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My Brother's Bandmates

Mixed Feelings

“We need to talk” I text Jason
"I have nothing to say to you, at the moment” He text back almost immediately
“Please come over, it will be just the two of us” I text and wait for his answer
“They are not here, please just come” I text
“I will be there in about an hour” He text me back

I look at my surroundings, a giant house all to myself, at least for an hour. The boys were in some meeting or something. I really don't care. All I have done since I saw the video, is think about Jason. In the back of the video I could see Jason’s hurt eyes. I grab a quick shower and put on a comfy outfit. I grab my hair into a ponytail and look in the mirror. I looked like shit. Hangover wasn’t my best style. I was already completely sober but still. I hear the sound of a car and go downstairs to see if it is Jason.

I open the door, where Jason was standing but making no attempt to come in. I try looking at him, but he was looking to the floor. I feel ashamed of my behavior. I couldn’t even imagine how, I would feel if I was the one in his shoes.

“Please come in” I say in a low voice, moving asides and letting him in. He enters the house, and closes the door. We go to the couch and sit down.

“How have you been?” I ask
“Like you care” he says, I wont lie, that hurt
“I’m sorry, I was drunk” I apologize
“Drunk or not, would you do it again?” He asks
“Of course not, I don't go around boys” I say
“We can’t continue like this” He says
“I know” I whisper to myself
“What did you say?” He asks
“Nothing” I say
“Common” He says looking me in the eye for the first time in the day
“Is, uGh, just, ugh, I don’t know what to do” I say
“Bella doesn’t have to know” He says
“I cannot keep her such secret” I say
“You are best friends, I think she will get over it” He says moving closer
“What if she doesn’t?” I ask
“Will se then” he says
“I don’t know” I say once again, but Jason leans in and kisses me. It feels as magical as the last time, not that there are many last times. I open my mouth and let his tongue in. After a few seconds, I pull away.
“Tell me, you didn't feel anything about that” He says
“I did” I admit
“Bella’s approval wont change that” He says
“I know” I admit
“Then” he starts but trails off and looks directly into my eyes, more like into my soul
“Come here” I say and we start making out again. Thinks get hot really fast. Jason removes my shirt and I start undoing the bottons in his. This is as intimate as we have gotten, it was happening. We were really into it, but then we hear the door slam, our eyes immediately go to the door, Harry standing there, anger present in his face and behavior. He looked at us for less than a minute and went upstairs.
“I should probably go” He says and gives me a peck
“Drive safely” I say

Once Jason left, my emotions are all mixed up, worst I don't have anyone to talk about it. I remember how good I felt after talking to Eleanor, and so I called her. We decided to meet in coffee place near her model agency. I go upstairs and get ready. Before, I leave I look for Harry but he is nowhere to be found. He must have left when I was getting ready, I taught, but when I went to the driveway his car was there. I was supposed to meet Eleanor in 5 minutes, so I left anyway.

“Hey” She greets me
“Hey” I say to her as we sit down in a table
“What is wrong, you look all sad” She says
“I don’t know what to do” I say and so I told her everything
“Like I told you last time, go ahead, your friend will support you” She says
“But then, there is Harry” I say what was supposed to be just a thought
“Do you fill anything for him?” She asks surprised
“Not really but today, when he walked in on us, he looked so angry and hurt” I say
“Don’t worry, next thing you know, you will be the one walking in on him” She says but that doesn’t make me feel any better.
“Louis just text me. He wants to join us, is that ok?” She asks
“Sure” I say and in a few minutes Louis is next to Eleanor. We continue chatting about life until Eleanor left. Louis had been dropped of by Niall, so I gave him a ride back to the house. Before we entered the house I asked him something and the answer was the most unexpected one.

“Lou, why wasn’t Harry in the meeting?” I ask
“He got in a fight with Niall” He says
“About what?” I ask curiously
“About you” He says and enters the house, leaving me outside with my head full of mixed emotions.


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