Once Upon A Time..

-Amanda's POV-

I slam the car door behind me and lean against it. I sigh and hold me head. What have I done?
Niall gets out of the car and walks over beside me. He wraps his arms around me and holds me close. He rests his head on top of mind and gently rubs my back.

"Niall?" I ask.

"Yes babe?" He asks in reply.

"Can we go back to the hotel and just order room service?" I ask as I feel more tears start to drip.
He uses his thumb to wipe away the tears then kisses my cheek.

"Course" He says and walks over to the other side of the car and hope in, starting then engine.

"Thank you." I whisper. I get into the car and buckle up.

-------------skip the car ride-------------

Niall and I walk into the elevator. He gently wraps an arm around my waist and leans against the wall. I lean against him and rest my head on his shoulder with a sigh.

"I'm sorry I made you drive all the way there for nothing." I whisper as I shake my head.

"No, no. It's okay." He kisses the top of my head. We get to our floor and exit the elevator. I open the hotel room door and we both walk in, closing the door behind us.

I sit on the couch and turn on the T.V. Niall picks up a book and dial's a number, calling room service.

"Hi, we're room 928." Niall says into the phone.

"Can we have two breakfast sandwiches and a coffee." He asks.

"I want a coffee too." I say. Niall moves the phone away from his face.

"We can just share, I don't drink much coffee anyways." He says then brings the phone back.
I nod.

"Oh, large please." Niall says.

"Okay, thank you." He hangs up and walks over to my. He sits down beside me and leans back.

"Could you stand for a second?" Niall asks. I nod.

Niall places his head on the arm rest and put his legs and feet up on the couch. He pats the area next to him. I lay down beside him. He wraps his arms around me, looking over my shoulder.

I sigh..

"I'm all of the sudden not hungry." I close my eyes.

"I'll be glad to eat your breakfast." Niall says. I sigh.

"okay." I say and stand up and walk over to the door because I know someone will knock soon. Just then, I hear a knock.

I open the door.

"Okay, two breakfast sandwiches and a coffee." A man with a thick french accent says.

"Merci." I say and take the meal. I close the door and place the food on the table.

"Bon appétit" I say and walk into the room. I lay on the bed and cover my face.

"Amanda." Niall pulls me over so that he's holding me in his arms and gently rocking me.

"I can't Niall. That letter freaked me out. I'm not in the mood for anything. She's coming back. If she doesn't come back then someone will and they will do her dirty work." I feel tears.

"Amanda.. don't beat yourself up. Everything will be fine." Niall says.

"NO NIALL! Not everything goes as planned! I will beat myself up, because I don't matter anymore! I'm a bitch and guess what? I have already been beaten up! No one loves me, I'm a loner. I don't deserve you. Your way to good for me now, because I'm just some mess! My life is ruined and so is yours. All because of me! Niall, nothing will be fine because everything is wrecked cause of me. I'm beating myself up, you know why? Because I'M WEAK!" I yell as I get out of Niall's grip. He pulls me back into him and gently rocks me back and forth. Then whispers.

"No Amanda.. Your strong. and I love you, your no loner." He whispers, then starts to sing into my ear softly.

"You'll never love yourself half as much as I love you. And you'll never treat yourself right darlin, but I wan't you to. If I let you know I'm here, for you. Maybe you'll love yourself like I love you." Niall sings softly, calming me down. He lays a soft and short kiss on my lips and sings that little verse over and over again until I fall asleep.

Notes

If your wondering, I finished the previous chapter.