I Wish

I was trying to catch for my breath, I was praying that he wasn’t going to tell me that he slept with another women.

Harry: “ Well I, I slept with a women remember the women that you saw in the news well I met up with her again and we ended up having sex. That time we weren’t together, but I feel like I should tell you this because I want an open relationship.”

Me: “ Awesome Harry, thank you for telling me this. I don’t know why would you tell me this, when the other minute you were telling me you us to work on ourselves. I am out for words quite frankly, I just want to go back home please.”

Harry : “ Aubrey, I….”

Me: “ Save it please, I want to go back home now I am tired anyways tomorrow I have to wake up early.”

The car ride back home, was awkward I didn’t feel like talking to him. Tears were streaming down my face, I didn’t know what to do anymore. I should have known from before, he wasn’t good for me.

I reached back home, puzzled about what Harry told me today. I didn’t know what to think anymore, I just wrote all my feelings down on paper while listening to this song http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ahha3Cqe_fk .

Looking back at the memories

It was filled with happiness and sorrows.

We fought for the love that was pure

One of us had to give up it was me.

I am the one that ended this love

Curse my thoughts not my heart.

For my heart told me to keep fighting

While my thought told me to stop.

Giving up on a love so pure

Letting go of someone perfect like you.

I was hurting myself but forgot

I was hurting you as well.

I know we will be together again

Maybe in another life.

Where the angels will sing at us

Until then looking back at the memories

Is this best thing I could do.

After writing this poem, I got emotional this was probably the most heartfelt poem I have ever written.

I received a call from Niall, I wiped my tears away and tried to make me sound like everything is fine.

Niall : “ Aubrey hey girl!!, how are you doing?. Been a long time , the lads and I saw you.”

Me: “ Niall hey, I am alright yeah I miss you all so much but I know you boys are busy with things. I didn’t want to intrude hehe, what’s happening with you boys?.”

Niall: “ You don’t sound fine at all, I am coming over we have to talk about it expect me in your place in 20 min.”

Surely enough he was in my place, in 20 min. I really needed to talk to someone, Niall was so kind enough to come and see me.

Niall : “ Now tell me what is wrong, I thought everything was okay with you and Harry?.”

Me: “ It is not him that ruined the relationship, it was me. Harry told me that he cheated on me while we were on break, it was my fault I didn’t love him the way he wanted me to. Now I feel like crap Niall, I ruined this entire thing I blame myself. “

Niall : “ He did what??!!, It is absolutely not your fault listen to me. You both need a break in the relationship, I shall have a word with him about this cheating thing. Don’t ever blame yourself,and please stop crying right now. I cannot stand to see people cry, it hurts me.”

He gave me a hug, Niall was such a good friend to me he is more like a brother to me now. I love how he is always there when I need someone to talk to, thank you Niall for being there for me.

Me: “ I am sorry for crying it is just I am really devastated about what just occurred, I will be fine I promise. Do you want anything to drink or eat?, I know how much you love eating hehe.”

Niall: “ Let me inform the lads, I will be staying here for the night I want to make sure everything is okay with you.”

Harry POV:

That is why I try to stay single as possible, I cannot be dealing with problems like this. At least if you are single you can do whatever you want you can, hang out and just see other girls. When you are in a relationship it is completely different, I hurt this girl how am I ever going to make it right with her?. I don’t deserve to be in a relationship, with a girl like her. I think I should stay single, no strings attached and I wouldn’t feel guilty.

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