Harry's P.O.V.

(Before she runs off in a stupid, teenage girl, drunk, emotional, rage, that Lily is known for.)

After Perri and Rae speed off, Louis cusses at the sky and punches the front hood of the car closest.

Serves him right. Dumb, fucker.

He digs for his keys, still not noticing me, before getting in his car and speeding off. I sigh and shake my head.

I fucking hate how upset she was. But god damn! I was sick of being her little toy!

Not to be a pussy, but still.

I loved her but she needed to get her shit together.

I didn't need an unfaithful or feeling confused girlfriend.

I get in my own car and just sit there for a while.

Should I go to her place and apolagize?

Did I mean what I said?

I don't know. I didn't want her out of my life.

But there was no way in hell I was going to share her with Louis again. I told her, me or him. And she kissed him, and then let me finger fuck her! I mean for Christ sakes, woman!!

I think if it was someone else I would have been done with her shit a long time ago.

But it wasn't someone else. It was my Lilian and I fucking loved her so much it hurt!

But I was beyond pissed at her. I was so fucking mad.

My phone ringing brings me back to earth.

"Hello?" My voice is tired. I need to go sleep this off and figure out what I need to do. I don't know what I want. It isn't fair to me for her to play with me.

"Harry? I don't know what the hell is going on, but you need to get over here." Perri's stong voice rings like bells in my ears.

"Whats going on?"

"Shes freaking out. I'm afraid she's going to run off again. Please come over and calm her down, shes locked her door, and I"

"I'm already on my way."

I click off and toss my phone aside and hit the pedal (heavy metal, sh sh show me you ca a aaaan) As I pulled on to her street I saw Perri running out of the building.

"Why the fuck are you out here?" Why isn't she up there doing what girls do and comforting each other or something.

"She ran off!"

For the love of god....

"Are you fucking shitting me, she could be half way across town by now with how fast she runs!"

Anger, irritation, and disappointment rage through me as I attack the hood of my car.

I sped that entire night driving across town, searching for the girl with pink hair.

The girl that was so fucking irrational, silly, big headed, immature, beautiful, selfless and just so lovely. So, so lovely.

The girl that was driving me insane.

And now as I drive around in my car at four thirty in the fucking morning, shes making me beyond crazy.

I call it quits at five and head home, attempting to stay awake. Unsuccessfully.

I'm awaken by my shrill phone.

Pressing accept right away.

"Hello?" I groan, sitting up, my hair stuck to my forehead, my keys still stabbing my leg from my pocket.

''Hello? Yeah it's me, shes home."

"Thank god, I looked all night. I'm coming over."

"No don't come over, shes hungover."

"Hungover? Where the hell did she go? Where did she sleep?"

"She just said she slept at a friends.."

"What!? What friend, why wouldn't she stay at him or call me?"

"Well you are the one who pissed her off. Don't worry though. Shes crazy about you.

"That's no excuse for sneaking off, getting drunk off her ass and not telling anyone whom she's with!" I slap my forehead and the stress alone of the thought makes my head hurt.

"It's not like she slept with anyone!"


"Whatever, that's not the point. She't not allowed to have and booze. If she leaves call me. I mean it."

"OK... OK... I don't know. Call her. I have to go.. Byyyye!"

"Bye.." I sigh, turning my phone off.

Women....

Lily's P.O.V.

A week passed since that night.

A full seven days with no contact from neither Harry nor Louis.

I felt a little empty. Like something was missing form me. Or someone.

I slip on some yoga pants and a hoodie as the dogs and I join the girls in the living room.

"Hey, agenda for today?" I ask, plopping down next to Rae.

"Hmm, not sure. Maybe the coast? Then a party? I don't want to stay in again." Rae yawns, looking to Pez and I for approval. I shrug. We haven't gone out in a week. I have been on alcohol ban since the ... night....

I told them what all happened, they were shocked in the least. But I asked them not to tell Harry how I was feeling about it.

Which was terribly disappointed.

I missed him and I feel so damn foolish for not realizing it sooner.

As for Louis.

I was not sure about my feelings for him. I mean, I loved him. No doubt about it.

But I was beginning to wonder if i was in love with him.

Like it mattered, he made it clear how he felt about me.

I grimace at the thought again.

"Yeah, we should get everyone together and go for a swim like old times!" Perri squeals.

"Um! No!?" I scoff, raising my hands in irritation. Their eyes flicker to mine. Marcel lays sprawled out across Rae and Leroy lays in the dining room, laying under a stream of sunshine shining through the window.

"Why?" Rae pouts, crossing her arms across her chest like a little kid.

"What do you mean, why? I don't want to see him!" I exclaim, sinking lower and lower in to the couch.

"Well what are you going to do? Hide from him for the rest of your life? I think you should have gone over there earlier and talked it out. He obviously overreacted about yours and Lou's kiss. Why didn't you just slap him and be like 'um helllooo, I love you!'" Rae snickers at Perri's impression of me. I roll my eyes.

"I don't know... He was expecting me to just jump back in to dating him again and I don't want that. I want him, I do. But I want to take it slow. And it's just... the way he said.... He was so brutal." I shiver as I remember the cruel look of pain and anger on his flawless face after that night when he left me on the table with my panties on my ankles and my dress around my hips.

"Well how would you of acted if Harry had kissed another girl right in your own damn building!?" She laughs, throwing a pillow at me.

"I would have acted mature about it." I grumble, catching the pillow before it smacked my face.

"Well harry isn't mature. And besides, I doubt he was really that mad. He did come looking for you, you know. Right before you ran off. When I told him you were crying he was really shooken up."

"I don't care. he acted like a baby." I groan.

"And you didn't?! You ran off and got shit faced, made out with a stranger, and then passed out at a dudes house and slept in his bed!"

"RAE!" I yell, covering my blushing face.

"IT'S TRUE YOU HOE!" She giggle. I roll my eyes.

"THEN IT's DECIDED! THE BEACH WITH THE BOYS!" Perri cheers, taking out her phone, sending a mass text before taking out hands and dragging us to her room to decide which bikinis we should wear.


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"OK, we ready? The boys all just left, they were playing poker at Liam and Lauren's."

"Yup." I grab a few water bottles out of the fridge as Rae puts the dogs on their leashes and runs off down to the elevator. Perri locks the door behind us and we all hea ddown to her car.

I have a strange feeling in my stomach.

Who knows what will happen.

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