Loving Is Not Easy
Blast to the past
Did I die?
No
I feel pain
I slowly woke up feeling pain all over my body, I looked down at my body and I saw needles and tubes coming out of me I was hooked up to machines as well. I looked over to my left and saw my mum asleep in the chair with puffy eyes.
It looks like she had been crying
“Mum”
She woke up looking straight at me with wide eyes
“My baby”
“My baby’s awake”
She stood up and leaned over to hug me, but I moved away from her she looked at me with confusion in her eyes.
“Don’t hug me” I glared at her
“Luka don’t be like that” she said like she got offended
“Just don’t come near me”
“Luka I am your mother and I will do as I please, so don’t take that tone with me” she said with a stern look on her face.
“Mother” I laughed sarcastically “tell me ‘mother’ where were you when I got raped the first time, if your my ‘mother’ why didn’t you believe me when I told you it was jack, if your my mother were where you when I needed you to support me the most!” I yelled at her.
She looked taken back by my tone and the way I talked back.
“I’m sorry” she looked down with tears brimming in her eyes “please don’t leave me”
“well I’m sorry mum but sorry is not going to help all that pain I went through with you not believing me by the one thing that was truly horrible in my life, how would you feel if you got raped twice!” I started having tears form in my eyes as well "And if you got stabbed"
“I’ll go and get the doctor” she said barely audible, she stood up slowly and walked out of the room.
A couple of minutes passed and she walked back in with a doctor.
“hello luka I’m Dr.kension I have been the one looking after you the past 3 days”
I was out three days!
“you lost a lot of blood and you had a concussion you have had 43 stiches, on your wounds and those have dressings on them, you’ll need to change them regularly and you need crutches so your wound on your leg doesn’t split, I’ll prescribe some medication for the pain.
You’ll be able to go home in the morning” He smiled at me
I moved nervously under his gaze as he began to walk out, but before he left the room he stopped at the door and looked back at me.
“Oh and luka, you’re a very lucky girl to be here right now” and with that he walked out of the door
“Mum” I looked up at her, and she sat down on the chair
“Yes” she said with hope in her eyes
“I know you have dad’s number, I want to call him to see if he will let me stay with him"
All the hope shattered from her eyes and she got on the floor on her knees right next to my bed.
“Please luka, don’t leave me, I’m sorry I was a bad mother please don’t leave me, I’ll be a good mum from now on please just don’t leave!” she cried while hugging my arm
“I just can’t be with you” I said while turning my gaze out the window.
She continued crying while hugging onto my arm but I looking through the window.
“I think it would be best for you to leave and go home” I said keeping my emotions under control.
She stood up from her chair slowly and grabbed something from her handbag and placed it down, she turned to leave the room but stopped outside of the door just like the doctor did.
“I brought a bag filled with clothes for you; your phone is there to I put something’s in there to keep you occupied as well”.
She turned around and said goodbye and left
After she was gone I couldn’t help but cry, I know it’s wrong I just can’t stand to be around her not after what she did I turned to see what she put on the side table and it was my father’s phone number.
I reached down into the duffle bag and saw some clothes, chocolate, my drawing book and my drawing equipment, my mac book and my phone.
I reached for my phone and dialled my dads number
*ring ring* *ring ring* *ring ring*
-hello this is Ai Takahashi who is this-
“hey dad it’s me luka”
-luka what’re you doing talking to me how’d you get my number off your mother, I’d never think she would give it to you-
“hold on what”
-So your mother hasn’t told you?-
“Told me what?” I asked in confusion
-I’ve been trying to speak to you for years but she would never let me, I’ve missed you so much lu”
It felt like a pain in my heart over this time my ‘mother’ had said that my father never wanted anything to do with me
“What?” i choked out
“i-I can’t believe she has been hiding this from me all of these years” I was quite surprised but that was replaced by anger
-anyways luka why have you decided to call-
“Well I was wondering if I could stay with you for a while”
-I would love to have you here, but why do you want to stay here with me all the sudden-
“Dad do you think poorly of those who have been raped”
-No of course not it wasn’t their fault if someone does such a horrible act against them, why did you bring up that question-
“Because mums husband, h-he he raped me”
I heard him take a sharp breath, and it got me worried what if he hates me now, what do I do if I have to stay here.
