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Perfect Act

Selective Silence

Harry's PoV
I sat on my bed with my head in my hands, not even trying to stop the tears coming out of my eyes. On the drive home Liam had yelled at me, saying it was my fault, and that if I didn't leave the apartment he would have been there to stop the phone call. I still couldn't process it all. Why would anyone want to hurt someone as wonderful as Bella? She didn't deserve it. Any of it. I almost passed out when Liam told me how that bastard had raped her. It was horrible. And now I couldn't help but think that it was my fault. If I hadn't been such a baby about the awkward encounter everything would have been fine. Now Bella was over at Luke and Eliza's with them and Jamie and who knows if they actually would bring her back tomorrow. They would probably just tell us that they knew we would end up getting Bella hurt and kick us out. I heard my door open, but made to attempt to move.

"Harry." It was Liam.

"Look, I'm sorry about what I said earlier. It wasn't your fault. Ky would have found her either way. If she didnt answer the call he probably would have been even more determined to find her. It wasn't your fault and I'm sorry for saying it was." I merely nodded.

"Hazz common you cant just sit there you need to do something." I scowled and looked up at him.

"Oh is that so? I think you needed to do something when you found Bella raped and practically naked in an alleyway. I think you needed to do something the day we all met her and you realised who she was. I think you needed to do something when you found out about who Ky was." I was yelling by now. "And I think YOU fucking needed to do something when you realised Ky had called her last night!!! So no I DONT fucking need to do anything now except wait and see if Bella actually comes back and go over in my head just how fucked up this all is. Now please do me a favour and piss off." I looked back down and heard Liam sigh and walk off.

The next day

I sat down on the couch, my eyes never leaving the door. Jamie had texted an hour ago saying he would bring Bella over at 11:30. It was 11:35. Why wasn't she here? Had she been hurt again? Had she decided to not come? Or was she just late and I was being way to paranoid. My question was answered when she walked though the door. She went straight into her bedroom. No hi, no eye contact, no acknowledgement that I was there what so ever. I went to go knock on her door but decided against it. Space. That was what she needed. So that's what I would give her.

Louis PoV
It had been almost a week since the whole Starbucks Ky thing. Bella only came out of her room to shower and to eat, although most days she only had two meals and she would always take them back to her room. She didnt speak to any of us, occasionally she would say hi if we said it first, but other than that she pretty much isolated herself from all of us. I was worried. I didn't really know how she was going to react, but I was hoping it wouldn't have been the silent treatment. It would have been easier with El and Dani here, but they had to go back to England for a bit. I had realised that she wouldn't have been talking to anyone since she had left her phone and iPad on the kitchen table and they were turned off. We had received daily calls from her three best friends all wanting to know how she was and if she had talked to us yet etc. Today we were going to the recording studio and were hoping Bella would come. Since we hadn't asked her yet we would have to soon. As if on cue she walked out of her bedroom and grabbed one of those low fat muesli bars from the kitchen and started to head back to her room.

"Bella wait," all heads tuned to me. The boys were all watching tv but now I guess I was the entertainment.

"Erm, we're going to the recording studio today and Jamie and Eliza are coming so do you want to come." You could feel the tension in the room as everyone waited for her respond, if she was even going to give one.

"Yeah sure, what time." We were all shocked by her answer and I was to dumbfounded to speak.

"1 o'clock, be ready at one," Niall called from the couch. She nodded and went back to her room. One o'clock came around and Bella emerged from her room wearing skinny jeans a top that said 'H.O.P.E- Hold On, Pain Ends.' I wondered where she got all of her tops. I regognised some of the quotes on her tops from when she had written them on her arms. She grabbed a furry hooded hoodie (it was July so winter in Australia, although there were sometimes random warm days. Also the Australian winter was really warm!) and headed towards the door. We all followed in a line and almost crashed into her when she suddenly stopped right out the front of the building. It was oddly quiet, then I noticed there was no one outside. No pap, no fans, just a few normal people going on with there daily business. But right outside the building was massive stack of paper and a note. Bella picked up the note and I peered over her shoulder and read it.

Bella. We understand you have been though a lot recently and didnt want to overwhelmed you with anything more. We held a little Directioner gold coin donation and got the pap to back off until the 20th (it was the 15th now) we didnt want to overwhelm you with us either but many of us made an A4 sheets for you that we sincerely hope you read.
Best wishes, Directioners.

