Why Me?
Get Used To It
Abrial's POV
I've been trapped in this hell hole for about two weeks now. I've been stuck in these clothes all day since yesterday. Caden doesn't have and laundry detergent to wash clothes. Caden let's me roam around the house, but never let's me out of his sight. I feel like I'm with my ex, Kyle, again. Minus the hitting, that's actually one thing I never understood about Caden. He always got aggressive and pinned me to the wall or locked me in the room, but never once physically, did his hands beat my face or other body parts. I wonder why he did that.
One thing I hated about living here was that he forced me to take drugs. My arms are starting to hurt a lot. I haven't done it this much in so long. I was knocked out of my thoughts by Caden.
"Hey, let's go. I got some more meth." I always wanted to know where he got the drugs from. He never says who he gets it from, he just says that he got some more. I don't know, I follow him down the hallway to his room. We sit down on his messy sheets that reek of his stench. He grabs the spoon, meth, and needle. He sterilizes the needle and prepares the drug that's about to make me lose my sanity. The white liquid sits on the spoon waiting to be injected. He puts the needle in my arm and before too long I feel weird. Something's not right.
Caden's POV
I'm doing what he told me to do. I didn't know it would hit her that fast though. I haven't even set the camera up. I go to the dresser and grab the camera. I play around with her and noticed her pupils are really dilated. I feel really bad for doing this to her, she doesn't deserve this. I have to though, he's giving me what I need. I start to play around with her while she looks off in the distance giggling at nothing. Every so often, when I touched her she would chuckle and complain about how I was tickling her. After about half an hour, I finished the video and closed the camera to store away in my drawer where I hid the camera. I left Abrial in the room to continue her dazed adventure.
Abrial's POV
Everything feels great. Caden always tickles me when I take meth. It feels really weird and then it just stops. We should go to a party. Maybe he'll let me go, I need clothes though. I wonder if he'll let me stop by my house and grab some clothes and then leave. I walked down the hallway to find Caden snorting some cocaine. I have noticed that over these past weeks, that if I pretend to "like" him, he gives me the things I want. Only when I'm high. I walked over to him and started rubbing his shoulders and kissing down his scruffy neck. I turned his head towards me with my index finger and thumb. He looked in my eyes with this lust.
"Hey baby, can we go to a party tonight?" I look at him and pout. He sighs, contemplating wether we should go or not. He sighs again.
"Babe, you don't have any clothes anyways."
"Well, I was wondering" I kissed his right cheek "if" I kissed his left cheek "you would " I kissed his forehead "take me to" I kissed his chin " my house." I finished the sentence with a passionate kiss to his lips. I tasted nothing but whiskey. Disgusting, but I have to do it. I want to party. He kisses back and bites my lip. He pulls away and looks at me.
"Alright, let's go. You know the rules." I nod my head before heading into his room, him following behind. I sit on his bed and he hands me some sweats that I can wear. He throws on a shirt and grabs his keys. We head out of the house and head to mine. On my way there, I put my hand on Caden's thigh and he look away from the road for a second to look my way. I blow a kiss to him and he smiles. He returns his eyes back to the road. We get to my house and I walk up to the front door. My brother answers the door and he looks shocked to see me. I walked past him and upstairs, I grabbed a bag and put all my clothes in it. I change into my party clothes. I head downstairs where Darren is looking concerned, he grabs my arm and I wince. He looks scared and turns my arm over. He notices my the needle marks and gets angry. He looks at my eyes.
"Abrial, are you shooting up again? Remember what happened last time? You need to stop now." I look at him like he's crazy. Stop, how can I stop when I'm too far in? I just blow him off and walk out to Caden's car. I get in and tell him to go straight to the party. We get there and the house is already filled with a certain smell I've grown accustomed to, alcohol. Caden drags me to the back of the house. He tells me to wait back in the corner so no one notices me. He goes off into the wild crowd while I'm left to my imagination. I feel the drugs start to wear off so I grab the clutch out of my purse and take some Ecstacy I pop some in my mouth and swallow it.
A few minutes later, I have no idea where I am, but I just want to dance. Just as I'm about to head out to the dance floor, I find five bodies surrounding me.I look up and see five familiar faces. I giggle uncontrollably because they look just like the boys. That can't be. One of them look me in the eyes and sigh. The guy whispers something in the other guys ear. I get aggravated because, here I am trying to party and they're talking behind my back. I head around them and to find the restroom. They end up following me and I hurry up to lose them in the crowd. I go to find the bathroom. I found it and I stepped inside and locked the door. I took my clutch of pills out again and decided to amp it up a little bit. I took several pills, I stepped out of the bathroom and it felt like everything and everyone were multiplied by a million. I walked or stumbled down the hallway.
I made it to the living room and saw nothing but a blur. I was confused majorly, where was Caden. I walked around some more when I collapsed on the ground. I felt my lungs tightening and everything was fading, even the sound, I grabbed my throat. I fully collapsed on the ground and I was on my back gasping for air. Oh no, not again. I saw everything going in and out of focus. Everything went by in slow motion, I saw those five guys walk up again. They were yelling something. Everything was silent, that's when I fell into a deep dark hole. I never came back.
