Summer Break
Goodbye.
Harry’s Point of View
I don’t know how long I’ve been awake; as hard as I have tried to sleep I can’t. I’m angry, not as angry as I should. I miss her so much, I miss having her in bed with me. I miss her unruly hair all over when she forgets to put it up. I miss looking at her beautiful, flawless face while she sleeps. I miss her. I just really fucking miss her. But she didn’t feel the same I felt about her, maybe I should have known. Why though? I just want to know why? I sound so needy.
“Dammit.” I hit my pillow and roll over on my back. I turn my head to look at the time. 9 am. I haven’t slept in over 24 hours, but I didn’t care, I want to see her. To run to the airport and hold her, she didn’t even say goodbye when she left last night. It tore me apart, but maybe it’s for the best. I shouldn’t go and see her. Why the hell didn’t I get drunk last night?
Throwing my legs over to the side of the bed, I make my way out of the bedroom to get a glass of water. I want to go see her, I don’t think I have ever felt like this before, I just want her!
I glance at the door, then to a pile of stuff by the floor. What was that?
Slamming my glass on the counter, I move quickly to the pile of stuff before me.
My Rolling Stones shirt is folded up nicely and I just feel a pit in my stomach, the same from last night. I pick up the shirt and shake my head, as I was about to walk away I see a piece paper underneath it. I hate crying, I don’t want to do it again, but I pick the piece of paper up anyway.
Unfolding it, I read the first words on the page.
Dear Harry Edward Styles,
That was it, this is all I needed. I’m still in my clothes from last night, but I couldn’t care less. I grab my sunglasses off the kitchen table, before putting my boots on my feet, and then ran out the door with the shirt and letter.
I ran to the room down the hall and knocked.
“Hey Harry… What happened to you?”
“Nothing, I need to go to the airport. Right now, please.”
And we were off, I couldn’t get there faster. Once we were in the car I read more of the letter.
There are so many things I wish I could tell you out loud instead of writing it all on this piece of paper. This may be a jumbled mess, I apologize in advance. God, I don’t even know where to start. You make me so so so happy. I haven’t been as happy as I have been with you in the longest time. I never understood how people could get so attached, or spend so much time with their boyfriends. I guess I get it now, my view on relationships has changed… you’ve changed me. I always wanted to be in a relationship, I just never thought I was good enough, but you’ve made me feel so great. I’ve been so terrified all summer, terrified of all the feelings I have had. Terrified of how fast and hard I fell for you…Part of me wanted to stop myself, to not be with you because every time I’ve let myself feel something for someone, I’ve lost them. So I push people away, I build a wall and only let few people in and then I find ways to push them back out. That’s who I am, that’s who I’ve always been. You made me trust you from the beginning; I’ve shared things with you that I have never shared with anyone else. I don’t want you to think that I don’t have feelings for you because I obviously do. I’ve just… I’ve never believed in love, or I guess I just don’t know how. Or maybe I’m just scared to be hurt. I don’t know, now I’m just rambling. Harry, this summer has been the best, you have been the best, and when I think about the future I know that you are the one I want to be with. My reasons for not being able to do this are selfish I know-
“Harry, come on mate. We’re here.”
I nod and get out of the car, handing him the phone Ashley sent me the flight information on. I started reading again, trying to follow him through the airport.
-that. But I want you to understand that nothing I did was to hurt you, I just didn’t want you to think that I was using you. I’m sorry, I am so sorry Harry. I wish things were different, I wish I could take last night back. At the same time, I still feel the same and I hope you understand that. But I wanted to let you know one thing Harry, I’ve asked myself over and over again if I was in love with you and-
“Harry?” I looked up at her red eyed, beautiful face.
Annabelle’s Point of View
“Harry?” I’m not sure if the shock was clear in my or on my face.
I stared at Harry standing in front of me. He wore his clothes from yesterday, he looked stressed, tired, and it was my fault. I could tell he cried, and he even had tears now. I looked from his face to the paper in his right hand. The tears threatened again, I have been crying all night, and I probably look like hell.
