Graduation.

I, Mary Sue, after spending four years in high school, finally graduated... without making a single friend.

How did it end up like this?

At first, I was invited to hang out by my classmates. They were nice about it and often talked to me. But, I was always afraid of judgment and declined them every time. I feared that if someone like me were to join them, I would never fit in. At that time, I believed that someone like me, who was shy, introverted and not pretty enough to be popular, would eventually fall out of the loop for being lame.

So instead of taking that risk, I played it safe. I got used to spending time alone.

But deep down in my heart, I envied friendship. I started to look down on those girls who hang out together... having a great time and talking about boys.

And then...

Once I realized that, I began to hate myself.

I hate everything. My looks. My inability to speak up. My personality.

College.

But now, it's time for a new beginning.

It's time to start over. It's time to reinvent myself. It's time to change.

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