My eyes stayed closed as the bright sun seeping through the curtains awoke me. When I finally adjusted to the light, my eyes slowly opened, and a slight panick ran through my body when I realized where I was. For a second, last night's events slipped my mind. I looked over to see Harry peacefully sleeping, and naked I might add.

I sat up and dangled my legs off the side of the bed, resting my elbows on my knees while rubbing my temples. The memory of last night was already giving me a headache. There was so much running through my mind that I wanted to scream. Having sex with Harry was something I can't describe... It was perfect. He was so gentle and sweet. There wasn't many words exchanged between us, but there didn't need to be. He made me feel safe and loved with just his touch.

Yes, what had happened last night between Harry and I was amazing, but I'm so scared now. All I can think about is this changing our relationship. You know in movies or television shows where the two best friends hook up and their friendship is ruined because it just becomes awkward? Well that's happened to me before, and I do not want it to happen again, especially with Harry. Even if I have feelings for him, I would put them aside if it means I won't lose Harry. I can't lose him... And I'm fearful that this may have changed everything.

I stood up slowly, careful not to wake the sleeping boy. I took a blanket from the bed and wrapped it around my naked body. I grabbed my clothes off the floor and quietly got dressed. I have to get out of here.

"Where are you going?" His deep voice asked after he had just waken up and noticed me.

"I uh, have to go" I nervously said. I grabbed my purse and threw one of Harrys sweatshirt over my head before heading for the door.

"Aubrey! Wait!" I heard him yell as I maneuvered my way threw the group of people in Harry's basement that must've passed out,last night. I ran up the stairs and dug threw my purse trying to find my keys. When I got outside to my car, Harry had just come out still pulling a shirt over his head.

"Why are you leaving?" He asked as he walked up to me.

"Harry.. I just can't"

"You can't what?"

"Last night.. It was great, but I really don't think it was a good idea" I nervously said.

"I think it was a great idea" he smiled and kissed my nose.

"I have to go" I blurted out before the tears could spill out of my eyes. I pulled away from Harry and got into my car, not giving him a chance to stop me. I backed out of the driveway and drove for a few minutes towards my house before I couldn't control my breathing or see because of the tears welling up in my eyes. I parked on the side of the road and let it all out. I'm afraid of loving him...

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After I finally made it home I ran up to my room, slammed the door shut and lost it once again. Tears fell from my eyes as I pressed my back against the wall and slid down to the floor, burying my face in my hands.

Why does it have to be so hard for me? Why can't I just trust him!? My mind is telling me one thing and my heart is telling me another.. I don't know what to do!

Just as I finally calmed down I heard the doorbell ring several times followed by Harry's voice.

"Aubrey please let me in!"

I couldn't bring myself to answer it.. He knocked for a good five minutes before he finally stopped. When I thought he had left, my phone vibrated in my purse, and I pulled it out to see he had texted me.

Aubs I understand why you're upset... I'm coming back in a few hours so we can talk.. -H xx

Notes

Very sorry for the short chapter, but I'm currently out of town and haven't had a lot of time to write!

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