Open Arms
Chapter three
(Harry's POV)
I finish cleaning up the left over liquor that was spilt on the bar counter.
"Hey Harry. What are you still doing here?" I look up too see my boss Marcus standing over at the door of his office.
"I'm just tidying up the place a bit." I say to him while watching the white rag under the faucet. "Well. What time are you coming in tonight? Just in case I need some other people to pic up some other shifts." He shuffles the ring of keys I'm his hands. "
probably around 10 like I usually do." I throw the rag into the cleaning bucket with all the other washing supplies and stuff it under the sink.
"See you later Harry." I walk over the bodies laying on the dance floor like it was nothing. Basically it wasn't. I walk over them almost every night when I leave to go home after work. It's kind of a routine for me.
I wave my goodbye to Marcus as I leave the club just when I see the sun coming up. I loved this part of the day. Driving home on a almost empty rode just as the sunset lcomes up. It's the perfect scenario to tie up a night of loud music and crowded people.
When I get home I instantly pull my black t from my body and slid my white converses off. I pull my jeans off then hop into my lonely bed weary from last night.
(Jaycees POV)
I walk into Lenora's kitchen lousily searching for some Tylenol or something for this pounding heart ache. Once I found it I used all the strength I could to open the bottle it it just wouldn't budge.
That's when I sink to the ground with my head in my knees sobbing quietly.
It wasn't that I couldn't open the bottle, that was the least of my problems but the fact that my life is fucked up. I sleep all day.
Then I go out, get completely fucked up and sleep with some random guy who probably doesn't even know the first letter of my name.
All because of that one day.
~flashback
I shuffle my keys in my hand with a huge smile on my face. First I had the best second year anniversary with my lovely boyfriend Stanley and second I have the most lovely boyfriend ever! As I open the door to my house I see my mom and dad sitting on the couch watching tv. I plop right between them and kiss both of their cheeks. "Hey mommy. Hey daddy." Hey greeted me with his and a kiss too. My head leaned on my mothers shoulder as I excitedly waited on telling my mom and dad about my date. "Mom and dad..." I looked up at my mom with a huge smile on my face. "Hmmm." She said not taking her eyes off the television. "Today was mine and Stanley's second year anniversary and he brought me out to dinner. The restaurant was super fancy and the prices were high! Like when I say high a little piece of steak was like fifty freaking dollars." Once I looked at both of them there eyes were on the television not even listening to me. But that didn't rewind my mood. Nothing couldn't rewind my mood. I got up from the couch and turned the tv off. "Now that I have both of yours undivided full attention... Let me tell you." I watched as they groaned and rolled their eyes. "The dinner was amazing and he treated me like a queen mommy. Like he opened the doors for me pushed my chairs in and wouldn't stop complimenting me on how beautiful I looked!" I blush just by the memory of my night. "Then he surprised me and brought my too this beautiful lake. There were romantic candles set up and the way they reflected on the lake.... Was just beautiful." It was breathtaking. "So he laid out a cover and we sat on it just talking about everything that crossed our minds. Like ballons, television, funny times we had together.. Just everything. Then he read me the most beautifully poem ever. Mom, dad, he made me feel speacil." I literally couldn't stop smiling as I told my parents the story of my night with Stanley. I sat between then and kept going on with details about my night with him. I knew they were getting annoyed by the expression on their faces but I didn't care. I was so happy. "Then the next thing you know we kissed. It was so passionate, romantic as we sat with candles all around us and looked up at the stars." That sure caught my parents attention. "And the-" my dada cut me off. "Just let me ask you one question before you finish your little novel of tonight." I nodded my head up and down. "Does this last part have anything to do with... You know.... It?" I busted out laughing. "Sex daddy? You mean sex?" He instantly and dramatically covered his ears and stared at me wide eyed. "Ew, I hate that word! Don't use that young lady." I took my chance. "Sex sex sex sex sex sex sex sex sex sex sex sex." I said in my fathers face as it annoyed him. I don't know why it bothered him, I was always open with my dad with all these kind of things. "Anyways I was unbuttoning his shirt ready to you know what but something crazy happen!" "What?" My mom said. "He pulled my hands away from him shirt and looked me in the eyes and said exactly, I want to wait until were married... I don't want you to lose it until were married. I feel that's the least I could give you in return for making me so happy." My heart melted as I remembered the words he said to me tonight. My parents expression showed relief as I said those words. "Then he dropped my home From the most best,romantic, evening I have ever had." My mom patted my thigh as she turned the television on and went back to watching it. I just laughed it them. I suddenly get up from my seat when I hear the house home ring. "I'll get it." I skipped to the phone as the events of tonight still passes through my head.
