You've always been the only one!
Chapter 11
Leni's P.O.V
The last 2 weeks were completely perfect. A day before they all had come over here they had played their last concert of the tour. So they had a bit freetime now. They actually had planned, except Liam, to leave after the first week but let's say a lot of things have happened since then. They decided to stay here with us. After the incident with Liam he came over and apologised again. He said that he has no clue what came over him but he wanted to forget about it. Of course I accepted his aplogize but I was scared that it would be akward between us but not at all. I think it got us even more closer but we still decided to not tell Louis cause there was nothinh behind that kiss and it was the right decision.
We all spent a lot of time together but also had time for our realationships. Harry and Sophia were all over each other, no matter where they were, like always. Perrie had came over for 2 days to spend a bit time with Zayn. She's such a lovely girl, I can totally understand why Zayn loves her that much. My own realationship could'nt be better at that time. Everything went perfect also if we alredy had had some arguments. We are both very similar and and full of spirit. So it's clear that we sometimes fight but let's say the concilations after the fights are always the best if you know what I mean. To say that I was absolute happy was definitly no understatemeant. Till today. If I would've knowen what I knew now, I'd probably have a different opinion.
It was morning and I already had woken up. I was in Louis' room. We slept almost every night next to each other. Me and Harry always switched the bed but we have to keep it a secret cause Liam was definitly not agreeing with Harry and Sophia sharing one. I could hear the shower going on. Louid must've already been awake. I was working on falling a sleep again when I heard a phone buzzing. I looked over and saw Louis' phone vibrating on the nightstand. I was just about to roll over and shut it off when Louis stormed out of the bathroom with just a towel covering his lower region and quikly taking the phone. He answered it. I could hear the person on the other end talking. Louis looked at me nervously and he started to splutter. I think he doesn't want me to know what the conversation was about. But why? Does he have a secret? He just sent me a short forced smile and dissapeard in the hallway. Ehm weird? After about 5 minutes he was back in the room. He beant down and pecked my lips. "Morning babe." "Morning", I answered simply. "Who were you talking to?" I asked curious. I noticed that he felt uncomfortable but tried to hide it. "No one just some buissnes don't worry." I looked at him not really knowing if I should believe him. He noticed and added. "Trust me everything is alright." With these words I started to smile and pulled him down for a kiss. "That's my girl. And now put on some clothes we have to join the others. I'm sure they are wondering if we are still alive." I got up, did what he told me to and soon we all sat around the huge table eating breakfeast.
The next two days were full of secret calls and Louis leaving the room everythime when he answered them. But as if that would'nt be enough he also started to avoiding not only my questions but also me. I couldn't take it anylonger and decided to confrontate him. He had just arrived from a gym seassion with the boys when I decided to talk to him. He entered 'our' room, came over to me and gave me a kiss. I didn't respond. I was sitting on the couch with my hands crossed over my chest and glaring at him. "Ehm okay? What got you that upset?" "Don't know, maybe my boyfriend who suddenly started to have secrects." I said dry. His muscles tensed. "Leni stop it. I'm not in the mood." he said annoyed. "And I'm not in the mood to play games so either you tell me the truth or I'm leaving." I stated angry. "Then it doesn't make a different. I'm gonna lose you anyway." he said in a whimper and letting himself fall into the cher behind him. He put his face in his hands. Omg what had happened. I've never seem him that down. "What do you mean?" I said and stand up to walk towards him. "No stop." he said and also got on his feets. I couldn't understand what was going on. He took a deep breath "Taylor was the one who I was always talking to. He's a guy from management. He is one of the 'important ones'. Like you know they aren't very pleased with the fact that we stayed here. He tried to call me since the day we actually planned to leave but I always ignored him." I tried to understand what he's trying to tell me but I couldn't. "But what does that have to do with me?" I asked having no idea. He looked down "Well you can imagine how they freaked out when they heard about the break up with El." I still couldn't put these things together "And?" I said trying to get him to continue. "They want me to get back with her." I swallowed he must be joking. "Is this a joke? Because if it is one, it's a bad one. That's not funny at all." I said noticing that my voice began to shake. "No it sadly isn't.." "Are you trying to tell me that you're going back with her?" "No not at all. I mean what I said. I just have to take her out a few times and show her off in public. We have to act like we're still a couple. But that doesn't change something about my feelings." I needed a bit to catch up what he just told me. "But why you? Liam also broke up with Danielle and he doesn't have to fake a realationship." "Yes but Liam doesn't alredy have a new