"Fuck." He mutters and sits on the couch with his hands fisted in his hair.

"Harry I'm sorry I didn't tell you... I just didn't think it mattered." I attempt to explain.

"You knew about Jade! So why couldn't you tell me?" He won't look at me, he keeps his head in his hands and shakes his head.

"Okay, you didn't even tell me about her, Liam did. I know I should have told you, but I didn't. It doesn't matter because I don't love him, I love you and we are together."

I will not let this argument continue, we should not be fighting over this. My day was finally getting better, and I can't lose Harry. Not again.

"Would you have kept it from me if Liam didn't tell me?" He finally looks up at me, his eyes red from his hand rubbing them.

"No..." I admit and walk over to sit next to him. "Well maybe, I don't know." My guilt probably would have made me so it at some point.

"Would you have told me about Jade?" I ask, just now wondering if he would have.

"No." He tells me without second guessing, and I finally understand how he is feeling right now. My chest tightens with the thought of never knowing, exactly how I have left him in the dark about something like this.

"I did it because I couldn't stop thinking about you, Aubrey. I was pathetic and thought it would help me get over you. I wouldn't have told you because for one, it didn't mean anything, and two, I knew it would never happen again, because I realized the only person I ever want to be with is you." His voice is quiet.

I know we already had this conversation, but to hear him say this again makes my stomach do flips and my heart flutter. The feelings he gives me are too much, I've never felt like this.

"I don't care, it doesn't matter. We are together, and that's what I care about. I'm sorry I didn't tell you about Sam, but please don't be mad." I climb onto his lap and rest my forehead against his.

After a second or so, his arms wrap around my waist and he pulls me closer. I sigh in relief and lay my head on his chest.

"I'm not mad." He whispers and I feel him kiss my head. "Well maybe at that guy for kissing you, but not at you." His hand caresses my cheek and I feel like I can breath again.

I honestly wasn't sure how this argument was going to end, but I'm glad it didn't last long. My absolute least favorite thing is fighting with Harry.

"I love you, Harry." I tell him and brush my nose against his. It's amazing how we were just fighting one minute ago.

"I'll always love you, Aubs. But no more secrets, okay?"

"Okay." I smile and finally initiate the kiss I've been waiting for. There's nothing like a good, deep kiss after a fight.

"I'm gonna go find Louis and tell him we're leaving." He pulls back and says to me.

"We're going? I thought you didn't want to?"

"Would you rather me fuck you here?" He smiles and I hit his chest. His dirty talk does things to me.

"Okay, I'm going to go say bye to the girls." I kiss him quickly and remove myself from his lap.



"Hey, me and Harry are going to head out. We'll see you guys soon?" I look at Perrie, Eleanor and two of Perrie's friends.

"It's so early though!" Eleanor pouts. "Whatever, you're living here now so we can see you whenever we want!" She smiles.

"It was nice meeting you, Aubrey!" Jesy hugs me.

"You too! Night guys." I smile and leave the room they are in to go find Harry.

"Oh, sorry." Jade mutters when she runs into me after I turn a corner in the hall.

"It's fine." I don't look at her and continue to walk around her.

"Hey, you're Aubrey right?" She stops me in my tracks.

"Yeah." I force a smile and wait for her to say something. "Harry is my boyfriend... And I know you kissed him." I tell her, and I don't know what I'm trying to get at. I'm not one for confrontation, so I'm not sure how this will turn out.

"Really?" Her expression quickly transforms into a much more serious one.

I fold my arms across my chest and nod.

"I really didn't know.. That he had a girlfriend.." She stutters.

"Well he does, so stay away from him." I try to come off harsh, but it's just not working.

It ends up coming out like I don't really care, but in actuality I care more than anyone will ever know. I think it's my hate for confrontation that is making me lack courage, but she still seems intimidated.

"I'm so sorry, he didn't tell me.." She tries to apologize.

I should probably tell her that he wouldn't have told her because we weren't actually dating at the time of their little kiss, but I chose not to.

"Well now you know. Harry and I have been dating for a year now, and I'd appreciate it if you didn't ruin things for us."

"Aubrey, I really didn't mean to ruin anything, honestly I didn't know he had a girlfriend. I swear I have no intentions of hooking up with him again... I'm really sorry."

I stand there in silence, looking down the hall. She really does sound sincere, and I know she wasn't aware that Harry and I were dating.. Because we weren't.

"I have a boyfriend now anyway, you have nothing to worry about." She adds and I finally look at her.

I don't know why, but her comment makes me feel much better. Maybe if she has a boyfriend she won't pay any attention to mine.

"Sorry.. I just don't want to lose Harry." I say quietly and look down at my hands.

I also don't know why I admit this to some stranger, but suddenly I feel bad for being rude to her.

"I totally understand. I'm sure you two are great together." She smiles sympathetically. "I'm still sorry though, I swear it won't happen again!"

"I appreciate it." I nod and tell her I'm leaving. I've had enough of these deep conversations today. First with my parents, then with Harry, now Jade.

I really can't be angry with her, I guess it's just my jealousy, and anger towards myself that I'm taking out on Jade. It really is my fault that they kissed.. If I hadn't broke up with Harry, he wouldn't feel the need to move on and kiss Jade. And I know that he wouldn't kiss her if we were still dating. Ever since I thought he cheated on me with Maddie, I have been confident that Harry never has, and never will cheat on me. It may have felt like he did when he kissed Jade, but he didn't, and I'm trying to get over this.


"Are you ready?" I ask Harry. I know I'm ready to leave.

"Yeah," he takes my hand and we finally leave.

I rest my head on his shoulder as we walk out. I'm exhausted from everything today. There is nothing I want more right now than to snuggle up with Harry in his bed and drift asleep as he plays with my hair.

Notes

You guys should read my other story Too Much :)