The new start
Chapter twenty-four, "That damn vibrating phone"
"Where the hell have you been?" Mum shouted, it isn´t that often you hear mum swear so when she does it, she is mad, really mad.
"Me and Louis..." I got interrupted in the middle of my sentence.
"I don´t want to hear it. You betrayed us and I don´t know if we´ll ever trust you again." When she said that I got mad as well and when I say mad I mean really, really mad.
"Oh, your trust? Mum you have no idea what trust is because you have never trusted me or anyone else for that matter. You have barely spoken to me in my whole life. You don´t love me or anything like that so you can´t just come here and yell at me like you are the best mother and like you care about me, it just doesn´t work that way, do you understand?" I had never said those words out loud before but it felt so good. It feels like I am finally free, like I can do anything. All my life my biggest fear was to disapoint mum, I wanted her attention, her love. That´s why I went to all those parties and that´s why I got drunk. I don´t care that mum got hurt now because if you count all the times I have gotten hurt and this one time it was just absurd. So without even take one more look at mum I ran to my door and slammed it in there faces. When I got inside my room I sank down at the floor. Now I realized for real what I had done. Maybe revenge isn´t the way, it just feels good when you do it and then afterwards you feel empty, or that isn´t true, I feel tired. Then I realized that I hadn´t put my bed up, when I was just about to start putting it up somehow I fell asleep on the floor.
***
"bzz, bzz, bzz" What was that damn noice? I lifted my head and saw that my phone was vibrating. Who is it now?
"Hello" I gasped with sleepy voice.
"Hi, is it Amy? Look..." As soon as I heard Louis voice I hung up. I don´t have the power to talk to him right now, I just want to go to sleep again. Then my eyes got stuck at the clock, 4 AM!? No that is not possible, I could not have slept in almost 24 hours. This is not normal. I must have lied in coma or something. I got a scary thought in my mind, what if it isn´t sunday today? What if I had slept in like a month or something?
"Amy calm down." I whispered to myself but I don´t know if I dared to go out into the kitchen and see if it really is sunday today and if it really was yesterday morning the fight had happend. I don´t know if I ever dared to face mum and dad again. Okay, suck it up Amy, it´s four o´clock, they won´t be up. That voice again. Maybe I should start calling it "the voice that´s always right." I walked out from my door to check the calender mum had put on the table. It was a big relief when I realized the voice was right, again, mum and dad were still sleeping and it was a even bigger relief when I saw that it is sunday today and I had been sleeping for 24 hours not layed in coma for a month.
While I was sitting there and eating some breakfast the thought that school actually started in two days hit me. I needed to face both Louis and Harry, all the angels for that matter. I am not ready for that, seriously. At least not now, what I need is to lay low this two days. Maybe I´ll be ready if I do that. Just like decorate my room maybe talk to Summer or Chloe a little. When I was done eating I started to unpack my things, I realized mum or dad or someone else had put in all the furniture that I had ordered and it was just to start decorating. But I didn´t get far until the phone started vibrating again, and again, and again. That motherfucker wouldn´t give in, my only choice was to pick up the phone and tell him to go to hell.
"Louis stop calling me or I will..." I started.
"It´s not Louis, it´s me Harry." That Harry called me took me by surprise and I was speechless for a minute or two but then I realized that Louis probably told him to call me.
"Look Harry, even if Louis or your boyfriend or what the hell I should call him told you to call me, I want you to just hang up because this will never work." I said and realized I had been a little too harsh to him. It wasn´t his fault I had fallen in love with him. I didn´t have to take it out on him or on mum for that matter. She does her best. I need to fix that later when she gets up.
"First of all Louis didn´t tell me to call you, I just did because I think he´s about to break into your apartment right now and second of all when you have listen to what he has to say. Give me a call, okay? Bye babe." What the hell did he mean with that? When I was just about to call him back I heard loud knocks on my window. Outside my window, Louis was standing, so wet you could almost think he had taken a bath and even if I want to let him stand there by himself in the rain, I just don´t have the guts to do it.
