My Guardian Angel
Family Shouldn't Fight. . .
I stare out the sliding glass door as Niall paces back and forth across the back patio. He is yelling into his phone.
"Simon this isn't fair! Can't you call her management? Why do Zayn, Liam, and Louis get to be happy but I can't?!" He yells. As soon as I hear that I walk out to comfort him.
"Niall, maybe we should just talk to Simon about this in person." I say trying to comfort him.
"Go away Lily. I'm busy, can't you see that?!" He says rudely. I was in a state of shock that he had just said that to me.
"Excuse me? Did you really just yell at me?" I ask. He ignores me and looks the other way. "I am talking to you." Yet he still ignores me. "I said I am fucking talking to you!"
He turns around and says, "Can't you see that I'm on the phone?!"
"Well, maybe if you would listen, you wouldn't be on the phone!" I yell.
"Maybe if I could hear him I would listen!" He yells back.
"Well if you didn't ignore me, I wouldn't have to yell!"
"Well if you would wait for me to get off the phone, I wouldn't ignore you!" He yells back rudely. "You are really bugging me right now!"
"Well if I make you that unhappy maybe you should just leave! Maybe management is right! I should be with Harry instead!" I scream. Tears pricking my eyes.
"Fine! I will! Go run to Harry or Liam or whoever your next boyfriend is! You don't have to tell me twice to leave!" He yells. I realize what I said and Niall pushes past me and speed walks to our room. I follow closely behind. I watch as he packs his bags quickly.
"What are you doing?" I ask as I watch him zip up his last bag.
"I'm doing exactly what you said. Leaving." He says as he walks past me.
"Niall, I didn't mean it. I was just really angry and it slipped out." I try to explain.
"No. If you really feel that way I'm going to leave. Obviously you meant it. Plus, now you can be with Harry. Just like you said you would " He says coldly. He walks out the front door carrying all of his things. I watch as he turns and starts walking down the street.
"You can't just leave me here! You promised Liam!" I yell.
"You promised me you wouldn't leave me, yet you said you'd rather be with Harry!" He yells back.
"I didn't say that!" I yell. He completely ignores me. I run out to the street barefoot. "Fine! Just run away! It's just like the first time you did! Except this time I won't be upset when you end up at a bar with some hoe!" Still no answer. I go into the middle of the street and sit. I begin sobbing uncontrollably. I feel a hand on my shoulder and look up.
"Hey baby don't cry. Auntie Selena is here." Says my best girl friend.
"Selena? I wasn't supposed to see you until 4. It's only 1. What are you doing?" I ask confused.
"Well duhh! I am coming over to get ready just like the old days! But I think you need some cheering up." She says. I nod my head and she helps me up. "So, tell Auntie Selena what's wrong."
"I got into a fight with my boyfriend and he got really angry and left me. I said somethings I didn't mean and he just left." I explain.
"Is that him over there?" She asks pointing at Niall sitting on the curb crying.
"Yeah." I admit.
"Well, I'm going to be right back then, beautiful." she says. I watch as she walks up to Niall and starts talking to him. I stand up, wipe my eyes, and dust off. I turn and walk to the house.
Rules to Be Strong
Rule #1: Don't let your pain be apparent.
I go inside and straighten up my appearance. I fix my hair and makeup. Then I walk outside. I jump into my pickup truck and pull down the street. I stop right in front of Selena and Niall. I put on my best fake smile and say, "Hey Selly, let's go get some lunch."
"Hold on sweetheart." She says. I listen to what she is saying to Niall.
"Here is my key to her house. If you decide to go back, go ahead, if not leave the keys under the mat." She whispers to Niall. He nods and looks up at me. I just ignore him and focus on Selena.
"Selena we should go clubbing tonight. Or go for a drink at the bar." I say, trying to act like I'm over him already. It must have worked because he looked down and didn't look at me again.
"It's Monday. Who goes clubbing on a Monday? Haha! Plus I have plans with Justin and Demi tonight." She says.
"Oh. Ok." I say sadly.
Selena gets in the car and Niall watches me. We make eye contact and my eyes start tearing. I put the car in drive and pull away from the curb.
"What the hell is wrong with you?" Selena asks.
"What are you talking about?" I ask confused.
"You told the poor boy that maybe you should have dated his friend instead?!" She says mad but in a playful way.
"I was angry and it just slipped out. I'm sorry. I told him I didn't mean it yet he still just took off." I explain.
"Still. That was really mean." She argues.
