I Understand. An AU/punk story.

As we pulled up to the beach, my stomach was in knots.

Pushing the back door open and sliding out, I grabbed the dog leashes and they jumped down on to the gravel of the parking lot, barking happily.

The girls and I make out way down to the beach and then take the trail around the rock cliffs to the back, private section that we only used.

A few yards away we saw the guys and Lauren laying in a circle on their towels.

My eyes went straight to Harry.

As did the dogs.

They ripped right out of my grasp, barking and crying like crazy people as they charged towards him. He laughs and bends down to pet them as they knock in to him, licking his face and jumping around in circles in excitement.

I'm so distracted by the cute reunion, that I miss the stranger among us.

A girl with brown hair stands and squeals, standing behind Harry, putting a hand on his bare shoulder as she squawks at how cute my dogs are.

"Aw, who are these guys?" She giggles.

We have reached the group at this point and everyone is watching me unevenly.

"Their, mine." I say flatly. My eyes seizing her up.

She's sickly skinny, her brown hair is long and straight and pulled away in a pony tail. Her face is pretty and tan, her eyes hazel. Dressed in a red bikini that's tied to her body with strings.

Who the hell is she and why the fuck is she touching Harry?

"Ooh, their so cute. They look like they really like you, baby." She giggles, running a hand down Harry's bicep as she kneels next to them.

The wind is sucked from my lungs.

"Yeah." Harry coughs and stands up, leaving her kneel in front of the dogs who have suddenly gotten very calm. He's about to sit on his towel until a hear a snarl and a yelp.

My eyes train back to Marcel who is growling rabidly at the new girl.

Harry quickly reaches down and grabs under her arms and pulls her to her feet behind him. I rush her and grab the digs collar as he attempts to once again attack the girl. My muscles strain in my arm as the beastly, heavy rottweiler lunges.

"CONTROL YOUR FUCKING DOG!" Harry yells at me.

"OH SHUT UP -" I'm about to scream at him and tell him to just stop being a little baby until my eyes focus up and find his arm around the girls hips. Her hands on his chest as she tries to hide behind him from my suddenly vicious dog. Then I look to Harry's face.

He doesn't look mad but he doesn't look happy.

My mouth snaps shut as the realization hits me.

He brought this girl.....

"S -sorry... He never acts like this." I offer to the girl, my voice comes out thick and strained.

I put Marcel on his leash and drag him over to an empty spot next to Lauren where Leroy already lays, curled up to her side, basking in the sun like a seal. I plop down and slide my sunglasses down over my eyes. Hiding the hurt beneath the dark glass.

"Oh, it's fine. I'm Morgan." She giggles, plopping down across from me at her original spot. Harry follows suite.

"Lily." I grumble.

"Yeah, that's pretty weird. I have never seen him act like to any one before." Perri muses, sitting on the other side of me, reaching over to pet Marcel's head. I merely shrug and draw shapes in the sand with my finger.

Why did he bring her?

Are they together?

I swallow the thick amount of bile in the rear of my throat and zone out of the conversation as Morgan introduces herself to Rae and Perri. Today was not supposed to be this way.

But it's clear to me now.

He really meant it.

He's done with me. Already over 'us.' And over the chance of making it right between us. He's moved on.

The thought of it makes me teary eyed.

"I think I'm gonna go." I lean towards Perri and whisper in her ear. She snaps her head to me,

"No! Why would you?" She hisses, quiet enough for only us to hear..

"He brought someone else. He's over me, I just look like an idiot to him. I..I.. just can't."

Her eyes subtly turn to Morgan, the squint as she glares at her. Her eyes flicker to Harry is already watching us closely.

"Fuck them, he's an idiot. Invite Martin, that'll teach em'." She giggles. I roll my eyes a the absurd thought. I shake my head and she ceases her giggling. "Do it! That would be awesome, he's probably just trying to make you jealous anyways!" She boasts confidently. I shrug and think about it for a second.

"You know what, maybe I will." She giggles and nods before turning back to Zayn and continuing the conversation.

I take out my phone and shoot Martin a quick text.

-

My phone vibrates once more.

Martin!!!: Here(:

I smile at my phone and stand up.

