Why Me?
Chapter2
I sit in the doctors office axsiously waiting for my results. Yay! There he is! "Okay Ms.Breeze , it seems like the treatment has helped out Just a little. But lets not forget your problem is very big. We suggest that you take treatment ever other day now instead of 3 times a week."
Dang. I really thought I was getting better. I guess I was wrong." "This thing is heridotary so it's not a surprise you ended up with it." I'm still shocked like I was when I found this out. " wha- what about the surgery? Can't you still do it?" He sighed and looked down. I know it wasn't a good chance just by expression on his face.
"due to how bad it is, treatment is only pausing it. It's not clearing it ups. And if we did do the treatment there is 10% we will succeed and 90% we won't." Wow, is this really happening to me? "Ho- ho- long do I ha- have lef- lefted?" "I'm sorry Ms.Breeze but you have at maximum 6-8 months." Really? That short of time? How would I tell Zayn? He would be heart broken. I couldn't do that to him. I couldn't tell him. "But if the odds are in your favor, and the surgery works out as planned. You wil live a normal healthy life." That really brighten up my day.
"Thank you Dr.pierce for your time and patience. When's my next treatment?" "Oh yes. It's starts tommorrow at 3. It will be every other day." "Okay thank you. Have a wonderful day." "Wait Ms.Breeze , do you have any family I could contact if we cannot reach you." I thought for a second but I already knew the answer. "No I don't." I walk into the hospital hallways and pass a room. I heard screaming so I looked in it. I saw the doctor unplugging the heart monitor and the breathing system. I saw the family. i think the mom , she was being held by her husband because she was crying so much. The doctor then shut the blinds and came out. "Excuse me doctor?" "Yes how may I help you?" "What did she die of and how old was she?" "I'm sorry I can't give that information out." I held him back. "Please! I have lung cancer and I'm 19! Please I just need to know." He sighed and opened the folder. Thank goodness. "She was 21 and died of lung cancer. Is that all." I was shocked that I wasn't the only one. "Ye- yes that's all. Thank you for your Time doc." And he walked away. The reality that that can be me in a few months, I just bursted out in tears and cried silently. I pull myself together and walk out of that heel hole.
As I get In the car I check my phone to see the time. "12:16 , great let my day get started." The whole ride back to me and Zayns place was quiet. I didn't turn the radio on all I did was think. Think about the wrong I've done. My family. My job. Everything . Even Zayn. I pulled into a parking lot to a grocery store. And cried. It felt like I cried for hours. I cried because I'm not ready to die. I haven't even lived! Then my phone rings. "God what is it! Oh it's Zayn."
Me: hello?
Zayn: Norah. Where'd you go?
i had to think. I couldn't tell him I went to the doctors he'll just over reacted and freak out. I can't let him worry about me hes already going through alot with concerts and the band.
Me: oh yeah I just went to my friends for a second. I had to pick something up. Wyd?
Zayn: oh I'm about to go home. Do you mind if I bring the boys over? There obsessed about meeting you.
yay! I always wanted to meet the boys. Just not today I just want to be alone and cry myself to sleep.
Me: yeah sure ill love to meet them.
Zayn: ok! I can't to see you. Loves you bye!
Me: Love you too! Bye
I make my way home trying to get there before the boys. I look like a I just threw something on , which I did but I couldn't let them know that.
I get to the house and up to my room. I decide to take a quick shower to wash away my day. When I got out I threw this on http://www.polyvore.com/at_home/set?id=94841488 . I didn't want to look to made up but I had to look presentable. When I open the door I hear talking down stairs
I think their hereeee!!!!!
I walk downstairs and all eyes are on me. Then Zayn speaks up.
"Lads ill like you too meet Norah my bestfriend!!"
They seemed nervous. I don't know why. I'm the one who should be nervous. Which I am but that's not the point.
I shook all their hands but I only shook 3.
"Wheres the other person?"
"oh he's in the bathroom he'll be out in a second. I sat down and chatted with the boys until I seen a beautiful boy. He had brown curls that bounced with every step he took. His skin looked soft as a baby's bottom and when he looked up from his phone, I got lost in those beautiful. Green. Eyes. I felt something. Something I never felt before. Something that made me feel healthy. Like I didn't have cancer.
