What has my Life become?
Chapter 1
*JESSIKAS POV*
-8 months later-
Everyday i go shower at the elderly home.
There is an old lady there her name is Jenn
She is 62 years old. Yeah you might think thats young right?
Well her kids didnt really take care of her so she decided to just go live at the elderly home instead.
Shes like a grandmother role to me.
Shes really nice.
I cant stay the night here. They dont let me. Only close family can stay the night.
Sometimes she sneaks me into her room and i fall asleep there but most of the time Im sleeping under the same bridge that i have slept in for the past 8 months.
Im so stupid.
Thats what i tell myself everyday.
The doctor from the elderly house said Im due in 2 weeks
Im so scared and nervous.
Im mean what is a 17 year old going to do with a baby of her own?
Jenn said she could help me. But i told her i would try on my pwn.
"Jenn im going to take a walk around London"
"Honey your due any time"
"I know but i need fresh air okay? i will be fine"
"Alright go on then"
I walked out i walked to the bridge.
I sat on the bench near by and decided to call Jake.
I cared about him.
He cared about me.
He tells me all the time that he hates himself because he cant take care of me. His parents think Im stupid and worthless. Maybe i am.
I dialed his number on the payphone.
"Hey Jake its Jessika!"
"Hey jess whats up!"
"Nothing just taking a walk around London"
"Arent you due like any minute?!" He asked worried
"Yeah but i needed thinking time"
"Thinking about what?"
"Jake i dont know what Im gna do once i have this baby."
I started crying
"Hey hey jess please dont cry. You know you make me cry when you cry!"
"I know Im sorry i cant help it"
"Its okay..ill go meet you..where are you?"
"Im at the bridge"
"Okay see you in 20"
I hung up and sat down on the bench crying
What am i going to do?
Im too young to handle her.
Yes my baby is going to be a little girl.
I could always just go to a home for people like me.
No no no no.
I would never do that.
I was crying for like 10 minutes when i felt a hand on my shoulder.
"Umm are you okay love?" I looked up to see a blue eyed boy. He had fluffy soft dirty blonde hair. His smile was perfect ..i was mezmorized.
"y-y-yeah"
"Well is this seat taken?"
"Umm no"
he sat down next to me. He was just looking at the view.
"when are you due?"
"Ummm.."
"Its okay sorry i didnt mean to ask."
"no its okay..im due in 2 weeks or sooner"
"Wow..well let me introduce myself properly..Im Niall" he smiled.
"Im Jessika." A little girl came to his side and ask for a hug.
"What was that about?" I asked confused
"A fan."
"A fan?!"
"You dont know who i am do you?"
"Nope sorry"
"God do you live under a rock." That kinda hurt.
"Umm no but i live under a bridge"
His eyes shot wide open and immediatly apologized
"Im so sorry it a matter of speech...im really sorry..why are you living inder a bridge?"
"Cz i have no home...its a long story..dont really wna talk about it"
he looked confused. Then i heard someone call my name
"JESSS!!!"
"jake!!"
i said while walking over to hug him.
"This your boyfriend?!" Niall asked
"No hes mybest friend Jake ..Jake this is Niall."
"Omg Niall Horan from one direction?!" Okay clearly he didnt live under a rock haha.
"Yes thats me."
"ummm " i interrupted.
"Hes in a big arse boy band!!
"oh"
*LIAMS POV*
I was looking over the bridge when i realized Niall wondered off
Ah finally i found him
talking to some blonde chick? And a guy?
Hey he wasnt bad looking
"Niiiiiiiallllll!!"
he jumped and turned around
"whaaaat?!" He asked stunned
"You left without telling me...whose this?" I asked pointing to the guys and girl..who was woah she looked our age..and she was pregnant?!
"This is Jessika and Jake!..i just met them..they are pretty cool"
"Hi Im Liam" i saod shaking both their hands.
Well i knew i was going to get along with them very well.
They both were so nice.
*ERICS POV*
I came home to find 2 girls on my bed
looking mad though?
"Do you remember me?!" The red haired girl said
"And me?" The blonde girl said.
She reminded me of Jess ..yeah i still remember her.
She was the first girl who actually completed me
That night i ..i...i...raped her
it was the biggest mistake of my life.
I miss her.
I wonder hows she doing..
i got snapped oit of my trance when the red haired girl slapped me
The the blonde one right after
"WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT FOR?!?!"
"for sleeping with us at the same time!!"
"Wooow!!! Get the fuck out of here!!"
"fine by me" the blonde one said.
the memories came back from that drunken night
i started crying.
i still live here in london. Maybe i could find her.
i know she doesnt want to see me i meam cmon its been 8 months!!
it doesnt hurt to try though.
