I'm standing in my childhood home in Arizona. I look around and see my family how it used to be. I see my mom and dad sitting on the couch watching out the window with smiles on their faces. I looked out the window and tears started pouring out of my eyes as I see my big brother and little brother chasing me with air soft guns. I turn around and see that I have one too. I remember that day. I was 9 my brother Drew was 15 and Daniel was 6.

The sky became dark and gloomy within seconds. I looked back at the kids and see the memory blow away in the wind as if it were dust. I turn around and see my smiling parents. Their smiles faded as I saw depression on my dad's face. I walk closer to see what was on his computer and see a the video I knew I was going to see. It was the video played at my grandpa's memorial. I tried to lay a hand on my dad but it went through his shoulder. Time sped up and I looked around the room as empty bottles of tequila built into piles. I begin sobbing.

"Daddy! Daddy! Look what I got for you!" I see a thirteen year old me run into the room. I came in carrying a $100 fishing pole and a barbeque sauce set. "I saw it and thought about you! I spent my entire paycheck on it. I even drew some out of my savings account."

"Thanks." He replied with no emotion. I see my smile fade and I set the stuff by his door. As I start to walk towards the door he calls, "Jade wait!"

"Yes, daddy?" I ask excited.

"Grab me the pint of Tequila in the fridge." He replies. I nod my head and begin to walk out. I follow my younger self as I walk to the kitchen.

"Dont do it. . . Please. . . I remember this night. Don't. . ." I try to coax. I guess she couldn't hear me. She grabbed a bottle of Vodka from the liquor cabinet and walked back to his room.

"Here you go daddy." She says quietly. He looks at the bottle for a second. He stands up and back hands me across the face.

"I said tequila! Does this fucking look like tequila?!" He screams. I watch as the young me tries to protect herself in a corner. He comes at her with raised fists.

"No! Stop! Don't hurt her!" I scream as I watch in horror. I watch as he grabs her by the hair and throws her to the ground. He grabs a belt and starts hitting her. I try and cover her with my body but the belt goes right through me. Like I'm a ghost.

"Im sorry daddy." The younger me says in between sobs.

"Baby? Jade? Jay-Jay! Wake up!" I hear Liam.

I snap awake. I'm panting and I see Harry and Liam by my sides. Everyone else is in a circle behind them. I put my hand on my face and feel tears.

"Are you okay Jade?" Liam asks concerned. I turn to him and sob into his shoulder. "What was it this time? What did you see?" He asks.

"The night. . . With the vodka. . . The one where it was just me and him. . . And I saw the one with Drew and Daniel. . ." I say as I continue to cry. "I saw the tequila and the belt and the hatred in his eyes. Liam. . . I'm scared he's going to come back for me."

"Who's coming for you Lily?" Asks Dani.

"Can I tell them?" Asks Liam. I give him a small nod. "Her grandpa died around age 10 for her. Her dad was depressed and became an alcoholic. He would get physical and one night he beat her when she was 13. She got vodka instead of Tequila and he lost it. She moved away after that and then I met her. She is afraid that he is going to find her because when she saw him last time he said that he was going to end it all."

"Oh my God. . . Lily. . . We had no idea! What can we do for you?" Asks Eleanor.

"Do you want us to stay up with you Lily?" Asks Louis.

"You don't have to. I don't want to keep you up all night." I reply as I try and calm down.

"Nonsense! You're one of us now! Plus it's our little vacation time." Replies Zayn.

"I guess you can if you want. You don't have to." I say trying to make sure it's what they want.

"We want to be here for you Lily. Just tell us what you need done to feel safer and we will do it." Says Eleanor.

"Just lock all the doors, windows, and close the blinds." I reply.

"Hey Lily. You saw the night when you were 13?" asks Liam. Concern flooding his eyes. I grabbed his hands and frighten tremble. "When was the last time you saw him?"

"It was around 7 years ago. Why?" I responded after some short thought.

"So right after you moved in with Drew? Then why are you afraid he will come here?" He asks confused.

"It's not just dad I'm afraid of. I'm afraid of anyone from my hometown finding me. I know they will tell dad." I say and he nods. He hugs me and kisses my forehead.

"It will be alright. You lived a really tough life. I'm here for you Baby Jade. Just remember that." He says. I wipe my eyes again and look around to see everyone back by us.

"I have a question that's off topic." I start, "But I seriously need an answer from anyone."

"What is it?" Says Perrie.

"Is Niall home yet?" I ask and look around at everyone's expressions. They are looking at each other. Guilt written across their faces. I stand up and walk to his room. I crack open the door and he is laying in bed. I open it a little wider. I see something that shocked me.

On his bedside table was a huge bouquet of flowers and a heart box of chocolates. I walk over to it and read the note attached

To: Beauty
Sorry for being so rude. I didn't mean to just storm out. I had a bit of a short temper after Raelee came by. I know I didn't have any right to just up and leave you like that. Take me back?
Yours truly,
Beast.

Tears start rolling down my cheeks and I feel arms wrap around me. I look up and see Niall. I turn and see Liam shutting the door.

"So? Will you take me back?" He asks. His accent slow and tired.

I look into his eyes before saying, "No."

