*** AUTUMN'S P.O.V.***

Since Grendan left me alone to babysit Niall, I had to take him to the store with me. All by myself. Yep, I don't think it's the smartest decision on her part. At least if she came she could ease us out of a fight, but since she isn't I'm going to have to watch myself carefully. We don't need a repeat of that terrible night.

I don't know if anyone has noticed, but that night I found Niall had really had an effect on me. I don't know if it's because I was about to watch a person die, or because I was one of the people that caused him to feel like that. Either way, ever since the incident I have been extremely cautious on what I say and do to Niall. I feel like I have to check on him everyday to make sure he is alright because something might have happened.

I also have random panic attacks, sometimes in the middle of the night. One minute I'll be fine, the next Im reliving the moment of him trying to take his life and me having to stop him. Each time he tries to kill himself in different ways and I'm forced into different situations.

I try to shake the thoughts from my mind as I focus my eyes on the road. I had finally my car fixed from the accident we had with Zayn, so I now could drive again. Yay, no more backseat riding with Grendan! She may be tiny but shes deadly behind the wheel.

I glance out of the corner of my eye to the passenger seat where Niall sat. He was staring out the side window beside him and had him hands settled politely in his lap. I could tell he was in deep thought about something because he didn't even move a muscle when one of their songs came on the radio.

" You alright Niall?" I knew he looked alright, but I just had the urge to ask. He blinks suddenly at my voice as if he had just woke up and looks at me.

" Ah, yeah. I'm fine, just a little tired I guess," He says. I nod my head in response not wanting to really have anymore of this awkward conversation. He gets my hint when I stay quiet and turns his head back to the window, going back into deep though.

I was really bothered by this side of Niall. I have never seen him when he was not constantly talking and making terrible jokes, or making me angry at him because of it. I'm not use to a thoughtful Niall who stared out the window in a car ride and stayed silent. To be honest, it kind of scared me a little
bit.

I pull into an empty parking space at the large store and pull out the key to the car. I turn and grab my purse and cell phone again as I open the car door stepping out. I slam it closed and join Niall's side. I look up and notice he had put on a pair of fake glasses and a knitted cap to cover his hair. He still looked like himself, but slightly less noticeable.

We stepped into the vast store, being met by heat from the industrial sized heater. I grab a cart from over on the side, as he waits for me on the side out of the way of all the busy people. He follows me farther into the building as I walk and push the small cart down the isles.

" Hey, do you want to get some of these things while I take care of the rest? It will be a little easier. We can just met up when your done in the electronic department," I ask Niall looking at an array of different cans and boxes. I pick the one I was looking for and handed half the list to him. He nodded looking at the first item on the list and then walking away.

I stare dumbfounded as he walks away from me. Seriously, what is his problem? He won't even talk to me now! I try to make him do something, but he just ignores me and stays quiet!
I groan in frustration and continue my search for products.



*** NIALL'S P.O.V.***

I take the half of the list she handed me and start to look for the items listed on it. I go to walk down one of the isles, but notice a group of teenage girls in the middle of it. I find it best if I don't go down and move to go down the next isle.

I think Autumn may be slightly worried about me by the way she was looking at me all this morning. I caught her looking at me in the corner of her eye in the car, and also when I walked away just a minute ago to help with the shopping. I think she notices the difference in my attitude and the way I act. I guess I haven't really talked to her much this morning.

It's not that I was trying to ignore her, it's just, I got really nervous when I was around her. I mean, I guess I always have because of my crush on her. But today I'm just really scared of what she thinks of me right now. I wish I could find that confidence that I had within myself, but it seems to have disappeared at the moment.

Notes

I am sooooo sorry for making people wait so long!! To make it up to everyone, I'm going to post a chapter tomorrow as well and try to update more often.

Thank you for waiting!!

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