My Guardian Angel
You Don't Scare Me
We pull into the driveway an I shut off the car. I rest my head on the steering wheel and let out a heavy sigh. The boys climb out of the car and walk into the house. I just continue to sit immobilized.
"Lily, are you coming?" Harry asks. I look up at him and give a weak smile.
"No, I think I need to go get some fresh air." I say with a smile.
"Alone? Shouldn't someone go with you?" He asks concerned. "I can go get Niall."
"Thanks Harry. If you don't mind." I say. He smiles and goes inside. I listen to him yell out Niall playfully.
"Really mate?! Your girlfriend is waiting in the car and you came inside?! Get your arse out there!" Harry yells. I watch as Harry pushes Niall out the front door. Niall is smiling and starts walking to the car.
"Sorry, is there something that you need?" He asks as he nears the car. I nod my head. "What is it?"
I pat the seat next to me. "Come take a drive with me." He smiles and obliges. I put the car in reverse and back out of the driveway. Once I'm on the road Niall grabs my hand.
"So, where are we going?" He asks nicely.
"Somewhere with a lot of memories to me." I say without taking my eyes off the road. He leans over and kisses my cheek lightly.
"Ok." He says. The entire car was silent. Until he started singing. No background music. No beat. Just his beautiful, melodic voice. He sang Just the Way You Are by Bruno Mars. It was so beautiful.
"When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change. Cause you're amazing, just the way you are." He sings to me. I couldn't help but smile at his adorable gesture. We pull into the parking lot of my destination. "Why are we at a Junior High School?"
"Because, this is where I am bringing you." I say as I hop the fence. I look around and think about all the memories I had. "God, I hate this place." I mutter quietly. Niall hops the fence and comes to my side. I grab his hand and lead him towards the large corridor in the center of the school. I stop near the end of it.
"What are you doing?" Niall asks at my expression. It was of dark, sadness. It was of horrible memories. I stare at the spot, three feet away and think.
"Right there." I say pointing to the spot. "This is where my first fight in Junior High took place. They said I was an animal. That I frightened them. I know how they felt now." I say without looking at them. I can feel his hand tense slightly.
"Let's stop talking about this." He says quietly. He was getting angry.
"They were all so afraid they wouldn't come near me. Even my best friend, Allie, wouldn't come near me." I say as tears start to build on my lower lashes.
"I said enough." He says. The anger starting to show.
"I was so alone. Do you feel alone when you get angry? Like nobody cares?" I persist.
"Enough!" He yells. I look up into darkening eyes and his beautiful, tensed angel face. It was so amazing how he looked when he was angry. Like a God. I needed to see how far he is willing to go with me.
"You don't frighten me. You frighten no more than death itself. You would never hurt me." I say as I look deep into his eyes. The we're still of pure anger but something told me I was right. "You don't have to feel that way. I'm here for you." I watch as his eyes slowly brighten and he hugs me. I wrap my arms tightly his waist and pull him as close as I can. I can here his heart beating. I feel a tear hit my cheek and when I look up, I see Niall crying.
"I'm so sorry. I'm such a horrible person to do this to you. I should have never tried to scare you. I should never be angry with you. You're right. I won't hurt you." He sobs.
"It's ok, I'm here. Don't worry. You are not horrible. You are perfect." I say. I grab his cheeks and pull him down to kiss me. "Don't you ever think otherwise. You are perfect." I say. I wipe his tears and lean in to kiss him again. Our lips brush slightly and then we are interrupted.
"Lilliana? Lilliana Martinez? I thought I got rid of you years ago!" Says one of my favorite teachers.
"Hey Mr.Whirley." I say with a smile. "What are you doing here? It's like 7 o'clock."
"Just snooping around. Remembering all of our bonding time." He says with a smile. He was a VERY attractive man. He was only 30. He had nice brown hair and beautiful pale blue eyes. Even his butt was nicely toned.
"What's with you thinking detention is bonding?" I say jokingly.
"I bought you lunch missy. Now, that is an awesome teacher." He says with a smile.
"Well, I have to admit that. Well, I guess we have to get going. We have a lot to do." I say with smile. He pulls a card out of his back pocket and hands it to me.