girl. They say there's to much risk that someone could see us together and that would be bad for my image and that shit and also for you." "Why for me?" I asked furious. "The fans really liked Eleanor. They would see you as the 'bad one' without knowing the truth. I don't want to put you through this." "You're so caring." I said fakely. He looked at me with a sad look "What do you except me to do?" "No what do you except ME to do? Should I just sit around and watch you acting all sweet with her? Should I keep our realtionship a secret? It was hard enough to keep it hidden from Liam but now from the entire world? You told me that you want me as your girl and you want to show everyone. What has happened with that promise?" I shouted near the tears. "What do you want? Do you want me to risk my career? Cause you know what for you I would do it!" I couldn't think clear. I just wanted to run away but I knew I couldn't hide myself from that. I started to think and soon made a decision which I wasn't happy with but I knew it was the only right thing to do. "No I don't want you to do anything. I think I knew that sooner or later we would fail. Louis I can't do that, neither you. I've been through so much with Denis and I'm not strong enough yet to have such a huge pressure on my realationship. Maybe it's not the right time or the right place. Or maybe we just aren'n meant to be together but I don't want this, not that way. I want to be happy and have a completely normal realationship and it was naive from me to think I could've had that with an international superstar. I think we took things to fast. We should've had wait." It took all my strengh to not break down right here in front of him. "No please I love you." he whispered. He stepped forward but I took a step back. If he would touch me now I would lose it. I took a deep breath and said: "I love you too. I've never felt more alive than with you. But we aren't good for each other and I think destiny is trying to tell us." I saw a tear rolling down his cheek. "I'm sorry" I whispered and with that I left the room, shut the door and couldn't hold it back any longer. I let myself slide down on the floor. My arms found their way around my knees and then I let myself fall. Tears were streaming down my face and I couldn't hold back the subs. That's it. It's over. We're over. The probably best thing in my life was gone, forever. He was right behind that door but the distance between us felt way bigger than just a wooden door.
The last 2 weeks were completely perfect. A day before they all had come over here they had played their last concert of the tour. So they had a bit freetime now. They actually had planned, except Liam, to leave after the first week but let's say a lot of things have happened since then. They decided to stay here with us. After the incident with Liam he came over and apologised again. He said that he has no clue what came over him but he wanted to forget about it. Of course I accepted his aplogize but I was scared that it would be akward between us but not at all. I think it got us even more closer but we still decided to not tell Louis cause there was nothinh behind that kiss and it was the right decision.
We all spent a lot of time together but also had time for our realationships. Harry and Sophia were all over each other, no matter where they were, like always. Perrie had came over for 2 days to spend a bit time with Zayn. She's such a lovely girl, I can totally understand why Zayn loves her that much. My own realationship could'nt be better at that time. Everything went perfect also if we alredy had had some arguments. We are both very similar and and full of spirit. So it's clear that we sometimes fight but let's say the concilations after the fights are always the best if you know what I mean. To say that I was absolute happy was definitly no understatemeant. Till today. If I would've knowen what I knew now, I'd probably have a different opinion.
It was morning and I already had woken up. I was in Louis' room. We slept almost every night next to each other. Me and Harry always switched the bed but we have to keep it a secret cause Liam was definitly not agreeing with Harry and Sophia sharing one. I could hear the shower going on. Louid must've already been awake. I was working on falling a sleep again when I heard a phone buzzing. I looked over and saw Louis' phone vibrating on the nightstand. I was just about to roll over and shut it off when Louis stormed out of the bathroom with just a towel covering his lower region and quikly taking the phone. He answered it. I could hear the person on the other end talking. Louis looked at me nervously and he started to splutter. I think he doesn't want me to know what the conversation was about. But why? Does he have a secret? He just sent me a short forced smile and dissapeard in the hallway. Ehm weird? After about 5 minutes he was back in the room. He beant down and pecked my lips. "Morning babe." "Morning", I answered simply. "Who were you talking to?" I asked curious. I noticed that he felt uncomfortable but tried to hide it. "No one just some buissnes don't worry." I looked at him not really knowing if I should believe him. He noticed and added. "Trust me everything is alright." With these words I started to smile and pulled him down for a kiss. "That's my girl. And now put on some clothes we have to join the others. I'm sure they are wondering if we are still alive." I got up, did what he told me to and soon we all sat around the huge table eating breakfeast.
