Hate Breaks Us Apart

Amandas POV:

It had been 10 monthes since I had been diagnosed. To be honest, it felt like eternity. I was so weak from all the treatments, I had been completely hospitalized.

The toll ky took on my body was intense. I had lost all my hair that I had loved so much. That didnt matter to me as much as I thought it would. I almost didnt care.

It was basically ripping everyone I knew apart. All the boys had suprised me by shaving their heads. That had made me emotional that they supported me so much.

Macey was confused. I dont know if Louis had explained any of it to her. Shes so little it must be hard to.

The only one who hadnt been there for me was Harry. Harry had disappeared the day I was diagnosed. He didnt even know about it. No one had seen him since that day. All the search efforts had stopped a month ago.

I know he really took it hard when Riley died, like harder than I did. I think thats why he left, he couldnt take it. I probably would have reacted the same way if I wasnt so distracted.

At the moment I was alone in the hosptial room. Louis had been visiting less and less lately. I know he was busy with his job and all....but I needed someone around. I hated feeling lonely.

I dont know how much longer I can take this.

Notes

Sorry short crappy chapter. I promise for a better update tomorrow(: gotta get back in my groove. Thanks loves