I have waited almost a year to hear him say those words to me again. I've dreamed about this moment, but I just stood there in silence. All words escaped my brain, I didn't know how to react. He finally admitted that he loved me, but I couldn't do anything about it. I was frozen.

Louis cupped my face with his hand, still trying to keep his balance. He wiped a tear away with his thumb. I don't remember when I started crying, but it happened. I looked deep into his eyes. They were sincere. They were the eyes of the man that I fell in love with so many years ago.

I put my hand over his and spoke softly. “If you love me, why did you do this to me? Why did you say all of those things...why did you act like we were nothing?”

Louis eyes dropped to the floor and then looked back at me, staring deep down into my soul. “I wanted you to hate me.” he admitted. “I thought that if I made you hate me, and we weren't together anymore, you and Cam would be safe.”

I didn't understand what he was talking about. “Safe? Safe from what Louis?”

Louis sighed, swaying a bit. “I'm sorry, I can't stand anymore..” he let go of my face and sat down on the toilet again. “I know this sounds crazy, and you probably won't believe me but I just wanted you and Cam to be safe from the media and the fans. They were getting so out of hand. Niall being pulled down in airports for a picture. What if you and Cam were with us and it was you, or him? What if someone went after you because you were with me. I thought that if I could make you hate me, and look like the bad guy, they would leave you alone and you'd be safe.”

He looked down at the floor, rubbing his thumb over the back of my hand. “I am so sorry that I hurt you Melody. I thought I was doing what was right and that's no excuse for the way I treated you. But just know that I've never stopped loving you and I never will. I'm not asking you to forgive me, because I don't deserve that I just want you to know that what I did, was for you...it was what I thought was right and I know now that I was wrong. I am so sorry.”

Tears were rushing down my face. I always thought I had done something to make him treat me the way he did, that he just didn't want me anymore, that he never wanted me. But now I see that he was just doing all of this to keep us safe. He was right, the media and fans had gotten a bit out of hand for awhile there. Once we broke up, the hate messages stopped, I had a lot more privacy. I still got followed from time to time, and people would ask me questions about Louis but it was no where near as crazy as it was when we were together. I guess I never realized it had all stopped until now.

I knelt down so I was face to face with him. “That night..” I sniffled, “When you came over and kissed me and told me I was nothing....why?”

Louis sighed and wiped a few more tears from my face. “I was drunk, and I missed you. I had every intention of telling you that I loved you after I kissed you, but then I started to think that you wouldn't be safe again and I just played it off...that was never part of the plan. You were never supposed to get hurt that night. I'm sorry...”

I nodded a bit and sat down on the floor, resting my head on his knee. Letting all of this sink in as he played with my hair a bit. I didn't know what to do, or what to say. Everything was spinning. After all this time, I could possibly have him back. But what would happen if I had him back? The media would spin things, I would be considered stupid to go back to someone who cheated on me, I would get more hate messages from fans...but Cam would get his family back. I would get the man that I loved back.
I stood up again, wiping my face. “You should get in the shower, I'll make you something to eat and then we can talk some more...”

Louis nodded. “Can you help me up again, please?”

I extended my hand to help him up. I helped him over to the shower and made sure the water was still hot. “I'll be in the kitchen if you need me.”

I went to the kitchen and started to make him some soup, still trying to wrap my head around all of this new information. I started to think of how it was when we all lived together. Louis taking Cam out in the yard and teaching him how to play football. The laughing and sometimes the crying. Cuddling into bed at night with Louis, and then getting a visitor when he had a bad dream. It was the little things that mattered. It was the little things that I had missed. I missed waking up to his face every morning when he was home. I missed the text messages and voicemails I would get when he wasn't. I missed it all.

Louis POV:

This was it, I had told Melody everything. I had finally come clean. Maybe I could get my family back now. I hope I can get my family back. I miss them so much. I need them. I was stupid to ever think that I could go without them.

I turned the water off and wrapped a towel around my waist, making my way back to my bedroom. I slipped on a clean pair of boxers and some sweats before making my way out to the kitchen where Melody was making food.

I walked up behind her, hoping I didn't over step my boundaries and pulled her into me. “Thank you for helping me.” I rested my chin on her shoulder.

She turned around into my embrace and looked up at me. Her eyes were red and puffy from crying so much earlier, but she was still the most beautiful girl I have ever seen. “Thank Niall...he's the one who begged me to come over here. Said the neighbors were complaining about the smell...” She smiled up at me as I laughed.

“I'll be sure to thank him, then.” I smiled, moving some of her hair from her face. Things were almost back to normal. I had a beautiful girl in my arms, she didn't hate me, and she was laughing again, cracking jokes just like she used too. I just needed to know if it was ever going to be like it was.

I touched my forehead to hers. “Melody?” I asked quietly.

“Yes, Louis?” she spoke softly, closing her eyes.

“Do you think we could ever be the way we were?” I ran my hands down her sides, hoping she would say yes.

She opened her eyes, staring into mine, and then she spoke. “Kiss me.”

Notes

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