"I'll be right back." I tell my friends. They all nod and smile, Perri wiggles her eyebrows at me and smirks and I chuckle and lead Marcel to the driveway. Meeting Martin halfway between the parking lot and our private spot.

"Hey, Lil." He smiles, pulling me in to a big hug. I hug him back graciously.

"Hey.. we're all back this way." I jut my thumb over my shoulder and take his hand, pulling him with me. He nods and we make light conversation until our group comes in to view. "Guys, this is Martin. I think some of you know him. He's cool." My friends nod and say hi and introduce themselves. All but Harry, who just scowls at him.

Harry's P.O.V.

Morgan introduces herself to Lily and Lily says hi back in a strange voice. Putting on her shades, to hide her eyes.

I watch her closely, she keeps her head down to the sand. I wonder is she's upset. Morgan leans on me and I instantly get annoyed by her clingy behavior. I pretend to stretch so she doesn't touch me.

I watch as Lily leans over and whispers to Perri who then glares at Morgan before looking at me. Giggling as she whispers back.

I wonder what their talking about and I instantly feel the need to know.

Morgan touches me again and I just push her hand away. it was a mistake bringing her, she's annoying as fuck.

I watch Lily until her phone goes off and she excuses herself. A small smirk on her pink lips. I watch her longingly as she walks away.

I miss her. I miss her so much.

I shouldn't have brought Morgan just to prove my point. I should have just taken her and kissed her the moment I saw her. Not played these fucking games with her.

My minds a whirlwind until I finally see her reappear.

Martin's hand in hers.

Hot rage. Hot, blinding rage.

Here I am, about to make it right and she comes around with another fucking guy. This si the shit I'm sick of with her!

I just can't fucking deal with it any more!

Lily's P.O.V.

We sit down on our towels and Marcel licks Martin's face happily.

I can feel Harry's harsh gaze burn in to the side of my head. I ignore him for the most part. But Martin picks up on it easily.

He looks the between the two of us and then to Morgan who seems irritated suddenly for some reason.

"I'm going for a swim." Liam says, taking Lauren's hand and dragging her to her feet to pull her towards the water. Everyone else copies their actions. Leroy runs ahead but I keep Marcel on his leash in case he decides to attack Morgan again. Which would not be a bad thing..

Martin stays close to me, his hands in the pockets of his swim trunk as we stray behind the group and sit in the shallow water as our friends splash each other and yell.

I look up just in time to see Morgan try to swing her arms around Harry;s neck in the deep water. A lump forms in my throat and I quickly look down again.

I hear a deep sigh and feel Martin's hands place, reassuringly on my back.

"I'm sorry he's such an ass..." he chuckles small, and scoots closer to me. I nod and lay my head on his shoulder. Needing the comfort of another at the moment..

"Will you come with us to a party tonight? I don't want to be alone if he's bringing her.." I whisper.

"Of course." I hear the smile in his voice as he lays his head on my own. Squeezing me tighter.

I notice Harry's eyes flicker to us. A swirl of emotion in them.

But I don't return the pained expression.

It was not worth it.

if he didn't want me, he didn't want me. I can't do anything about it.

Harry's P.O.V.

Morgan gets increasingly irritated with me as I keep pushing her wandering hands away from me. I didn't want her to fucking touch me and she obviously didn't get the hint.

Liam head's to the water and the chick next to me takes my hand and yanks me up, pissing me off farther.

I throw a look over my shoulder and find my girl straying behind with the fucking loser, Martin.

Once in the water, I attempt to keep my distance between Morgan but she keeps swimming closer to me. And at one point swings her arms over my neck, making me grimace. I'm about to push her away until her nasally voice whispers to me.

"It's deep and i have a leg cramp."

"Then go to the shallow part." I groan.

I near a small snicker and look back to Zayn, Liam, and Niall.

They knew why Morgan was here to prove my point to Lily. And they could obviously tell I didn't want her here.

I shoot them daggers and my eyes trail back to where I last saw Lilian.

There She sits with her head on his shoulder, his arm around her.

The same rage and fucking irritation swell with in me.

I honestly didn't know what to do with her anymore.

It was constantly black and white and it was giving me whiplash.

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