“D-dad”
-you’re coming here as soon as possible I won’t let you near her or him, we’ll ship your belongings here and I will pay for your plane ticket to japan, I will keep my baby girl safe from now on-
It brought tears to my eyes to hear him say that he truly cares about me
“Thank you so much dad” I started crying
-don’t cry baby, you’ll make your old man cry- I heard him sniffle over the phone and I pulled my phone away so I could wipe my eyes but I quickly put it back so I could hear him speak
-Can you stay with a friend?-
“Yes I’m sure lucy will let me stay with her”
-Okay good, I will organise everything but I will take about a week or even more too organise everything-
“Yeah dad I will stay with lucy”
Me and my dad stayed on the phone talking for hours catching up over the lost years
“Okay dad I’m going to go and text Lucy”
-Okay bye sweetie, I’ll see you in a little bit-
“Bye dad” and with that I hung up
I looked over to the digital clock and saw it was already 11.56pm
To: MyBitch
From: Luka
Hey Lucy do you mind if I stay over your house for a while?
I waited but I got an instant reply
From: LucyMyBitch
WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN, I HEARD THAT POLICE CAME TO YOUR HOUSE AND JACK GOT ARRESTED AND THAT YOU WERE IN A HOSPITAL! YOU GOT A SHIT TON OF EXPLAINING TO DO, AND YOU CAN COME OVER TO EXPLAIN YOUR ASS
To: MyBitch
From: luka
Yeah I’ll explain everything later when I’m over there crazy girl, but I’m going to go to bed nightxx
From: MyBitch
Okay I will give you some rest, are you coming over tomorrow?
To: MyBitch
From: luka
Yeah but I will have to get my stuff in the morning :(, and I don’t want my mum to pick me up either.
From: MyBitch
I will pick you up, I will arrive early to visit as well, and your mum didn’t let anyone come visit you
How many things can that woman do wrong
To: MyBitch
Okay see you tomorrow good night for real this time
From: MyBitch
Okay night see you in the morning, I’ll bring food, HOSPITAL SHIT SUCKS BALLS.
I chuckled at her text and texted my mum before I went to sleep
To: Mum
Don’t bother to pick me up in the morning lucy is going to and I will be packing my stuff to stay over lucy place
I put down my phone on the bedside table and pulled the covers up
What’s going to happen now
No
I feel pain
I slowly woke up feeling pain all over my body, I looked down at my body and I saw needles and tubes coming out of me I was hooked up to machines as well. I looked over to my left and saw my mum asleep in the chair with puffy eyes.
It looks like she had been crying
“Mum”
She woke up looking straight at me with wide eyes
“My baby”
“My baby’s awake”
She stood up and leaned over to hug me, but I moved away from her she looked at me with confusion in her eyes.
“Don’t hug me” I glared at her
“Luka don’t be like that” she said like she got offended
“Just don’t come near me”
“Luka I am your mother and I will do as I please, so don’t take that tone with me” she said with a stern look on her face.
“Mother” I laughed sarcastically “tell me ‘mother’ where were you when I got raped the first time, if your my ‘mother’ why didn’t you believe me when I told you it was jack, if your my mother were where you when I needed you to support me the most!” I yelled at her.
She looked taken back by my tone and the way I talked back.
“I’m sorry” she looked down with tears brimming in her eyes “please don’t leave me”
“well I’m sorry mum but sorry is not going to help all that pain I went through with you not believing me by the one thing that was truly horrible in my life, how would you feel if you got raped twice!” I started having tears form in my eyes as well "And if you got stabbed"
“I’ll go and get the doctor” she said barely audible, she stood up slowly and walked out of the room.
A couple of minutes passed and she walked back in with a doctor.
“hello luka I’m Dr.kension I have been the one looking after you the past 3 days”
I was out three days!
“you lost a lot of blood and you had a concussion you have had 43 stiches, on your wounds and those have dressings on them, you’ll need to change them regularly and you need crutches so your wound on your leg doesn’t split, I’ll prescribe some medication for the pain.
You’ll be able to go home in the morning” He smiled at me
I moved nervously under his gaze as he began to walk out, but before he left the room he stopped at the door and looked back at me.
“Oh and luka, you’re a very lucky girl to be here right now” and with that he walked out of the door
“Mum” I looked up at her, and she sat down on the chair
“Yes” she said with hope in her eyes
“I know you have dad’s number, I want to call him to see if he will let me stay with him"
All the hope shattered from her eyes and she got on the floor on her knees right next to my bed.
“Please luka, don’t leave me, I’m sorry I was a bad mother please don’t leave me, I’ll be a good mum from now on please just don’t leave!” she cried while hugging my arm
“I just can’t be with you” I said while turning my gaze out the window.