For the first time in a week I saw Bella smiling. She grabbed the stack of paper and put them in her bag.

Bellas PoV
Once we got to the car I took out the papers and looked through the papers.

Thank you for letting the boys stay with you!

If it weren't for you our boys might not be here. Thanks!

We love you Bella!

You are so beautiful! I'm jealous, hahaha

You are a beautiful strong person.

One particularly caught my attention. And while looking through them I found this same one over and over again with different colours and handwriting.

Bella we all saw the vid of you and that guys at Starbucks. We aren't sure of the whole story but obviously know the rumours. No matter what is true stay strong and always beleive in yourself. You seem like an amazing person and if you ever need to talk to anyone any of us would be happy to talk to you. Ps. You and Harry would be really cute together, just something to think about ;)

I smiled, re-reading over it again and again. Yeah, they had some nasty fans, but for the majoraty, The boys fans were really sweet. I read the last bit. Me and Harry, Harry and me. I'd never thought about it like that. Us as a couple? Wouldn't that be weird? Maybe not, I guess he is hot, and he's really nice too.... Bella! Where did that all come from? I quickly shook it off and thankfully we arrived at the recording studio. Eliza and Jamie were out the front and I gave them both a long hug before we all went inside.

To my surprise Simon came up to us. I didnt even realise that he was in Australia! He informed the boys that in just under a week they would be doing a one time concert since the demands were so high. After woods he came up to me.

"Bella. I know that some things have gone with you recently and I want you to know that we will do anything we can to make things easier. Body guards, anything. And even if you want the boys to move out for a while we would completely understand." He seemed sincere.

"Thank you Mr. Cowell, but I'm fine without body guards and everything. And the boys don't need to move out." He nodded.

"Alright. But Bella, are you ok," I saw the genuine concern in his eyes and it hurt me to lie to him.


Harry's PoV
Eliza Jamie and Bella stayed for a while watching us record, but then they went off somewhere. With Josh. Yeah, josh. Bella seemed to have no problem talking to him. Dickhead. When we got a break I went to look for them, I then heard a guitar being strummed and a beautiful womans voice starting to sing Counting Stars by OneRepublic.

Lately I been, I been losing sleep
Dreaming about the things that we could be
But baby I been, I been prayin' hard
Said no more counting dollars
We'll be counting stars
Yeah, we'll be counting stars

I peered into the room and almost had a heart attack when I saw it was Bella singing. She sung? Well obviously! She was wonderful. She was also the one playing guitar. Josh was on drums and Eliza and Jamie were sitting next to each other. What really surprised me was what happened next. Jamie started singing the first verse. With josh. And josh was good.

I see this life
Like a swinging vine
Swing my heart across the line
In my face is flashing signs
Seek it out and ye shall find

Eliza and Bella sung the next bit. There voices went beautifully together.

Old, but I'm not that old
Young, but I'm not that bold
And I don't think the world is sold
I'm just doing what we're told

I feel something so right
Doing the wrong thing
I feel something so wrong
Doing the right thing
I could lie, could lie, could lie
Everything that kills me makes me feel alive

Everyone joined in for the chorus. I noticed something of Bellas face. Joy. She truly looked happy while she was singing.

Lately I been, I been losing sleep
Dreaming about the things that we could be
Baby I been, I been prayin' hard
Said no more counting dollars
We'll be counting stars
Lately I been, I been losing sleep
Dreaming about the things that we could be
Baby I been, I been prayin' hard
Said no more counting dollars
We'll be, we'll be counting stars

They sung the second verse like they had the verse and then went on to the chorus. I was dumbfounded and almost forgot to move out of the way when Jamie and Josh started walking towards me. I ducked behind the door and they walked straight past me. I heard Bella and Eliza talking.

"I'm gonna go find some place to get some food, you want anything." Bella shook her head. Eliza sighed and walked out of the room, thankfully through the other door. After about a minute I decide to go in, but then Bella picked up the guitar again. (A/N any song I say is 'original' probably I can't write songs for this fanfic. , I take no credit for these songs, but imagine them in this fanfic as if Bella truley did write them. I know most people just skim over the lyrics of songs when they are in fanfics but please read them when they are Bellas 'original' Songs.) she started singing, strumming only once at the end of each line.