The next two days were full of secret calls and Louis leaving the room everythime when he answered them. But as if that would'nt be enough he also started to avoiding not only my questions but also me. I couldn't take it anylonger and decided to confrontate him. He had just arrived from a gym seassion with the boys when I decided to talk to him. He entered 'our' room, came over to me and gave me a kiss. I didn't respond. I was sitting on the couch with my hands crossed over my chest and glaring at him. "Ehm okay? What got you that upset?" "Don't know, maybe my boyfriend who suddenly started to have secrects." I said dry. His muscles tensed. "Leni stop it. I'm not in the mood." he said annoyed. "And I'm not in the mood to play games so either you tell me the truth or I'm leaving." I stated angry. "Then it doesn't make a different. I'm gonna lose you anyway." he said in a whimper and letting himself fall into the cher behind him. He put his face in his hands. Omg what had happened. I've never seem him that down. "What do you mean?" I said and stand up to walk towards him. "No stop." he said and also got on his feets. I couldn't understand what was going on. He took a deep breath "Taylor was the one who I was always talking to. He's a guy from management. He is one of the 'important ones'. Like you know they aren't very pleased with the fact that we stayed here. He tried to call me since the day we actually planned to leave but I always ignored him." I tried to understand what he's trying to tell me but I couldn't. "But what does that have to do with me?" I asked having no idea. He looked down "Well you can imagine how they freaked out when they heard about the break up with El." I still couldn't put these things together "And?" I said trying to get him to continue. "They want me to get back with her." I swallowed he must be joking. "Is this a joke? Because if it is one, it's a bad one. That's not funny at all." I said noticing that my voice began to shake. "No it sadly isn't.." "Are you trying to tell me that you're going back with her?" "No not at all. I mean what I said. I just have to take her out a few times and show her off in public. We have to act like we're still a couple. But that doesn't change something about my feelings." I needed a bit to catch up what he just told me. "But why you? Liam also broke up with Danielle and he doesn't have to fake a realationship." "Yes but Liam doesn't alredy have a new girl. They say there's to much risk that someone could see us together and that would be bad for my image and that shit and also for you." "Why for me?" I asked furious. "The fans really liked Eleanor. They would see you as the 'bad one' without knowing the truth. I don't want to put you through this." "You're so caring." I said fakely. He looked at me with a sad look "What do you except me to do?" "No what do you except ME to do? Should I just sit around and watch you acting all sweet with her? Should I keep our realtionship a secret? It was hard enough to keep it hidden from Liam but now from the entire world? You told me that you want me as your girl and you want to show everyone. What has happened with that promise?" I shouted near the tears. "What do you want? Do you want me to risk my career? Cause you know what for you I would do it!" I couldn't think clear. I just wanted to run away but I knew I couldn't hide myself from that. I started to think and soon made a decision which I wasn't happy with but I knew it was the only right thing to do. "No I don't want you to do anything. I think I knew that sooner or later we would fail. Louis I can't do that, neither you. I've been through so much with Denis and I'm not strong enough yet to have such a huge pressure on my realationship. Maybe it's not the right time or the right place. Or maybe we just aren'n meant to be together but I don't want this, not that way. I want to be happy and have a completely normal realationship and it was naive from me to think I could've had that with an international superstar. I think we took things to fast. We should've had wait." It took all my strengh to not break down right here in front of him. "No please I love you." he whispered. He stepped forward but I took a step back. If he would touch me now I would lose it. I took a deep breath and said: "I love you too. I've never felt more alive than with you. But we aren't good for each other and I think destiny is trying to tell us." I saw a tear rolling down his cheek. "I'm sorry" I whispered and with that I left the room, shut the door and couldn't hold it back any longer. I let myself slide down on the floor. My arms found their way around my knees and then I let myself fall. Tears were streaming down my face and I couldn't hold back the subs. That's it. It's over. We're over. The probably best thing in my life was gone, forever. He was right behind that door but the distance between us felt way bigger than just a wooden door.
Notes
huuuuuge turn in the story :oit just had to be!!!
It’s a very short chapter but I think an important one. Too important to just put it together with other stuff.
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