The Fire in His Eyes
Yeah...Protective
QUESTION OF THE DAY IS DOWN BELOW****
Question from last chapter:"what are you doing for new years?"
Winner: "omg my New years is going to suck this year. Because normally I would go out to the desert and light of fireworks and have marshmallow fight and watch my relatives get Pissed( drunk) and have a good time. But NO, I have to stay home and write my "New years resolution" like every time I write one I break it the next day. Like I always write not to fight with my brother but NOO him and I usually go like 3 days before he is pushing me and I'm slapping.. Omg that turned into a rant.."
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Liam's Pov~~
"Why!!" I yelled, breaking the still silence that had formed around me. I grabbed my hair into my fists and paced around my room. I'm trying to calm myself down but it isn't working. My breath is getting heavier and more frantic by the second.
"Why?!" I yelled once again punching a large whole in the wall above my head board. My hands flew back to my hair and started tugging once again. I can feel the blood in my veinsstart to get hot with every unsteady breath I take. I don't understand anymore. Why does this happen to me. Niall is supposed to be here with me, he should be here right now, then I wouldn't be like this. Why do I keep having these dreams like he is here when he's not . The dreams and the night mares always bring the evil out in me. I just want to hear Niall's laugh again.
"Niall Why?!" I screamed at the top of my lungs, praying that he could hear me from his high perch in heaven. My foot kicked a chunk out of the wall by my bathroom and I threw some books across the room. I can't help my actions any more. I tried to stay calm but I just can't do it anymore; It's just so hard. The more I think about Niall, the angrier I get.
"You're supposed to be here!" I yelled as I threw my book case to the floor and running into the hallway. My parents should be here to help me with this, to help me get over my brother, get over their son. They should have been there for Niall in the hospital when I was in the coma.
"Why weren't you there?" I screamed looking at an old wedding photo of my so calledparents. I grabbed in and threw it to the ground. The glass shattered and created cracks across their smiling faces. They didn't deserve to smile, not while I was suffering.
"Fuck you!" I yelled toward the broken photo lying on the floor. I spat on them and laughed darkly. They didn't deserve my attention.
"Niall! I miss you!" I said a little quieter as I kicked the railings off of the staircase. This is my entire fault. Niall would be alive if it weren't for me.
"I'm sorry" I said as the sadness finally hit me. Tears started to run down my face. The room started to get blurry as I started rambling random words that I didn't even know, and some in languages that I don't remember learning.
"It was all my fault." I said as I punched the wall.
"I'm sorry!" I yelled as I pushed the T.V. off of its stand.
"Dejar! (Stop)” I yelled incoherently, pushing over the refrigerator.
"Je suis désolé! (sorry)" I pulled the door off of the microwave in a fury and threw it against the oven. I can smell the gas filling the air.
"Es war alles meine Schuld! (It was all my fault)" The tears clouded my vision. I fell on the ground to my knees in the middle of the room.
"AAHHHH!!!!" I screamed at the top of my lungs seeing flames on the stove from he corner of my eye.
"AAAHHHHH!!!" I screamed again pulling on my hair. The flames got larger.
"STOOPP!!" I yelled squeezing my eyes shut. Before I knew it I was surrounded by fire
"AAAHHHH!!!!!"I screamed once more before everything when black again...
"AHH!" I yelled jerking up in Al's spare bed. Oh God, I can't believe that's what happened. I feel crazy. Am I crazy? Sweat is dripping down the bridge of my nose.
"Al!" I yelled. Seconds later she appeared in the doorway.
"Hey Li, wha...Liam oh my gosh what happened?" She said running up to me.
"I'm crazy Al, I know what happened. I caused the fire, I'm crazy, I am a terrible person, I'm crazy. I am a menace and a danger to everyone. what is wrong with me? Al why am I like this? Why do I ruin everything that I love? Why can't I control myself? Why does everything go black? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why?" I kept on rambling over and over again shaking and rocking back in forth in Alycia's arms. Fresh tears fell from my eyes.
"Oh Li, Stop?don't say that you are not a menace or any of those things. You are an amazing person and you have a loving heart it's just your mind can get a little...um...wonky when you get angry. I think ever since Niall um...left us, you can get a little angry and distant when someone tries to hurt the people you love and I understand it, it's ok. You are not crazy you're just... protective? yeah you're protective. Don't beat yourself about this ok? things will be better one day and trust that I will be here by your side until that day comes ok." I just nodded and sunk deeper into her embrace.
"Promise you'll always be here?"
"I promise Li... I promise... And hey, everyone has a little crazy in them yours is just a different kind." She said softly into my ear and rubbed soothing circles on my shoulder.
"Now go back to sleep Li, I'll be here when you wake up."
"Promise?"
"Promise..." I soon fell into a peaceful sleep. Thank God for Al, she's the best friend a guy could possibly have.
Question from last chapter:"what are you doing for new years?"
Winner: "omg my New years is going to suck this year. Because normally I would go out to the desert and light of fireworks and have marshmallow fight and watch my relatives get Pissed( drunk) and have a good time. But NO, I have to stay home and write my "New years resolution" like every time I write one I break it the next day. Like I always write not to fight with my brother but NOO him and I usually go like 3 days before he is pushing me and I'm slapping.. Omg that turned into a rant.."
imustbeallieThis just made me laugh out louad. Go check this girl out!! She is great!
