The new start
Chapter fifteen, "In my mind or not?"
Did she know I was here? No, how could she? She must be here with her mum or something. I know that isn´t true. 1: because she never hangs out with her mother. 2: because when she goes shopping she always goes to the shopping centre in Reading. Somehow she must have found out I was here. The ones who didn´t know Summer would think I would be happy for this. But that´s not true. When I was in Reading I was a totally different person. I lived in a bubble. Everyday I went to partys and everyday I went home with a guy. I was taking drugs and drinking a lot. I was failing in basically all my subjects. But that was before I murdered him. It was like I woke up from a dream or something and I faced reality. Summer was there. She was always there and she was worse then me. Not only that, she also brought out the worse in me. It was not only the city and the memories I ran away from it was her too. I ran away from my whole life. But I guess that catches up with me. What was I supposed to do? I couldn´t just go over there and act like nothing had happened? Then again, why was she here? I mean why did she want to be with me? Even she must think I´m crazy.
"Hello, can I help you with something? I heard a voice behind me and I turned around, a shop-assistant looked at me with blue eyes and tried to look like she cared. But I could see that behind the fake smile there was a girl who just wanted the money and go and party. The same kind off girl I had been before. My first thought was to just say no, I´m just looking. But then I remembered the bed I saw before. I needed to face Summer sooner or later and I might as well do it now when I get my dream bed in the bargain.
"Yeah I would like to buy that white bed over there." I said and turned around to point out the bed. But the bed wasn´t there and neither was Summer. Shit, had hallucinated the whole thing? No of course I hadn´t, it looked so real.
"I´m sorry someone must have bought it, do you have a white bed with white headboards?" I asked, still shocked. Maybe you start to hallucinate things when you had killed someone? That must be the answer.
"Yes, come with me." The fake girl smiled and I really hoped my fake smile was better than hers because if not, I was screwed. I followed her until we were standing in front of the exact same bed I had seen before. Was my head screwing with me or something? Was Summer real? She had this thing that she always played games. If this was one of those it was not funny. Then again I had never been the victim, this might be how it is and if I know Summer as good as I think I do this is just the begining.
"I´ll take that one." I said and tried to press out a fake smile. But it was impossible. My mouth was stuck and I had this weird feeling that someone was watching me.
"Sure, are you going to buy something else in this shop?" She asked. I gave her a weird look but then I remembered we were in a big shop and this was only one section. I tried to say yes but apparently my tongue was stuck too so I just nodded. The fake girl put one of the beds in my shopping cart, of course an unassembled one. It was fascinating how something so big could become so small.
"Welcome back." The fake girl said and I could see how she was relieved that I was leaving. My next stop was the section with shelves, chairs and tables. I really tried to be happy, it´s not everyone who gets a whole new room in one day. But the feeling that someone was watching me didn´t go away. I really hoped that it wasn´t Summer and that it all was in my mind. But something in me knew, that´s not the truth.
"Hello, can I help you with something? I heard a voice behind me and I turned around, a shop-assistant looked at me with blue eyes and tried to look like she cared. But I could see that behind the fake smile there was a girl who just wanted the money and go and party. The same kind off girl I had been before. My first thought was to just say no, I´m just looking. But then I remembered the bed I saw before. I needed to face Summer sooner or later and I might as well do it now when I get my dream bed in the bargain.
"Yeah I would like to buy that white bed over there." I said and turned around to point out the bed. But the bed wasn´t there and neither was Summer. Shit, had hallucinated the whole thing? No of course I hadn´t, it looked so real.
"I´m sorry someone must have bought it, do you have a white bed with white headboards?" I asked, still shocked. Maybe you start to hallucinate things when you had killed someone? That must be the answer.
"Yes, come with me." The fake girl smiled and I really hoped my fake smile was better than hers because if not, I was screwed. I followed her until we were standing in front of the exact same bed I had seen before. Was my head screwing with me or something? Was Summer real? She had this thing that she always played games. If this was one of those it was not funny. Then again I had never been the victim, this might be how it is and if I know Summer as good as I think I do this is just the begining.
"I´ll take that one." I said and tried to press out a fake smile. But it was impossible. My mouth was stuck and I had this weird feeling that someone was watching me.
"Sure, are you going to buy something else in this shop?" She asked. I gave her a weird look but then I remembered we were in a big shop and this was only one section. I tried to say yes but apparently my tongue was stuck too so I just nodded. The fake girl put one of the beds in my shopping cart, of course an unassembled one. It was fascinating how something so big could become so small.
"Welcome back." The fake girl said and I could see how she was relieved that I was leaving. My next stop was the section with shelves, chairs and tables. I really tried to be happy, it´s not everyone who gets a whole new room in one day. But the feeling that someone was watching me didn´t go away. I really hoped that it wasn´t Summer and that it all was in my mind. But something in me knew, that´s not the truth.
@stolemyheart
Did you die because of your beauty or something? :0
4/27/14