Five Lovestories
Chapter Forty, "The Confession"
My eyes flickered over the room, at the ten eyes that was staring at me. I breathed out slowly, and slowly in. This was the most nervous moment of my life. I was just about to pour my heart out on five very special boys, when I got interrupted.
"What are we doing here?" Louis spoke with his hand in the air, like I was the teacher and he was the student.
"I'm here to tell you all something.. Something very important.." I said low.
I looked at him. He seemed nevous as well. Almost as he knew. Louis was just making fun of the whole situation. I had gathered all the boys into Harrys room and now they were all sitting on the couch, and I was standing up in front of them to tell them about the kiss.
Niall licked his lips. No emotions. I simply couldn't read his face. Zayn just looked so serious. As he always did, if he wasn't laughing. And finally Harry.. Harry was broken. I could see it. I knew he put up a brave face, because I knew that he thought he was going to get me in the end. But I knew he was scared, and broken because of what I had said about having feelings for the other boys.
"Go on and tell us then." Niall said.
He seemed in hurry, hurry to find out what was going on.
"Well.." I started. "Something happened."
"What?" Liam asked.
I took another deep breath. I had thought through what I was going to say, but nothing made sense anymore. I needed to reformulate myself.
"You know, I really like you all.." I said.
"We like you too babe." Louis smiled.
"Well, thanks.." I giggled nervously. "But, here's the thing.. I really, really like you all.."
Louis smile died.
"Uh, what exactly do you mean..?" He asked.
And suddenly, I made a decision.
"Niall, come with me." I demanded and walked out of the room.
Niall smirked, and came with me. He closed the door behind himself.
"Okay, Kathy. What is going on?" He asked while leaning against the wall with his hands crossed.
I came closer, so I could talk lower. But how was I going to tell him? I suddenly felt tears in my eyes. I think it was because of the complicated situation I was in, and now I would drag them all into the mess. And I didn't wanna ruin anything. I loved Niall, he was funny and kind, and if I told him that I liked him more than as just a friend.. Wouldn't that ruin anything?
"I.. I.. I just.. You and I.. we're friends, right?" I asked.
"Course!" He said. "Hey, what's wrong?"
He put his arm on my shoulder as he could start to see the tears aswell.
"What if I.." I sobbed. "What if I told you that I like you more than as a friend?"
Then, childish as I was, I slightly bursted out in tears. Niall took me in his arms, and gave me his special Niall-hug, a really big one.
"Shh.. shh.." He said and stroke my hair. "I would say that.. it was perfect."
I suddenly stopped crying. I looked up on him, his pink lips and his face. He looked happy.
"Really?" I asked. "Would you think that it would be perfect?"
He smiled and wiped away a tear from my cheek.
"I like you. I've liked you since day one. I found you, remember? In the middle of nowhere.."
We both laughed.
"Why didn't you say anything?"
"Because.. I thought you didn't like me back." He said.
This was weird. Standing in the hallway in Nialls arms, and crying while listening to him, telling me about his secret crush on me.
"I do but.. there's two problems." I said.
Nialls smile became a wondering face.
"I.. I.. I kissed Harry.." I whispered.
Nialls mouth shaped an "oh", and he looked up in the ceiling, like he was thinking things through.
"He took me on a date and then we kissed. Last night and.. this morning. But this morning was a mistake!"
"Why?"
"Because I realized that I did not only like Harry.."
Nialls smile came back, he was assuming that I was only talking about him.
"And there's the other problem.:" I said low. "I like you.. and Harry.."
"Great, the love-triangle.." Niall sighed.
"..What about a love-hexagon?"
Nialls eyes grew bigger than ever.
"A-a what?" He stuttered. "You.. you're in love with.. all of us? Well that's just great work, Kath.." He chuckled and pulled me away.
"I can't decide who I am going to love, Niall!" I said with tears in my eyes again. "It just happens! I know I can't have all of you, but I just wanted to tell you all becuase things are going to get complicated otherways!"
