misses you.... and I think he misses me."

"Of course he misses you! He's been hitting on you since he met you!" He snaps. I turn to him and give him puppy dog eyes, laying my head on his shoulder I hold my hand up, his meets mine and we intertwine our fingers lazily.

"Harry, he just want to be my friend...he texted me today and I told him I didn't want anything but friendship from him... and he said that was OK with him."

"Why would you text him?"

"Harry -"

"You don't see me texting Carissa!?" He snaps, taking his hand from mine. I groan and roll away from him. If that's how he was going to be...

"First, Louis has only ever been my friend and as far as I'm concerned all he ever will be. You fucked Carissa god knows how many times and for how many years. Second, he was texting me to see what you would say if he apologized! And don't you pretend that would be an easy thing to do! Because I know you would never!" I rush out, feeling hot and irritated. He frowns at me.

"I just really don't like you talking to other guys... sorry." He reaches for me.

"I just really hate you talking about other girls." I mumble, pulling away to go get ready for the party

Notes

i love directioners.... you guys are legit. Big love for making me feel better.<3 You don't know how happy your love makes me.