Me: Helloooo ? Jaycee here.
Katelyn: Jaycee? Oh my god Jaycee.
By the sound of her voice she was obviously crying which made my heart beat rapidly fast. Katelyns, Stanley older sister so why is she Calling me? Crying?
Me: katelyn? What's wrong?
I blocked out other nosies from the outside. But it was impossible from the television volume and Katelyns sobbing. I couldn't make out what she said. She was crying to much. Me: katelyn... Ima need you to calm down. I don't understand what your saying okay... There was a silence after I said that.
Me: Katelyn... Are you there?
Katelyn: yes...
Me: then what's wrong? Please tell me.
Katelyn: Stanley's dead. He just got into a car accident and I'm in the hospital now and he's... He's..... My b- brothers d- d- dead.
The phone flew out of my hands as I hear those words. The were obviously true from the sound of her voice. My knees fall to the ground as my brain still tires to comprehend what just happen. Tears didn't leave my eyes but they were definitely there ready to fall any moment. My heart feels like it just got stab by a knife and they keep twisting it causing me more and more pain by the moment. But that's when it really hit me. For the first time. Stanley's dead and he's never coming back. I couldn't my face into my hands as my loud cries and screams filled the house quickly. He wasn't coming back. I wouldn't feel his touch anymore. I wouldn't see his gorgeous smile anymore. I wouldn't hear his sweet voice anymore. "No... Not my baby." I screamed out as tears poured down my cheeks like rain. "No...... Not Stanley." I cried into my hands once again. My fist made contact with the wall as my sadness turned into anger right then and there. "Why!? Out of all people why Stanley!!!" I punched the wall once again not even paying attention to my now dripping blood knuckles. One of the best days of my life suddenly just turned into the worst in a blink of an eye.
~end of flashback
I sob even more as the memories flash through my mind like it happen just yesterday. But... It didn't. It happen two years ago. I still have the ache in my heart as when I found out Stanley died. But that's why I'm always drunk. The alcohol eases the pain enough for it to be bearable.
When I finally gain my composer, I get up and leave without saying goodbye to Lenora. She's already done a lot and I don't need to wake her just to say good bye.
Once I enter my small apartment I go straight to the bathroom. There was no need for locking the door since I lived alone and no one ever came here except for Lenora and myself.
I stare at myself in the mirror looking at this hideous girl looking back at me. Mascara was run down my cheeks, I had puffy bags under my eyes and my hair was scrambled messy. But this was actually my daily routine.
Lenora picking me up,
Sleep for a few hours,
walk home,
go into the bathroom,
point out all my flaws ..
then cut.
My eyes scans my bathroom cabinets in search for the small razor I keep for this particular circumstance. Once I find my old friend, I take a seat on the cold tile floor as my legs pan out and hit the bath tub across from me.
Once I get situated I don't take no time I cut. I cut deep enough to draw enough blood to satisfy my aching pain I had once again. But I didn't wince, didn't flinch from the metal razor making a new slit in my skin.
I was very used to this feeling so I've become very numb to it.
I leaned my head back as it hits the wall. My eyes slowly close as I take in the old feeling that I was soon to feel once again, most likely tonight at some point.
As my eyes close, I drift to sleep on the cold tile floor as my mind goes blank and my body goes empty for the more than hundredth time since Stanley left me. Alone.
I finish cleaning up the left over liquor that was spilt on the bar counter.
"Hey Harry. What are you still doing here?" I look up too see my boss Marcus standing over at the door of his office.