He turned to me, and sighed as he got closer.
"Look. I told you the truth when I said I liked you. If I have to compete to those.. I will. Because I honestly don't want anyone else."
My heart melted. That was the Niall I knew.
"I need to talk to the other boys about this.."
"Yeah, you do." Niall said and opened the door and walked in again.
I breathed. 2/5, I thought. Harry and Niall. Three left.
I brought Zayn out next.
"Zayn.. I wanted to tell you something before things get awkward.. I like you."
"But.. I like you too..?"
"No but.. I like you.." I breathed.
Zayn did the same thing as Niall, but out loud.
"Oh.." He said low. "Well, I guess that's for the better because I like you too."
I looked up from the floor at him.
"Really?"
"Really.." He whispered and started to lean towards me.
Don't kiss him, idiot, I thought. You've caused enough problems only kissing Harry. But it was hard, I wanted to feel his soft lips on mine, tasting him. But I had to tell him the truth first.
"But.." I interuted, making him slowly lean back again. "I kissed Harry.."
"Oh.." Zayn said low.
I liked how he didn't freak out like Niall, but I just realized that freaking out isn't Zanish. It's Harrish, or Niallish. Zayn just said "oh".
"But it was a confused kiss.. And.. I kind of.."
"You kind of realized you liked me more than him..?" Zayn suggested with a cute smile.
"Yeah.. And three other boys.."
"L-like.. Niall, Louis and L-liam?" He stuttered.
"Yeah.." I said quiet. "I guess you just wanna be friends.. Maybe that's what we should do.."
"Listen, if that's what you want.. I just.. My feelings won't go away just because you're intrested in other guys.."
My heart raced for his honest and sweet answer. It was the kind of answer that I was litterally wanting from all the boys. Zayn put his hands on his forehead.
"That sucks, man.." He murmered. "Just when I thought I had you.. By myself, you know.." He said low.
"I'm sorry.."
"What are we doing here?" Louis spoke with his hand in the air, like I was the teacher and he was the student.
"I'm here to tell you all something.. Something very important.." I said low.
I looked at him. He seemed nevous as well. Almost as he knew. Louis was just making fun of the whole situation. I had gathered all the boys into Harrys room and now they were all sitting on the couch, and I was standing up in front of them to tell them about the kiss.
Niall licked his lips. No emotions. I simply couldn't read his face. Zayn just looked so serious. As he always did, if he wasn't laughing. And finally Harry.. Harry was broken. I could see it. I knew he put up a brave face, because I knew that he thought he was going to get me in the end. But I knew he was scared, and broken because of what I had said about having feelings for the other boys.
"Go on and tell us then." Niall said.
He seemed in hurry, hurry to find out what was going on.
"Well.." I started. "Something happened."
"What?" Liam asked.
I took another deep breath. I had thought through what I was going to say, but nothing made sense anymore. I needed to reformulate myself.
"You know, I really like you all.." I said.
"We like you too babe." Louis smiled.
"Well, thanks.." I giggled nervously. "But, here's the thing.. I really, really like you all.."
Louis smile died.
"Uh, what exactly do you mean..?" He asked.
And suddenly, I made a decision.
"Niall, come with me." I demanded and walked out of the room.
Niall smirked, and came with me. He closed the door behind himself.
"Okay, Kathy. What is going on?" He asked while leaning against the wall with his hands crossed.
I came closer, so I could talk lower. But how was I going to tell him? I suddenly felt tears in my eyes. I think it was because of the complicated situation I was in, and now I would drag them all into the mess. And I didn't wanna ruin anything. I loved Niall, he was funny and kind, and if I told him that I liked him more than as just a friend.. Wouldn't that ruin anything?
"I.. I.. I just.. You and I.. we're friends, right?" I asked.
"Course!" He said. "Hey, what's wrong?"
He put his arm on my shoulder as he could start to see the tears aswell.