"If you ever need something, just call me." He says.
"Sure thing, Mr.Whirley." I say as I put the card in my wallet.
"Just call me John." He says with a smile. I nod my head and walk back towards my car. Niall and I hand-in-hand. As we near the car, I start thinking. I never really found out why Niall cheated on me back in England. Maybe I should ask him. We climb into the car and once I'm on the road I ask.
"Niall, why did you kiss that girl in England?" I say casually.
"Well- uhh- I felt hurt. . . And I was. . . Drunk. . . And I sort of. . . Wanted to hurt you." He stammers. I can feel a tear trickle down my left cheek.
"So, it was to hurt me? You wanted to hurt the already broken girl?" I question rudely.
"No. I was hurt and I wanted you to feel the same way." He responds quickly.
"Well, since your hurt me, now it's my turn. I kissed Harry when your were in England." I say as tears start to strean from both eyes.
"You what?!" He yells. I nod my head.
"Yup, and he didn't kiss me, I kissed him." I say.
"Why would you do that! We are in a committed relationship! How could you!" He yells.
"We weren't at the time! It's your fault for leaving me!" I scream.
"That is one of my best mates and you kissed him?!"
"You sent him here to be with me in the first place!" I remind him.
"It's all your fault! I have tried to be loyal but you go around kissing my best mates?!" he yells. I stomp on the break and exit the car. I start walking down the street "Where are you going?!"
"Away from you!" I yell back with tears streaming down again.
"Get back over here right now Lily!" He yells. I ignore him and continue walking. I hear footsteps behind me and then I'm spun around. "Go back to the car right now." He says in between gritted teeth.
"Make me." I whisper rudely. His grip loosens and I pull out and continue walking. After a few more steps he picks me up and flings me over his shoulder. "Let go of me!"
"No! You are going home with me right now!" He yells. I start beating on his back but he is completely unphased. It's time for my last resort.
"RAPE!" I scream. Niall freezes and I take this opportunity to try to escape. I struggle against his grip and I fail. "RAPE!!"
"Lily! Just get in the car!" He yells as he opens the door and shoves me into the backseat. I sit there quietly as he walks around and gets in the driver's seat. He gets in and starts to drive away. "Are you fucking kidding me?! Rape?!" I continue to ignore him. "Answer me!"
"Just leave me alone!" I yell. I put my face in my hands and cry.
"No! Answer me! " he yells. We pull into my driveway and i jump out of the car and wall to my room. "I said Answer me!"
"How about you just shut up and leave me alone!" I scream at him from the bottom of the stairs.
"What did I do that was so wrong?!" he yells as I climb the stairs. When I get to the top I turn around.
"Why don't you go ask the girl you were using to hhurt me! Maybe she might care about what you have to say!"
"No! Instead I'll talk to my friend that you kissed behind my back!" he yells at me.
"Why do you want to fight with me?!"
"Why are you so complicated?!" He yells back. I slam my door and scream into a pillow. Then I got all my shoes and through them at the door.
*Niall's POV*
I walk over to sit on the couch and rest for a second.
"It's alright mate. She will get over it." Harry says trying to assure me.
"Stay out of this Harry. It's your fault for kissing my girlfriend behind my back!" I yell.
"Woah, sorry, but she kissed me. I didn't mean to hhurt you mate. If it helps, I wouldn't do anything with her because I know what she means to you." Harry says.
"Alright." I say.
"So are we good?" he asks.
"Yeah, everything is good between us." I say. We shake hands and start laughing. All of a sudden, we hear a loud thud.
"What was that?" Louis asks.
"I don't know." Zayn says.
"Oh no." Liam mutters. "I'll be right back." We watch as Liam wtalks upstairs.
"I bet she kicked the wall." Louis says.
"I say she threw her lamp." Harry says.
"I bet she is throwing shoes." Zayn says.
"You guys bet on what we do when we fight?" I ask at their conversation.
"Yes. Whoever wins, gets to make the losers do any 3 things he says." Louis explains.
"Lily, will you stop throwing your shoes so I can come in?" We hear Liam exclaim.
