Summer Break
Less than 2 weeks.
“This food is so good!” Ashley blurted out while eating her last forkful of some type of pizza pasta.
“Yea, Ash. And it’s even better if it actually stays in your mouth.” I told her, pointing to the food that had fallen in front of her plate.
“Oh, shut up!” she replied rolling her eyes.
Jake tried to hide his chuckle but it didn’t work and it earned him a slap on the arm. “Ouch.” He laughed again and then looked towards me. “Anna, you’ve barely touched your food, is everything all right?”
I felt Harry’s gaze on me, but I didn’t look at him. I still feel guilty about everything I wrote in my journal…
“Uh, yea. I’m just not that hungry.” I say playing with the food on my plate. It’s quiet now, and I looked up at three staring faces. “Guys, I don’t eat one meal and you’re staring at me like I’m starving myself.”
“Sorry, we’re just used to you eating! Are you upset about something?” Ashley pushes/
I shoot her a look that only she and Jake can see. “No, I am fine. I’m just not hungry.”
“Are you upset you have to leave in less than two weeks?” She asks again.
Wait… “Less than two weeks? What are you talking about?” I looked at her confused, catching sight of Harry looking at her the same.
“Remember, you have to go back early to move to campus because new students have to be there two weeks early.”
My mouth slightly fell open and I put my fork on my plate so I could move my hand up to my head. “Oh my gosh, I completely forgot about that.”
Jake cleared his throat before speaking up, “Uh, maybe we should get the check.” I looked up at him catching the waitress’s attention. He and Harry had a little discussion over who should pay for it. Jack ended up winning the argument seeing as Harry usually pays for everything when we all go out together. We were soon all standing from our table and Harry grabbed my hand so effortlessly. The ride to the hotel was short, and Ashley and Jake said they were going to take a quick walk down the beach.
I haven’t said anything to anyone since I remembered I had to leave early which meant, I had to leave Harry early. I didn’t really talk to them before anyway, just occasionally talking when I felt it necessary to keep them from asking me questions. But soon I’d have to talk; I know Harry will ask me something soon. Maybe he’ll wait until we’re in the room, even though the elevator ride is already awkward. As soon as I think it, he clears his throat. I wait for him to say something but all he does is give my hand a little squeeze and then the doors open on our floor. We walk at a normal pace to his room and he opens the door swiftly, leading my in before him.
As he shuts the door, he moves in front of me and slowly wraps his arms around me. My head is on his chest, and I inhale his scent. He smells perfect; I’m going to miss this. Before I get lost in my thoughts, I wrap my arms around him, not want to let go. And I didn’t, we just stood there with nothing to be heard besides our breathing and once in a while he would kiss the top of my head.
After I just stood there silently, I knew Harry wasn’t going to say anything to begin this conversation so I probably should… after I hold him for a couple more minutes… like 20… or maybe I should just start now.
“I’m sorry I’ve been distant.” I mumble into his chest, and he holds me tighter.
“It’s okay, Annabelle.” He takes a deep breathe. “I just want you to know you can tell me, you can talk to me about what’s on your mind. I want to listen; I want to know what’s bothering you.” He got quieter when he spoke the last part, “I want you to know you can trust me and to feel comfortable telling me what is on your mind.”
I shook my head slightly against his chest before pulling away from his embrace to really look into his eyes for what seems like the first time tonight. He looks so sad, why is he sad?
I took his face between my hands and looked at him again. At this beautiful man who stands in front of me, the guy that I don’t deserve. “Harry, I trust you.” I looked in his eyes for a long time after that, neither of us saying anything. “I don’t know what’s wrong.” I lie, and feel terrible for it so I looked at the ground still holding his face. “I really wasn’t hungry, and I uh, I don’t know why I am so quiet. Sometimes it just happens, I’m sorry if it seems like I’m upset or mad or whatever.” I look at him again, his face softer than before, and I can’t help myself so I lean in to kiss him. His soft lips land on mine and it feels like everything I thought about tonight just disappeared. I pulled away and watched his eyes flicker open with questioning eyes.
“I want you to know I’m happy Harry. I’m really happy.”
“Yea, Ash. And it’s even better if it actually stays in your mouth.” I told her, pointing to the food that had fallen in front of her plate.
“Oh, shut up!” she replied rolling her eyes.
Jake tried to hide his chuckle but it didn’t work and it earned him a slap on the arm. “Ouch.” He laughed again and then looked towards me. “Anna, you’ve barely touched your food, is everything all right?”