"What if I.." I sobbed. "What if I told you that I like you more than as a friend?"
Then, childish as I was, I slightly bursted out in tears. Niall took me in his arms, and gave me his special Niall-hug, a really big one.
"Shh.. shh.." He said and stroke my hair. "I would say that.. it was perfect."
I suddenly stopped crying. I looked up on him, his pink lips and his face. He looked happy.
"Really?" I asked. "Would you think that it would be perfect?"
He smiled and wiped away a tear from my cheek.
"I like you. I've liked you since day one. I found you, remember? In the middle of nowhere.."
We both laughed.
"Why didn't you say anything?"
"Because.. I thought you didn't like me back." He said.
This was weird. Standing in the hallway in Nialls arms, and crying while listening to him, telling me about his secret crush on me.
"I do but.. there's two problems." I said.
Nialls smile became a wondering face.
"I.. I.. I kissed Harry.." I whispered.
Nialls mouth shaped an "oh", and he looked up in the ceiling, like he was thinking things through.
"He took me on a date and then we kissed. Last night and.. this morning. But this morning was a mistake!"
"Why?"
"Because I realized that I did not only like Harry.."
Nialls smile came back, he was assuming that I was only talking about him.
"And there's the other problem.:" I said low. "I like you.. and Harry.."
"Great, the love-triangle.." Niall sighed.
"..What about a love-hexagon?"
Nialls eyes grew bigger than ever.
"A-a what?" He stuttered. "You.. you're in love with.. all of us? Well that's just great work, Kath.." He chuckled and pulled me away.
"I can't decide who I am going to love, Niall!" I said with tears in my eyes again. "It just happens! I know I can't have all of you, but I just wanted to tell you all becuase things are going to get complicated otherways!"
He turned to me, and sighed as he got closer.
"Look. I told you the truth when I said I liked you. If I have to compete to those.. I will. Because I honestly don't want anyone else."
My heart melted. That was the Niall I knew.
"I need to talk to the other boys about this.."
"Yeah, you do." Niall said and opened the door and walked in again.
I breathed. 2/5, I thought. Harry and Niall. Three left.
I brought Zayn out next.
"Zayn.. I wanted to tell you something before things get awkward.. I like you."
"But.. I like you too..?"
"No but.. I like you.." I breathed.
Zayn did the same thing as Niall, but out loud.
"Oh.." He said low. "Well, I guess that's for the better because I like you too."
I looked up from the floor at him.
"Really?"
"Really.." He whispered and started to lean towards me.
Don't kiss him, idiot, I thought. You've caused enough problems only kissing Harry. But it was hard, I wanted to feel his soft lips on mine, tasting him. But I had to tell him the truth first.
"But.." I interuted, making him slowly lean back again. "I kissed Harry.."
"Oh.." Zayn said low.
I liked how he didn't freak out like Niall, but I just realized that freaking out isn't Zanish. It's Harrish, or Niallish. Zayn just said "oh".
"But it was a confused kiss.. And.. I kind of.."
"You kind of realized you liked me more than him..?" Zayn suggested with a cute smile.
"Yeah.. And three other boys.."
"L-like.. Niall, Louis and L-liam?" He stuttered.
"Yeah.." I said quiet. "I guess you just wanna be friends.. Maybe that's what we should do.."
"Listen, if that's what you want.. I just.. My feelings won't go away just because you're intrested in other guys.."
My heart raced for his honest and sweet answer. It was the kind of answer that I was litterally wanting from all the boys. Zayn put his hands on his forehead.
"That sucks, man.." He murmered. "Just when I thought I had you.. By myself, you know.." He said low.
"I'm sorry.."
@nafalovesonedirection
Yes, I felt so too. But hey, if you wanna check out my new fanfiction, please do! It hasn't as good updating as this one had, but it's only because I want every chapter to be inspired, good, and well - perfect. I've only written one chapter but I'm working on my second. x :)
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4/27/14