"I'm just tidying up the place a bit." I say to him while watching the white rag under the faucet. "Well. What time are you coming in tonight? Just in case I need some other people to pic up some other shifts." He shuffles the ring of keys I'm his hands. "
probably around 10 like I usually do." I throw the rag into the cleaning bucket with all the other washing supplies and stuff it under the sink.
"See you later Harry." I walk over the bodies laying on the dance floor like it was nothing. Basically it wasn't. I walk over them almost every night when I leave to go home after work. It's kind of a routine for me.
I wave my goodbye to Marcus as I leave the club just when I see the sun coming up. I loved this part of the day. Driving home on a almost empty rode just as the sunset lcomes up. It's the perfect scenario to tie up a night of loud music and crowded people.
When I get home I instantly pull my black t from my body and slid my white converses off. I pull my jeans off then hop into my lonely bed weary from last night.
(Jaycees POV)
I walk into Lenora's kitchen lousily searching for some Tylenol or something for this pounding heart ache. Once I found it I used all the strength I could to open the bottle it it just wouldn't budge.
That's when I sink to the ground with my head in my knees sobbing quietly.
It wasn't that I couldn't open the bottle, that was the least of my problems but the fact that my life is fucked up. I sleep all day.
Then I go out, get completely fucked up and sleep with some random guy who probably doesn't even know the first letter of my name.
All because of that one day.
~flashback
I shuffle my keys in my hand with a huge smile on my face. First I had the best second year anniversary with my lovely boyfriend Stanley and second I have the most lovely boyfriend ever! As I open the door to my house I see my mom and dad sitting on the couch watching tv. I plop right between them and kiss both of their cheeks. "Hey mommy. Hey daddy." Hey greeted me with his and a kiss too. My head leaned on my mothers shoulder as I excitedly waited on telling my mom and dad about my date. "Mom and dad..." I looked up at my mom with a huge smile on my face. "Hmmm." She said not taking her eyes off the television. "Today was mine and Stanley's second year anniversary and he brought me out to dinner. The restaurant was super fancy and the prices were high! Like when I say high a little piece of steak was like fifty freaking dollars." Once I looked at both of them there eyes were on the television not even listening to me. But that didn't rewind my mood. Nothing couldn't rewind my mood. I got up from the couch and turned the tv off. "Now that I have both of yours undivided full attention... Let me tell you." I watched as they groaned and rolled their eyes. "The dinner was amazing and he treated me like a queen mommy. Like he opened the doors for me pushed my chairs in and wouldn't stop complimenting me on how beautiful I looked!" I blush just by the memory of my night. "Then he surprised me and brought my too this beautiful lake. There were romantic candles set up and the way they reflected on the lake.... Was just beautiful." It was breathtaking. "So he laid out a cover and we sat on it just talking about everything that crossed our minds. Like ballons, television, funny times we had together.. Just everything. Then he read me the most beautifully poem ever. Mom, dad, he made me feel speacil." I literally couldn't stop smiling as I told my parents the story of my night with Stanley. I sat between then and kept going on with details about my night with him. I knew they were getting annoyed by the expression on their faces but I didn't care. I was so happy. "Then the next thing you know we kissed. It was so passionate, romantic as we sat with candles all around us and looked up at the stars." That sure caught my parents attention. "And the-" my dada cut me off. "Just let me ask you one question before you finish your little novel of tonight." I nodded my head up and down. "Does this last part have anything to do with... You know.... It?" I busted out laughing. "Sex daddy? You mean sex?" He instantly and dramatically covered his ears and stared at me wide eyed. "Ew, I hate that word! Don't use that young lady." I took my chance. "Sex sex sex sex sex sex sex sex sex sex sex sex." I said in my fathers face as it annoyed him. I don't know why it bothered him, I was always open with my dad with all these kind of things. "Anyways I was unbuttoning his shirt ready to you know what but something crazy happen!" "What?" My mom said. "He pulled my hands away from him shirt and looked me in the eyes and said exactly, I want to wait until were married... I don't want you to lose it until were married. I feel that's the least I could give you in return for making me so happy." My heart melted as I remembered the words he said to me tonight. My parents expression showed relief as I said those words. "Then he dropped my home From the most best,romantic, evening I have ever had." My mom patted my thigh as she turned the television on and went back to watching it. I just laughed it them. I suddenly get up from my seat when I hear the house home ring. "I'll get it." I skipped to the phone as the events of tonight still passes through my head.