We go out and grab sone McDonald's and go to the photo shoot. We get ready and just pose. It was really just us smiling and getting photos of us jumping. When we got back to the house Selena checks under the doormat. Sure enough the keys were there. I look down and a tear falls. She hugs me and then leaves. I enter my house and go to my room. I take off my shirt and pants and put on Niall's Crazy Mofo shirt. I start crying and I wash my face. I check the time and its already 7. I guess I had a busy day and that I deserved to go to sleep early. I flop into bed and start crying. I feel two strong arms wrap around me. I gasp and jump out of bed. I look back and see Niall laying there shirtless.
"What's wrong babe?" He asks half asleep.
"What are you doing here?" I ask quietly.
"Trying to sleep with my girlfriend. But she won't lay down with me." He says with his eyes closed.
"I thought I made you unhappy and that you were leaving me." I say as tears start spilling over.
"Never. I was unhappy without you. I can't stand the idea of leaving you." He says. I start crying and he gets out of bed. "Don't cry babe. I'm here and that's what counts." I climb into bed with Niall and hold onto him as I continue to sob.
"I thought you were going to leave me. I thought I lost you." I say. He simply tips my chin up and kisses me. The kiss is perfect. We continue to kiss until it turns into a very intimate make out session. He rolls on top, taking dominance.
"Wait." He says.
"What is it babe?" I ask.
"I'm sorry. I said some horrible things and I just wanted to apologize." He says. He starts to blur and then he disappears. I look around confused. I see Niall laying on the floor in a pool of blood and Devon sitting there smiling. I scream and wakeup.
I look around and don't see Niall anywhere. I check my phone and see a text from Liam.
From: BFF Liam
Hey, Niall just called and said he was coming home. What happened? Why aren't you coming too?
To: BFF Liam
Niall and I had a fight and he left me. Will you please talk to him. And in the meantime will you send one of the boys?
From: BFF Liam
Of course. Harry is already on his flight. Meet him there in about 3 hours.
I close my eyes and take a deep breath. I say goodbye to Liam and begin scrolling through my pictures. I see a whole bunch of selfies of Niall and start crying. I go to my contacts and find his. He is under 'My Babe <3' and I change it to 'My Love </3'. I cry and I receive a new text. I look at who it's from.
From: My Love </3
Sorry about leaving. I just think we need some space apart. I had Liam send Harry so you could finally be happy.
To: My Love </3
I don't think it's just time apart if you're sending someone else to stay here. But it's whatever I guess. You know what they say. Big girls don't cry.
I got no response. I just sat there. Sad and alone. Time to tweet on my fan account I guess. I switch to my fan Twitter. I tweet a lot of things about my situation. I just leave out names.
@NiallOfficial Thanks for breaking my heart. You told me you loved me.
@Real_Liam_Payne thanks for being my friend and keeping my head held high since High school.
I can tweet about stuff like that if i leave out my name. I tweeted more but that took to long to write. I look at the time and realize I have to pick up Harry in ten minutes. I throw on my shoes and run out to my trusty Ford Pickup truck. I jump in and drive as fast as I can to the airport. I run into the airport and look for his terminal. Soon enough there he is.
"Hey!" I say as I jog up to him.
"Hey!" He replies happily. He drops his luggage and hugs me. "I was so surprised when Niall picked me to come out here with you. I was sure he was going to pick Liam."
"Niall and I got in a fight and your name was brought up and he thinks that I want to be with you more than him and he left." I explain quickly.
"How did my nname get brought up?" He asks confused.
"My management doesn't want me to date Niall. They want me to date you." I say.
"Oh. I see. Well I look forward to staying in sunny L.A. for a few days. It feels nice to get out of that house for a while." He says calmly.
I smile and lead him to my car. We get in and talk the whole way home. He tells me about wanting to meet famous American celebrities and about helping me move out of Devon's house. When we get home it's around 2 a.m.
"So, for the first night i was thinking we could use the recliners or if you prefer sleeping alone I can show you the guest room. If you dont like those choices feel free to make a suggestion." I say as we enter the house.
"Out here is fine. Unless you want to sleep in your bed." He says sweetly.
"Thank you Harry. That's very considerate but I am fone out here." I reply. He laughs. We go up to the linen closet and grab some blankets and pillows. We make our own little bed and put on a movie.
"What are we waitching?" He asks.
"My favorite movie of all time. Aladdin!" I say excitedly.
He smiles and we snuggle kind of close as we watch. I fell asleep shortly after Jafar steals the lamp. I can feel Harry kiss my head.