He gives me a surprised look. I just look back at him upset. "Why not? Can I just have another chance?"

"Dude seriously? We weren't even dating for 2 hours and you cheated on me." I reply angrily.

"What are you talking about?! I didn't cheat on you!" He says loudly.

"Niall. Just lay back down and go to bed. Your still drunk." I say as I grab his hand and lead him to the bed.

"Not unless I have you with me!" He yells as he pushes me away.

"Did you just push me down?" I ask horrified at his actions. I immediately thought of my dad and started to cry. I got up and he must have realized what he did.

"Lily. I'm sorry. It's just that-" he starts. I look at him as he stands there. He tries to come near me but I run out of the room and find Liam sitting on the couch. I jump onto his lap and begin sobbing.

"What is Jade?" He asks sincerely. I wipe my eyes and look into his.

"He pushed me. He pushed me down. Just like dad." I sat and his sincerity turns to rage. He picks me up and serene on top of Harry who is chilling on a beanbag texting.

"Well hello there. How nice of you to drop in." Harry says I giggle and he laughs. "Liam looks pretty mad. What happened?"

"Niall pushed me down." I say and his face turns to shock.

I can hear Liam yelling in the background. "She is my fucking sister! She had a horrible life and you pushed her down?! You might as well have pushed me!"

I hear a big thud and run over to the room. He didn't hit Niall. He hit the drywall.

"Liam! Don't hurt him!" I yell as I enter the room. "It would be no different from him hitting me! Hitting him is like hitting me!" I say as I run in front of Niall. I back into him and he kisses my head. "Liam. . . Go ahead and let me talk to him." He walks out of the room.

"Let me explain before you run off again." Niall says as he grabs my hands gently. He pushes the door closed with his foot.

"No need. . . I believe everyone deserves a second chance." I say and he hangs his head in shame. "Now go to bed."

He pouts a little. "But it's so lonely with just me. Will you lay with me?" He asks childlike.

"It depends." I reply.

"On what?" He asks.

"On who is going to tell everyone I'm going to sleep in here." I reply.

He doesn't even respond. He just exits the room. As i wait for him to cone back, I go tthrough his closet. I find a white shdirt that has big, black lettering that spells Crazy Mofo. I look at it for a second and smile. He comes in and I hang backup.

"All done! The guys said ok and went to sleep. Same with the girls." He says. I turn around and walk towards the bed. I lay down and cover up my entire entire body but my head. I close my eyes.

I feel Niall kissing my neck then I feel I hand rubbing my thigh. I tried to ignore it but but I couldn't when his hand moved to my inner thigh. His kisses became more needy and then he climbed on top of me.

"Niall." I mumble against his lips.

"Yeah babe?" He says as he makes his way back to my neck.

"Do we have to do this right now?" I ask. I wasn't in the mood but he was quickly turning me on.

"When is a better time then the present?" He says as he looks into my eyes. His kisses me softly once. "Please babe."

"Ok. Only because you got me in the mood." I say. He smiles and he rubs a hand from my inner thigh to my center. I let out a bit of a moan but he silenced it with a kiss. He starts to nibble on my ear and I go crazy. He found my weak spot on his first try.

"Well, I know what you like now." He says hungrily. I bite my bottom lip and arich my back as he runs a circular pattern around my clitoris. I stop him from continuing.

"Wait." I say as I push him softly.

"What is it?" He asks.

"It's my turn." I say before rolling on to him. I kiss him hard and put my hand onto his bulk. His pajama pants weren't containing it very well, so I just let it out. I rubbed him up and down and he placed his hands on my ass. He found the top of my spandex and pulled them off. Next he pulled my panties off. His hand went into his bedside table drawer and came out with a foil package. He opened it and put the condom on. He lifted me slightly and I lowered myself onto him. Inch by delicious inch he entered me. I tried to hide it but I let out a whimper of pain.

He pulled out and looked at me confused. "Don't tell me you're a-"

"A virgin? Yup. Well uhh, passed tense now." I say.

"Why didn't you tell me? I should have gone easier on you." He says.

"That's why I didn't tell you. Because I want you to give me everything."

He smiles and kisses me. He flips over so that he is on top. He opens my llegs and enters me slowly. I hold in a painful squeal as his thrusts become faster and harder. After awhile it doesn't hurt and I moan loudly. He kisses me hard. I moan again and he takes takes advantage by slipping his tongue in mouth. I open wider because of another moan and he dominates me. I start to feel my muscles tighten. Then I feel th best I ever have. At the same time we both climax and he drops down beside me. I realize I still have Harry's shirt on and I take it off. I put under my pillow.

I turn and see Niall staring at me weird. "What?" I ask confused.

"No bra?" He asks as he rubs my breast.

"The only bra I ever sleep in is a sports bra." I say as I snuggle closer.

"I like that." He says as he wraps his arms around me.

"You know, you're not as innocent as people say you are." I say and he laughs. "I can honestly say that I'm a committed Directioner."

"Well, baby how about round two?" He suggests.

"Just kiss me and go to sleep. But first your pant on." I say. I pull out Harry's shirt and back on. He puts on his pants and kisses me.

"Good night babe." He says as he pulls me closer.

"Night Niall." I say back.