Harry was here, he came to see me, and I was just standing here staring at him.
I close the distance between us and wrapped my arms around his neck. He let out a breath on my neck after he put his arms around me. I pulled him closer to me, never wanting to let him go.
“I didn’t read the last sentence, tell me what it said.” He whispered.
I moved back, my left hand went from his neck to his chest. Our eyes connected, my teeth found my bottom lip. The butterflies in my stomach were going absolutely crazy. Harry looked nervous, like he didn’t think I was going to say it.
“I love you, Harry.” I smiled; the words fell so easily from my lips.
He picked me up and spun me around, making me giggle and throw my head back.
When he puts me down, I get to see the genuine smile across his face.
“I love you, Annabelle.” He kisses my forehead before putting his hands on either side of my face. “Listen, baby. I want to be with you, I want to shout to the world that you are my amazing girlfriend. I want to tell them you’re the girl who changed my mind about love at first sight.” I nodded as he searched my eyes. “But I think you’re right. You should go follow your dreams, and do whatever it takes to make it.” And now I was crying again. “I’m going to be there for you when you get there, baby. I love you so much.” He pressed his lips to mine for the first time in what seems like forever, even when it wasn’t.
He pulled away and pressed our foreheads together.
“Uhm, I hate to interrupt, but Annabelle has got to go through security and catch her flight.” Ashley speaks lowly.
I nod at her, still looking at Harry. “Thank you so much.” I whisper.
“Of course.” He runs his thumb over my bottom lip. “I’m going to miss you.”
“I love you.” I whisper, kissing his lips again.
“I love you… I guess you should go.” He sighed.
I backed up and walked to Ashley and Jake, giving them a little group hug. “Thank you guys for being the best friends.”
“We love you girl. Have fun in Cali and kick some ass.” Ashley laughs.
“Yea, we’ll see you in a couple of weeks though.” Jakes says, kissing my forehead.
“Alright, love you guys.” I tell them, trying not to cry because I’d see them soon.
“Yea, yea. Now go give your man a proper goodbye.” Ash winked.
I laughed and shook my head, turning to Harry one more time.
I walked up to him and hugged him one last time before connecting out lips. I moved my hands to his hair as his arms hung loosely on my waist. His tongue slipped into mine, and I treasured every second of this, of us. He tickled my sides, making me smile into the kiss.
“Okay.” I muttered against his lips, laughing.
He moves his head back with a smile on his face. “Alright.” This is how I wanted to remember him, smiling at me.
I grabbed the handle on my carry-on and pulled it up. This is it.
“I love you Annabelle.” He pecked my lips softly.
“I love you, Harold.” I smirk at him, making him laugh reached up and gave him one more kiss. “Bye Harry.” I whispered.
“Bye Anna.”
And with that I walked to security, but I turned around once more to wave at the people I loved so dearly. The all smiled, and I knew I had tears in my eyes. I looked at Harry and I could see his watering eyes, but his face still showed his happiness.
I walked again, putting my stuff in bins, and walking through the machine which didn’t beep. Cool.
I couldn’t help but one more look, they still stood there. I gave them a small smile and walked towards the gate. This was a goodbye, but it was a good goodbye. Not like when I left Harry’s room the two times before, nothing like that. Even if Harry and I never got together again, I would always be able to remember this.
“Miss.” Someone calls, and I automatically turned around. “Hi, are you Annabelle?” a short, beautiful woman asks me.
“Yes, that’s me.” I tell her.
“This is for you.” She handed me a rolled up shirt. I replied with a thank you before she walked away.
When I was sat by the gate, I unrolled the black shirt with the Rolling Stones logo on the front.
This was it, the official end to my Summer Break.
…
I am madly in love with you. I thought you in fact did deserve to know.
With all the love in my heart,
Annabelle .x
I don’t know how long I’ve been awake; as hard as I have tried to sleep I can’t. I’m angry, not as angry as I should. I miss her so much, I miss having her in bed with me. I miss her unruly hair all over when she forgets to put it up. I miss looking at her beautiful, flawless face while she sleeps. I miss her. I just really fucking miss her. But she didn’t feel the same I felt about her, maybe I should have known. Why though? I just want to know why? I sound so needy.
