It's Simple.
A
When I look into your eyes
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
Well, there's so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?
Well, I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up
And when you're needing your space
To do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find
'Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No, I won't give up
I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got, yeah, we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you're still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I've got, and what I'm not, and who I am
I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up, still looking up…
I Won’t Give Up- Jason Mraz
[Jamie's P.O.V.]
Okay, they're probably still in New York. I'm good now.
I guess it's safe to say that I'm avoiding contact with the members of One Direction.
WHO I NOW KNOW are; Zayn, Liam, Louis, Harry and Niall. And they were grouped together on the X-Factor. Oh! Oh! And they're British, excluding Niall who is Irish. And they— Wait... Who cares. Everyone knows this besides me.
I mentally slapped my forehead and focused back on my food; A breakfast burrito! Although I think I added too much sausage... Maybe I could've added a dash more of salt... And more hash browns...
My thoughts were shortly interrupted by Bad Reputation, which, was being blasted by my phone.
Dammit, it's by the microwave.
I set my fork down and got up from my seat, walking quickly to answer whoever was calling.
Once I got to it, I saw it was an unknown number. I pressed answer and placed the phone against my ear.
"Hello?"
"Jamie...?" It was two different voices.
"Umm... Yes?" I then heard murmurs from multiple voices.
"See you in lunch." All the voices spoke before the line went dead.
Uhh... Creepy much?
"Mija!" I looked up from my phone to see my mom coming into the kitchen. She had her cellphone in her hand as she swiped and focused hard on what was on the screen before her.
"What's up?" I asked her as I placed my phone in my pocket, and went back to sit and eat my burrito.
"We're gonna need your help for the party on Friday. Don't make any plans!"
"Party? For who?" I asked as I took a bite of my burrito.
"Your uncle Mike." She sighed as she walked over to the table and sat besides me.
"Uncle Mike is like the easiest to make a party for! Why do you look so down?" I chuckled.
She set her phone down and leaned back in her chair.
"I gotta help make the food." She grumbled as she crossed her arms over her chest.
I laughed a bit and she shot me a small smirk.
"I can still be lazy too!"
"I can tell mami."
"And you can be just as lazy." She smiled as she looked at me up and down.
I guess she was referring to my natural hair being down, glasses on, jeans, and an old blue sweater that I bought from the schools spirit shop.
"Yo me miro fabulosa." [I look fabulous.] I snapped my fingers dramatically in the air.
My mom just raised her eyebrows, got up, and went to the sink.
"Hey! Don't give me that look!"
~
"What the fuuuucck." Julie dragged out the word as I finished telling her my story.
I would've told her earlier, but, I forgot. It wasn't until we were heading into lunch that I remembered the whole morning incident.
Please don't let it be some crazy guy. I will freak outtt...
"Maybe it was like... Ryan and his friends. You know how they get." Julie said as we took our seats at our regular table.
"I guess. Whatever. I need to do some English homework. What day is it today?"
"Uhhh the fourth?" Julie said in a question. She peaked at her phone then smiled at me.
"Yup. The fourth."
"Thank youuu...." I dragged the word as I pulled my English notebook out. I looked for a black pen, then the short story my teacher assigned us. I set both on the table and stared blankly at them.
"Well? What's the deal Jamie?" I looked up to see Julie chuckling.
"I hate close reading analysis." I sighed and picked up my short story.
"Okay... Main idea; Kinda cliche. Honestly... Survival of the fittest again? Okay... Umm, how do I put this in a sentence? The two philosophies represent a bigger meaning towards the topic of... Fucking bitches... Getting money...."
Julie's loud laughter caught me by surprise.
"What?" I giggled as I set the paper down.
Julie still looked like she was struggling to stop laughing, but, regained a steady breathing pattern again. She held a finger up, wanting me to wait a bit longer, then she sighed.
"You honestly need to stop that; Analyzing out loud." She grinned.
"It helps me focus! Kind of! Not really... I have ADD." I pouted.
"Excuses, excuses." She laughed and looked down at her phone.
"Whatever. I just wanna finish this though. I only need a sentence summary after I finish analyzing." I sighed and picked my pen up to jot ideas down while Julie's other friends gathered at the table.
I'm glad there's a thing called earphones, cause without them, I would never be able to block out their constant gossiping and laughing.
I worked on forming a good sentence as I tapped my foot and hummed to the song that was playing; Michael Jackson's Beat It.
"Da... Da da da... Da... da da da!" I mumbled as I wrote.
"JAMIE!"
"AHHHHFUCKYOU!" I shrieked when Maya remove an ear bud and yelled my name into my ear.
"What the FUCK?!" I squealed in a high pitch voice as I took my earbud away from her.
"Julie was trying to catch your attention." She sighed and turned her body around to look over at something.
Why is everyone screaming–
"Umm... Jamie..." I turned to see Julie with wide eyes. Her hand rose up and she pointed a shaky finger somewhere behind me.
I narrowed my eyes at her cause she almost looked... White.
Well I mean she IS white... But… Yeah. Ha ha ha. I made a funny.
I turned my whole body around to see what she was pointing at.
What kind of boyband comes to your lunch period, sets up microphones, and stands in an empty table right in front of you? Especially if they're supposed to be in New York, like, right now.
I stayed as still as a mannequin as I watched guards surround the table where Louis, Zayn, Liam, Harry and Niall stood, waving at everyone.
Why, why, why, why, why?!
I panicked and looked back and forth, trying to find an escape.
"WHAT'S UP EVERYONE?!" Louis shouted into one of the mic's.
He got a roar of screams as a response.
He shot his eyes to me, smiling from ear to ear.
"You didn't answer my calls." He mumbled into the mic.
I smiled sheepishly and turned to Julie with a droopy, scared, worried, look.
Julie just stuttered and shrugged, unknowing what to say to me.
I turned my head back around as Liam said a couple things. Harry then took his own mic and looked down at me.
"We have some unfinished business here." He smiled and winked at me.
I felt my cheeks burn and I let my eyes wander around.
"So how about lunch and entertainment?" Niall's voice boomed through the speakers.
"Any requests? *Fake Cough*Jamie?" Niall cleared his throat, and I looked up to meet his sad blue eyes looking down at me...
"Uhh... I-"
"LIVE WHILE WE'RE YOUNG!"
"MOMENTS!"
"WHAT MAKES YOU BEAUTIFUL!"
People shouted names of every song possible and distracted the boys long enough for me to walk off quickly.
"Mimi!" Julie hissed at me.
"Shhh!" I glared at her and continue to tip toe just as music began to play, and screams began to erupt.
Freedom is only...
Behind...
Liam...
"Hello, hello, I know it's been a while, but Jamie, I got something that I really wanna let you know, yeah, something that I wanna let you know, oh, oh, oh, oh." He sang as he stopped in front of me.
I quickly backed up and turned to run, but, crashed into someone.
Dammit Louis!
"You say, you say to everybody that you hate me. Couldn't blame you 'cause I know I left you all alone, yeah, I know that I left you all alone, oh, oh, oh, oh." He smirked as he tried blocking my way.
I walked towards another door, and...
Surprise surprise;
Blocked again.
This time by Harry.
"Yeah, now I'm back at your door." WHY THOUGH.
