I woke up the next morning feeling uncomfortable. Whether it was because of Harrys note I don't know. I got up and made some cereal, I felt sick. I looked at the clock it was just after 10, I still have time to get ready and go.

I sulked around the house for almost an hour until it came to 11. Someone knocked on the door, I opened it to see the postman.

I don't know what it is about them, but they scare the shit out of me. Whether it's because they hand you your future in that moment. Whether it's good or bad. He gave me my post and I shut the door behind me sinking to the floor. So what's it going to be good or bad?

The first 2 letters were boring advertisements. I never pay any attention towards them. The third letter was a reminder of my eviction notice. It's like they're trying to torture me, remind me that my life is about to take a bad turn.

I looked at my phone and saw a text from Harry.

See you at 12 ;) - Harry.

The smug look he will have if I actually show my face. But how can I not, without him in 2 weeks my life could practically be over. I went upstairs and threw on some jeans and a hoodie. I wasn't going to make any effort for the jackass. I grabbed my keys and purse and ran out the door.

It was 12, and here I was standing outside Nandos like a worthless pile of shit. Harry was there a few minutes later, with that stupid smile plastered on his face. If only I could slap it off.

"You came" he said excitedly.

"No shit" I said sarcastically.

"Oh someone isn't in a good mood today".

I rolled my eyes and followed him in Nandos. We sat at a private table so we can talk freely without being harassed by a bombard of girls.

"You know, I really am happy you came" he smiled widely at me showing his perfect pearly white teeth.

"Yeah well I thought I'd better hear you out, go into this with an open mind and all" I said coldly.

"Oh lighten up, it's not like I'm offering to save you or anything" he joked.

"I swear to god please don't flatter yourself, if this will be a constant reminder throughout the rest of school then you can forget it now" I half shouted. I took 2 deep breaths before continuing "So what would I have to do exactly?"

"Worship me" he said bluntly which pissed me off.

"Why this? You know how I feel about it yet you still decide to go along with it".

"Do you not understand? To be worshipped by you..." he looked me up and down. "Would be a gift from god trust me" he said winking at me.

"You're so arrogant" I spat through my teeth making him laugh.

"I promise that I will not cause you any pain. In the end you will grow more confident and well be a sexual spider monkey" he laughed winking.

"Wait you're planning on having sex with me?" I shrieked. My cheeks turning the shade of red, he thinks I am a whore.

"No" he shouted. "That's another thing I personally promise I will not have sex with you".

"Wait so you'll make other people have sex with me?" I asked confused.

He closed his eyes shaking his head "I will never let another man touch you" he said coldly. Obviously I've hit a nerve. "How nice must it be to not have to worry about anything? You won't have to make any decisions, I will make them for you. You will live with me for the week, worship me. Then once that week is over you will have a home" he said smiling.

How can this guy be such an asshole? He thinks he can just 'save' people. He doesn't know how wrong he is. He will save me physically, but mentally he will break me.

"I can tell you like to have power over people" I said dryly.
He nodded his head.

"Why?" I asked tilting my head.

"I don't know" he shrugged. Clear to me he knew exactly why, but wasn't going to share.

His phone rang "Hey Lou, yeah okay, yeah, I'll be right there okay? Yeah okay. Laters". He then spoke to me "Text me tomorrow morning your answer, if you say yes which I really hope you do. You will move in with me that night and the following Sunday move out deal?"

I nodded my head without muttering a word. He kissed me on the cheek before leaving. I sat at the table for another hour going through our conversation over and over again. I really have no idea what to do, and I don't know who to talk to. I could talk to Jess, but she wouldn't understand no one would.

I went home and had a long relaxing bath. Later on that evening I went out for a jog clearing my head. The truth is I have no idea what to do and I was running out of time. I needed to decide now.

As soon as I got back home, I looked around for something creative, for an answer. I found 2 coloured marbles, one blue one red. I'll let fate decide. If I pick blue then I will commit to his 'deal' if I pick red then I will decline. I went to bed and dreamt of a night with Harry, him caressing me, licking me, touching me.

I woke up shaking my head. Dreams or Nightmares is something I can never control and I hate it. This decision is another thing completely out of my hands. I grabbed the marbles and put them in a bag. I shook the bag and took 5 deep breaths.

I grabbed my phone and opened mine and his conversation, so I could text him straight away to ensure I don't change my mind.

I closed my eyes and put my hand in the bag, I felt both marbles. My fingers twiddled around both, deciding on which felt right. One of them was smoother, so I picked the other one as I feel it personally describes me 'rough around the edges'.

I held it in my hand, and placed the marble by my phone. I took another 3 more breaths before opening my eyes. The marble was blue.

Notes

OOOOHH it was BLUEEE



welll duh bye..

i will leave you with feels