Lily`s POV:

I couldn`t believe it when mum`s heart stoped beating. It felt so unreal, she looked like she was asleep but I knew she wasn`t. The only thing I noticed was Zayn`s hand on my shoulder. With my own hand I held mum`s hand, which was freezing cold.


There was no longer life in her body, she was dead. Her chest had stoped to go up and down but the only thought I could come up with was, What was the last thing I said to her?


I wanted her to know how much I loved her and how much I missed her. So I started praying. I prayed that she would come to heaven. That she would be with god so she would never be lonely again. And that she would wait for me.


After a while I opened my eyes. Juliet was crying and Simon hold her in her arms. Harry was just sitting there watching Juliet and her mum looked pale while holding Juliet`s hands. They didn`t wanted to leave me alone, now where they were my only family left.


I leaned back against Zayn who put his arms around me and I was really gratefull because I wasn`t sure hoe much longer I could stand on my feet.


It was just more hurting to see them crying so I asked them to leave me alone fora few minutes. Harry took Juliet and went out with her first. Than Simon and Kristen left with an encouraging smile. Zayn was the last one. He kissed me on my forehead before he left.


Then I was alone. I sat down on a chair next to my mother`s bed. Finally I felt my tears flow over my cheeks. I had to smile.


"Mum you are worth my tears, so don`t be mad at me for crying, okay?" I looked in her pale face. "I love you mum, you need to know that and I will always remember you. I miss you so so much and I have no idea what I should do without you. But don`t worry I am not alone. You no there are Juliet and my father and Kristen. And there is Zayn, he is great, I whish you could meet him you would actually like him."


I had to laugh even more when I remembered how often she said I was meeting the wrong guys and that I should find someone good. Now I had Zayn but she didn`t know. The only thing I could hope for was that my mum could see me from where she was.


(later in the evening)


We were lying on a field, on a picnic blanket watching the stars. Zayn put his arms around me and I placed my head next to his. In this session it was early dark so the moonlight was the only thing lighting up the place a bit.


"Look somewhere there must be your mum right now." I had to smile. Zayn had the theory that every person who died would become a star, to look after their friend and family they had to leave behind on earth.


"I really hope you are right." He laughed and kissed my ckeek.


Like this we stayed for a long time. I couldn`t say if it was for hours all I knew was that it felt great having Zayn beside me and my mum above me in the sky as a star or in heaven.


As he drove me back he promised to come next morning to pick me up for breakfast. So I went inside even when it felt weird, living now with a new family.


But when I saw Kristen smiling at me while entering all doubts were away.

Notes

I don`t really know what to say now. The chapter first is kind of sad but I didn`t want it to end this way, so don`t think I am a monster because Lily is happy with Zayn even when her mother died a short time ago. I really like her character so I don`t want her to be hurt.


I have to tell you that I will be away from tormorrow for a few days. So there won`t be chapters from my side until I come back. Please don`t be dissapointed.


Have a great time. And look forward to the next chapter of Aylin.
-Sofe♥