Jack Ass
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Jackie’s POV
We were about a half an hour into this little trip and I was already board. I got up and decided to change and explore the bus. I walked back out into the living room to get a water bottle before I start my journey and heard wolf howls. I turned and the Perrie and Jesy were doing it. I rolled my eyes and walked over to them sitting down on the red chairs next to them.
“Want to explore the bus with me?” I asked. The boys were playing X-box and Jade, Leigh-Anne, Liz and Summer were talking about something. They both nodded and we got up. Jesy changed and so did Perrie. We started heading back past the bathroom and saw a 3 rows of beds with 4 in each of them. There were still room to go back more behind a curtain. First it looked like a few chairs but them you can see a screen and a few blankets. It looked like a movie room.
We sat down and looked around.
“Girls is this like your tour bus?” I asked still confused why there are 2 rooms with a telly and game systems.
“Not really, we had four beds one back room like this and the front of the bus was a kitchen” Perrie said
“Yep” Jesy said popping the p. “So Jackie what were you like before you turned all bad ass?”
“Um… I was really nice and the quietest one every but then everything started going downhill and turned like this. I’m trying to be nicer and it’s not really working. If you believe it or not I used to like One Direction. I’ve always liked Little Mix and I never stopped but the first time they flipped off the photographers I though ‘I never want to be like them’ and I turned worse then them” I finished
“No I really like you and I don’t think you are that mean and I’ve had a run in with a lot of mean people” Jesy said
Someone cleared there thought and we three looked up. Louis was standing there.
“Can I talk to Jackie alone?” he asked looking down
I shook my head and whispered to Jesy and Perrie not to leave me alone with him.
“You have to talk to him some time. You’re on the same bus with him for a while” Perrie said. I rolled my eyes and nodded.
“If you need me yell sandwich” I laughed and said ok. They got up and walked out of the room. Louis walked and sat down by me causing me to move down some.
“Jackie I’m sorry. I didn’t think and I really do like you. How much longer to you have to wear that on your knee?” He asked moving closer to me. I could smell the alcohol on him so I knew none of what he is saying is real
“Two weeks but I can’t start really dancing and doing what I normally do for about six weeks maybe less” I said back I got up and started to head out of the curtain and back to Jesy and Perrie when he called my name
“What?!?” I said a bit annoyed
“Why do you hate me?” He said looking a bit sad. So he’s an emotional drunk. Well cause he wont remember any of this might as well say it.
“Louis I don’t hate you I hate what you’ve become. I used to love you. I love One Direction and you were my favorite member. I remember having posters of you all over the walls and reading fan fiction about you and writing my own. But then you turned into this monster and I hate it. I hated you but, I kept telling myself you cant hate someone you’ve never met so you can hate them. I dropped off the face of the world and it turned my cold and I became like you and I can’t tell you how much I hate it. I’m trying really hard to be nicer but pushing me to the ground and talking shit about me doesn’t help. Don’t even say you don’t cause half the time I have to make sure he doesn’t kill you. I calm him down because he trust me. You guys can’t see this and I don’t that you really care about him but he is so so so broken and I can’t believe half the things he’s told me that you guys have made him do.” I paused and then continued my voice raising by the second “Do you know that he wishes he could see his mom again and that his dad wont let him because he think he will hurt her ok. I know what it’s like to have your family disown you and for them to think that you will be a bad influence and when they ask where the old you is and you can’t even answer because honestly you don’t know. Do you know how that feels cause I do and it hurts like a fucking bitch. If I had one wish in life it’s that my dad would of shoot his self and not my mother. But then I remember that if he didn’t I wouldn’t be the I am now so I thank him because I am so much stronger and have so much emotion in my voice when I sing and I have girls who look up to me for advice and how to express them self’s and not care what people think.” I finish off with “So I thank him and you cause you only make me wont to be stronger”
I look at him knowing I went off track and see he’s sitting there asleep. Really he is asleep and I just poured my heart out to him. I shook my head and went and found the bunk with my name on it and went to sleep before I started crying because I knew if I started I wouldn’t stop.