I've been trapped in this hell hole for about two weeks now. I've been stuck in these clothes all day since yesterday. Caden doesn't have and laundry detergent to wash clothes. Caden let's me roam around the house, but never let's me out of his sight. I feel like I'm with my ex, Kyle, again. Minus the hitting, that's actually one thing I never understood about Caden. He always got aggressive and pinned me to the wall or locked me in the room, but never once physically, did his hands beat my face or other body parts. I wonder why he did that.
One thing I hated about living here was that he forced me to take drugs. My arms are starting to hurt a lot. I haven't done it this much in so long. I was knocked out of my thoughts by Caden.
"Hey, let's go. I got some more meth." I always wanted to know where he got the drugs from. He never says who he gets it from, he just says that he got some more. I don't know, I follow him down the hallway to his room. We sit down on his messy sheets that reek of his stench. He grabs the spoon, meth, and needle. He sterilizes the needle and prepares the drug that's about to make me lose my sanity. The white liquid sits on the spoon waiting to be injected. He puts the needle in my arm and before too long I feel weird. Something's not right.
Caden's POV
I'm doing what he told me to do. I didn't know it would hit her that fast though. I haven't even set the camera up. I go to the dresser and grab the camera. I play around with her and noticed her pupils are really dilated. I feel really bad for doing this to her, she doesn't deserve this. I have to though, he's giving me what I need. I start to play around with her while she looks off in the distance giggling at nothing. Every so often, when I touched her she would chuckle and complain about how I was tickling her. After about half an hour, I finished the video and closed the camera to store away in my drawer where I hid the camera. I left Abrial in the room to continue her dazed adventure.
Abrial's POV
Everything feels great. Caden always tickles me when I take meth. It feels really weird and then it just stops. We should go to a party. Maybe he'll let me go, I need clothes though. I wonder if he'll let me stop by my house and grab some clothes and then leave. I walked down the hallway to find Caden snorting some cocaine. I have noticed that over these past weeks, that if I pretend to "like" him, he gives me the things I want. Only when I'm high. I walked over to him and started rubbing his shoulders and kissing down his scruffy neck. I turned his head towards me with my index finger and thumb. He looked in my eyes with this lust.
"Hey baby, can we go to a party tonight?" I look at him and pout. He sighs, contemplating wether we should go or not. He sighs again.
"Babe, you don't have any clothes anyways."
"Well, I was wondering" I kissed his right cheek "if" I kissed his left cheek "you would " I kissed his forehead "take me to" I kissed his chin " my house." I finished the sentence with a passionate kiss to his lips. I tasted nothing but whiskey. Disgusting, but I have to do it. I want to party. He kisses back and bites my lip. He pulls away and looks at me.
"Alright, let's go. You know the rules." I nod my head before heading into his room, him following behind. I sit on his bed and he hands me some sweats that I can wear. He throws on a shirt and grabs his keys. We head out of the house and head to mine. On my way there, I put my hand on Caden's thigh and he look away from the road for a second to look my way. I blow a kiss to him and he smiles. He returns his eyes back to the road. We get to my house and I walk up to the front door. My brother answers the door and he looks shocked to see me. I walked past him and upstairs, I grabbed a bag and put all my clothes in it. I change into my party clothes. I head downstairs where Darren is looking concerned, he grabs my arm and I wince. He looks scared and turns my arm over. He notices my the needle marks and gets angry. He looks at my eyes.
"Abrial, are you shooting up again? Remember what happened last time? You need to stop now." I look at him like he's crazy. Stop, how can I stop when I'm too far in? I just blow him off and walk out to Caden's car. I get in and tell him to go straight to the party. We get there and the house is already filled with a certain smell I've grown accustomed to, alcohol. Caden drags me to the back of the house. He tells me to wait back in the corner so no one notices me. He goes off into the wild crowd while I'm left to my imagination. I feel the drugs start to wear off so I grab the clutch out of my purse and take some Ecstacy I pop some in my mouth and swallow it.
A few minutes later, I have no idea where I am, but I just want to dance. Just as I'm about to head out to the dance floor, I find five bodies surrounding me.I look up and see five familiar faces. I giggle uncontrollably because they look just like the boys. That can't be. One of them look me in the eyes and sigh. The guy whispers something in the other guys ear. I get aggravated because, here I am trying to party and they're talking behind my back. I head around them and to find the restroom. They end up following me and I hurry up to lose them in the crowd. I go to find the bathroom. I found it and I stepped inside and locked the door. I took my clutch of pills out again and decided to amp it up a little bit. I took several pills, I stepped out of the bathroom and it felt like everything and everyone were multiplied by a million. I walked or stumbled down the hallway.
I made it to the living room and saw nothing but a blur. I was confused majorly, where was Caden. I walked around some more when I collapsed on the ground. I felt my lungs tightening and everything was fading, even the sound, I grabbed my throat. I fully collapsed on the ground and I was on my back gasping for air. Oh no, not again. I saw everything going in and out of focus. Everything went by in slow motion, I saw those five guys walk up again. They were yelling something. Everything was silent, that's when I fell into a deep dark hole. I never came back.
Notes
Well, it's 10:00 and I'm supposed to be asleep. That was interesting huh? High five for being a rebel and staying up past bedtime? Huh? No? Okay.Byeeeee!
9/15/13