"Goodnight Lily."
"Simon this isn't fair! Can't you call her management? Why do Zayn, Liam, and Louis get to be happy but I can't?!" He yells. As soon as I hear that I walk out to comfort him.
"Niall, maybe we should just talk to Simon about this in person." I say trying to comfort him.
"Go away Lily. I'm busy, can't you see that?!" He says rudely. I was in a state of shock that he had just said that to me.
"Excuse me? Did you really just yell at me?" I ask. He ignores me and looks the other way. "I am talking to you." Yet he still ignores me. "I said I am fucking talking to you!"
He turns around and says, "Can't you see that I'm on the phone?!"
"Well, maybe if you would listen, you wouldn't be on the phone!" I yell.
"Maybe if I could hear him I would listen!" He yells back.
"Well if you didn't ignore me, I wouldn't have to yell!"
"Well if you would wait for me to get off the phone, I wouldn't ignore you!" He yells back rudely. "You are really bugging me right now!"
"Well if I make you that unhappy maybe you should just leave! Maybe management is right! I should be with Harry instead!" I scream. Tears pricking my eyes.
"Fine! I will! Go run to Harry or Liam or whoever your next boyfriend is! You don't have to tell me twice to leave!" He yells. I realize what I said and Niall pushes past me and speed walks to our room. I follow closely behind. I watch as he packs his bags quickly.
"What are you doing?" I ask as I watch him zip up his last bag.
"I'm doing exactly what you said. Leaving." He says as he walks past me.
"Niall, I didn't mean it. I was just really angry and it slipped out." I try to explain.
"No. If you really feel that way I'm going to leave. Obviously you meant it. Plus, now you can be with Harry. Just like you said you would " He says coldly. He walks out the front door carrying all of his things. I watch as he turns and starts walking down the street.
"You can't just leave me here! You promised Liam!" I yell.
"You promised me you wouldn't leave me, yet you said you'd rather be with Harry!" He yells back.
"I didn't say that!" I yell. He completely ignores me. I run out to the street barefoot. "Fine! Just run away! It's just like the first time you did! Except this time I won't be upset when you end up at a bar with some hoe!" Still no answer. I go into the middle of the street and sit. I begin sobbing uncontrollably. I feel a hand on my shoulder and look up.
"Hey baby don't cry. Auntie Selena is here." Says my best girl friend.
"Selena? I wasn't supposed to see you until 4. It's only 1. What are you doing?" I ask confused.
"Well duhh! I am coming over to get ready just like the old days! But I think you need some cheering up." She says. I nod my head and she helps me up. "So, tell Auntie Selena what's wrong."
"I got into a fight with my boyfriend and he got really angry and left me. I said somethings I didn't mean and he just left." I explain.
"Is that him over there?" She asks pointing at Niall sitting on the curb crying.
"Yeah." I admit.
"Well, I'm going to be right back then, beautiful." she says. I watch as she walks up to Niall and starts talking to him. I stand up, wipe my eyes, and dust off. I turn and walk to the house.
Rules to Be Strong
Rule #1: Don't let your pain be apparent.
I go inside and straighten up my appearance. I fix my hair and makeup. Then I walk outside. I jump into my pickup truck and pull down the street. I stop right in front of Selena and Niall. I put on my best fake smile and say, "Hey Selly, let's go get some lunch."
"Hold on sweetheart." She says. I listen to what she is saying to Niall.
"Here is my key to her house. If you decide to go back, go ahead, if not leave the keys under the mat." She whispers to Niall. He nods and looks up at me. I just ignore him and focus on Selena.
"Selena we should go clubbing tonight. Or go for a drink at the bar." I say, trying to act like I'm over him already. It must have worked because he looked down and didn't look at me again.
"It's Monday. Who goes clubbing on a Monday? Haha! Plus I have plans with Justin and Demi tonight." She says.
"Oh. Ok." I say sadly.
Selena gets in the car and Niall watches me. We make eye contact and my eyes start tearing. I put the car in drive and pull away from the curb.
"What the hell is wrong with you?" Selena asks.
"What are you talking about?" I ask confused.
"You told the poor boy that maybe you should have dated his friend instead?!" She says mad but in a playful way.
"I was angry and it just slipped out. I'm sorry. I told him I didn't mean it yet he still just took off." I explain.
"Still. That was really mean." She argues.
