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I woke up a few hours later with my head resting on Niko’s shoulder. He is still awake watching television, well actually he is flipping through the channels like a lunatic. My neck is kinked so I move a little bit to relieve the pressure.

“Well hello sleepy head” Niko smiles

“Hey” I croak sitting up right

I hear some rattling from the kitchen and wonder who is making so much noise this late at night, then I see him. Wyatt walks back into the room holding a bowl of popcorn and two cans of soda.

“Oh, you’re awake” he looks surprised

“Well with that racket yes” I say

Wyatt comes over to sit down by me on the couch as Niko gets up and leaves the room for a few minutes so we can talk.

“What time is it?” I ask

“It’s 2:30 a.m., Bails..wh..why would you do this to yourself?” Wyatt says slowly

“It makes me feel better” I say tears welling in my eyes again

“And taking your mother’s pills? Bailey what has gotten into you? Are you trying to kill yourself? Leave me, kill me too? because that’s what will happen. If you die I die” He tells me taking my hands in his.

I look down at my hands as I fidget with my fingers.

“I’m sorry” I whisper

“Sorry for what Bailey? You scared me and your parents to death, are you sorry for the pain and fear you caused everyone? I thought you loved me Bails?” Wyatt said.

I sit and listen to him as silent tears fall down my face. After ten minutes of getting my ass chewed out by Wyatt; Niko comes back into the room by that time Wyatt and I have made up. Wyatt swore to me that nothing is going on between him and Andie. He told me that she has been making her rounds throughout the house with the guys. He said that he just fell victim within the last week. I got news for her though, she better watch out, because I’m a crazy bitch and I will hurt her.

“So, when is my mom coming to get me?” I ask

“She said she will be here in the morning to get you” Wyatt said nervously

“Ok great but why do you say it like that?” I ask

“Like what”

“Wy, what do you know?” I ask

“Bailey, she’s going to have you admitted to the hospital to get some help. Don’t get mad though. I agree with her, I think it would be a clever idea too. You know that I love you with all I have, and I want what is best for you so could you at least think about it?” Wyatt tells me

I’m silent for a while before I pick up the courage to say something.

“I... uh, I agree. I need help. I love you too Wyatt and don’t want to lose you because of my stupidity” I say

After opening up with Niko and Wyatt about my issues and listening to them and getting their insight; I fall back asleep. This time I fall asleep in the arms of my amazing boyfriend.

At precisely 10:00 a.m. Mum picks me up from Niko’s house. The first thing she asks when she comes in is to see my arms, so I show her without hesitating. Resisting would do me no good anyways, mom cries while she begs me to stop cutting myself.

“Bailey please let me help you. Daddy and I love you so much and so does Wyatt, we want to help you” mum cries

“Mum I’ve made up my mind already, I know you are taking me to the hospital. I will go willingly. I agree that I need help. I’ll go to treatment and get the help I need” I tell her tears running down my face too.

Mum drives Wyatt and I back to our house. Wyatt comes up to my room with me as I pack a suitcase. I don’t bother packing jeans or shorts, so I stick with packing just my yoga pants and t-shirts, I take the black puma hoodie that dad got me when he went to Germany and I take my comfy pink and purple pajamas. I grab some stuff from my bathroom as well. I only expect to be there for a week, but I can’t ever stay anywhere without the stuffed gorilla Wyatt gave me and my favorite Harry Potter blanket, so I grab those too before going back downstairs.

We arrive at Mercy Medical Center at around 11:30 A.M. Wyatt holds my hand as he rolls my suitcase behind him. We follow my mum through the front doors and walk straight to the huge Mahogany desk. There we are greeted by a nice young lady.

“Hello, I’m here to check my daughter Bailey into the Powell Recovery Center” mum tells the girl

“Alright have a seat and I’ll let them know you are here” she says

We sit for fifteen minutes in silence, I start to have second thoughts but know that I don’t have a choice.

“Bailey Fitzgerald” a nurse calls

We get up and follow the lady to a large office, we sit in the chairs across from a very tall, slender built, old woman.

“Hello, Bailey, is it? I’m Doctor Patton, Nice to meet you” she holds her hand out for me to shake

I take her hand and shake it “Can we get this over with already” I say

“Bails!” my mum and Wyatt shout at the same time swatting my shoulders.

My mum signs paper after paper while Wyatt and I chat quietly together.

“Alright Bailey here is your binder. It holds all of your assignments, reading material, and schedule” Dr. Patton says handing me the book.

“Homework and readings? How long am I going to be here I ask”?

“The program is four weeks love, by the end of it you will be a completely changed person”

“MUM! What the fuck, I’m going to miss all of Wyatt’s shows and school then I’ll fall behind and fail the tenth grade. How the hell am I supposed to do my school work?” I shout at her

“Bailey you’ll be fine. I’ve talked with the school and they will send your work home one weeks’ worth at a time. I will drop it off to you, so you can do it. You need to work on yourself and get better” mum says

“I agree baby; you need help. I’ll come and see you every day, I’m sure they will let you watch the telly just get your stuff done. You don’t have to worry I’ll be waiting for you when you’re done.” Wyatt says holding my hands

I shake my head yes and follow the lady to a room that has an enormous window, a bathroom with tub and shower. There is a full-size bed, A T.V. and two dressers. It looks nice to be honest.

“Ok now is the time to say farewell to your family” Dr. Patton says

My mum hugs me and kisses my cheeks. We exchange our I love you’s and our I’m sorry’s as we both cry. When we are done she leaves to go wait in the hallway. I look to Wyatt with sad eyes, he has tears in his eyes as well. I can’t help but to burst into tears. We hold each other for what seems like an eternity. We kiss repeatedly, along with countless hugs.

“I’ll be here when you get out ok Bails. I love you so much, please get better” Wyatt cries

“I will, I promise. I love you Wyatt” I say holding him not wanting to let go.

“I love you too… always”

“Forever and ever” I say as he turns to follow my mum to the elevators.

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