Little Things
Birthday Confusion
On the way back Alex road with Zayn so he could go get us cigs (his version of a birthday present) and Louis tiny car was too crowded so I had to ride with Harry… Great.
There was a very long awkward silence before Harry finally said “I’m sorry I forgot your birthday. “
“It’s fine Harry.” I said staring out the window, willing this car ride to end.
“No its not I’ve spent your last 2 birthdays with you I should’ve remembered” his hands gripping the steering wheel tighter.
“Let’s just drop it okay?” I said as we pulled up to his apartment. I hopped out and ran over to the other boys before he could say anything else.
We all got inside and I plopped down on my favorite recliner. One because it was the best chair in the apartment and I'm the birthday girl I deserve it and two because I didn’t want to risk sitting next to Harry. I still can’t believe he forgot.
“WE’RE BAAAACCCKK!!” Zayn yelled as he opened the door. Then Alex chimed in “and we come bearing gifts!” she said holding up not one but 2 bottles of green apple Smirnoff and Zayn had a case of beer.
“Since I doubt we we’ll be drinking tomorrow might as well tonight.” She said taking the first shot of the night. She passed the bottle around as Zayn put the beers in the fridge.
So the first bottle went around until one by one everyone was a little drunk. It went around and around until every last drop was drained from that sweet little bottle. Me and Liam were the only ones who cut ourselves off after we were tipsy.
“Oi let’s play spin the bottle!” Louis yelled.
“With only 2 girls are you crazy?” Zayn said shoving him a little.
“Come on it’ll be fun! What you scared of a little man on man action?” he said making kissy faces.
“Alright let’s just start.”
So Louis spun and landed on Alex. She blushed and shared a short sweet kiss. The game went on and we made a rule that if you pass you have to take off an article of clothing. So us girls stayed fully clothes whereas Liam was one pass away from being down to his boxers.
After sharing a goofy kiss with Niall it was my turn to spin. The bottle went around and around and came to a slow stop on harry. I willed it to go just a little further but it wouldn’t budge. I waited to see if he would pass but quite the opposite. He started crawling to the middle of our little circle and waited for me. I crawled to meet him and quickly kissed his cheek. He looked a little surprised as I was pulling away and before I could react kissed me… like actually kissed me. It took me a second to realize what was going on before I kissed him back. It lasted about a minute before he pulled away. A small smile crept on his face as he crawled back to his spot. I scooted quickly back to my spot and tried to understand what just happened. Harry spun and got Louis and I took the opportunity to go have a cig.
I opened the sliding glass door to go out on the balcony. I zip my sweatshirt all the way up and pull my pack out and pull out the last cig. I tossed the pack over the side not really caring at the moment. I pulled out my lighter, lit my cig, and took a nice long drag.
I sat down and scooted towards the edge and draped my arms on the bars and just let my legs dangle down. I was in the middle of taking another drag when I heard the door slide open. I turned my head and exhaled to see Harry zipping up his jacket. He walked over and sat next to me and asked “how long you been smoking?”
“A while.”
“Why did you start?”
“You know why Harry.”
FLASHBACK
I was in line waiting to get my lunch. I was staring at a tile on the wall, concentrating on anything except my arm.
“My arm is so itchy.” I thought without realizing I had said it out loud
Harry reached into the utensil cart and pulled out a knife and told me to scratch it with that. I looked down at the knife and back at him. Then I snapped. I rolled up my sleeve, showing him the angry raw cuts from the night before and said “giving me a knife isn’t a good idea.” I pulled my sleeve and walked out of line.
END FLASHBACK
I took one last drag of my cig before stubbing it out and flicking it over the side. I turned to Harry and said “I'm cold I'm going inside are you coming?”
“Yea.” He got up dust himself off and followed me inside. I went to the other bottles opened it and took as big a shot as I could manage.
“WOOOOO look who joined the party!!!” Alex said grabbing the bottle.
LINE BREAK
We all must passed out at some point because I was snuggled up in a warm comforter. The bed beside me was warm but was lacking a body. I think I fell asleep with Alex but I wasn’t sure. I heard voices come from outside and reluctantly pulled myself out of bed to see what was going on. I crept into the living room ad saw Louis and Alex snuggled up together and before I had a chance to figure out who’s bed I fell asleep in the voices started up again. I followed them to the balcony and eavesdropped on Harry and Niall.
“She’s probably just upset you forgot her birth-“
“No Niall that’s not it. She’s been acting different ever since me and Rylan started dating.” Harry said sighing.
“Well of course she distanced herself mate. She basically told you she was in love with you and you shut her down then you went off and dated one of her best friends.”
“Well I thought things would go back to normal after me and Rylan broke up.
“She tried acting like she used to and you shut her down again and gave her the “just friends” talk. She’s probably just sick of being rejected.”
“But I don’t know what to do.”
“You need to stop playing yo-yo with this poor girls feelings. Either go out with her or stay JUST her friend and cut the flirty shit. This girl has been through enough.” I heard them make their way to the door and I ran back into the bedroom and dove under the comforter. I couldn’t hear anything they were saying from the bedroom but after a moment of trying I heard the floor boards creak. And them say goodnight.
After a minute or two I felt the bed sink down next to me. Someone climbed under the covers next to me. I closed my eyes and pretended to be asleep. The boy next to me cuddled up to me and put his arm around me. Only when he whispered “Goodnight Jazz.” And kiss my shoulder did I realize I was sharing a bed with harry for the night. Before I could devise a plan to sneak out I had already fallen back to sleep.