We go out and grab sone McDonald's and go to the photo shoot. We get ready and just pose. It was really just us smiling and getting photos of us jumping. When we got back to the house Selena checks under the doormat. Sure enough the keys were there. I look down and a tear falls. She hugs me and then leaves. I enter my house and go to my room. I take off my shirt and pants and put on Niall's Crazy Mofo shirt. I start crying and I wash my face. I check the time and its already 7. I guess I had a busy day and that I deserved to go to sleep early. I flop into bed and start crying. I feel two strong arms wrap around me. I gasp and jump out of bed. I look back and see Niall laying there shirtless.
"What's wrong babe?" He asks half asleep.
"What are you doing here?" I ask quietly.
"Trying to sleep with my girlfriend. But she won't lay down with me." He says with his eyes closed.
"I thought I made you unhappy and that you were leaving me." I say as tears start spilling over.
"Never. I was unhappy without you. I can't stand the idea of leaving you." He says. I start crying and he gets out of bed. "Don't cry babe. I'm here and that's what counts." I climb into bed with Niall and hold onto him as I continue to sob.
"I thought you were going to leave me. I thought I lost you." I say. He simply tips my chin up and kisses me. The kiss is perfect. We continue to kiss until it turns into a very intimate make out session. He rolls on top, taking dominance.
"Wait." He says.
"What is it babe?" I ask.
"I'm sorry. I said some horrible things and I just wanted to apologize." He says. He starts to blur and then he disappears. I look around confused. I see Niall laying on the floor in a pool of blood and Devon sitting there smiling. I scream and wakeup.
I look around and don't see Niall anywhere. I check my phone and see a text from Liam.
From: BFF Liam
Hey, Niall just called and said he was coming home. What happened? Why aren't you coming too?
To: BFF Liam
Niall and I had a fight and he left me. Will you please talk to him. And in the meantime will you send one of the boys?
From: BFF Liam
Of course. Harry is already on his flight. Meet him there in about 3 hours.
I close my eyes and take a deep breath. I say goodbye to Liam and begin scrolling through my pictures. I see a whole bunch of selfies of Niall and start crying. I go to my contacts and find his. He is under 'My Babe <3' and I change it to 'My Love </3'. I cry and I receive a new text. I look at who it's from.
From: My Love </3
Sorry about leaving. I just think we need some space apart. I had Liam send Harry so you could finally be happy.
To: My Love </3
I don't think it's just time apart if you're sending someone else to stay here. But it's whatever I guess. You know what they say. Big girls don't cry.
I got no response. I just sat there. Sad and alone. Time to tweet on my fan account I guess. I switch to my fan Twitter. I tweet a lot of things about my situation. I just leave out names.
@NiallOfficial Thanks for breaking my heart. You told me you loved me.
@Real_Liam_Payne thanks for being my friend and keeping my head held high since High school.
I can tweet about stuff like that if i leave out my name. I tweeted more but that took to long to write. I look at the time and realize I have to pick up Harry in ten minutes. I throw on my shoes and run out to my trusty Ford Pickup truck. I jump in and drive as fast as I can to the airport. I run into the airport and look for his terminal. Soon enough there he is.
"Hey!" I say as I jog up to him.
"Hey!" He replies happily. He drops his luggage and hugs me. "I was so surprised when Niall picked me to come out here with you. I was sure he was going to pick Liam."
"Niall and I got in a fight and your name was brought up and he thinks that I want to be with you more than him and he left." I explain quickly.
"How did my nname get brought up?" He asks confused.
"My management doesn't want me to date Niall. They want me to date you." I say.
"Oh. I see. Well I look forward to staying in sunny L.A. for a few days. It feels nice to get out of that house for a while." He says calmly.
I smile and lead him to my car. We get in and talk the whole way home. He tells me about wanting to meet famous American celebrities and about helping me move out of Devon's house. When we get home it's around 2 a.m.
"So, for the first night i was thinking we could use the recliners or if you prefer sleeping alone I can show you the guest room. If you dont like those choices feel free to make a suggestion." I say as we enter the house.
"Out here is fine. Unless you want to sleep in your bed." He says sweetly.
"Thank you Harry. That's very considerate but I am fone out here." I reply. He laughs. We go up to the linen closet and grab some blankets and pillows. We make our own little bed and put on a movie.
"What are we waitching?" He asks.
"My favorite movie of all time. Aladdin!" I say excitedly.
He smiles and we snuggle kind of close as we watch. I fell asleep shortly after Jafar steals the lamp. I can feel Harry kiss my head.
"Goodnight Lily."
11/11/13