"What the hell are you doing here?" I asked but I almost laughed because he looked so stupid. I am so bad at being serious in moments like this.
"Look if you would just let me inside I´ll explain." He said and I have to say his puppy eyes are ninety times as good as mine.
"Explain what? That you are gay and Harry is your boyfriend? No thanks, I don´t want any deets." I shouted but I opened the window anyway and helped him inside.
"Sit down, I´ll go and make us some tea and get you a towel." A few minutes later I was back with my favourite towel I had found in mums bag, surprisingly and two cups filled with green tea.
"If you have an explanation, shoot." I said and looked straight into his eyes. His blue dimonds.
"I know this is going to sound like a lie but it´s true. I was just druck, we are not gay okay? You have to believe me."
"But why the hell did you say that, it´s just not something you just come up with it has to be a background or something?" I asked and he was right I did not believe him.
"Like I said I was drunk, I do all crazy things when I´m druck, this was not the weirdest. Once I jumped into my owen and shouted that the boys would put it on so I could become a fried chicken and that´s not even the worst thing." I couldn´t help but smile. This boy was beyond crazy.
"So you are not lying just because you´re scared or something? Because you know it won´t work if you do." I said still looking straight into his blue dimonds.
"I promise you I do not lie, I don´t do lies you know." I have heard that many times lately and I really hoped both him and Summer were telling the truth.
"Then I believe you. There is just one more thing you´ll have to do to make it all go away." I giggled, now I am actually happy.
"And what´s that?" He laughed.
"Help me decorate my room of course." He brust out in laugh.
"Anyting for you, my lady." Then he lifted his fake hat as if he had one and bowed like I was a princess. Now I burst out laughing too.
"Me and Louis..." I got interrupted in the middle of my sentence.
"I don´t want to hear it. You betrayed us and I don´t know if we´ll ever trust you again." When she said that I got mad as well and when I say mad I mean really, really mad.
"Oh, your trust? Mum you have no idea what trust is because you have never trusted me or anyone else for that matter. You have barely spoken to me in my whole life. You don´t love me or anything like that so you can´t just come here and yell at me like you are the best mother and like you care about me, it just doesn´t work that way, do you understand?" I had never said those words out loud before but it felt so good. It feels like I am finally free, like I can do anything. All my life my biggest fear was to disapoint mum, I wanted her attention, her love. That´s why I went to all those parties and that´s why I got drunk. I don´t care that mum got hurt now because if you count all the times I have gotten hurt and this one time it was just absurd. So without even take one more look at mum I ran to my door and slammed it in there faces. When I got inside my room I sank down at the floor. Now I realized for real what I had done. Maybe revenge isn´t the way, it just feels good when you do it and then afterwards you feel empty, or that isn´t true, I feel tired. Then I realized that I hadn´t put my bed up, when I was just about to start putting it up somehow I fell asleep on the floor.
***
"bzz, bzz, bzz" What was that damn noice? I lifted my head and saw that my phone was vibrating. Who is it now?
"Hello" I gasped with sleepy voice.
"Hi, is it Amy? Look..." As soon as I heard Louis voice I hung up. I don´t have the power to talk to him right now, I just want to go to sleep again. Then my eyes got stuck at the clock, 4 AM!? No that is not possible, I could not have slept in almost 24 hours. This is not normal. I must have lied in coma or something. I got a scary thought in my mind, what if it isn´t sunday today? What if I had slept in like a month or something?
"Amy calm down." I whispered to myself but I don´t know if I dared to go out into the kitchen and see if it really is sunday today and if it really was yesterday morning the fight had happend. I don´t know if I ever dared to face mum and dad again. Okay, suck it up Amy, it´s four o´clock, they won´t be up. That voice again. Maybe I should start calling it "the voice that´s always right." I walked out from my door to check the calender mum had put on the table. It was a big relief when I realized the voice was right, again, mum and dad were still sleeping and it was a even bigger relief when I saw that it is sunday today and I had been sleeping for 24 hours not layed in coma for a month.
