I really wasn't looking forward to spending the night with Harry, it brings back way too many memories. I don't know what his intentions are but I certainly won't give in to him, I can't ruin what Liam and I have.

"I'll sleep on the couch" I said to him once we got inside.

He shook his head "No way".

"I can't share a bed with you Harry" I argued.

"Then I will sleep on the couch" he shrugged.

"No Harry it's your house".

"Yes and you are the guest, you're sleeping in my bed end of" he ended our discussion.
I groaned, even when he has no control over me he's still bossy. I put my bag in his bedroom and sat on the bed.

"You know it's only 4 right?" he laughed.

"Yeah I was just sitting down, I've missed this comfy bed" I shrugged.

"Is that all you miss?" he asked tilting his head.

"Don't" I shook my head.

"Why not?" he challenged me.

"Because nothing has changed Harry, you still have the same morals or whatever and I'm with Liam".

"I don't want you to be with Liam" he frowned.

I sighed "And you don't want us to be together either, so who can I be with?" I asked.

He gave up knowing he had nothing to say that could help his argument, I nodded my head and walked down the stairs to the kitchen.

"I figured we could order takeout?" he asked.


"Yeah sounds good" I smiled.

"Pizza?" he asked.

I nodded "Pepperoni?"

"Sorted" he smiled before dialing the number to the pizza place.

"Hey can I have a large pepperoni pizza, yeah with extra cheese. Oh and a bottle of Pepsi, okay thanks" he said hanging up.

"You are aware you didn't give them your address right?"

"It was Jack actually, he goes out and gets it for me".

"Oh so he isn't just your driver?"

"No" he smiled. "I would also appreciate it if you didn't flirt with him" he said bluntly.

"Flirt?" I asked confused. "I wasn't aware I was flirting with him" I said coldly.

"Oh really?" he asked tilting his head.

"Harry I swear to god I will leave if you carry on with this stupid accusation" I shook my head.
"Fine" he grunted.

I rolled my eyes and lay down on the sofa, he came and sat next to me so I put my feet on his lap.

He laughed "This is strange".

"What is?" I asked lifting myself up onto my elbows.

"Us, after that night I never thought you'd step foot in this house again" he sighed.

"Honestly, neither did I" I said sadly.

"Well I guess everything worked out in the end" he shrugged.

"How so?"

"Well now you are happy, you have Liam and you and I are friends" he smiled.

"Yeah I suppose" I nodded. "But when we were together you have to know I was never unhappy" I added.

He looked at me for a moment "Did you not see yourself by the end?" he asked.

"Yes but that was because you gave up" I shrugged.

"I didn't give up on us" he shook his head.

"What would you call it then?" I asked confused.

"I set you free" he tried to smile.

"Tell me something" I ordered.

"What do you want to know?"

"Why?"

"Why what?" he asked.

"You know what, tell me".

He sighed "I've done a lot of bad things in my life, I ruin people. I didn't know what it was like to love someone or even come close to loving someone. After I lost my mum everything changed for me, I became resistant I wouldn't let anyone in. I suppose I'm still like that, but it's different now, for the first time I've wanted to let someone in. But the more I tried the more I pushed you away, I've destroyed the person's life who meant so much to me, I couldn't do that to you" he shrugged.

"You think it was your fault?"

He nodded "I couldn't stop him, I was too weak" he looked down.

I sat up and turned to face him "You were just a child Harry, he was a grown man. Having to suffer something you went through and survive is the strongest thing in the world".

"No what's strong is me saving her, I was there I could have done something. But instead I just sat there and let it happen" tears built up in his eyes.

"You can't think like that" I shook my head.

"What would you think huh?" he said coldly.

"It was a bad thing that happened, and you were very unfortunate" I shrugged.

He shook his head and got up off the sofa and stormed out the living room. 10 minutes later Jack knocked on the door and handed me over our pizza and a bottle of pepsi.

"Thanks" I smiled at him.

"No problem" he smiled before returning back to his car.

I shut the door and searched for Harry, I found him in his music room. I sat on the floor placing the pizza in front of me along with our drinks.

"Come on, don't want the pizza to get cold" I smiled.

He returned the smile and sat opposite me, we ate in silence. I didn't want things to be like this with us, I didn't want him to hurt anymore.

"So tell me about you and Ashley" I said.

"Ashley? Err okay?" he said awkwardly.

"How long have you guys been dating?" I asked.

"We're not dating, I don't date" he shrugged.

"Oh well seeing each other?"

"I'm not seeing anyone, I don't want anyone".

"That's pretty lonely" I sighed.

"I like being lonely" he looked up at me.

"Fair do's" I smiled.

"What about you and Liam?" he asked turning the conversation on me.

"We're okay" I said bluntly.

"Good" he said unconvincingly.

After we finished I went and had a quick shower, Harry gave me a pair of his boxers and a t-shirt to wear to bed.

"You know you can sleep in your bra and knickers" he smiled.

"No" I shook my head.

"It's not like I've never seen you in them before" he shrugged.

"Yeah well now it's different the sooner you start to accept that the better" I said coldly.
He nodded before leaving me alone in his room. I sighed knowing what I said was harsh, I can see he is trying but for me it's too late. I got into bed and hid under his duvet, I curled up into a ball in the middle of the bed and closed my eyes.

I'm not too sure how long I have been laying here for, but no matter how much I try I can't get to sleep. I frowned before turning over into a different position. After that didn't help I decided to get out of the bed. I heard Harry talking to someone, I stood by the door so I wouldn't be seen.

"I don't care" he said coldly. "Who do you think you are coming into my life when it's convenient?" he shook his head. "Stop calling me or I swear to god I will get a restraining order" he growled. "Fine" he hung up chucking his phone across the room.

I joined him in the living room and sat on the armchair. He looked up at me and smiled hiding his anger.

"It's okay to be angry yano" I tried to reassure him.

"I'm not angry" he shrugged.

"Yeah right" I rolled my eyes.

He laughed before coming over to me, I looked at him questionably as he sat on my lap.
"Err Harry?" I said awkwardly.

"Does this make you uncomfortable?" he tilted his head.

"Yes" I lied.

"Mm" he leant closer to me. "Does this?"

I nodded my head before wriggling away from him, he sighed before standing up.

"Don't do this".

"Why not?" he stood his ground.

"Because it's not right, we aren't together when are you going to get that?" I said agitated.
"No when are you going to get that you belong with me instead of him" he frowned.

"I don't understand why you are doing this, you're annoyed I get it. But don't turn it around on me, I have done nothing to you" I shouted.

He sighed "I'm sorry" tears appeared in his eyes. "Can you stay with me tonight?"
I shook my head "Harry I can't".

"Just as friends, that's what friends do right?"

I let out a groan in frustration "Fine" I moaned before going back to his room.
He followed me up the stairs and got into bed beside me. I turned away from him, I didn't want to let him think he has won because he hasn't. He pulled me close to him and hugged me tightly.

"Harry" I moaned.

This only made him hold me tighter as he leant his head on my neck. I turned to face him, and stared at him for a while.

"What are you going to do?" I asked.

"What do you mean?"

"About your dad" I said.

"I don't know, but I'm not letting him near me" he frowned.

I looked down at his hand next to mine and curled my finger around his. His hand reacted immediately as he placed his hand in mine.

"Good night" I smiled before closing my eyes.

"Night" he kissed my forehead.

I fell asleep easily this time with my hand in his, I was too comfortable in his presence. This gave me an unsettling feeling that I couldn't shake.