"You're looking at me unsure," oh how ironic.
"I should've seen it before; You're all I think about, baby!" He smiled and pulled me towards the center table as he sang.
He lifted me up, dead smack in the middle as the guys surrounded me below.
Someone just... Help.
"I was so stupid for letting you go! But I-I-I know you're still the one! You might have moved on, But girl, you should know; That I-I-I know you're still the one!" Meeehhh. What do I do?! Everyone thinks I'm probably playing along with the song! Even Julie was clapping and cheering.
"I know it's saying too much," Ha.
"But I will never give up! I was so stupid for letting you go." Well I KINDA ran off... So...
"But I-I-I know you're still the one!" I took a chance and air flipped over them, landing behind Niall.
People cheered an clapped for me.
Oh why thank you.
"I-I-I know you're still the one!"
But... it was a Bad move.
Niall pulled me by my hand, and looked me deep in the eyes.
"Hello, hello, I'm really hoping you'll forgive me!" I... I–
"I keep talking, begging, tell me what I wanna hear yeah! Girl, just tell me what I wanna hear..." I... Umm...
My thoughts were interrupted when Harry whirled me around and made me face his soft green eyes.
"I tried, I'll try to start again and find somebody, but I remember all the times and all the words we said, yeah,I can't get it out of my head"
I spun away from him and got caught by Zayn .
This isn't funny anymore!
"Yeah... Now I'm back at your door! You're looking at me unsure....I should've seen it before;" he spun me back to Harry.
"You're all I think about, baby!" Harry belched out as he brought me back up to the table.
"I was so stupid for letting you go! But I-I-I know you're still the one." Help me.
"You might have moved on, but girl, you should know," The cheerleaders started rushing towards us all.
"That I-I-I know you're still the one!" The cheerleaders began to do a simple, repetitive dance and Jasmine brought me down with them.
Yes… She’s a cheerleader…
“We’ve got you.” She chuckled as she pulled me with her.
I smiled awkwardly as she began to do the steps and enforced me to do it with them.
"I know it's saying too much, but I will never give up! I was so stupid for letting you go!" Ehh, might as well join. I started doing their little steps, and, kinda had fun.
"But I-I-I know you're still the one." We began to follow the guys around as they ran through the cafeteria.
"SING ALONG IF YOU KNOW THE WORDS!" Niall shouted into his mic.
"Hey you, you're still the one!" They ran up to a random girl and sang to her.
"Hey you, you're still the one!" And another.
"Hey you, you're still the one!" And yet another.
"Hey you-" They all turned and pointed to me...
"You're still the one!"
Back to dancing!
“Having fun?” Jasmine teased as she dance passed me with a grin.
I just chuckled and kept moving.
"I know it's saying too much! But I will never give up! I was so stupid for letting you go! But I-I-I know you're still the one. I-I-I know you're still the one!"
Once the song was done, all I heard was a wave of cheers and claps throughout the lunch room. Louis draped his arm around my shoulders and leaned into my ear.
"We won't stop until you listen to what we have to say." I looked at him, obviously having a baffled look by how he was grinning stupidly at me. He turned back to everyone and waved every so often.
I awkwardly looked ahead as well and turned to Julie.
She mouthed an 'I'm sorry!' And continued to clap.
Ugh.
~
I couldn't focus at all in math.
Louis words kept pounding in my head! What did he mean they wouldn't stop? I mean... They left right after lunch–
"Ms. Conroy!" I shot my head up when I heard my name being called out by my teacher.
"Yeah?" I scrunched my eyebrows at her, and she just nodded me over. I slowly got out of my seat and walked to the front. The class went silent for a second as everyone watched me, but, continued with their chatter afterwards. She had a small blue paper in her hand.
"This is for you." She handed it to me and I smiled as I took it from her. I opened it up as I walked back to my seat. I sat down and read it to myself.
Surprise surprise! Look behind you.
Oh no....
I placed the paper on my desk and shut my eyes.
"Please, please, please..." I opened an eye up and turned my body around to see Liam and Zayn badly disguised in mustaches, snap backs, and 'geeky' glasses. Zayn looked up to me and pointed his pencil at me.
"Do you have the answer to number two?" He asked casually.
"What are you two doing in here?!" I hissed under my breath.
"What about number three? I don't get it." Liam mumbled as he focused hard on the paper in front of him.
"Oh, I got that one." Zayn said smugly, and Liam shot him a look.
"GUYS!"
"Ms. Conroy, is there a problem?" My teacher asked.
I looked at Liam and Zayn and smirked. I turned to my teacher and smiled.
"There IS actually. You see–"
"We don't get number two!" Liam called out.
"Alright, anyone else stuck on it?" The teacher asked as she went up to the smart board. She got multiple yeah's and began working on it.
Umm, hello?! HE'S NOT YOUR STUDENT.
I turned to them with a bewildered look.
"She's in on it." Was all Liam said before he smiled.
"How come nobody in the room-"
"Is saying anything?" Zayn finished my question.
I nodded rapidly and looked at them for an answer.
"They all know too." Liam smiled.
"Wh-what?" I looked around the room and started to notice that everyone kept looking back at where Liam Zayn were. They cracked a smile or waved once in a while.
Okay, I'm impressed.
"How come they aren't-"
"Attacking us?"
He's good at finishing my sentences.
"We made a deal." Liam smiled.
I groaned and shook my head in confusion.
"Why are you here?" I looked at them.
"Wait, is the answer two pi?" Liam asked as he looked up to the teacher. She simply nodded and continued to work on the problem.
"I'm amazing." Liam smiled as he continued to look at the problems.
"Liam!" Zayn snapped for his attention, and Liam quickly shot up startled.
"Huh?" Liam smiled behind his mustache. I couldn't help but laugh a bit at the two.
"For the third time; Why are you here?" I smiled.
"Well, we decided to confront you at school since we knew you could probably escape from us if it was after school." Zayn said as he leaned back a bit.
"Confront me about what?" Okay, I’ll admit I was playing dumb, and they could probably tell, but, I didn’t want to talk about what happened.
“We know you know what we mean. And we’re really sorry for being a part of it and not telling you.” Liam smiled apologetically.
“I wanted to text it to you-”
“Oh shut up.” I laughed at Zayn’s comment.
“We really do mean it though. We’re sorry about everything Jamie.”
“I thought it was Mimi.” Zayn mmbled.
“It’s Jamie. My nickname is Mimi. Call me what you want.” I smiled at them.
“How about Barney.” Zayn laughed.
“Why would you say that?” I chuckled as I narrowed my eyes at him.
“You’re hair is purple.” Liam nodded at it.
Oh.
“I think I’m gonna dye it again…. I don’t want to be referred as a purple dinosaur.” I laughed to myself.
“A very cute purple dinosaur.” Liam smiled.
How could I NOT forgive these two?
“I love you guys.” I chuckled.
~
“So you decided on a person? Very nice. Others are just doing cartoon characters or sceneries.” My art teacher shot me an approving smile as he saw my pre-sketch in my sketch notebook.
“I noticed.” I lauged as I looked at the sketch myself.
I was hoping the real one will look better, especially since im adding color to it… And I now have many photos to look at for reference.