-8 months later-
Everyday i go shower at the elderly home.
There is an old lady there her name is Jenn
She is 62 years old. Yeah you might think thats young right?
Well her kids didnt really take care of her so she decided to just go live at the elderly home instead.
Shes like a grandmother role to me.
Shes really nice.
I cant stay the night here. They dont let me. Only close family can stay the night.
Sometimes she sneaks me into her room and i fall asleep there but most of the time Im sleeping under the same bridge that i have slept in for the past 8 months.
Im so stupid.
Thats what i tell myself everyday.
The doctor from the elderly house said Im due in 2 weeks
Im so scared and nervous.
Im mean what is a 17 year old going to do with a baby of her own?
Jenn said she could help me. But i told her i would try on my pwn.
"Jenn im going to take a walk around London"
"Honey your due any time"
"I know but i need fresh air okay? i will be fine"
"Alright go on then"
I walked out i walked to the bridge.
I sat on the bench near by and decided to call Jake.
I cared about him.
He cared about me.
He tells me all the time that he hates himself because he cant take care of me. His parents think Im stupid and worthless. Maybe i am.
I dialed his number on the payphone.
"Hey Jake its Jessika!"
"Hey jess whats up!"
"Nothing just taking a walk around London"
"Arent you due like any minute?!" He asked worried
"Yeah but i needed thinking time"
"Thinking about what?"
"Jake i dont know what Im gna do once i have this baby."
I started crying
"Hey hey jess please dont cry. You know you make me cry when you cry!"
"I know Im sorry i cant help it"
"Its okay..ill go meet you..where are you?"
"Im at the bridge"
"Okay see you in 20"
I hung up and sat down on the bench crying
What am i going to do?
Im too young to handle her.
Yes my baby is going to be a little girl.
I could always just go to a home for people like me.
No no no no.
I would never do that.
I was crying for like 10 minutes when i felt a hand on my shoulder.
"Umm are you okay love?" I looked up to see a blue eyed boy. He had fluffy soft dirty blonde hair. His smile was perfect ..i was mezmorized.
"y-y-yeah"
"Well is this seat taken?"
"Umm no"
he sat down next to me. He was just looking at the view.
"when are you due?"
"Ummm.."
"Its okay sorry i didnt mean to ask."
"no its okay..im due in 2 weeks or sooner"
"Wow..well let me introduce myself properly..Im Niall" he smiled.
"Im Jessika." A little girl came to his side and ask for a hug.
"What was that about?" I asked confused
"A fan."
"A fan?!"
"You dont know who i am do you?"
"Nope sorry"
"God do you live under a rock." That kinda hurt.
"Umm no but i live under a bridge"
His eyes shot wide open and immediatly apologized
"Im so sorry it a matter of speech...im really sorry..why are you living inder a bridge?"
"Cz i have no home...its a long story..dont really wna talk about it"
he looked confused. Then i heard someone call my name
"JESSS!!!"
"jake!!"
i said while walking over to hug him.
"This your boyfriend?!" Niall asked
"No hes mybest friend Jake ..Jake this is Niall."
"Omg Niall Horan from one direction?!" Okay clearly he didnt live under a rock haha.
"Yes thats me."
"ummm " i interrupted.
"Hes in a big arse boy band!!
"oh"
*LIAMS POV*
I was looking over the bridge when i realized Niall wondered off
Ah finally i found him
talking to some blonde chick? And a guy?
Hey he wasnt bad looking
"Niiiiiiiallllll!!"
he jumped and turned around
"whaaaat?!" He asked stunned
"You left without telling me...whose this?" I asked pointing to the guys and girl..who was woah she looked our age..and she was pregnant?!
"This is Jessika and Jake!..i just met them..they are pretty cool"
"Hi Im Liam" i saod shaking both their hands.
Well i knew i was going to get along with them very well.
They both were so nice.
*ERICS POV*
I came home to find 2 girls on my bed
looking mad though?
"Do you remember me?!" The red haired girl said
"And me?" The blonde girl said.
She reminded me of Jess ..yeah i still remember her.
She was the first girl who actually completed me
That night i ..i...i...raped her
it was the biggest mistake of my life.
I miss her.
I wonder hows she doing..
i got snapped oit of my trance when the red haired girl slapped me
The the blonde one right after
"WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT FOR?!?!"
"for sleeping with us at the same time!!"
"Wooow!!! Get the fuck out of here!!"
"fine by me" the blonde one said.
the memories came back from that drunken night
i started crying.
i still live here in london. Maybe i could find her.
i know she doesnt want to see me i meam cmon its been 8 months!!
it doesnt hurt to try though.
11/16/13