Little Things
The Big Event
For a while now me and Harry have been talking about sex. I mean we have fooled around a lot but we have never gone all the way. We knew it was bound to happen and I wanted to make sure we talked about if first. He was hesitant at first not really knowing how to discuss it but we got it all out in the open. Past partners, any known diseases contraception the whole lot. Just because I was a virgin didn’t mean I didn’t know what to ask. For one reason or another we decided on today, May 20th. I’ve been ready for a while but wanted to wait for someone I know I was in love with. It felt right.
So Harry waked in the apartment just as I was finishing putting my hair in a messy bun he loves so much. I tugged on my robe and adjusted and smoothed it out severally times before he got to the bedroom. He eyed me up and down and said “So we really going to do this?”
“Yupp.” I said a little shaky.
“We don’t have to do this is you’re not ready.” He said taking a step closer.
“I am. I want to.” I said taking the last step between us. He pulled me in and kissed me sweetly. We kept kissing until I pushed him on to the bed. I slowly untied the robe and let it sink to the floor. I pulled my hair out of my bun and shook it out.
“I will never be able to get over how beautiful you are.” I smiled and crawled on top of him and kissed him again. He reached behind me and tried undoing my bra but his hands were shaking too much.
“Why if I didn’t know any better I would think you are more nervous than me Mr. Styles.” I said kissing his neck.
“I am. Jazz I'm so scared I’ll mess up or that you’ll regret this after.” He said looking into my eyes.
“Never going to happen. I know I want this. I wouldn’t be here right now if I didn’t. I love you.”
“I love you.” And we were kissing again this time it seemed more urgent. The last of our clothes were shed and before I knew it he was on top of me about to go in. He looked down at me with a look asking for permission. I smiled and nodded and he eased into me. It didn’t hurt as much as I thought it would. Don’t get me wrong it did hurt but I’ve heard so many horror stories over how excruciating it was and it made some girls cried. It kind of reminded me of when I gauged my ears.
I kept my hands on his hips so if it hurt too badly I could stop him and take a breath. Every few seconds I would let him go and he would sink further into me. Finally he was all the way in and he let out a breath I didn’t know he was holding. He hovered over me and asked “Are you okay?”
“Yup.” I nodded “Just give me second.” After a little I felt a little more comfortable. I moved around a little to see if it still hurt and when I didn’t I looked at him and nodded. He started moving slowly making sure I was okay. My hands slowly made their way up from his hips to his back as he thrust into me. The pain slid away and it started to feel good. My groans of pain turned into moans of pleasure. When he saw I was really okay he let his head drop into my shoulder and got more into it, picking up the speed. My moans got louder as his thrusts got faster.
“Baaa-be I’m gu- I’m gun-”
“I know babe let go. Come for me.” I did as I was told and came. I don’t even know how loud I yelled. A second later I felt him twitch inside me and he fall on top of me. We both were trying to catch our breath.
All of the sudden I got really insecure. Was I bad? What if he didn’t like it? But as all those thoughts were buzzing through my head he threw his arm over me and pulled me into him and kissed my neck and whispered “That was incredible.” He kissed me again and I rolled over so I was facing him and whispered “Really? I wasn’t bad?”
“Are you kidding? You’re the best I ever had. What about me it was your first time I didn’t mess it up did I?”
“No it was perfect absolutely perfect. I’m glad you were my first.” I said stifling a yawn. He kissed my nose and said “I’m glad I was too.” I went to smile but ended up yawning. “How about we take a nap.” I nodded and curled up into him. he pulled the blankets over us and we both drifted off to sleep.
So Harry waked in the apartment just as I was finishing putting my hair in a messy bun he loves so much. I tugged on my robe and adjusted and smoothed it out severally times before he got to the bedroom. He eyed me up and down and said “So we really going to do this?”
“Yupp.” I said a little shaky.
“We don’t have to do this is you’re not ready.” He said taking a step closer.
“I am. I want to.” I said taking the last step between us. He pulled me in and kissed me sweetly. We kept kissing until I pushed him on to the bed. I slowly untied the robe and let it sink to the floor. I pulled my hair out of my bun and shook it out.
“I will never be able to get over how beautiful you are.” I smiled and crawled on top of him and kissed him again. He reached behind me and tried undoing my bra but his hands were shaking too much.
“Why if I didn’t know any better I would think you are more nervous than me Mr. Styles.” I said kissing his neck.
“I am. Jazz I'm so scared I’ll mess up or that you’ll regret this after.” He said looking into my eyes.
“Never going to happen. I know I want this. I wouldn’t be here right now if I didn’t. I love you.”
“I love you.” And we were kissing again this time it seemed more urgent. The last of our clothes were shed and before I knew it he was on top of me about to go in. He looked down at me with a look asking for permission. I smiled and nodded and he eased into me. It didn’t hurt as much as I thought it would. Don’t get me wrong it did hurt but I’ve heard so many horror stories over how excruciating it was and it made some girls cried. It kind of reminded me of when I gauged my ears.
I kept my hands on his hips so if it hurt too badly I could stop him and take a breath. Every few seconds I would let him go and he would sink further into me. Finally he was all the way in and he let out a breath I didn’t know he was holding. He hovered over me and asked “Are you okay?”
“Yup.” I nodded “Just give me second.” After a little I felt a little more comfortable. I moved around a little to see if it still hurt and when I didn’t I looked at him and nodded. He started moving slowly making sure I was okay. My hands slowly made their way up from his hips to his back as he thrust into me. The pain slid away and it started to feel good. My groans of pain turned into moans of pleasure. When he saw I was really okay he let his head drop into my shoulder and got more into it, picking up the speed. My moans got louder as his thrusts got faster.
“Baaa-be I’m gu- I’m gun-”
“I know babe let go. Come for me.” I did as I was told and came. I don’t even know how loud I yelled. A second later I felt him twitch inside me and he fall on top of me. We both were trying to catch our breath.
All of the sudden I got really insecure. Was I bad? What if he didn’t like it? But as all those thoughts were buzzing through my head he threw his arm over me and pulled me into him and kissed my neck and whispered “That was incredible.” He kissed me again and I rolled over so I was facing him and whispered “Really? I wasn’t bad?”
“Are you kidding? You’re the best I ever had. What about me it was your first time I didn’t mess it up did I?”
“No it was perfect absolutely perfect. I’m glad you were my first.” I said stifling a yawn. He kissed my nose and said “I’m glad I was too.” I went to smile but ended up yawning. “How about we take a nap.” I nodded and curled up into him. he pulled the blankets over us and we both drifted off to sleep.
7/11/13