~Aubrey’s View~

It has been almost 3 months that Peyton has been receiving treatment. She lost her hair, but Harry, Niall and I have been with her every step of the way. Yale told her that if she gets better in a year or two she could keep her scholarship. Zayn, Liam, and Lou have been back and forth, management is letting the boy’s record here so Niall can be with me and so Harry can be with Peyton. I had my annual doctor’s checkup this afternoon.

“Would you like to find out the sex of the baby?” My doctor asked me, I was getting an ultrasound done. Niall was recording so I was forced to take KJ with me. He wouldn’t keep still and was super fidgety.

“Yes, Yes Yes! KJ screamed. He was 9 months old now and was getting so big. He knew basic words, I think he might have understood that I was having a baby, but I doubt it. He was just starting to walk but he was still wobbly on his feet.

“Once again you are having a little boy!” The doctor told me with a smile.

I was over joyed. I did want a little girl, but one day I will. KJ started to fall asleep in his stroller; the first person I called was Peyton. She was holding up with the chemo but her eyes always looked tired. I hated bragging the fact that I was pregnant again but Peyton isn’t the jealous type; I know she will be happy for me.

I walked out of the doctor’s office, pushing KJ, as I got to my car I saw someone standing near it; I didn’t think much of it so I just kept walking. As I got closer and realized who it was I froze and thought how this couldn’t happen again.

~Peyton’s View~

“You’re going to have another nephew!” I heard Aubrey scream into the phone. I was so happy for her. I couldn’t help but feel a little sad, I mean don’t get me wrong she’s my best friend but I want a happy ending. I want my wedding and to live with Harry and have children with him. Am I even going to be able to have kids? Or live that long? All of these thoughts were going through my head as she was rejoicing about the baby.

I hung up the phone and just put my head back and was lying in this uncomfortable hospital bed. Why me? Why do I have to have Leukemia? My life was going perfectly, then again nothing is perfect. Did I really try to overdose and kill myself? I don’t even know who I am anymore. I am just so scared, seeing Harry cry every time he walks in the room kills me even more. I don’t want to hurt him anymore…what do I do? I need some sort of miracle. Please someone help me.

I put my headphones in and started to listen to some old music, a song by Hilary Duff came on Someone's Watching Over Me.
I closed my eyes and tried to fall asleep and forget all the terrible stuff that was happening to me.

"So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

Seen that ray of light
And it's shining on my destiny
Shining all the time
And I wont be afraid
To follow everywhere it's taking me
All I know is yesterday is gone
And right now I belong
To this moment to my dreams

So I won't give up
No I won't break down
Sooner than it seems life turns around
And I will be strong
Even if it all goes wrong
When I'm standing in the dark I'll still believe
Someone's watching over me

It doesn't matter what people say
And it doesn't matter how long it takes
Believe in yourself and you'll fly high
And it only matters how true you are
Be true to yourself and follow your heart"