the days flew by quickly.and i could tell that with each day harry was getting more and more nervous and i was afraid that he would back out of the plan.i felt guilty that it was all my fault....his nervousness and everything so i avoided him a little...the guilt was killing me.

"so...this is it!" niall said at the airport where all the boys and i had taken him.

"dont make me cry bro,what do you mean this is it?its only 3 days stop being so dramatic." louis told him.

"well its kind of hard to leave you guys...i should be happy that im going home but half of me...you guys are still in london....but yeah,only three days" niall said getting teary eyed.

"where are the cameras?" liam said looking around for nothing. "we could make a reality show out of this its perfect" he added jokingly.

"haha yeah man" zayn said.

"anyway....see you bro.you might miss your flight." harry said.

"maybe i should" niall said seriously thinking about not going.

"if your mum is cool with it" harry said.

"good point bro.i better go." niall said before hugging the guys and kissing me.

"tell maura happy birthday!" the boys shouted after him and he waved his hand and was out of sight.

"well atleat the rest of us are still in one place right...i feel so broken knowing i wont be with you guys anymore" liam said shaking his head.i love you lads"

"we love you too liam" zayn and harry said placing a hand on either side of liams shoulder" liam was now crying a little,but he still had a smile on his face.

"c'mon bro.your gonna make us cry too" zayn said.

"yeah and like you said,we are all staying in london so we can see eachother anyday and everyday.and niall will be back before you know it." harry said.his nose was getting red and i could tell that he was holding back tears.


"ahmm sorry to break up the party...but i...i sort of wont be around either.but just for a few days i promise." louis said nervously not knowing what reaction he would get.

"WHAT!you are not going anywhere tommo" zayn said seriously.

"zayn is right.you are going nowhere....why man?" harry asked louis.

"eleanor....im going to manchester." he said hoping his reason was understandable.

"see her some other time...or let her come here" liam suggested.

"she has lessons that i cant just ask her to miss.its not high school liam,its university." louis said to liam.

"then you just wont see her at all.you will see her during our christmas break" harry suggested.

they went from lovey dovey to almost fighting.i just stood there the whole time feeling guilty about the fact that i might just be the one to break the bond that these boys shared.

"how can you lads be so fucking selfish?" louis said getting angry.

"how are we being selfish for wanting you to stay with us? zayn asked.

"if you were in my shoes what would you do.would you rather go and visit your girlfriend who you havnt seen in months or stay with lads who probably wont have time for you" he questioned.

"what do you mean we wont have time for you?" liam asked.

"harry you are single and welll....sarah you spending time with her.zayn,perrie is right here in london and liam,danielle works here.so you dont know how i am feeling.as soon as we leave this place you both are going to see your girlfriends and what im i supposed to do?go home and play video games?il be back at around the same time as niall.its just a few days...she has exams and i wouldnt want to disturb her so il be back before they start.promise" louis assured the boys.

ther was silence for a short while before liam broke it.

"you better call and skype and text everyday."

"yeah you should also tweet us and email us everyday!"harry added.

they all laughed at their stupidity.

"when do you leave?" zayn asked.

"today"

"huh!where are your bags then?" liam questioned.

"in the back of hazzas car" he replied.

"harry!you knew?" liam shouted.

"no!" harry said defencively.

they got louis bag from the back of harrys car and bid farwell to yet another brother.

"anymore secrets?" liam asked when now there were only 3 of them left.

"no" zayn said.he hugged the boys and i and promised to see them everyday before before perrie came to pick him up.

harry and i dropped liam off at his house and headed for harrys house.

"you are afraid arnt you?" i asked him when we were in the car alone.

"of breaking up the band...yes" he said swallowing hard.

"harry...you dont have to do this.i have decided that its not worth it...im not worth it.lets just forget about telling niall.il just go back to america and we can be friends.its not fair for me to make you do this." i told him honestly.i had been thinking about it for a while and i had made up my mind to go back to america and leave the boys happy. "il just break up with niall and he will never know about us" i said crying. "i told my mum i would be on the first plane tomorrow." i added.. "and i think its best if i just stay at a hotel tonight"