I felt Harry’s gaze on me, but I didn’t look at him. I still feel guilty about everything I wrote in my journal…
“Uh, yea. I’m just not that hungry.” I say playing with the food on my plate. It’s quiet now, and I looked up at three staring faces. “Guys, I don’t eat one meal and you’re staring at me like I’m starving myself.”
“Sorry, we’re just used to you eating! Are you upset about something?” Ashley pushes/
I shoot her a look that only she and Jake can see. “No, I am fine. I’m just not hungry.”
“Are you upset you have to leave in less than two weeks?” She asks again.
Wait… “Less than two weeks? What are you talking about?” I looked at her confused, catching sight of Harry looking at her the same.
“Remember, you have to go back early to move to campus because new students have to be there two weeks early.”
My mouth slightly fell open and I put my fork on my plate so I could move my hand up to my head. “Oh my gosh, I completely forgot about that.”
Jake cleared his throat before speaking up, “Uh, maybe we should get the check.” I looked up at him catching the waitress’s attention. He and Harry had a little discussion over who should pay for it. Jack ended up winning the argument seeing as Harry usually pays for everything when we all go out together. We were soon all standing from our table and Harry grabbed my hand so effortlessly. The ride to the hotel was short, and Ashley and Jake said they were going to take a quick walk down the beach.
I haven’t said anything to anyone since I remembered I had to leave early which meant, I had to leave Harry early. I didn’t really talk to them before anyway, just occasionally talking when I felt it necessary to keep them from asking me questions. But soon I’d have to talk; I know Harry will ask me something soon. Maybe he’ll wait until we’re in the room, even though the elevator ride is already awkward. As soon as I think it, he clears his throat. I wait for him to say something but all he does is give my hand a little squeeze and then the doors open on our floor. We walk at a normal pace to his room and he opens the door swiftly, leading my in before him.
As he shuts the door, he moves in front of me and slowly wraps his arms around me. My head is on his chest, and I inhale his scent. He smells perfect; I’m going to miss this. Before I get lost in my thoughts, I wrap my arms around him, not want to let go. And I didn’t, we just stood there with nothing to be heard besides our breathing and once in a while he would kiss the top of my head.
After I just stood there silently, I knew Harry wasn’t going to say anything to begin this conversation so I probably should… after I hold him for a couple more minutes… like 20… or maybe I should just start now.
“I’m sorry I’ve been distant.” I mumble into his chest, and he holds me tighter.
“It’s okay, Annabelle.” He takes a deep breathe. “I just want you to know you can tell me, you can talk to me about what’s on your mind. I want to listen; I want to know what’s bothering you.” He got quieter when he spoke the last part, “I want you to know you can trust me and to feel comfortable telling me what is on your mind.”
I shook my head slightly against his chest before pulling away from his embrace to really look into his eyes for what seems like the first time tonight. He looks so sad, why is he sad?
I took his face between my hands and looked at him again. At this beautiful man who stands in front of me, the guy that I don’t deserve. “Harry, I trust you.” I looked in his eyes for a long time after that, neither of us saying anything. “I don’t know what’s wrong.” I lie, and feel terrible for it so I looked at the ground still holding his face. “I really wasn’t hungry, and I uh, I don’t know why I am so quiet. Sometimes it just happens, I’m sorry if it seems like I’m upset or mad or whatever.” I look at him again, his face softer than before, and I can’t help myself so I lean in to kiss him. His soft lips land on mine and it feels like everything I thought about tonight just disappeared. I pulled away and watched his eyes flicker open with questioning eyes.
“I want you to know I’m happy Harry. I’m really happy.”
Notes
Hi lovelies,So I have a couple things to say. First is, I turned 18 last week! What? I'm an adult! Holy monkies.
Second, I wanted to know if you liked the journal entry thing. There won't be a lot more, but i just wanted to make sure y'all didn't hate it! Also, who read the Deception story I posted in my notes a couple chappies backies. HAHA!
Third, and this one is probably the saddest one. I'm going to be ending the story soon. I can't tell you how many chapters are left though... more than 5 that's for sure. But I just thought I should tell y'all.
Thank you to everyone who has read my story, and if anyone read when I first posted chapter one and still reads, thank you so much! I love writing this, but I'm excited for y'all to see how it ends at the same time. It's gonna be a milestone for me because I don't think I've ever actually finished writing a story. Mkay, blabbed enough and its almost 2 am. Thank you all! I love you guys! Have a good day, or night! And I hope you had a nice Thanksgiving!
BYE!
.xx R
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Oh, thanks lovely.
3/23/15