“Dammit.” I hit my pillow and roll over on my back. I turn my head to look at the time. 9 am. I haven’t slept in over 24 hours, but I didn’t care, I want to see her. To run to the airport and hold her, she didn’t even say goodbye when she left last night. It tore me apart, but maybe it’s for the best. I shouldn’t go and see her. Why the hell didn’t I get drunk last night?
Throwing my legs over to the side of the bed, I make my way out of the bedroom to get a glass of water. I want to go see her, I don’t think I have ever felt like this before, I just want her!
I glance at the door, then to a pile of stuff by the floor. What was that?
Slamming my glass on the counter, I move quickly to the pile of stuff before me.
My Rolling Stones shirt is folded up nicely and I just feel a pit in my stomach, the same from last night. I pick up the shirt and shake my head, as I was about to walk away I see a piece paper underneath it. I hate crying, I don’t want to do it again, but I pick the piece of paper up anyway.
Unfolding it, I read the first words on the page.
Dear Harry Edward Styles,
That was it, this is all I needed. I’m still in my clothes from last night, but I couldn’t care less. I grab my sunglasses off the kitchen table, before putting my boots on my feet, and then ran out the door with the shirt and letter.
I ran to the room down the hall and knocked.
“Hey Harry… What happened to you?”
“Nothing, I need to go to the airport. Right now, please.”
And we were off, I couldn’t get there faster. Once we were in the car I read more of the letter.
There are so many things I wish I could tell you out loud instead of writing it all on this piece of paper. This may be a jumbled mess, I apologize in advance. God, I don’t even know where to start. You make me so so so happy. I haven’t been as happy as I have been with you in the longest time. I never understood how people could get so attached, or spend so much time with their boyfriends. I guess I get it now, my view on relationships has changed… you’ve changed me. I always wanted to be in a relationship, I just never thought I was good enough, but you’ve made me feel so great. I’ve been so terrified all summer, terrified of all the feelings I have had. Terrified of how fast and hard I fell for you…Part of me wanted to stop myself, to not be with you because every time I’ve let myself feel something for someone, I’ve lost them. So I push people away, I build a wall and only let few people in and then I find ways to push them back out. That’s who I am, that’s who I’ve always been. You made me trust you from the beginning; I’ve shared things with you that I have never shared with anyone else. I don’t want you to think that I don’t have feelings for you because I obviously do. I’ve just… I’ve never believed in love, or I guess I just don’t know how. Or maybe I’m just scared to be hurt. I don’t know, now I’m just rambling. Harry, this summer has been the best, you have been the best, and when I think about the future I know that you are the one I want to be with. My reasons for not being able to do this are selfish I know-
“Harry, come on mate. We’re here.”
I nod and get out of the car, handing him the phone Ashley sent me the flight information on. I started reading again, trying to follow him through the airport.
-that. But I want you to understand that nothing I did was to hurt you, I just didn’t want you to think that I was using you. I’m sorry, I am so sorry Harry. I wish things were different, I wish I could take last night back. At the same time, I still feel the same and I hope you understand that. But I wanted to let you know one thing Harry, I’ve asked myself over and over again if I was in love with you and-
“Harry?” I looked up at her red eyed, beautiful face.
Annabelle’s Point of View
“Harry?” I’m not sure if the shock was clear in my or on my face.
I stared at Harry standing in front of me. He wore his clothes from yesterday, he looked stressed, tired, and it was my fault. I could tell he cried, and he even had tears now. I looked from his face to the paper in his right hand. The tears threatened again, I have been crying all night, and I probably look like hell.
Harry was here, he came to see me, and I was just standing here staring at him.
I close the distance between us and wrapped my arms around his neck. He let out a breath on my neck after he put his arms around me. I pulled him closer to me, never wanting to let him go.
“I didn’t read the last sentence, tell me what it said.” He whispered.
