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Caution

Don't Let Her Go

****Louis's POV

I think i'm happy…Ever since i've gotten Lia to speak up, we've been with each other non stop. Everything I do, everything she does…we're just around each other 24/7. I like it . She opens up to me, and I like that she's comfortable. I'm sure she knows by now that I know when she's fibbing, because in all honesty I can see right past her walls.

Harry may not understand the bond we have right now, and I know that he's upset, and jealous…But if he knew than he wouldn't be like the way he is now. They're visiting tomorrow, and I hope he doesn't take it too seriously. He's my best mate, I just want whats best for him.

I glanced at the time. 12:00? Time to go see Lia.

….

After having a small brunch, we decided to take a stroll.

"Little chilly out yeah?"

"Yea..I'm used to the warm sun.." She nodded, digging her hands in her coat.

"I'm kinda used to it, Doncaster is pretty chilly, especially where me parents live..Immune you could say. How was Italy? Seems like an ace vacation spot.."

"Yea..It was fun. The town knew me, and I was always doing something. The people were great fun, and I think that's mainly how i got through the whole being away from everyone and not break down…" She let out a nervous laugh. "Thank you Lou, you've been by my side through all this…" She sighed as she plopped herself down by the tree beside her.

Copying her actions, I sat down beside her, and thought a little on my response. I was happy that she was happy, and getting through all this, but I feel like she's holding back.

"Lia..You know I will always be here for you, regardless of the amount of stupid things we may do together. I promised you I would be here, and that I wasn't leaving anytime soon. You've been the center of everything in my life these past few weeks, and all I seem to care about is if you're okay, and how you're doing…I know it may seem weird to tell you this, but it's true. I'm not going anywhere until I know you're well, and in no need of my constant care. Which I hope you know is not an option…But please tell me what's on your mind…"

She shot me a worried glance, gulping hard before attempting to respond. "I-I know this is bad but I want to 100% honest with you. I thin…I think I have feelings for you…I know it's sorta stupid and…" Her words fading, I found myself happy that she had told me, and in that moment I let everything go. Leaning in towards her, I cupped her face pulling her in for kiss.

The kiss at first was a surprise to both of us, but we soon started kissing each other back. Desperate for air, we unlocked our lips, foreheads against each others, panting lightly.

"Louis…I feel this isn't right…I…" But Lia was never able to finish her sentence.

"What the fuck are you guys doing.." My head shot to Harry's voice. Anger filled it, as he cursed loud profanities.

"Harry….I…." Lia attempted to conjure up some excuse, but stuttered at every attempt.

"Just…Stop. Lia stop. I don't need any of this bullshit, and I don't need you. I only came because I felt bad for you."

"Harry…Don't say that…" I budded in, but was flashed the death glare.

"Shut the fuck up Lou…You kissed my girlfriend…You shouldn't be fucking talking!" He shouted.

"Don't talk to him like that …" Lia's voice low, and weak. Peering up to the curly haired boy that towered over her.

"Oh so now you so stand up for him…Go ahead. I don't give a bloody fuck. You were nothing to me.." Looking away as soon as the words escaped his mouth, guilt overpowered him, for I knew what he had slipped out…Wasn't ever going to be forgiven.

"I …meant nothing." She turned away slightly letting a tear fall. Swiping it away violently, she whisked around, her hand colliding with his face.

"You heartless bastard…Too think I actually loved you…big mistake….but didn't think I would find out about you and Darcy?"

"At least she meant something to me…You never will….You were just a shag…" He laughed, as anger now filled his words.

She laughed loudly, but I knew his words hurt her. "You..and I….are over….don't ever come near me again." She ran off into the building slamming the door behind her.

"What the fuck is wrong with you Haz…" He turned on his heel, and pushed me hard. I landed on the grass behind me, and was shocked that he would have even done what he did.

"DON'T FUCKING TALK TO ME LOU…YOU KNEW SHE MEANT EVERYTHING TO ME…AND YOU FUCKING KISSED HER." He barked viciously.

"OHH…So fucking Darcy doesn't mean anything either? You really think that kissing is worse than fucking the one girl she despised…Just for pleasure…Look at yourself Haz.." I hissed, and I knew for sure this wasn't going to end well.

"WHY THE FUCK DO YOU CARE…It's not like she lost everything in her life, you got in a goddamn car accident, she'll heal. She doesn't need you, and she sure as hell doesn't need you puckering her up just to make her feel better." He huffed, obviously thinking that he was right.

"You really are an ignorant bloke…I'm truly gobsmacked. I…I WAS THERE FOR HER….THIS…WHAT YOU JUST DID…You aren't ever gonna get her back."

"OH CAUSE YOU KNOW EVERYTHING LOU…EVERYTHING …"

"LOT MORE THAN YOU…" I found my temper rising along with my voice.

"Oh…yeah? Tell me something I don't know.." He laughed sarcastically, and that was probably the last straw.

"TELL YOU SOMETHING YOU DON'T KNOW? Oh how about you never dared to chase her, never dared to care about a thing she did. She meant the world to you? Then why didn't you chase her? You don't know shit..You really don't."

"Lou don't tell me what to fucking do..I swear to god.."

"Oh…and what are you gonna do….You didn't even know she was fucking pregnant with your child…." I cursed as the words slipped out of my mouth.

"What…Lou what are you talking about.." His face turning pale.

"Fuck…I…"

"Lou…tell me…for fucks sake…What fucking child."

"I….This…You weren't supposed to know…Shit…"

"LOU." Harry grabbed my forearm tightly, searching for an answer.

"When she came to visit, I …she was 9 months…Her name was Rose, and she died the day of the car accident… The reason why Lia didn't want anyone around her was because she took so much fucking care of the baby, alone….And in a few minutes…it all vanished. She raised that baby in hopes that one day you'd come running back, and maybe that you'd be a one big happy family…But you never dared to even worry where her whereabouts were..or even if she was alright…I'm sorry we kissed, but it's nothing compared to what you just did…"

Harry ran…off and into the building, as I followed behind him.

Entering the room where she stayed, a note rested on the pillow.

I'm sorry Lou…You can tell him…But…this…all of this…isn't me…I can't live this life, not like this…I'm sorry..and i love you dearly…but loving you both…loving anyone just causes destruction. I hurt people, i hurt myself…I'm sorry but this is a goodbye.

"I fucking lost her… Lou…I lost her…"

"We'll find her Haz….we will..Don't let her go…Find her…We'll find her."

And over the next few weeks, or shall I say months….that's exactly what he did. Spots of her showing up here and there, he'd go, and she'd disappear.

Restless, he was…In love….Madly in love, with someone he had ruined… He had gotten a rose tattoo on his forearm, that added to the meaningful tattoos he had inked on him. Lia was his everything…and he wasn't going to let her get away again.