While I was sitting there and eating some breakfast the thought that school actually started in two days hit me. I needed to face both Louis and Harry, all the angels for that matter. I am not ready for that, seriously. At least not now, what I need is to lay low this two days. Maybe I´ll be ready if I do that. Just like decorate my room maybe talk to Summer or Chloe a little. When I was done eating I started to unpack my things, I realized mum or dad or someone else had put in all the furniture that I had ordered and it was just to start decorating. But I didn´t get far until the phone started vibrating again, and again, and again. That motherfucker wouldn´t give in, my only choice was to pick up the phone and tell him to go to hell.
"Louis stop calling me or I will..." I started.
"It´s not Louis, it´s me Harry." That Harry called me took me by surprise and I was speechless for a minute or two but then I realized that Louis probably told him to call me.
"Look Harry, even if Louis or your boyfriend or what the hell I should call him told you to call me, I want you to just hang up because this will never work." I said and realized I had been a little too harsh to him. It wasn´t his fault I had fallen in love with him. I didn´t have to take it out on him or on mum for that matter. She does her best. I need to fix that later when she gets up.
"First of all Louis didn´t tell me to call you, I just did because I think he´s about to break into your apartment right now and second of all when you have listen to what he has to say. Give me a call, okay? Bye babe." What the hell did he mean with that? When I was just about to call him back I heard loud knocks on my window. Outside my window, Louis was standing, so wet you could almost think he had taken a bath and even if I want to let him stand there by himself in the rain, I just don´t have the guts to do it.
"What the hell are you doing here?" I asked but I almost laughed because he looked so stupid. I am so bad at being serious in moments like this.
"Look if you would just let me inside I´ll explain." He said and I have to say his puppy eyes are ninety times as good as mine.
"Explain what? That you are gay and Harry is your boyfriend? No thanks, I don´t want any deets." I shouted but I opened the window anyway and helped him inside.
"Sit down, I´ll go and make us some tea and get you a towel." A few minutes later I was back with my favourite towel I had found in mums bag, surprisingly and two cups filled with green tea.
"If you have an explanation, shoot." I said and looked straight into his eyes. His blue dimonds.
"I know this is going to sound like a lie but it´s true. I was just druck, we are not gay okay? You have to believe me."
"But why the hell did you say that, it´s just not something you just come up with it has to be a background or something?" I asked and he was right I did not believe him.
"Like I said I was drunk, I do all crazy things when I´m druck, this was not the weirdest. Once I jumped into my owen and shouted that the boys would put it on so I could become a fried chicken and that´s not even the worst thing." I couldn´t help but smile. This boy was beyond crazy.
"So you are not lying just because you´re scared or something? Because you know it won´t work if you do." I said still looking straight into his blue dimonds.
"I promise you I do not lie, I don´t do lies you know." I have heard that many times lately and I really hoped both him and Summer were telling the truth.
"Then I believe you. There is just one more thing you´ll have to do to make it all go away." I giggled, now I am actually happy.
"And what´s that?" He laughed.
"Help me decorate my room of course." He brust out in laugh.
"Anyting for you, my lady." Then he lifted his fake hat as if he had one and bowed like I was a princess. Now I burst out laughing too.
Notes
Hello! Monday: check! :D So here you could see the bitchy side of Amy. Did you like it and do you think everyone who got it deserved it? Now I had some questions here too but I´ll take some down below too, just for fun :P Well anyway, I have a great fanfiction for you if you want a tip it´s called "Hello Diana" and the writers are Quinnlrons and corey, so check that one out for your own sake :) Hope you like this one and have a great day/ Kisses EBTW I know I failed with those dots but it just won´t work, what I wanted to say with them was that some time has gone or something, hope you understood that :D LOL
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