Made a wrong turn
Once or twice
Dug my way out
Blood and fire
Bad decisions, that's alright
Welcome to my silly life.

I didnt regognise the lyrics, and realised that Bella had written this song. She went into a more detailed strumming pattern for the pre-chorus.

Misplace misunderstood
Miss, no way it's all good it didnt slow me down.
Mistaken always second guessing underestimated
Look I'm still around.

She smiled sadly at the last line and I wanted to go in there and hold her, but I knew I couldn't. She sung the chorus and I listened to her voice. It was phenomenal! I had never heard someone with such natural talent before.

Pretty pretty please don't you ever ever feel
Like your less than, less than perfect
Pretty pretty please, don't you ever ever feel
Like your nothing, you are perfect to me.

I looked past her and noticed Eliza standing hidden in the other doorway watching Bella and smiling. She looked like a proud parent watching there child's graduation. There was a mixture of sadness happiness love and compassion to her face. She noticed me staring and looked up at me. My eyes widened. To my complete and utter astonishment she just went back to watching Bella. I decided to leave it, as she was for once not blaming something on me, and continued to listen to Bella sing.

You're so mean
when you talk
About yourself. You were wrong.
Change the voices
in your head
Make them like you instead.

So complicated,
Look how we all make it.
Filled with so much hatred
Such a tired game
It's enough, I've done all I could think of
Chased down all my demons
I've seen you do the same
(Oh oh)

Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than less than perfect
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing, you are perfect to me

The whole world's scared, so I swallow the fear
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer
So cool in lying and we try, try, try but we try too hard
And it's a waste of my time.
Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere
They don't like my jeans, they don't get my hair
Exchange ourselves and we do it all the time
Why do we do that, why do I do that, why so I so that?

My breath caught at the next but. Words could honestly not describe how amazing Bellas voice was,

(Yeah! Oh!)
pretty, pretty, pretty
Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than less than perfect
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing, you are perfect to me
(You're perfect, you're perfect)
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing, you are perfect to me

She let the last guitar strum fade out and placed it back on the stand. I realised she would be leaving the room soon and I needed to go so she wouldn't see me. I headed back to the recording room, but my mind was only one one thing. I replayed her voice in my head over and over again until the thought was literally slapped out of my mind by Louis frustrated by my daydreaming.

2 days later

Bellas PoV
I had started to talk to the guys a little more over the past few days, although it wasn't easy. They all acted so cautious around me as I might break at any second. They were extra nice extra soft and extra sweet which sounds great but it's a pain in the arse. I wish they would just go back to how it was before ky. This is why I didn't want to tell them, I knew they would treat me differently. And I was right. But how long would it last? Would they act like this around me forever?


Bellas song: clean version Fucking perfect by P!NK

Hi I know I said i wasnt going to update for a few days. I was gong to try and write a few chapters in some spare time and then I could update at a good consist rate while working on futore chapter. Buuuut the impatient part of me decided to post this now -____- I had not planned this. Anyway let me know what you think! This chapter was sort of a filler, I absolutely promise you the next chapter is soooo much better.

comment. Rate. Subscrie.

is Harry ever going to Bella his feelings? Is so when?
are the boys ever going to be able to act normal around Bella?


Holy fuck I need to know what happens. Please just tell me Harry and Bella make it through everything and end up together because I might lose my mind if not. This is so good but holy shit my emotions

Just read this tonight. Please please do a sequel. Your writing is amazing.

I'm so ready for the sequel. I can't function until I know what happens. You are an awesome writer!

Akrakl101 Akrakl101

This story is amazing I have read the whole thing in he past 48 hours and it's just amazing. You are great writer and I know it's been long but can you like write a sequel or something for closure... find out what happens with Bella and Harry? I need closure... Anyway your story is really good!!! =)

Please update! I just read this entire story today during classes! I REALLY need to know what happens to Harry and Bella! I need closure or else I go crazy! And I really want a sequel! Pretty pretty please! I'm even asking nicely, which is a surprise because, like you, I'm known to have a pretty fowl mouth although I'm American, so I don't have your excuse! ^_^