“Who is he anyways?” He asked as he handed me back my book.
“A friend.” I smiled as I closed my book.
“A really great friend.”
“Well, he better be glad you’re putting so much work into it. Keep making the outline and remember to define the features in his hair. Oh, and that kid has been standing behind you for the twenty seconds.” He laughed deeply as he walked away to help other students with their projects.
Wait, what?
“JAMIE!”
I screamed terribly loud when I heard a loud voice boom by my ear.
I turned around and saw it was Louis who was now cracking up at my facial expression.
“LOU! WHAT THE HELL.” I smacked his chest playfully and started to take in deep breaths.
“Im sorry babe! But your face was hilarious!” Louis laughed as he held his stomach.
I laughed along with him and then remembered my art project…
I can’t let him see it!
I hid it discreetly as I watched him slowly calm down.
“Sooo, why are you in my art class?” I smiled at him once he calmed down.
He wiped a tear and looked up to me.
“To tell you the same thing you’re gonna hear all day; Sorry. I should’ve told you from the moment I found out. Niall told me he was goint to tell you personally though…. Soo… I didn’t open my mouth. Well, I mean I kinda did…” He shrugged and smiled at me.
I don’t know what got into me, but, I ran straight towards him and engulfed him in a hug. He immediately wrapped his arms around me and got a tight grip on me.
After what seemed like forever, I let him go and smiled down to him. He shot me a sidelong smile and cocked his head to one side.
“What was that for?” He chuckled.
“I’m just really glad that you tried doing something about it, Louis. You don’t know how much it means to me that you want to help. Especially since I felt like Niall-”
“We’re guys. We’re idiots.”
I laughed at him trying to maintain a serious face.
“Our simple minds don’t react and we don’t know what we’re doing. Don’t be so harsh on Niall when it’s his turn to talk-”
“Wait wait wait wait…. When’s Niall gonna talk to me?” I panicked a little. I kinda didn’t want to confront him after I ran off on him like that.
That… And I never answered his texts or calls…
“Umm… What are you drawing?” He launched himself at my work station, and I immediately blocked him.
“Nothing.” I felt my face turning red as I moved things around to hide the drawing.
“C’mon Jamie! Don’t be so-”
“NO!”
“C’mon!”
“Hey-”
“I just wanna-”
“LOU!”
“JAMIE!”
“It’s nothing-”
“The let me-”
“NO!”
“Just a peak!”
“Stop!”
“FINE.”
He shot me a pouty face and crossed his arms over his chest. I walked up to him and poked his cheek.
“C’mon. Where’s that smile?”
“Oh stop!” He laughed and grabbed my hand.
“Can I at least see some other things of yours?”
“Uhh… Sure?” I flipped through my sketch book randomly to the first one I saw.
“Wow… Who is this?” Louis chuckled as he examined the girl.
“Just an old friend of mine…” I smiled lightly.
“Zayn really wanted to come in during your art class. He’s an artist himself.” Louis smiled as he continued to look at every detail.
“Really now? Hmm… Never imagined that…” I chuckled to myself.
“Say, how come you’re not in a disguise Lou?”
“I am!” He smiled up to me.
“What exactly are you supposed to be?” I challenged him.
He stood up straight and smirked at me.
“Im Louis Tomlinson, from One Direction. You probably don’t know them-”
“Oh ha ha. Very funny.” I shoved him and we both laughed.
“It’s a very convincing costume.”
“I try my best.” He winked at me.
~
“Please take a seat.” My teacher instructed us as we walked into the auditorium for English class.
Why? I have no clue.
Best guess? She’s gonna pick someone to act out the short story.
“Just my luck.”
“And spread out please! I don’t want to hear any chatter amongst yourselves.”
A loud wave of groans and complains were heard throughout the room as we all shifted some place else.
I sat in the fourth row and waited for the lesson to begin.
“So, what was the story about?”
I jumped slightly when I turned to my right and saw Harry plopped down besides me in what I guess was supposed to be his disguise; A beanie….
“Bet you didn’t recognize me.” Harry smiled, making his dimples poke out from his cheeks.
“Didn’t even recognize you.” I played along.
He stretched his arms over his head and then leaned back on the seats.
“I’m the master of disguise.” He smiled to me.
I chuckled and took my backpack off from behind me. I took my worksheet out along with a notebook and pen.
“So, what’s up?” I asked without looking up from my paper.
“You know why I’m here.”
“Not to apologize, is it? You don’t have anything to-”
“I’m sorry for putting you in this position.”
I didn’t see that one coming.
I looked up to see Harry giving me a serious look.
“What do you mean by that?” I asked in an almost whisper.
Harry took off his beanie and leaned forward, supporting himself with the seat in front of him. He ran his fingers through his hair a couple times before stopping. I watched him take in a deep breath before exhaling and turning to face me. A smile swept before him and his eyes shifted down.
“I know how Niall feels about you…Even if he denies it.” My breath hitched a bit, and I froze.
“But the bad thing…” He sighed and looked up to meet my eyes.
“The bad thing is that I feel the same way.”
I didn’t know what to say. It was as if everything stopped at this one moment... And so many fears came sweeping into my mind….
“I know what you’re thinking,” He chuckled lightly as he looked ahead.
I watched how he moved in his seat, how his hands kept fidgeting with the beanie, how his chest rose up and down from the small breaths he was taking…
“Niall is one of my best mates… And I really care for him. We don’t ever let a girl get in between us, but,” He turned to look at me.
“You’re here now.” He smiled somberly at me.
“Harry, I think that maybe I should-”
“Don’t leave… That will only make things worse.” He cut me off.
“I know when the time comes… You’ll probably make a decision-”
“But Harry, Niall and I are just-”
“You and him are just ‘Friends’, I know.” He chuckled as he put air quotes around the word friends.
“But I can tell you have some sort of feelings for him too… You proved it by the way you cried over him…” He sighed sadly.
Do I really…?
“But, I still have hope. I really like you Mimi… And I’ll prove to you that I mean it.”
~
“WHAAAAATTTT?!” Ryan stopped stirring the chocolate and shrieked.
“Shhh! Don’t make such a huge scene!” I mumbled as I fixed my chef’s hat.
“JAMIE. Do you know how many people fantasize about what you just told me?! That’s like… Fanfiction come to life!”
“Fanfiction?”
“Nothing. But, Jamie… That. Is. Huge.” He sighed dreamily.
“Keep stirring.” I laughed as I continued to churn the ice cream.
“So, what else happened?”
“If you consider him kissing my cheek-”
“LORD SWITCH MY BODY WITH JAMIE’S CAUSE SHE’S LIVING THE LIFE RIGHT NOW!” Ryan said loudly as he raised his arms up to the ceiling.
“Oh my god, it’s nothing he hasn’t done before-”
“I am going to find some way to transform myself into you and take him for myself.” Ryan hissed at me.
I just laughed it off and continued to work.
“Who would you pick?”
I stopped and stood there with my mouth gaped open to Ryan.
“What?”
“Do you not understand the seriousness of this whole dilemma?!”
“Two hot guys are fighting over you. What’s the dilemma?”
“You are so stupid.” I laughed and went back to check on our waffles.
