Three years later
If only those blue eyes didn't stare...
I woke up while I was shivering because my bedroom window had been left open. I grabbed my giant sweatshirt and switched into some black yoga pants slipping onto my roof outside of my window. It was black out and there was a crisp chill in the air and i willed away the dried fears as I recalled the events of the night before. Niall. Ass. Such a fucking Moran. I don't know why he did this to me? Does he hate me? I excepted him back and allowed him to be part of Alex and is life. I don't know why I deserved this. I mean I know I am far from perfect! But I am a helluva lot better parent than him and he's had less time to fuck Alex up! But my fucking three year old son just told his dad to get the hell outta here. We had been through so much together in such a shoe amount of time already! We were becoming so happy in the hospital and it's like that bitch came around and fucked us up everytime we became happy. I love Niall, he's the father of my child, was my bestfriend, he's adorable, my first love, possible my love at this moment! I don't know what to do. I think to hat Niall can see Alex once to twice a week if he would like but it must be consistent, and I will oy be involved with him as a co-parent.
How do I deal with this? We both screwed up but at least I didn't make the same mistake over and over and made it so bad that I wanted to fucking kill my self over it! Niall. Shit! I almost forgot about his cutting habits! No matter how pissed I was at him I couldn't let him harm himself, Alex was starting to get to know him and If I had any fucking say he was going to know him a lot better. On top of it all so far Niall has been an amazing father and Alex loves him. I love him. Fuck.
I crept down the hallway toward the large satircas. My parents were going to start updating some of these things soon, like the carpet, and some of the guest room wallpapers. I peeked into Al's room to see he was peacefully sleeping in his crib, and my brothers were spread across the room sleeping on the floor, little bed, small couch, and rocking chair. I tiptoed down the stairs to peek into the guest rooms seeing all of the boys except Louis sleeping, frowning I continued toward the living room. Still no sign of Louis, I continued on through the entry way to the amazing dinning room my mom planned this out for seven years before she decided it was perfect for her and her dream! There was a dirty plate on the table and I smiled walkin further toward the kitchen, my favorite room in this house, I remember all te family dinners me, my mom, and my grandma along with my two aunts making homemade chicken and noodles on Christmas Eve, then waking up and finding family here every morning. Always the happy room. Whenever someone in the house started fighting they knew to either leave the kitchen, or when you walked in shut up because it was always calm in here. I saw a note on the counter.
"Skylar, I got worried when Niall wouldn't answer so I'm going to make sure he's ok, sorry about the mess... Good food here! Call me when you get this if you want or text or don't... Let the boys know there is a taxi plae thirty minutes away so they can call them when they are ready. Thanks Sky!
-Louiis!"
i picked up the phone on the counter and dialed the phone for lous number, "He-hello,"
"Lou?" I asked when I heard his voice crack. Shit!
" Ah!" I heard a girl... El!
"Your sick Lou! El shut up I can hear you!!!" I said laughing really loud. They both started giggling and I started laughing harder.
"Uh, is there any reason you two set me up to hear you... Enjoy Eachothers company?" Lou giggled like a school girl.
"I didn't want you family to find it and have, "El called for a quick shack up, thanks for letting me stay! But I need to ram her brains out!" I started laughing so hard I was now eating some cookies that had been made after I had fallen asleep.
"Uh, hey sky! I love you but can we call you in fluke a few hours? He got here like ten minutes ago and I want to... Enjoy him again," she was laughing so hard a the end, as was I and Lou.
"Sure! Use a condom!" I giggled and heard their laughter roar as we hung up. I jumped to see Nate standing in the doorway, "fuck! What the hell is wrong with you?" I whisper yelled.
"You woke me up so ou could tell someone to use a fucking common?" He said cracking a smile.
"Yes, yes I did!" I laughed. He walked toward me looking me in the eyes, I may be laughing but I was still really hurt about the whole Niall thing.
