I woke up around noon to no one in my room. Well that’s surprising. I got up and walked to the bathroom when I saw a wash cloth covered in blood. Then I recalled last night.

***Flashback***

I can’t believe what just happened and what Liam said he would do for me. I still don’t feel better. I need to cut. I slowly walked upstairs to my bathroom and grabbed my razor blade from under the sink. I looked at my wrist and started cutting.

One for being aliveslice

For dating Brayden slice slice slice slice

This continued until Liam opened the door. He looked down at me and started to cry. Oh no.

***Flashback Over***

Then I looked at my wrist. It was bandaged up. I slowly peeled away the bandages afraid to see the damage. When I finished taking of the bandage I saw my wrist. It was scratched horribly and covered in dry blood. Finally I looked in the mirror. I was a mess. I had bags and dark circles under my eyes to begin with. Tears had dried to my face and I just looked sick.

I heard a noise at the door and saw Liam. He looked worse than me. I can’t believe I did this to him.

“Hey baby, did you sleep good.” He asked me while I was looking down at my wrist.

“I guess so.” I replied simple as could be.

Next thing I know Liam grabbed my wrist and started to kiss it gently.

“For being beautiful.” Kiss.

“For being brave.” Kiss

“For being such a kind person” Kiss

“For being you” Kiss

“For being mine.” Kiss

This went on for a while. I was smiling the whole time. This man is mine. I love him so much.

“Come on Kourtney. You have some people you need to explain too” Liam said kissing my wrist one last time.

I walked downstairs holding Li’s hand. Everyone was there, Louis, Zayn, Niall, Natalie, Owen, Onna, Dalton, Paige Jesus, Eleanor, Perrie, even Anne and Gemma, and lastly Harry. I could tell Harry had a rough night knowing he protects me like a sister. He had bags under his eyes and his hair was a curly mess.

“Kourtney, why did you do that?” Niall asked.

“Yeah, you have some explaining to do.” Natalie chimed in.

“Okay. Here is goes. When I was in the eighth grade about half way through the school year my mother, father, sister, and my twin brother Kendall moved to the United States forcing me to stay here in the UK. My brother begged to stay with me, but my parents refused. They always hated me. Kendall and I weren’t supposed to be twins. It was just him at first but half way through my mom’s pregnancy they discovered me. I was a lot smaller than I was supposed to be. My mom tried to do everything to get rid of me, even abortion. I almost wasn’t going to be alive, even born at the least, but the doctor convinced her to. I told my favorite teacher this story and she decided to take me to live with her. My teacher and I became very close. After about a year and a half my teacher decided to move to the United States as well to expand her teaching career. She offered to take me with her, but I refused to go along. I stayed in this house all by myself, my teacher pays the bills. Harry being my lifelong friend I decided to go to Anne’s house one day she decided to adopt me. She is my legal guardian now. About six months later in school I met a boy named Brayden. He was the sweetest guy in the entire world. We began to go out. He took me on date, to the movies, football games, and even shopping. On our seven month anniversary of dating Brayden wanted to have sex with be during our study hall period in hid car. I refused not just because I didn’t want to skip school I also was scared to. He took me into the hall to we could work on “math homework’ when he drug me out to his car. He put me in the car and locked my car door so they could open from his side. He pulled me into the back and tied a bandana around my mouth. Then he began to strip me. I was down to my underwear and bra when three girls opened the door and pulled me out. Brayden was trying to drive away, but two of the girls grabbed him by the shirt and drug him to the office. Later on I learned those girls were Natalie, Paige, and Onna. They became my best friends. I tried cutting, but they always stopped me before I could, even though I succeeded a couple of times. I went to the hospital once. That is basically the story of my life, also why I was cutting last night.” I said tearing up.

I looked around the room and everyone had tears in their eyes except Liam and Harry. Liam was holding my hand whispering things to his self like it should have been me and now I understand everything. Harry though, I just wanted to loose it right there. He was leaning against Louis with his legs pulled up to his chest, his head in his hands, crying hysterically. I dropped Liam’s hand and walked over to Harry hugging him


“Harry calm down, it’s okay, I’m fine. You needed to know my story. I’m fine now Hazzy, stop crying. Just remember the happy times Hazz. We have so many.” I said to Harry tying to smile.

I got Harry to stop crying. We sat and hugged for a while. I was whispering things in his ear trying to get him to cheer up. Anne walked up to us to join the hug, following Gemma, then Liam, then Natalie, soon followed by every one else in the room until we had a humungous group hug going on.

“That’s the story of my life, filled with all of you amazing people.” I said.

Then Zayn began to sing, soon followed by everyone else.

****LISTEN TO SEE BENEATH YOUR BEAUTIFIL BY LABRINTH TO FOLLOW ALONG BETTER****

You tell all the boys "No"
Makes you feel good, yeah.
I know you're out of my league
But that won't scare me away, oh, no

You've carried on so long,
You couldn't stop if you tried it.
You've built your wall so high
That no one could climb it,
But I'm gonna try.

Would you let me see beneath your beautiful?
Would you let me see beneath your perfect?
Take it off now, girl, take it off now, girl
I wanna see inside
Would you let me see beneath your beautiful tonight?

You let all the girls go
Makes you feel good, don't it?
Behind your broadway show
I heard a boy say, "Please, don't hurt me"

You've carried on so long
You couldn't stop if you tried it.
You've built your wall so high
That no one could climb it.
But I'm gonna try

Would you let me see beneath your beautiful?
Would you let me see beneath your perfect?
Take it off now, boy, take it off now, boy
I wanna see inside
Would you let me see beneath your beautiful tonight, oh, tonight?

See beneath, see beneath,
I...
Tonight
I...

I'm gonna climb on top your ivory tower
I'll hold your hand and then we'll jump right out
We'll be falling, falling but that's OK
'Cause I'll be right here
I just wanna know

Would you let me see beneath your beautiful?
Would you let me see beneath your perfect?
Take it off now, girl, take it off now, girl (take it off now, boy,take it off now, boy)
'Cause I wanna see inside
Would you let me see beneath your beautiful tonight, oh, oh, oh, tonight?
See beneath your beautiful, oh, tonight.
We ain't perfect, we ain't perfect, no.
Would you let me see beneath your beautiful tonight?

Notes

Thanks again everyone for reading!!! I don’t really have anything to say but, read my friend’s stories Samantha and Love is Difficult.
Also I’m curios are there any guy directioners reading this story? If so comment!

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