He gave me that famous smile all the girls fan over. I stood up and walk right to him.
"and you must be harry." I smiled ear to ear
Dang. I really thought I was getting better. I guess I was wrong." "This thing is heridotary so it's not a surprise you ended up with it." I'm still shocked like I was when I found this out. " wha- what about the surgery? Can't you still do it?" He sighed and looked down. I know it wasn't a good chance just by expression on his face.
"due to how bad it is, treatment is only pausing it. It's not clearing it ups. And if we did do the treatment there is 10% we will succeed and 90% we won't." Wow, is this really happening to me? "Ho- ho- long do I ha- have lef- lefted?" "I'm sorry Ms.Breeze but you have at maximum 6-8 months." Really? That short of time? How would I tell Zayn? He would be heart broken. I couldn't do that to him. I couldn't tell him. "But if the odds are in your favor, and the surgery works out as planned. You wil live a normal healthy life." That really brighten up my day.
"Thank you Dr.pierce for your time and patience. When's my next treatment?" "Oh yes. It's starts tommorrow at 3. It will be every other day." "Okay thank you. Have a wonderful day." "Wait Ms.Breeze , do you have any family I could contact if we cannot reach you." I thought for a second but I already knew the answer. "No I don't." I walk into the hospital hallways and pass a room. I heard screaming so I looked in it. I saw the doctor unplugging the heart monitor and the breathing system. I saw the family. i think the mom , she was being held by her husband because she was crying so much. The doctor then shut the blinds and came out. "Excuse me doctor?" "Yes how may I help you?" "What did she die of and how old was she?" "I'm sorry I can't give that information out." I held him back. "Please! I have lung cancer and I'm 19! Please I just need to know." He sighed and opened the folder. Thank goodness. "She was 21 and died of lung cancer. Is that all." I was shocked that I wasn't the only one. "Ye- yes that's all. Thank you for your Time doc." And he walked away. The reality that that can be me in a few months, I just bursted out in tears and cried silently. I pull myself together and walk out of that heel hole.
As I get In the car I check my phone to see the time. "12:16 , great let my day get started." The whole ride back to me and Zayns place was quiet. I didn't turn the radio on all I did was think. Think about the wrong I've done. My family. My job. Everything . Even Zayn. I pulled into a parking lot to a grocery store. And cried. It felt like I cried for hours. I cried because I'm not ready to die. I haven't even lived! Then my phone rings. "God what is it! Oh it's Zayn."
Me: hello?
Zayn: Norah. Where'd you go?
i had to think. I couldn't tell him I went to the doctors he'll just over reacted and freak out. I can't let him worry about me hes already going through alot with concerts and the band.
Me: oh yeah I just went to my friends for a second. I had to pick something up. Wyd?
Zayn: oh I'm about to go home. Do you mind if I bring the boys over? There obsessed about meeting you.
yay! I always wanted to meet the boys. Just not today I just want to be alone and cry myself to sleep.
Me: yeah sure ill love to meet them.
Zayn: ok! I can't to see you. Loves you bye!
Me: Love you too! Bye
I make my way home trying to get there before the boys. I look like a I just threw something on , which I did but I couldn't let them know that.
I get to the house and up to my room. I decide to take a quick shower to wash away my day. When I got out I threw this on http://www.polyvore.com/at_home/set?id=94841488 . I didn't want to look to made up but I had to look presentable. When I open the door I hear talking down stairs
I think their hereeee!!!!!
I walk downstairs and all eyes are on me. Then Zayn speaks up.
"Lads ill like you too meet Norah my bestfriend!!"
They seemed nervous. I don't know why. I'm the one who should be nervous. Which I am but that's not the point.
I shook all their hands but I only shook 3.
"Wheres the other person?"
"oh he's in the bathroom he'll be out in a second. I sat down and chatted with the boys until I seen a beautiful boy. He had brown curls that bounced with every step he took. His skin looked soft as a baby's bottom and when he looked up from his phone, I got lost in those beautiful. Green. Eyes. I felt something. Something I never felt before. Something that made me feel healthy. Like I didn't have cancer.
He gave me that famous smile all the girls fan over. I stood up and walk right to him.
"and you must be harry." I smiled ear to ear
10/23/13