" Sky, you deserve batter than to be treated that way. I want you to be happy but I don think he's going to make you happy for longer than a few weeks or a month at a time, I can't see my little sister this way! He pissed me off. I put up with him for you, now I'll put up with him for Al, but I don't like him and I want you to know there are guys who would treat you like the fucking. Princess that ou are! Please don't rule them out," he kissed my cheek taking a few cookies and turning leaving. I soon heard his feet going up the stairs. I walked back up to my room. Tomorrow I'll leave Al here and go talk to Niall. I don't want to get back together with him but we need to figure out how to take care of Al or if he doesn't want to be part of his life I'll tell him no hard feelings but he won't be welcome back. He can screw with me, but I'm not pulling Al into that shit circle. I slowly closed my windows and made my way to my bed laying down. I was about to fall asleep when my phone flashed, and I looked over to see: NIALL<3;)
How do I deal with this? We both screwed up but at least I didn't make the same mistake over and over and made it so bad that I wanted to fucking kill my self over it! Niall. Shit! I almost forgot about his cutting habits! No matter how pissed I was at him I couldn't let him harm himself, Alex was starting to get to know him and If I had any fucking say he was going to know him a lot better. On top of it all so far Niall has been an amazing father and Alex loves him. I love him. Fuck.
I crept down the hallway toward the large satircas. My parents were going to start updating some of these things soon, like the carpet, and some of the guest room wallpapers. I peeked into Al's room to see he was peacefully sleeping in his crib, and my brothers were spread across the room sleeping on the floor, little bed, small couch, and rocking chair. I tiptoed down the stairs to peek into the guest rooms seeing all of the boys except Louis sleeping, frowning I continued toward the living room. Still no sign of Louis, I continued on through the entry way to the amazing dinning room my mom planned this out for seven years before she decided it was perfect for her and her dream! There was a dirty plate on the table and I smiled walkin further toward the kitchen, my favorite room in this house, I remember all te family dinners me, my mom, and my grandma along with my two aunts making homemade chicken and noodles on Christmas Eve, then waking up and finding family here every morning. Always the happy room. Whenever someone in the house started fighting they knew to either leave the kitchen, or when you walked in shut up because it was always calm in here. I saw a note on the counter.
"Skylar, I got worried when Niall wouldn't answer so I'm going to make sure he's ok, sorry about the mess... Good food here! Call me when you get this if you want or text or don't... Let the boys know there is a taxi plae thirty minutes away so they can call them when they are ready. Thanks Sky!
-Louiis!"
i picked up the phone on the counter and dialed the phone for lous number, "He-hello,"
"Lou?" I asked when I heard his voice crack. Shit!
" Ah!" I heard a girl... El!
"Your sick Lou! El shut up I can hear you!!!" I said laughing really loud. They both started giggling and I started laughing harder.
"Uh, is there any reason you two set me up to hear you... Enjoy Eachothers company?" Lou giggled like a school girl.
"I didn't want you family to find it and have, "El called for a quick shack up, thanks for letting me stay! But I need to ram her brains out!" I started laughing so hard I was now eating some cookies that had been made after I had fallen asleep.
"Uh, hey sky! I love you but can we call you in fluke a few hours? He got here like ten minutes ago and I want to... Enjoy him again," she was laughing so hard a the end, as was I and Lou.
"Sure! Use a condom!" I giggled and heard their laughter roar as we hung up. I jumped to see Nate standing in the doorway, "fuck! What the hell is wrong with you?" I whisper yelled.
"You woke me up so ou could tell someone to use a fucking common?" He said cracking a smile.
"Yes, yes I did!" I laughed. He walked toward me looking me in the eyes, I may be laughing but I was still really hurt about the whole Niall thing.
" Sky, you deserve batter than to be treated that way. I want you to be happy but I don think he's going to make you happy for longer than a few weeks or a month at a time, I can't see my little sister this way! He pissed me off. I put up with him for you, now I'll put up with him for Al, but I don't like him and I want you to know there are guys who would treat you like the fucking. Princess that ou are! Please don't rule them out," he kissed my cheek taking a few cookies and turning leaving. I soon heard his feet going up the stairs. I walked back up to my room. Tomorrow I'll leave Al here and go talk to Niall. I don't want to get back together with him but we need to figure out how to take care of Al or if he doesn't want to be part of his life I'll tell him no hard feelings but he won't be welcome back. He can screw with me, but I'm not pulling Al into that shit circle. I slowly closed my windows and made my way to my bed laying down. I was about to fall asleep when my phone flashed, and I looked over to see: NIALL<3;)
Opps... I must not have been paying attention when I wrote that... And thank you! I'm glad people are still reading this! If you haven't would you mind voting? Thank you!!!
12/5/13