I couldn’t help but think about Harry…. And Niall… Why me? I’m nothing special! I really care for the two, and don’t want to see something bad coming out of this whole thing.
I took the waffles to our work station and set them down. I set them on three different plates; One for Powers, one for Ryan, and one for myself. I placed a waffle on each one and then topped them with ice cream.
“Do you wanna do the chocolate Ry-”
“Sure!”
I stood there with my lips parted. I looked behind me and saw Ryan fangirling quietly in the corner with some other girls as they watched me….
And Niall….
“Is that good enough? Or do I add more?” He flashed me a smile, revealing the sequence of wires that ran across his teeth.
“Umm…” I looked down at the food.
“Y-yeah… That’s good.” I nodded as I stared up at Niall.
He flashed me a smile and looked proud of himself.
“Cool! I’ll give one to your teacher, then, we can work on that pizza.” He smiled as he took a plate and ran off with it to Powers.
And I stood there dubfounded.
“Oh my god…. I just met Niall fucking Horan.” Ryan squealed as he came up to me with the biggest grin. I just smacked his chest.
“What the fuck?!” He laughed as he rubbed the spot.
“Why didn’t you warn me that he was here?!” I hissed at him under my breath. I looked back to Niall and saw he was saying something to my teacher that made her laugh.
“He told me not to.” Ryan simply put it.
I let out a groan as I took out what we had ready for the pizza.
“At least stay here and help me knead the dough-”
“Okay!” Niall took it from me and started.
Oh jesus….
~
Only thirty more minutes in this class and we’re out.
Longest thirty in my life. At least the other twenty five were over with.
I sighed and looked over to a concentrating Niall. He looked so silly with the sauce on his cheeks, tongue poking out, and the chefs hat titled slightly to the left
“Wait, Niall, you have to pour the sauce like this.” I took a hold of his hand from behind and demonstrated.
“Oh, alright. And then you just-” He started spreading it and I smiled proudly.
“Yeah! You got it.”
“*Fake Cough* You’re holding his hand * Fake Cough*” Niall and I turned around to see Ryan eating his waffle by us. He fanned his face and let out a sigh.
“Spicy!”
“It’s a waffle.” Niall and I said simultaneously.
I looked up to him, and he looked down to me, and we chuckled as I let go of him.
“Now the toppings!” I cheered as I brought the pepperoni and cheese to him.
“I’ll put them on.” Niall tried taking the bowls from me.
“Umm… No… I’ll-”
“Both of you do it!” Ryan said annoyed. He quickly clasped his hands over his mouth and pretended he didn’t say anything.
“Alright….” I laughed and Niall and I began to work. It didn’t take long though, and we popped the pizza in the oven.
“Okay…We leave it there for twenty and just wait till it’s done so we can eat it!” I smiled at Niall.
“I bet we make the best chefs.” He smirked at me as we walked over to wash out hands.
“Well, I know I do.” I grinned cockily.
“Conceited much?”
“Let’s not have this conversation again.” I laughed as we finished up.
“Alright. But we do need to talk about something.” Niall’s voice went serious.
I shut my eyes and held on to the edge of the sink.
The one thing I wanted to avoid talking about, and with the person I didn’t want to talk to talk to it about…. Great.
“Niall-”
“I did it because I was afraid.”
What?
I turned my attention to him and noticed his eyes looked lighter.
He sat down at a table and patted a seat besides him for me to take. I did as he wanted me to and waited for him to go on. He seemed a bit down though… And it looked like he was fighting a battle within himself.
“When I first met you, I didn’t think much of it. I felt extremely bad that I broke your camera and just wanted to help you with it. The whole time though, since you didn’t know who I was, I felt like… Like I was just a normal person. I wasn’t Niall Horan from One Direction, I was Niall Horan; The happy Irish boy from Mullingar. I didn’t realize what I had gotten myself into by lying about who I was, until, you started to get to me.” He sighed as he looked at me.
“You’re really such an amazing person Jamie… And… I don’t want to lose you. I realized that when I saw you again in London, and you changed my mood instantly. You’re so genuine and I feel like you really do care about ME, not everything else. I can’t help but think that I hurt you so bad by keeping this whole thing a secret.” He looked at me sadly.
“I do care for you…” I let out in a whisper.
“I really hope you’ll forgive me. My days were crap since I never got to talk to you. You crack jokes, make me smile, and just make the whole day worthwhile with a small text. A few words make me the happiest guy out there…. A few words from you, Jamie.” He smiled sincerely at me.
All I could feel was my stomach getting queasy, and my heart was beating ten times faster. I felt the exact same way about him…
“So, will you-”
“I’m sorry.” I stood up and reached over to hug him. He stood up and positioned his arms on my lower back, bringing me in closer as he tucked his head between the crook of my neck.
“I should’ve stayed and listened to you… I shouldn’t have ran away like that…” I felt my eyes stinging, so, I tried blinking away the tears.
“I should be the one doing the apologies, not you. All you ever did was be a great friend to me. What did I do? I broke your trust…” He pulled away slightly to face me.
“Don’t cry… There’s nothing to cry about.” Niall chuckled softly as he wiped away a tear that had escaped.
“Okay…” I said quietly as I nodded my head.
“I love you, Jamie. There’s- Wait, wait, no! I didn’t mean it like-”
“Ms. Conroy! Get back to work.” Ms. Powers yelled from across the room with a smirk tugging at her lips. I nodded and quickly pulled Niall along with me as we waited for the pizza to be done.
“I didn’t mean that I LOVE you… I mean, I do, but, I love you like… Like I-”
“I get it you goof.” I shoved him as I laughed at his stuttering.
“I love you too.” I grinned at him.
And I grinned even bigger when he smiled at me.
“Im glad I didn’t give up… And I won’t ever give up…” He whispered as he looked down.
Was I supposed to hear that?
“So, is the pizza ready?!” I turned and saw all the lads coming into the room. Everyone screamed and freaked out, calling their names out as they approached me.
“Umm, almost.” I smiled as I looked at them all.
“Can I have a picture with you guys?!” Jenny, one of the girls in my class, asked them.
“And ME!”
“ME TOO!”
“Guess I’ll leave the pizza to you.” Niall laughed as he went off with the others to take pictures.
I chuckled and watched the guys goof around with everyone.
“Wow. I wish I was you.” Ryan laughed as he came up besides me.
I sighed and continued to watch the guys….
Specifically Niall and Harry….
I honestly wish I wasn’t me right now.
There’s a war going on in my mind, and it doesn’t seem like it will stop any time soon…
“Wait…. How did they find out my schedule?!” I suddenly realized as I turned to Ryan.
“Main office?” Ryan suggested with a small shrug.
“They wouldn’t just give it out! That only means one thing…” I sighed frustrated.
“Mark.”
It's like watching the night sky
Or a beautiful sunrise
Well, there's so much they hold
And just like them old stars
I see that you've come so far
To be right where you are
How old is your soul?
