She's Not Afraid

I'm awoken by a sudden jolt when I realized that Harry just carried me to bed. I press my face to the cold window, my eyes bounce off each passing street light, looking past my reflection on the window and into the darkness before the dawn. I dwell in the silence and vibration of the car, bundled in heavy blankets. Unable to sleep, with all these thoughts in my head. The text tone of my phone buzzes beside me, slightly jolting me back., before sliding it unlocked with my thumb.

I saw it was 3 messages from Louis and a missed call. Too tired to even read them, I push the lock button, shutting down the bright light in my face. I don't know how long I just lay there, watching the rain drops sliding down the window, my mind empty.

When the RV finally stops, Harry stands there in the dark beside my bed, who appears to look wide awake with an adorable dimple. His eyes are my green focal points. We must be here already. I rub my face to awaken out of this drowsiness and prepare to gather my things. Harry takes the heavy camping bag from me and sets it down in its place, and leads me towards the exit.

I quickly had a sudden realization that we are definitely not in the forest, but at a gas station? I am guessing, I glance over at harry confused.

"I am very tired, so Louis and the rest of the boys are gonna drive the rest of the way for us and stay with us, its only about 2 hours from here." From the corner of my eye I spot some people making their way towards us. But I had to take a second glance as my eyes fell on a large black vehicle.

Everyone greeted me, exchanging Hellos and hugs. Then my eyes met Louis's blue ones. Wearing his Denim shirt with his scruffy brown hair tossed around his forehead.

"Lets go get some snacks?" Louis smiles brightly clearly happy, removing his hand from mine, placing it on my waist pulling me closer to him, placing a soft kiss on my lips.

We enter the gas station, making our way to the back grabbing 2 coffees for both of us. On the way to the counter, I grab two chocolate iced donuts. We pay and leave.

"Ill be right back babe, the rest of the boys want food also" Louis turns around and walks back into the store. As I continue to walking, I stop suddenly in my tracks when I hear someone singing from the RV. Being quite curious and noisy I crack the door slightly open enough to hear.

"You don't understand, you don't understand, what you do to me when you hold his hand."
Instrumental from a guitar sped up through the speakers," -We were meant to be... but a just of fate...Made it so you had to walk away"

His beautiful voice rung through my ears, the realness of his words, broke my heart in pieces, was this really what he felt? A tear slipped from my eye, as I realized that I still struggled everyday to figure out why puzzle pieces that were suppose to fit but didn't.

"Cause were on fire, were on fire, were on fire now"

"Cause were on fire, were on fire, were on fire now"

"I don't care what people say when were together, You know I wanna be the one to hold you in your sleep, I just wanted to be you and me forever, You know you wanna leave, so come on baby, be with me so happily."

His voice was so passionate and Breathtaking.The music slowly faded from the speakers,as I heard harry quietly sniffling in his sobs. I wish I could just hold him, and tell him how sorry I was. But that wouldn't be right, would it?

I waited for Louis to return before I wanted to step in, I couldn't see harry alone anymore, I was now afraid of myself, and what I may say or do.. that I will regret.

**3 hours later**

My converses scuffed across the trail as I rummaged around in the bag over my shoulder, pulling out my Ipod and unwrapping the headphones. The buds were placed into my ears, flicking through the songs until I found a good beat.

My vision aimlessly wandered along the dirt trail, not taking much notice of my surroundings, The boys laughed and joked, pushing and racing each other to the camping site. When they set up the tents, I sat around on a log, messaging Claire telling her were I was and that I'd be back before the end of fall break. The breeze picked up, lifting my hair from my shoulders, One of my headphones was removed as I strolled a little closer, to the almost newly finished campsite.

"All 7 of us for a week together." I leaned my head against Louis's shoulder, he kissed my forehead sweetly. I smirked, but it quickly faded as my gaze met Harry's. My mind flashed to scenes of earlier. He smiled at me as he turned away to finish building the tent, which made it hurt a little bit less to forget about there ever being a chance of an us... We could just stay friends for now.

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