She continued crying while hugging onto my arm but I looking through the window.
“I think it would be best for you to leave and go home” I said keeping my emotions under control.
She stood up from her chair slowly and grabbed something from her handbag and placed it down, she turned to leave the room but stopped outside of the door just like the doctor did.
“I brought a bag filled with clothes for you; your phone is there to I put something’s in there to keep you occupied as well”.
She turned around and said goodbye and left
After she was gone I couldn’t help but cry, I know it’s wrong I just can’t stand to be around her not after what she did I turned to see what she put on the side table and it was my father’s phone number.
I reached down into the duffle bag and saw some clothes, chocolate, my drawing book and my drawing equipment, my mac book and my phone.
I reached for my phone and dialled my dads number
*ring ring* *ring ring* *ring ring*
-hello this is Ai Takahashi who is this-
“hey dad it’s me luka”
-luka what’re you doing talking to me how’d you get my number off your mother, I’d never think she would give it to you-
“hold on what”
-So your mother hasn’t told you?-
“Told me what?” I asked in confusion
-I’ve been trying to speak to you for years but she would never let me, I’ve missed you so much lu”
It felt like a pain in my heart over this time my ‘mother’ had said that my father never wanted anything to do with me
“What?” i choked out
“i-I can’t believe she has been hiding this from me all of these years” I was quite surprised but that was replaced by anger
-anyways luka why have you decided to call-
“Well I was wondering if I could stay with you for a while”
-I would love to have you here, but why do you want to stay here with me all the sudden-
“Dad do you think poorly of those who have been raped”
-No of course not it wasn’t their fault if someone does such a horrible act against them, why did you bring up that question-
“Because mums husband, h-he he raped me”
I heard him take a sharp breath, and it got me worried what if he hates me now, what do I do if I have to stay here.
“D-dad”
-you’re coming here as soon as possible I won’t let you near her or him, we’ll ship your belongings here and I will pay for your plane ticket to japan, I will keep my baby girl safe from now on-
It brought tears to my eyes to hear him say that he truly cares about me
“Thank you so much dad” I started crying
-don’t cry baby, you’ll make your old man cry- I heard him sniffle over the phone and I pulled my phone away so I could wipe my eyes but I quickly put it back so I could hear him speak
-Can you stay with a friend?-
“Yes I’m sure lucy will let me stay with her”
-Okay good, I will organise everything but I will take about a week or even more too organise everything-
“Yeah dad I will stay with lucy”
Me and my dad stayed on the phone talking for hours catching up over the lost years
“Okay dad I’m going to go and text Lucy”
-Okay bye sweetie, I’ll see you in a little bit-
“Bye dad” and with that I hung up
I looked over to the digital clock and saw it was already 11.56pm
To: MyBitch
From: Luka
Hey Lucy do you mind if I stay over your house for a while?
I waited but I got an instant reply
From: LucyMyBitch
WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN, I HEARD THAT POLICE CAME TO YOUR HOUSE AND JACK GOT ARRESTED AND THAT YOU WERE IN A HOSPITAL! YOU GOT A SHIT TON OF EXPLAINING TO DO, AND YOU CAN COME OVER TO EXPLAIN YOUR ASS
To: MyBitch
From: luka
Yeah I’ll explain everything later when I’m over there crazy girl, but I’m going to go to bed nightxx
From: MyBitch
Okay I will give you some rest, are you coming over tomorrow?
To: MyBitch
From: luka
Yeah but I will have to get my stuff in the morning :(, and I don’t want my mum to pick me up either.
From: MyBitch
I will pick you up, I will arrive early to visit as well, and your mum didn’t let anyone come visit you
How many things can that woman do wrong
To: MyBitch
Okay see you tomorrow good night for real this time
From: MyBitch
Okay night see you in the morning, I’ll bring food, HOSPITAL SHIT SUCKS BALLS.
I chuckled at her text and texted my mum before I went to sleep
To: Mum
Don’t bother to pick me up in the morning lucy is going to and I will be packing my stuff to stay over lucy place
I put down my phone on the bedside table and pulled the covers up
What’s going to happen now
Notes
okay two chapter in one night im on a roll im trying to make up for lost time anywayi hope you like this story there will be more soon
Peace out (that sounded so lame '^' but bye)
-Pxx
@perks-of-being-a-goldfish
im sorry it took me onths but if you're still interested in reading the new chapters up
5/25/14