Well, I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up
And when you're needing your space
To do some navigating
I'll be here patiently waiting
To see what you find
'Cause even the stars they burn
Some even fall to the earth
We've got a lot to learn
God knows we're worth it
No, I won't give up
I don't wanna be someone who walks away so easily
I'm here to stay and make the difference that I can make
Our differences they do a lot to teach us how to use
The tools and gifts we got, yeah, we got a lot at stake
And in the end, you're still my friend at least we did intend
For us to work we didn't break, we didn't burn
We had to learn how to bend without the world caving in
I had to learn what I've got, and what I'm not, and who I am
I won't give up on us
Even if the skies get rough
I'm giving you all my love
I'm still looking up, still looking up…
I Won’t Give Up- Jason Mraz
[Jamie's P.O.V.]
Okay, they're probably still in New York. I'm good now.
I guess it's safe to say that I'm avoiding contact with the members of One Direction.
WHO I NOW KNOW are; Zayn, Liam, Louis, Harry and Niall. And they were grouped together on the X-Factor. Oh! Oh! And they're British, excluding Niall who is Irish. And they— Wait... Who cares. Everyone knows this besides me.
I mentally slapped my forehead and focused back on my food; A breakfast burrito! Although I think I added too much sausage... Maybe I could've added a dash more of salt... And more hash browns...
My thoughts were shortly interrupted by Bad Reputation, which, was being blasted by my phone.
Dammit, it's by the microwave.
I set my fork down and got up from my seat, walking quickly to answer whoever was calling.
Once I got to it, I saw it was an unknown number. I pressed answer and placed the phone against my ear.
"Hello?"
"Jamie...?" It was two different voices.
"Umm... Yes?" I then heard murmurs from multiple voices.
"See you in lunch." All the voices spoke before the line went dead.
Uhh... Creepy much?
"Mija!" I looked up from my phone to see my mom coming into the kitchen. She had her cellphone in her hand as she swiped and focused hard on what was on the screen before her.
"What's up?" I asked her as I placed my phone in my pocket, and went back to sit and eat my burrito.
"We're gonna need your help for the party on Friday. Don't make any plans!"
"Party? For who?" I asked as I took a bite of my burrito.
"Your uncle Mike." She sighed as she walked over to the table and sat besides me.
"Uncle Mike is like the easiest to make a party for! Why do you look so down?" I chuckled.
She set her phone down and leaned back in her chair.
"I gotta help make the food." She grumbled as she crossed her arms over her chest.
I laughed a bit and she shot me a small smirk.
"I can still be lazy too!"
"I can tell mami."
"And you can be just as lazy." She smiled as she looked at me up and down.
I guess she was referring to my natural hair being down, glasses on, jeans, and an old blue sweater that I bought from the schools spirit shop.
"Yo me miro fabulosa." [I look fabulous.] I snapped my fingers dramatically in the air.
My mom just raised her eyebrows, got up, and went to the sink.
"Hey! Don't give me that look!"
~
"What the fuuuucck." Julie dragged out the word as I finished telling her my story.
I would've told her earlier, but, I forgot. It wasn't until we were heading into lunch that I remembered the whole morning incident.
Please don't let it be some crazy guy. I will freak outtt...
"Maybe it was like... Ryan and his friends. You know how they get." Julie said as we took our seats at our regular table.
"I guess. Whatever. I need to do some English homework. What day is it today?"
"Uhhh the fourth?" Julie said in a question. She peaked at her phone then smiled at me.
"Yup. The fourth."
"Thank youuu...." I dragged the word as I pulled my English notebook out. I looked for a black pen, then the short story my teacher assigned us. I set both on the table and stared blankly at them.
"Well? What's the deal Jamie?" I looked up to see Julie chuckling.
"I hate close reading analysis." I sighed and picked up my short story.
"Okay... Main idea; Kinda cliche. Honestly... Survival of the fittest again? Okay... Umm, how do I put this in a sentence? The two philosophies represent a bigger meaning towards the topic of... Fucking bitches... Getting money...."
Julie's loud laughter caught me by surprise.
"What?" I giggled as I set the paper down.
Julie still looked like she was struggling to stop laughing, but, regained a steady breathing pattern again. She held a finger up, wanting me to wait a bit longer, then she sighed.
"You honestly need to stop that; Analyzing out loud." She grinned.
"It helps me focus! Kind of! Not really... I have ADD." I pouted.
"Excuses, excuses." She laughed and looked down at her phone.
"Whatever. I just wanna finish this though. I only need a sentence summary after I finish analyzing." I sighed and picked my pen up to jot ideas down while Julie's other friends gathered at the table.
I'm glad there's a thing called earphones, cause without them, I would never be able to block out their constant gossiping and laughing.
I worked on forming a good sentence as I tapped my foot and hummed to the song that was playing; Michael Jackson's Beat It.
"Da... Da da da... Da... da da da!" I mumbled as I wrote.
"JAMIE!"
"AHHHHFUCKYOU!" I shrieked when Maya remove an ear bud and yelled my name into my ear.
"What the FUCK?!" I squealed in a high pitch voice as I took my earbud away from her.
"Julie was trying to catch your attention." She sighed and turned her body around to look over at something.
Why is everyone screaming–
"Umm... Jamie..." I turned to see Julie with wide eyes. Her hand rose up and she pointed a shaky finger somewhere behind me.
I narrowed my eyes at her cause she almost looked... White.
Well I mean she IS white... But… Yeah. Ha ha ha. I made a funny.
I turned my whole body around to see what she was pointing at.
What kind of boyband comes to your lunch period, sets up microphones, and stands in an empty table right in front of you? Especially if they're supposed to be in New York, like, right now.
I stayed as still as a mannequin as I watched guards surround the table where Louis, Zayn, Liam, Harry and Niall stood, waving at everyone.
Why, why, why, why, why?!
I panicked and looked back and forth, trying to find an escape.
"WHAT'S UP EVERYONE?!" Louis shouted into one of the mic's.
He got a roar of screams as a response.
He shot his eyes to me, smiling from ear to ear.
"You didn't answer my calls." He mumbled into the mic.
I smiled sheepishly and turned to Julie with a droopy, scared, worried, look.
Julie just stuttered and shrugged, unknowing what to say to me.
I turned my head back around as Liam said a couple things. Harry then took his own mic and looked down at me.
"We have some unfinished business here." He smiled and winked at me.
I felt my cheeks burn and I let my eyes wander around.
"So how about lunch and entertainment?" Niall's voice boomed through the speakers.
"Any requests? *Fake Cough*Jamie?" Niall cleared his throat, and I looked up to meet his sad blue eyes looking down at me...
"Uhh... I-"
"LIVE WHILE WE'RE YOUNG!"
"MOMENTS!"
"WHAT MAKES YOU BEAUTIFUL!"
People shouted names of every song possible and distracted the boys long enough for me to walk off quickly.
"Mimi!" Julie hissed at me.
"Shhh!" I glared at her and continue to tip toe just as music began to play, and screams began to erupt.
Freedom is only...
Behind...
Liam...
"Hello, hello, I know it's been a while, but Jamie, I got something that I really wanna let you know, yeah, something that I wanna let you know, oh, oh, oh, oh." He sang as he stopped in front of me.
I quickly backed up and turned to run, but, crashed into someone.
Dammit Louis!
"You say, you say to everybody that you hate me. Couldn't blame you 'cause I know I left you all alone, yeah, I know that I left you all alone, oh, oh, oh, oh." He smirked as he tried blocking my way.