We were about a half an hour into this little trip and I was already board. I got up and decided to change and explore the bus. I walked back out into the living room to get a water bottle before I start my journey and heard wolf howls. I turned and the Perrie and Jesy were doing it. I rolled my eyes and walked over to them sitting down on the red chairs next to them.
“Want to explore the bus with me?” I asked. The boys were playing X-box and Jade, Leigh-Anne, Liz and Summer were talking about something. They both nodded and we got up. Jesy changed and so did Perrie. We started heading back past the bathroom and saw a 3 rows of beds with 4 in each of them. There were still room to go back more behind a curtain. First it looked like a few chairs but them you can see a screen and a few blankets. It looked like a movie room.
We sat down and looked around.
“Girls is this like your tour bus?” I asked still confused why there are 2 rooms with a telly and game systems.
“Not really, we had four beds one back room like this and the front of the bus was a kitchen” Perrie said
“Yep” Jesy said popping the p. “So Jackie what were you like before you turned all bad ass?”
“Um… I was really nice and the quietest one every but then everything started going downhill and turned like this. I’m trying to be nicer and it’s not really working. If you believe it or not I used to like One Direction. I’ve always liked Little Mix and I never stopped but the first time they flipped off the photographers I though ‘I never want to be like them’ and I turned worse then them” I finished
“No I really like you and I don’t think you are that mean and I’ve had a run in with a lot of mean people” Jesy said
Someone cleared there thought and we three looked up. Louis was standing there.
“Can I talk to Jackie alone?” he asked looking down
I shook my head and whispered to Jesy and Perrie not to leave me alone with him.
“You have to talk to him some time. You’re on the same bus with him for a while” Perrie said. I rolled my eyes and nodded.
“If you need me yell sandwich” I laughed and said ok. They got up and walked out of the room. Louis walked and sat down by me causing me to move down some.
“Jackie I’m sorry. I didn’t think and I really do like you. How much longer to you have to wear that on your knee?” He asked moving closer to me. I could smell the alcohol on him so I knew none of what he is saying is real
“Two weeks but I can’t start really dancing and doing what I normally do for about six weeks maybe less” I said back I got up and started to head out of the curtain and back to Jesy and Perrie when he called my name
“What?!?” I said a bit annoyed
“Why do you hate me?” He said looking a bit sad. So he’s an emotional drunk. Well cause he wont remember any of this might as well say it.
“Louis I don’t hate you I hate what you’ve become. I used to love you. I love One Direction and you were my favorite member. I remember having posters of you all over the walls and reading fan fiction about you and writing my own. But then you turned into this monster and I hate it. I hated you but, I kept telling myself you cant hate someone you’ve never met so you can hate them. I dropped off the face of the world and it turned my cold and I became like you and I can’t tell you how much I hate it. I’m trying really hard to be nicer but pushing me to the ground and talking shit about me doesn’t help. Don’t even say you don’t cause half the time I have to make sure he doesn’t kill you. I calm him down because he trust me. You guys can’t see this and I don’t that you really care about him but he is so so so broken and I can’t believe half the things he’s told me that you guys have made him do.” I paused and then continued my voice raising by the second “Do you know that he wishes he could see his mom again and that his dad wont let him because he think he will hurt her ok. I know what it’s like to have your family disown you and for them to think that you will be a bad influence and when they ask where the old you is and you can’t even answer because honestly you don’t know. Do you know how that feels cause I do and it hurts like a fucking bitch. If I had one wish in life it’s that my dad would of shoot his self and not my mother. But then I remember that if he didn’t I wouldn’t be the I am now so I thank him because I am so much stronger and have so much emotion in my voice when I sing and I have girls who look up to me for advice and how to express them self’s and not care what people think.” I finish off with “So I thank him and you cause you only make me wont to be stronger”
I look at him knowing I went off track and see he’s sitting there asleep. Really he is asleep and I just poured my heart out to him. I shook my head and went and found the bunk with my name on it and went to sleep before I started crying because I knew if I started I wouldn’t stop.
#2 they be playin truth or dare somning like that as a dare one of them had to do it with the other
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