There was a very long awkward silence before Harry finally said “I’m sorry I forgot your birthday. “
“It’s fine Harry.” I said staring out the window, willing this car ride to end.
“No its not I’ve spent your last 2 birthdays with you I should’ve remembered” his hands gripping the steering wheel tighter.
“Let’s just drop it okay?” I said as we pulled up to his apartment. I hopped out and ran over to the other boys before he could say anything else.
We all got inside and I plopped down on my favorite recliner. One because it was the best chair in the apartment and I'm the birthday girl I deserve it and two because I didn’t want to risk sitting next to Harry. I still can’t believe he forgot.
“WE’RE BAAAACCCKK!!” Zayn yelled as he opened the door. Then Alex chimed in “and we come bearing gifts!” she said holding up not one but 2 bottles of green apple Smirnoff and Zayn had a case of beer.
“Since I doubt we we’ll be drinking tomorrow might as well tonight.” She said taking the first shot of the night. She passed the bottle around as Zayn put the beers in the fridge.
So the first bottle went around until one by one everyone was a little drunk. It went around and around until every last drop was drained from that sweet little bottle. Me and Liam were the only ones who cut ourselves off after we were tipsy.
“Oi let’s play spin the bottle!” Louis yelled.
“With only 2 girls are you crazy?” Zayn said shoving him a little.
“Come on it’ll be fun! What you scared of a little man on man action?” he said making kissy faces.
“Alright let’s just start.”
So Louis spun and landed on Alex. She blushed and shared a short sweet kiss. The game went on and we made a rule that if you pass you have to take off an article of clothing. So us girls stayed fully clothes whereas Liam was one pass away from being down to his boxers.
After sharing a goofy kiss with Niall it was my turn to spin. The bottle went around and around and came to a slow stop on harry. I willed it to go just a little further but it wouldn’t budge. I waited to see if he would pass but quite the opposite. He started crawling to the middle of our little circle and waited for me. I crawled to meet him and quickly kissed his cheek. He looked a little surprised as I was pulling away and before I could react kissed me… like actually kissed me. It took me a second to realize what was going on before I kissed him back. It lasted about a minute before he pulled away. A small smile crept on his face as he crawled back to his spot. I scooted quickly back to my spot and tried to understand what just happened. Harry spun and got Louis and I took the opportunity to go have a cig.
I opened the sliding glass door to go out on the balcony. I zip my sweatshirt all the way up and pull my pack out and pull out the last cig. I tossed the pack over the side not really caring at the moment. I pulled out my lighter, lit my cig, and took a nice long drag.
I sat down and scooted towards the edge and draped my arms on the bars and just let my legs dangle down. I was in the middle of taking another drag when I heard the door slide open. I turned my head and exhaled to see Harry zipping up his jacket. He walked over and sat next to me and asked “how long you been smoking?”
“A while.”
“Why did you start?”
“You know why Harry.”
FLASHBACK
I was in line waiting to get my lunch. I was staring at a tile on the wall, concentrating on anything except my arm.
“My arm is so itchy.” I thought without realizing I had said it out loud
Harry reached into the utensil cart and pulled out a knife and told me to scratch it with that. I looked down at the knife and back at him. Then I snapped. I rolled up my sleeve, showing him the angry raw cuts from the night before and said “giving me a knife isn’t a good idea.” I pulled my sleeve and walked out of line.
END FLASHBACK
I took one last drag of my cig before stubbing it out and flicking it over the side. I turned to Harry and said “I'm cold I'm going inside are you coming?”
“Yea.” He got up dust himself off and followed me inside. I went to the other bottles opened it and took as big a shot as I could manage.
“WOOOOO look who joined the party!!!” Alex said grabbing the bottle.
LINE BREAK
We all must passed out at some point because I was snuggled up in a warm comforter. The bed beside me was warm but was lacking a body. I think I fell asleep with Alex but I wasn’t sure. I heard voices come from outside and reluctantly pulled myself out of bed to see what was going on. I crept into the living room ad saw Louis and Alex snuggled up together and before I had a chance to figure out who’s bed I fell asleep in the voices started up again. I followed them to the balcony and eavesdropped on Harry and Niall.
“She’s probably just upset you forgot her birth-“
“No Niall that’s not it. She’s been acting different ever since me and Rylan started dating.” Harry said sighing.
“Well of course she distanced herself mate. She basically told you she was in love with you and you shut her down then you went off and dated one of her best friends.”
“Well I thought things would go back to normal after me and Rylan broke up.
“She tried acting like she used to and you shut her down again and gave her the “just friends” talk. She’s probably just sick of being rejected.”
“But I don’t know what to do.”
“You need to stop playing yo-yo with this poor girls feelings. Either go out with her or stay JUST her friend and cut the flirty shit. This girl has been through enough.” I heard them make their way to the door and I ran back into the bedroom and dove under the comforter. I couldn’t hear anything they were saying from the bedroom but after a moment of trying I heard the floor boards creak. And them say goodnight.
After a minute or two I felt the bed sink down next to me. Someone climbed under the covers next to me. I closed my eyes and pretended to be asleep. The boy next to me cuddled up to me and put his arm around me. Only when he whispered “Goodnight Jazz.” And kiss my shoulder did I realize I was sharing a bed with harry for the night. Before I could devise a plan to sneak out I had already fallen back to sleep.
7/11/13