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Liam's Pov~~
"Why!!" I yelled, breaking the still silence that had formed around me. I grabbed my hair into my fists and paced around my room. I'm trying to calm myself down but it isn't working. My breath is getting heavier and more frantic by the second.
"Why?!" I yelled once again punching a large whole in the wall above my head board. My hands flew back to my hair and started tugging once again. I can feel the blood in my veinsstart to get hot with every unsteady breath I take. I don't understand anymore. Why does this happen to me. Niall is supposed to be here with me, he should be here right now, then I wouldn't be like this. Why do I keep having these dreams like he is here when he's not . The dreams and the night mares always bring the evil out in me. I just want to hear Niall's laugh again.
"Niall Why?!" I screamed at the top of my lungs, praying that he could hear me from his high perch in heaven. My foot kicked a chunk out of the wall by my bathroom and I threw some books across the room. I can't help my actions any more. I tried to stay calm but I just can't do it anymore; It's just so hard. The more I think about Niall, the angrier I get.
"You're supposed to be here!" I yelled as I threw my book case to the floor and running into the hallway. My parents should be here to help me with this, to help me get over my brother, get over their son. They should have been there for Niall in the hospital when I was in the coma.
"Why weren't you there?" I screamed looking at an old wedding photo of my so calledparents. I grabbed in and threw it to the ground. The glass shattered and created cracks across their smiling faces. They didn't deserve to smile, not while I was suffering.
"Fuck you!" I yelled toward the broken photo lying on the floor. I spat on them and laughed darkly. They didn't deserve my attention.
"Niall! I miss you!" I said a little quieter as I kicked the railings off of the staircase. This is my entire fault. Niall would be alive if it weren't for me.
"I'm sorry" I said as the sadness finally hit me. Tears started to run down my face. The room started to get blurry as I started rambling random words that I didn't even know, and some in languages that I don't remember learning.
"It was all my fault." I said as I punched the wall.
"I'm sorry!" I yelled as I pushed the T.V. off of its stand.
"Dejar! (Stop)” I yelled incoherently, pushing over the refrigerator.
"Je suis désolé! (sorry)" I pulled the door off of the microwave in a fury and threw it against the oven. I can smell the gas filling the air.
"Es war alles meine Schuld! (It was all my fault)" The tears clouded my vision. I fell on the ground to my knees in the middle of the room.
"AAHHHH!!!!" I screamed at the top of my lungs seeing flames on the stove from he corner of my eye.
"AAAHHHHH!!!" I screamed again pulling on my hair. The flames got larger.
"STOOPP!!" I yelled squeezing my eyes shut. Before I knew it I was surrounded by fire
"AAAHHHH!!!!!"I screamed once more before everything when black again...
"AHH!" I yelled jerking up in Al's spare bed. Oh God, I can't believe that's what happened. I feel crazy. Am I crazy? Sweat is dripping down the bridge of my nose.
"Al!" I yelled. Seconds later she appeared in the doorway.
"Hey Li, wha...Liam oh my gosh what happened?" She said running up to me.
"I'm crazy Al, I know what happened. I caused the fire, I'm crazy, I am a terrible person, I'm crazy. I am a menace and a danger to everyone. what is wrong with me? Al why am I like this? Why do I ruin everything that I love? Why can't I control myself? Why does everything go black? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why? Why?" I kept on rambling over and over again shaking and rocking back in forth in Alycia's arms. Fresh tears fell from my eyes.
"Oh Li, Stop?don't say that you are not a menace or any of those things. You are an amazing person and you have a loving heart it's just your mind can get a little...um...wonky when you get angry. I think ever since Niall um...left us, you can get a little angry and distant when someone tries to hurt the people you love and I understand it, it's ok. You are not crazy you're just... protective? yeah you're protective. Don't beat yourself about this ok? things will be better one day and trust that I will be here by your side until that day comes ok." I just nodded and sunk deeper into her embrace.
"Promise you'll always be here?"
"I promise Li... I promise... And hey, everyone has a little crazy in them yours is just a different kind." She said softly into my ear and rubbed soothing circles on my shoulder.
"Now go back to sleep Li, I'll be here when you wake up."
"Promise?"
"Promise..." I soon fell into a peaceful sleep. Thank God for Al, she's the best friend a guy could possibly have.
Notes
Hey guys... So a few of you were confused about what happened during the fire and how it started...so here ya go!! I really hope this chapter clears up any loose end you have and I also hope you enjoyed it. Don't worry Liam's mystery girl from the car will re appear in the next chapter.
Bye the way I shall now be calling you all my Little fireflies thanks to Alycia!!!
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~~Lauryn~~
I love to listen to right now by one direction because I...like the beat and the words... and also cuz it's by the greatest band on the planet...I guess..I just love listening to it or alive by them.. I love how upbeat and fun that song is. I believe that you really do only live going once so you should go and have some fun.:)
6/26/14