I walked towards another door, and...
Surprise surprise;
Blocked again.
This time by Harry.
"Yeah, now I'm back at your door." WHY THOUGH.
"You're looking at me unsure," oh how ironic.
"I should've seen it before; You're all I think about, baby!" He smiled and pulled me towards the center table as he sang.
He lifted me up, dead smack in the middle as the guys surrounded me below.
Someone just... Help.
"I was so stupid for letting you go! But I-I-I know you're still the one! You might have moved on, But girl, you should know; That I-I-I know you're still the one!" Meeehhh. What do I do?! Everyone thinks I'm probably playing along with the song! Even Julie was clapping and cheering.
"I know it's saying too much," Ha.
"But I will never give up! I was so stupid for letting you go." Well I KINDA ran off... So...
"But I-I-I know you're still the one!" I took a chance and air flipped over them, landing behind Niall.
People cheered an clapped for me.
Oh why thank you.
"I-I-I know you're still the one!"
But... it was a Bad move.
Niall pulled me by my hand, and looked me deep in the eyes.
"Hello, hello, I'm really hoping you'll forgive me!" I... I–
"I keep talking, begging, tell me what I wanna hear yeah! Girl, just tell me what I wanna hear..." I... Umm...
My thoughts were interrupted when Harry whirled me around and made me face his soft green eyes.
"I tried, I'll try to start again and find somebody, but I remember all the times and all the words we said, yeah,I can't get it out of my head"
I spun away from him and got caught by Zayn .
This isn't funny anymore!
"Yeah... Now I'm back at your door! You're looking at me unsure....I should've seen it before;" he spun me back to Harry.
"You're all I think about, baby!" Harry belched out as he brought me back up to the table.
"I was so stupid for letting you go! But I-I-I know you're still the one." Help me.
"You might have moved on, but girl, you should know," The cheerleaders started rushing towards us all.
"That I-I-I know you're still the one!" The cheerleaders began to do a simple, repetitive dance and Jasmine brought me down with them.
Yes… She’s a cheerleader…
“We’ve got you.” She chuckled as she pulled me with her.
I smiled awkwardly as she began to do the steps and enforced me to do it with them.
"I know it's saying too much, but I will never give up! I was so stupid for letting you go!" Ehh, might as well join. I started doing their little steps, and, kinda had fun.
"But I-I-I know you're still the one." We began to follow the guys around as they ran through the cafeteria.
"SING ALONG IF YOU KNOW THE WORDS!" Niall shouted into his mic.
"Hey you, you're still the one!" They ran up to a random girl and sang to her.
"Hey you, you're still the one!" And another.
"Hey you, you're still the one!" And yet another.
"Hey you-" They all turned and pointed to me...
"You're still the one!"
Back to dancing!
“Having fun?” Jasmine teased as she dance passed me with a grin.
I just chuckled and kept moving.
"I know it's saying too much! But I will never give up! I was so stupid for letting you go! But I-I-I know you're still the one. I-I-I know you're still the one!"
Once the song was done, all I heard was a wave of cheers and claps throughout the lunch room. Louis draped his arm around my shoulders and leaned into my ear.
"We won't stop until you listen to what we have to say." I looked at him, obviously having a baffled look by how he was grinning stupidly at me. He turned back to everyone and waved every so often.
I awkwardly looked ahead as well and turned to Julie.
She mouthed an 'I'm sorry!' And continued to clap.
Ugh.
~
I couldn't focus at all in math.
Louis words kept pounding in my head! What did he mean they wouldn't stop? I mean... They left right after lunch–
"Ms. Conroy!" I shot my head up when I heard my name being called out by my teacher.
"Yeah?" I scrunched my eyebrows at her, and she just nodded me over. I slowly got out of my seat and walked to the front. The class went silent for a second as everyone watched me, but, continued with their chatter afterwards. She had a small blue paper in her hand.
"This is for you." She handed it to me and I smiled as I took it from her. I opened it up as I walked back to my seat. I sat down and read it to myself.
Surprise surprise! Look behind you.
Oh no....
I placed the paper on my desk and shut my eyes.
"Please, please, please..." I opened an eye up and turned my body around to see Liam and Zayn badly disguised in mustaches, snap backs, and 'geeky' glasses. Zayn looked up to me and pointed his pencil at me.
"Do you have the answer to number two?" He asked casually.
"What are you two doing in here?!" I hissed under my breath.
"What about number three? I don't get it." Liam mumbled as he focused hard on the paper in front of him.
"Oh, I got that one." Zayn said smugly, and Liam shot him a look.
"GUYS!"
"Ms. Conroy, is there a problem?" My teacher asked.
I looked at Liam and Zayn and smirked. I turned to my teacher and smiled.
"There IS actually. You see–"
"We don't get number two!" Liam called out.
"Alright, anyone else stuck on it?" The teacher asked as she went up to the smart board. She got multiple yeah's and began working on it.
Umm, hello?! HE'S NOT YOUR STUDENT.
I turned to them with a bewildered look.
"She's in on it." Was all Liam said before he smiled.
"How come nobody in the room-"
"Is saying anything?" Zayn finished my question.
I nodded rapidly and looked at them for an answer.
"They all know too." Liam smiled.
"Wh-what?" I looked around the room and started to notice that everyone kept looking back at where Liam Zayn were. They cracked a smile or waved once in a while.
Okay, I'm impressed.
"How come they aren't-"
"Attacking us?"
He's good at finishing my sentences.
"We made a deal." Liam smiled.
I groaned and shook my head in confusion.
"Why are you here?" I looked at them.
"Wait, is the answer two pi?" Liam asked as he looked up to the teacher. She simply nodded and continued to work on the problem.
"I'm amazing." Liam smiled as he continued to look at the problems.
"Liam!" Zayn snapped for his attention, and Liam quickly shot up startled.
"Huh?" Liam smiled behind his mustache. I couldn't help but laugh a bit at the two.
"For the third time; Why are you here?" I smiled.
"Well, we decided to confront you at school since we knew you could probably escape from us if it was after school." Zayn said as he leaned back a bit.
"Confront me about what?" Okay, I’ll admit I was playing dumb, and they could probably tell, but, I didn’t want to talk about what happened.
“We know you know what we mean. And we’re really sorry for being a part of it and not telling you.” Liam smiled apologetically.
“I wanted to text it to you-”
“Oh shut up.” I laughed at Zayn’s comment.
“We really do mean it though. We’re sorry about everything Jamie.”
“I thought it was Mimi.” Zayn mmbled.
“It’s Jamie. My nickname is Mimi. Call me what you want.” I smiled at them.
“How about Barney.” Zayn laughed.
“Why would you say that?” I chuckled as I narrowed my eyes at him.
“You’re hair is purple.” Liam nodded at it.
Oh.
“I think I’m gonna dye it again…. I don’t want to be referred as a purple dinosaur.” I laughed to myself.
“A very cute purple dinosaur.” Liam smiled.
How could I NOT forgive these two?
“I love you guys.” I chuckled.
~
“So you decided on a person? Very nice. Others are just doing cartoon characters or sceneries.” My art teacher shot me an approving smile as he saw my pre-sketch in my sketch notebook.