Me: Helloooo ? Jaycee here.
Katelyn: Jaycee? Oh my god Jaycee.
By the sound of her voice she was obviously crying which made my heart beat rapidly fast. Katelyns, Stanley older sister so why is she Calling me? Crying?
Me: katelyn? What's wrong?
I blocked out other nosies from the outside. But it was impossible from the television volume and Katelyns sobbing. I couldn't make out what she said. She was crying to much. Me: katelyn... Ima need you to calm down. I don't understand what your saying okay... There was a silence after I said that.
Me: Katelyn... Are you there?
Katelyn: yes...
Me: then what's wrong? Please tell me.
Katelyn: Stanley's dead. He just got into a car accident and I'm in the hospital now and he's... He's..... My b- brothers d- d- dead.
The phone flew out of my hands as I hear those words. The were obviously true from the sound of her voice. My knees fall to the ground as my brain still tires to comprehend what just happen. Tears didn't leave my eyes but they were definitely there ready to fall any moment. My heart feels like it just got stab by a knife and they keep twisting it causing me more and more pain by the moment. But that's when it really hit me. For the first time. Stanley's dead and he's never coming back. I couldn't my face into my hands as my loud cries and screams filled the house quickly. He wasn't coming back. I wouldn't feel his touch anymore. I wouldn't see his gorgeous smile anymore. I wouldn't hear his sweet voice anymore. "No... Not my baby." I screamed out as tears poured down my cheeks like rain. "No...... Not Stanley." I cried into my hands once again. My fist made contact with the wall as my sadness turned into anger right then and there. "Why!? Out of all people why Stanley!!!" I punched the wall once again not even paying attention to my now dripping blood knuckles. One of the best days of my life suddenly just turned into the worst in a blink of an eye.
~end of flashback
I sob even more as the memories flash through my mind like it happen just yesterday. But... It didn't. It happen two years ago. I still have the ache in my heart as when I found out Stanley died. But that's why I'm always drunk. The alcohol eases the pain enough for it to be bearable.
When I finally gain my composer, I get up and leave without saying goodbye to Lenora. She's already done a lot and I don't need to wake her just to say good bye.
Once I enter my small apartment I go straight to the bathroom. There was no need for locking the door since I lived alone and no one ever came here except for Lenora and myself.
I stare at myself in the mirror looking at this hideous girl looking back at me. Mascara was run down my cheeks, I had puffy bags under my eyes and my hair was scrambled messy. But this was actually my daily routine.
Lenora picking me up,
Sleep for a few hours,
walk home,
go into the bathroom,
point out all my flaws ..
then cut.
My eyes scans my bathroom cabinets in search for the small razor I keep for this particular circumstance. Once I find my old friend, I take a seat on the cold tile floor as my legs pan out and hit the bath tub across from me.
Once I get situated I don't take no time I cut. I cut deep enough to draw enough blood to satisfy my aching pain I had once again. But I didn't wince, didn't flinch from the metal razor making a new slit in my skin.
I was very used to this feeling so I've become very numb to it.
I leaned my head back as it hits the wall. My eyes slowly close as I take in the old feeling that I was soon to feel once again, most likely tonight at some point.
As my eyes close, I drift to sleep on the cold tile floor as my mind goes blank and my body goes empty for the more than hundredth time since Stanley left me. Alone.
Notes
Woah... Haven't updated in a while!! A while!! Cause I've been busy on other stories ... Sowwy!! Anyways I'll be focusing on this story more than I have been okay!? Yay you guys ! Anyways do what you guys do if you you want a update FOR THIS STORY AND WHAT WE CALL LOVE!Vote for for your not welcomed to get to 10.0 For an update!
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10/21/13