"Damn." Both Louis and Harry mumble.
"I win!" Zayn exclaims.
"Lily, are you coming?" Harry asks. I look up at him and give a weak smile.
"No, I think I need to go get some fresh air." I say with a smile.
"Alone? Shouldn't someone go with you?" He asks concerned. "I can go get Niall."
"Thanks Harry. If you don't mind." I say. He smiles and goes inside. I listen to him yell out Niall playfully.
"Really mate?! Your girlfriend is waiting in the car and you came inside?! Get your arse out there!" Harry yells. I watch as Harry pushes Niall out the front door. Niall is smiling and starts walking to the car.
"Sorry, is there something that you need?" He asks as he nears the car. I nod my head. "What is it?"
I pat the seat next to me. "Come take a drive with me." He smiles and obliges. I put the car in reverse and back out of the driveway. Once I'm on the road Niall grabs my hand.
"So, where are we going?" He asks nicely.
"Somewhere with a lot of memories to me." I say without taking my eyes off the road. He leans over and kisses my cheek lightly.
"Ok." He says. The entire car was silent. Until he started singing. No background music. No beat. Just his beautiful, melodic voice. He sang Just the Way You Are by Bruno Mars. It was so beautiful.
"When I see your face, there's not a thing that I would change. Cause you're amazing, just the way you are." He sings to me. I couldn't help but smile at his adorable gesture. We pull into the parking lot of my destination. "Why are we at a Junior High School?"
"Because, this is where I am bringing you." I say as I hop the fence. I look around and think about all the memories I had. "God, I hate this place." I mutter quietly. Niall hops the fence and comes to my side. I grab his hand and lead him towards the large corridor in the center of the school. I stop near the end of it.
"What are you doing?" Niall asks at my expression. It was of dark, sadness. It was of horrible memories. I stare at the spot, three feet away and think.
"Right there." I say pointing to the spot. "This is where my first fight in Junior High took place. They said I was an animal. That I frightened them. I know how they felt now." I say without looking at them. I can feel his hand tense slightly.
"Let's stop talking about this." He says quietly. He was getting angry.
"They were all so afraid they wouldn't come near me. Even my best friend, Allie, wouldn't come near me." I say as tears start to build on my lower lashes.
"I said enough." He says. The anger starting to show.
"I was so alone. Do you feel alone when you get angry? Like nobody cares?" I persist.
"Enough!" He yells. I look up into darkening eyes and his beautiful, tensed angel face. It was so amazing how he looked when he was angry. Like a God. I needed to see how far he is willing to go with me.
"You don't frighten me. You frighten no more than death itself. You would never hurt me." I say as I look deep into his eyes. The we're still of pure anger but something told me I was right. "You don't have to feel that way. I'm here for you." I watch as his eyes slowly brighten and he hugs me. I wrap my arms tightly his waist and pull him as close as I can. I can here his heart beating. I feel a tear hit my cheek and when I look up, I see Niall crying.
"I'm so sorry. I'm such a horrible person to do this to you. I should have never tried to scare you. I should never be angry with you. You're right. I won't hurt you." He sobs.
"It's ok, I'm here. Don't worry. You are not horrible. You are perfect." I say. I grab his cheeks and pull him down to kiss me. "Don't you ever think otherwise. You are perfect." I say. I wipe his tears and lean in to kiss him again. Our lips brush slightly and then we are interrupted.
"Lilliana? Lilliana Martinez? I thought I got rid of you years ago!" Says one of my favorite teachers.
"Hey Mr.Whirley." I say with a smile. "What are you doing here? It's like 7 o'clock."
"Just snooping around. Remembering all of our bonding time." He says with a smile. He was a VERY attractive man. He was only 30. He had nice brown hair and beautiful pale blue eyes. Even his butt was nicely toned.
"What's with you thinking detention is bonding?" I say jokingly.
"I bought you lunch missy. Now, that is an awesome teacher." He says with a smile.
"Well, I have to admit that. Well, I guess we have to get going. We have a lot to do." I say with smile. He pulls a card out of his back pocket and hands it to me.
"If you ever need something, just call me." He says.