“I noticed.” I lauged as I looked at the sketch myself.
I was hoping the real one will look better, especially since im adding color to it… And I now have many photos to look at for reference.
“Who is he anyways?” He asked as he handed me back my book.
“A friend.” I smiled as I closed my book.
“A really great friend.”
“Well, he better be glad you’re putting so much work into it. Keep making the outline and remember to define the features in his hair. Oh, and that kid has been standing behind you for the twenty seconds.” He laughed deeply as he walked away to help other students with their projects.
Wait, what?
“JAMIE!”
I screamed terribly loud when I heard a loud voice boom by my ear.
I turned around and saw it was Louis who was now cracking up at my facial expression.
“LOU! WHAT THE HELL.” I smacked his chest playfully and started to take in deep breaths.
“Im sorry babe! But your face was hilarious!” Louis laughed as he held his stomach.
I laughed along with him and then remembered my art project…
I can’t let him see it!
I hid it discreetly as I watched him slowly calm down.
“Sooo, why are you in my art class?” I smiled at him once he calmed down.
He wiped a tear and looked up to me.
“To tell you the same thing you’re gonna hear all day; Sorry. I should’ve told you from the moment I found out. Niall told me he was goint to tell you personally though…. Soo… I didn’t open my mouth. Well, I mean I kinda did…” He shrugged and smiled at me.
I don’t know what got into me, but, I ran straight towards him and engulfed him in a hug. He immediately wrapped his arms around me and got a tight grip on me.
After what seemed like forever, I let him go and smiled down to him. He shot me a sidelong smile and cocked his head to one side.
“What was that for?” He chuckled.
“I’m just really glad that you tried doing something about it, Louis. You don’t know how much it means to me that you want to help. Especially since I felt like Niall-”
“We’re guys. We’re idiots.”
I laughed at him trying to maintain a serious face.
“Our simple minds don’t react and we don’t know what we’re doing. Don’t be so harsh on Niall when it’s his turn to talk-”
“Wait wait wait wait…. When’s Niall gonna talk to me?” I panicked a little. I kinda didn’t want to confront him after I ran off on him like that.
That… And I never answered his texts or calls…
“Umm… What are you drawing?” He launched himself at my work station, and I immediately blocked him.
“Nothing.” I felt my face turning red as I moved things around to hide the drawing.
“C’mon Jamie! Don’t be so-”
“NO!”
“C’mon!”
“Hey-”
“I just wanna-”
“LOU!”
“JAMIE!”
“It’s nothing-”
“The let me-”
“NO!”
“Just a peak!”
“Stop!”
“FINE.”
He shot me a pouty face and crossed his arms over his chest. I walked up to him and poked his cheek.
“C’mon. Where’s that smile?”
“Oh stop!” He laughed and grabbed my hand.
“Can I at least see some other things of yours?”
“Uhh… Sure?” I flipped through my sketch book randomly to the first one I saw.
“Wow… Who is this?” Louis chuckled as he examined the girl.
“Just an old friend of mine…” I smiled lightly.
“Zayn really wanted to come in during your art class. He’s an artist himself.” Louis smiled as he continued to look at every detail.
“Really now? Hmm… Never imagined that…” I chuckled to myself.
“Say, how come you’re not in a disguise Lou?”
“I am!” He smiled up to me.
“What exactly are you supposed to be?” I challenged him.
He stood up straight and smirked at me.
“Im Louis Tomlinson, from One Direction. You probably don’t know them-”
“Oh ha ha. Very funny.” I shoved him and we both laughed.
“It’s a very convincing costume.”
“I try my best.” He winked at me.
~
“Please take a seat.” My teacher instructed us as we walked into the auditorium for English class.
Why? I have no clue.
Best guess? She’s gonna pick someone to act out the short story.
“Just my luck.”
“And spread out please! I don’t want to hear any chatter amongst yourselves.”
A loud wave of groans and complains were heard throughout the room as we all shifted some place else.
I sat in the fourth row and waited for the lesson to begin.
“So, what was the story about?”
I jumped slightly when I turned to my right and saw Harry plopped down besides me in what I guess was supposed to be his disguise; A beanie….
“Bet you didn’t recognize me.” Harry smiled, making his dimples poke out from his cheeks.
“Didn’t even recognize you.” I played along.
He stretched his arms over his head and then leaned back on the seats.
“I’m the master of disguise.” He smiled to me.
I chuckled and took my backpack off from behind me. I took my worksheet out along with a notebook and pen.
“So, what’s up?” I asked without looking up from my paper.
“You know why I’m here.”
“Not to apologize, is it? You don’t have anything to-”
“I’m sorry for putting you in this position.”
I didn’t see that one coming.
I looked up to see Harry giving me a serious look.
“What do you mean by that?” I asked in an almost whisper.
Harry took off his beanie and leaned forward, supporting himself with the seat in front of him. He ran his fingers through his hair a couple times before stopping. I watched him take in a deep breath before exhaling and turning to face me. A smile swept before him and his eyes shifted down.
“I know how Niall feels about you…Even if he denies it.” My breath hitched a bit, and I froze.
“But the bad thing…” He sighed and looked up to meet my eyes.
“The bad thing is that I feel the same way.”
I didn’t know what to say. It was as if everything stopped at this one moment... And so many fears came sweeping into my mind….
“I know what you’re thinking,” He chuckled lightly as he looked ahead.
I watched how he moved in his seat, how his hands kept fidgeting with the beanie, how his chest rose up and down from the small breaths he was taking…
“Niall is one of my best mates… And I really care for him. We don’t ever let a girl get in between us, but,” He turned to look at me.
“You’re here now.” He smiled somberly at me.
“Harry, I think that maybe I should-”
“Don’t leave… That will only make things worse.” He cut me off.
“I know when the time comes… You’ll probably make a decision-”
“But Harry, Niall and I are just-”
“You and him are just ‘Friends’, I know.” He chuckled as he put air quotes around the word friends.
“But I can tell you have some sort of feelings for him too… You proved it by the way you cried over him…” He sighed sadly.
Do I really…?
“But, I still have hope. I really like you Mimi… And I’ll prove to you that I mean it.”
~
“WHAAAAATTTT?!” Ryan stopped stirring the chocolate and shrieked.
“Shhh! Don’t make such a huge scene!” I mumbled as I fixed my chef’s hat.
“JAMIE. Do you know how many people fantasize about what you just told me?! That’s like… Fanfiction come to life!”
“Fanfiction?”
“Nothing. But, Jamie… That. Is. Huge.” He sighed dreamily.
“Keep stirring.” I laughed as I continued to churn the ice cream.
“So, what else happened?”
“If you consider him kissing my cheek-”
“LORD SWITCH MY BODY WITH JAMIE’S CAUSE SHE’S LIVING THE LIFE RIGHT NOW!” Ryan said loudly as he raised his arms up to the ceiling.
“Oh my god, it’s nothing he hasn’t done before-”
“I am going to find some way to transform myself into you and take him for myself.” Ryan hissed at me.
I just laughed it off and continued to work.
“Who would you pick?”
I stopped and stood there with my mouth gaped open to Ryan.
“What?”
“Do you not understand the seriousness of this whole dilemma?!”