I moved back, my left hand went from his neck to his chest. Our eyes connected, my teeth found my bottom lip. The butterflies in my stomach were going absolutely crazy. Harry looked nervous, like he didn’t think I was going to say it.
“I love you, Harry.” I smiled; the words fell so easily from my lips.
He picked me up and spun me around, making me giggle and throw my head back.
When he puts me down, I get to see the genuine smile across his face.
“I love you, Annabelle.” He kisses my forehead before putting his hands on either side of my face. “Listen, baby. I want to be with you, I want to shout to the world that you are my amazing girlfriend. I want to tell them you’re the girl who changed my mind about love at first sight.” I nodded as he searched my eyes. “But I think you’re right. You should go follow your dreams, and do whatever it takes to make it.” And now I was crying again. “I’m going to be there for you when you get there, baby. I love you so much.” He pressed his lips to mine for the first time in what seems like forever, even when it wasn’t.
He pulled away and pressed our foreheads together.
“Uhm, I hate to interrupt, but Annabelle has got to go through security and catch her flight.” Ashley speaks lowly.
I nod at her, still looking at Harry. “Thank you so much.” I whisper.
“Of course.” He runs his thumb over my bottom lip. “I’m going to miss you.”
“I love you.” I whisper, kissing his lips again.
“I love you… I guess you should go.” He sighed.
I backed up and walked to Ashley and Jake, giving them a little group hug. “Thank you guys for being the best friends.”
“We love you girl. Have fun in Cali and kick some ass.” Ashley laughs.
“Yea, we’ll see you in a couple of weeks though.” Jakes says, kissing my forehead.
“Alright, love you guys.” I tell them, trying not to cry because I’d see them soon.
“Yea, yea. Now go give your man a proper goodbye.” Ash winked.
I laughed and shook my head, turning to Harry one more time.
I walked up to him and hugged him one last time before connecting out lips. I moved my hands to his hair as his arms hung loosely on my waist. His tongue slipped into mine, and I treasured every second of this, of us. He tickled my sides, making me smile into the kiss.
“Okay.” I muttered against his lips, laughing.
He moves his head back with a smile on his face. “Alright.” This is how I wanted to remember him, smiling at me.
I grabbed the handle on my carry-on and pulled it up. This is it.
“I love you Annabelle.” He pecked my lips softly.
“I love you, Harold.” I smirk at him, making him laugh reached up and gave him one more kiss. “Bye Harry.” I whispered.
“Bye Anna.”
And with that I walked to security, but I turned around once more to wave at the people I loved so dearly. The all smiled, and I knew I had tears in my eyes. I looked at Harry and I could see his watering eyes, but his face still showed his happiness.
I walked again, putting my stuff in bins, and walking through the machine which didn’t beep. Cool.
I couldn’t help but one more look, they still stood there. I gave them a small smile and walked towards the gate. This was a goodbye, but it was a good goodbye. Not like when I left Harry’s room the two times before, nothing like that. Even if Harry and I never got together again, I would always be able to remember this.
“Miss.” Someone calls, and I automatically turned around. “Hi, are you Annabelle?” a short, beautiful woman asks me.
“Yes, that’s me.” I tell her.
“This is for you.” She handed me a rolled up shirt. I replied with a thank you before she walked away.
When I was sat by the gate, I unrolled the black shirt with the Rolling Stones logo on the front.
This was it, the official end to my Summer Break.
…
I am madly in love with you. I thought you in fact did deserve to know.
With all the love in my heart,
Annabelle .x
Notes
Hi,THIS IS NOT THE END! I REPEAT THIS IS NOT THE END!
So I was going through the notes on my phone today and I thought I put an idea for this chapter in there, but it was actually for the chapter before this and I was like DANG! That would have been so much better.
THANK YOU, for sharing your reactions about the last chapter with me, I seriously planned the end before I even started this book. lol.
I also wanted to say thanks for getting me on the popular page AGAIN! I love y'all so much! I was supposed to write a paper tonight, then I was like NAH!
Thanks for reading! Have a great day, week, night, month, year, byeeeee.
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3/23/15