"Sure thing, Mr.Whirley." I say as I put the card in my wallet.
"Just call me John." He says with a smile. I nod my head and walk back towards my car. Niall and I hand-in-hand. As we near the car, I start thinking. I never really found out why Niall cheated on me back in England. Maybe I should ask him. We climb into the car and once I'm on the road I ask.
"Niall, why did you kiss that girl in England?" I say casually.
"Well- uhh- I felt hurt. . . And I was. . . Drunk. . . And I sort of. . . Wanted to hurt you." He stammers. I can feel a tear trickle down my left cheek.
"So, it was to hurt me? You wanted to hurt the already broken girl?" I question rudely.
"No. I was hurt and I wanted you to feel the same way." He responds quickly.
"Well, since your hurt me, now it's my turn. I kissed Harry when your were in England." I say as tears start to strean from both eyes.
"You what?!" He yells. I nod my head.
"Yup, and he didn't kiss me, I kissed him." I say.
"Why would you do that! We are in a committed relationship! How could you!" He yells.
"We weren't at the time! It's your fault for leaving me!" I scream.
"That is one of my best mates and you kissed him?!"
"You sent him here to be with me in the first place!" I remind him.
"It's all your fault! I have tried to be loyal but you go around kissing my best mates?!" he yells. I stomp on the break and exit the car. I start walking down the street "Where are you going?!"
"Away from you!" I yell back with tears streaming down again.
"Get back over here right now Lily!" He yells. I ignore him and continue walking. I hear footsteps behind me and then I'm spun around. "Go back to the car right now." He says in between gritted teeth.
"Make me." I whisper rudely. His grip loosens and I pull out and continue walking. After a few more steps he picks me up and flings me over his shoulder. "Let go of me!"
"No! You are going home with me right now!" He yells. I start beating on his back but he is completely unphased. It's time for my last resort.
"RAPE!" I scream. Niall freezes and I take this opportunity to try to escape. I struggle against his grip and I fail. "RAPE!!"
"Lily! Just get in the car!" He yells as he opens the door and shoves me into the backseat. I sit there quietly as he walks around and gets in the driver's seat. He gets in and starts to drive away. "Are you fucking kidding me?! Rape?!" I continue to ignore him. "Answer me!"
"Just leave me alone!" I yell. I put my face in my hands and cry.
"No! Answer me! " he yells. We pull into my driveway and i jump out of the car and wall to my room. "I said Answer me!"
"How about you just shut up and leave me alone!" I scream at him from the bottom of the stairs.
"What did I do that was so wrong?!" he yells as I climb the stairs. When I get to the top I turn around.
"Why don't you go ask the girl you were using to hhurt me! Maybe she might care about what you have to say!"
"No! Instead I'll talk to my friend that you kissed behind my back!" he yells at me.
"Why do you want to fight with me?!"
"Why are you so complicated?!" He yells back. I slam my door and scream into a pillow. Then I got all my shoes and through them at the door.
*Niall's POV*
I walk over to sit on the couch and rest for a second.
"It's alright mate. She will get over it." Harry says trying to assure me.
"Stay out of this Harry. It's your fault for kissing my girlfriend behind my back!" I yell.
"Woah, sorry, but she kissed me. I didn't mean to hhurt you mate. If it helps, I wouldn't do anything with her because I know what she means to you." Harry says.
"Alright." I say.
"So are we good?" he asks.
"Yeah, everything is good between us." I say. We shake hands and start laughing. All of a sudden, we hear a loud thud.
"What was that?" Louis asks.
"I don't know." Zayn says.
"Oh no." Liam mutters. "I'll be right back." We watch as Liam wtalks upstairs.
"I bet she kicked the wall." Louis says.
"I say she threw her lamp." Harry says.
"I bet she is throwing shoes." Zayn says.
"You guys bet on what we do when we fight?" I ask at their conversation.
"Yes. Whoever wins, gets to make the losers do any 3 things he says." Louis explains.
"Lily, will you stop throwing your shoes so I can come in?" We hear Liam exclaim.
"Damn." Both Louis and Harry mumble.
"I win!" Zayn exclaims.
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