“Two hot guys are fighting over you. What’s the dilemma?”
“You are so stupid.” I laughed and went back to check on our waffles.
I couldn’t help but think about Harry…. And Niall… Why me? I’m nothing special! I really care for the two, and don’t want to see something bad coming out of this whole thing.
I took the waffles to our work station and set them down. I set them on three different plates; One for Powers, one for Ryan, and one for myself. I placed a waffle on each one and then topped them with ice cream.
“Do you wanna do the chocolate Ry-”
“Sure!”
I stood there with my lips parted. I looked behind me and saw Ryan fangirling quietly in the corner with some other girls as they watched me….
And Niall….
“Is that good enough? Or do I add more?” He flashed me a smile, revealing the sequence of wires that ran across his teeth.
“Umm…” I looked down at the food.
“Y-yeah… That’s good.” I nodded as I stared up at Niall.
He flashed me a smile and looked proud of himself.
“Cool! I’ll give one to your teacher, then, we can work on that pizza.” He smiled as he took a plate and ran off with it to Powers.
And I stood there dubfounded.
“Oh my god…. I just met Niall fucking Horan.” Ryan squealed as he came up to me with the biggest grin. I just smacked his chest.
“What the fuck?!” He laughed as he rubbed the spot.
“Why didn’t you warn me that he was here?!” I hissed at him under my breath. I looked back to Niall and saw he was saying something to my teacher that made her laugh.
“He told me not to.” Ryan simply put it.
I let out a groan as I took out what we had ready for the pizza.
“At least stay here and help me knead the dough-”
“Okay!” Niall took it from me and started.
Oh jesus….
~
Only thirty more minutes in this class and we’re out.
Longest thirty in my life. At least the other twenty five were over with.
I sighed and looked over to a concentrating Niall. He looked so silly with the sauce on his cheeks, tongue poking out, and the chefs hat titled slightly to the left
“Wait, Niall, you have to pour the sauce like this.” I took a hold of his hand from behind and demonstrated.
“Oh, alright. And then you just-” He started spreading it and I smiled proudly.
“Yeah! You got it.”
“*Fake Cough* You’re holding his hand * Fake Cough*” Niall and I turned around to see Ryan eating his waffle by us. He fanned his face and let out a sigh.
“Spicy!”
“It’s a waffle.” Niall and I said simultaneously.
I looked up to him, and he looked down to me, and we chuckled as I let go of him.
“Now the toppings!” I cheered as I brought the pepperoni and cheese to him.
“I’ll put them on.” Niall tried taking the bowls from me.
“Umm… No… I’ll-”
“Both of you do it!” Ryan said annoyed. He quickly clasped his hands over his mouth and pretended he didn’t say anything.
“Alright….” I laughed and Niall and I began to work. It didn’t take long though, and we popped the pizza in the oven.
“Okay…We leave it there for twenty and just wait till it’s done so we can eat it!” I smiled at Niall.
“I bet we make the best chefs.” He smirked at me as we walked over to wash out hands.
“Well, I know I do.” I grinned cockily.
“Conceited much?”
“Let’s not have this conversation again.” I laughed as we finished up.
“Alright. But we do need to talk about something.” Niall’s voice went serious.
I shut my eyes and held on to the edge of the sink.
The one thing I wanted to avoid talking about, and with the person I didn’t want to talk to talk to it about…. Great.
“Niall-”
“I did it because I was afraid.”
What?
I turned my attention to him and noticed his eyes looked lighter.
He sat down at a table and patted a seat besides him for me to take. I did as he wanted me to and waited for him to go on. He seemed a bit down though… And it looked like he was fighting a battle within himself.
“When I first met you, I didn’t think much of it. I felt extremely bad that I broke your camera and just wanted to help you with it. The whole time though, since you didn’t know who I was, I felt like… Like I was just a normal person. I wasn’t Niall Horan from One Direction, I was Niall Horan; The happy Irish boy from Mullingar. I didn’t realize what I had gotten myself into by lying about who I was, until, you started to get to me.” He sighed as he looked at me.
“You’re really such an amazing person Jamie… And… I don’t want to lose you. I realized that when I saw you again in London, and you changed my mood instantly. You’re so genuine and I feel like you really do care about ME, not everything else. I can’t help but think that I hurt you so bad by keeping this whole thing a secret.” He looked at me sadly.
“I do care for you…” I let out in a whisper.
“I really hope you’ll forgive me. My days were crap since I never got to talk to you. You crack jokes, make me smile, and just make the whole day worthwhile with a small text. A few words make me the happiest guy out there…. A few words from you, Jamie.” He smiled sincerely at me.
All I could feel was my stomach getting queasy, and my heart was beating ten times faster. I felt the exact same way about him…
“So, will you-”
“I’m sorry.” I stood up and reached over to hug him. He stood up and positioned his arms on my lower back, bringing me in closer as he tucked his head between the crook of my neck.
“I should’ve stayed and listened to you… I shouldn’t have ran away like that…” I felt my eyes stinging, so, I tried blinking away the tears.
“I should be the one doing the apologies, not you. All you ever did was be a great friend to me. What did I do? I broke your trust…” He pulled away slightly to face me.
“Don’t cry… There’s nothing to cry about.” Niall chuckled softly as he wiped away a tear that had escaped.
“Okay…” I said quietly as I nodded my head.
“I love you, Jamie. There’s- Wait, wait, no! I didn’t mean it like-”
“Ms. Conroy! Get back to work.” Ms. Powers yelled from across the room with a smirk tugging at her lips. I nodded and quickly pulled Niall along with me as we waited for the pizza to be done.
“I didn’t mean that I LOVE you… I mean, I do, but, I love you like… Like I-”
“I get it you goof.” I shoved him as I laughed at his stuttering.
“I love you too.” I grinned at him.
And I grinned even bigger when he smiled at me.
“Im glad I didn’t give up… And I won’t ever give up…” He whispered as he looked down.
Was I supposed to hear that?
“So, is the pizza ready?!” I turned and saw all the lads coming into the room. Everyone screamed and freaked out, calling their names out as they approached me.
“Umm, almost.” I smiled as I looked at them all.
“Can I have a picture with you guys?!” Jenny, one of the girls in my class, asked them.
“And ME!”
“ME TOO!”
“Guess I’ll leave the pizza to you.” Niall laughed as he went off with the others to take pictures.
I chuckled and watched the guys goof around with everyone.
“Wow. I wish I was you.” Ryan laughed as he came up besides me.
I sighed and continued to watch the guys….
Specifically Niall and Harry….
I honestly wish I wasn’t me right now.
There’s a war going on in my mind, and it doesn’t seem like it will stop any time soon…
“Wait…. How did they find out my schedule?!” I suddenly realized as I turned to Ryan.
“Main office?” Ryan suggested with a small shrug.
“They wouldn’t just give it out! That only means one thing…” I sighed frustrated.
“Mark.”
Notes
I went over board on gifs and pictures.....I'm very sorry.... That I'm not sorry lol. Did anyone else notice that Niall didn't recognize RYAN? hmmm?c; mwahaha! Oooohhhh this will come in handy in the future...
Hope you guys enjoy!
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11/6/14