Dirty Little Secret

Walking into the club I feel pretty confident. I have an idea of how tonight will go. I'll talk to Ashton for a bit and then I'll admit to him that I don't want to hook up anymore. Ashton will be fine, and we will be good as just friends. Then Harry and I will find ourselves dancing together a bit after. Niall won't think anything of it. Then he will ask me if I want to get some air, and we will make our way to the streets. Harry will pin me up against the wall and will start making out. We will both admit how it's wrong but we will also admit how we can resist eachother. There. My image of tonight.

"Kate Kate!!!" I look and Ashton comes tumbling towards me. Great. He's already wasted. "Hey babe I've missed you." He whispers into my ear as he grabs me. He's being overly touchy. I bring him over to zayn and Perrie, maybe he will act a little more his age around them. With Ashton's hand on my back, I can feel it slowly creeping towards my butt. Ew... This is starting to get slightly uncomfortable. I unattached myself from Ashton. "I'm going to go find Niall," I say as push Ashton hands away from mine.

God what the fuck. Everything Ashton is doing is making me dislike him more and more. my eyes search the club for Niall. There, He's standing with Liam and Harry. I make my way over to them. "I want to leave Niall." Niall looks at me confused, "Is it Ashton? Did he do something? Do you need me?" God why does he always jump to protect me. "No I just don't want to be here, can you just give me some money for a cab?" "Yea sure... I feel like I should come with you- " "Ill ride with her, I don't feel great myself, I think I had too much scotch," Harry says stepping in. Well this night just took a turn for the better. Niall insists that Harry doesn't have too but harry explains it isn't a big deal. Niall decides just too come with us.

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harry escorts me into the cab, and sits in the back with me. He's so polite. Niall sits in the front. We sit back and the driver starts driving away from the club. "Are you okay? Do you want to talk about it?" as Harry says this he puts his hand on my thigh consoling me. "Yea I'm fine." I lie. Harry doesn't take his hand off of my leg. We sit there in silence. But not an awkward silence, a peaceful silence. Harry quickly pulls his hand away
from me when Niall turns around. "Do ya want to sleep at our house harry?" He asks. "Sure why not." Harry says.

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Niall tells Harry he can sleep in the guest room. The guest room is across the hall from my room. I go to my room, change, and jump into bed without taking off my makeup. I roll over and my mine races. Should I have said something to Ashton? Does Ashton realize how annoying he was being? *bing* I look at my phone. It's a text from Ashton. Great now he's going to be drunk texting me all night.
Ashton: "Kate I'm sorry!!! I didn't meaans to do iit"
me: "what are you talking about?"
ashton: "I'm sorry for hooking up with Adele, I'm sorry!"
What. I reread Ashton's text over and over. I'm sorry for hooking up with Adele. I'm sorry. Hooking up. With Adele. Adele. Adele... His fucking ex. Adele, the girl he said he would never go back to. I don't understand.
wow. Okay. Best not to reply. Why the fuck would he do this? And why is this hurting me so much? To think that I wasn't interested in him earlier today, but I decided he deserved a chance. I should have just gone with my instinct earlier. I'm the one who is supposed to hurt him, not the other way around. It's not like he's lying or anything either. A drunk man's words are a sober man's thoughts. I don't know why this hurts so much. The tears start to come down. I put my face in my pillow and let all my emotions come out.

There's a knock at my door and I look to see harry standing in my doorway. "Harry what are you doing-

Notes

sorry again, my computer messed me up