What the fuck did I just do? Stay away from the boys.That was the one thing I had to do. And I couldn't. I was fucking dry humping Zayn on a balcony, in plain sight. Someone could have ssen us, papparazzi, fans, hell even one of the boys. Reckless, just stupid and reckless thats what I was. But it was so good, liek tremendous. Mads SHUT THE FUCK UP! You will be professional and not touch the boys expecially Zayn and Niall.

"Ugh I need sleep, and drugs." I speek out loud as I slip into bed and turn off the lamp.

I get yanked out of my sleep with the sound of my phone. I look at the clock, 6:45 am. Ugh who the hell is callin me? I dont need to be up for another two hours.
"Hello?" I ask with my eyes still closed.
"Hey Mads." Kayla? Why the hell?
"Why are you calling me so early?" I lift the sheets over my head as she responds.
"Well you never called me yesterday."
"Sorry but we got in late and why the hell are you up?"
"I had to open the park today." Oh so you decided to let me join you ... cool beans.
"Great. Hey listen-" I get cut of by her.
"There are pictures you know?"
"Pictures?" What pictures are she talkign about?
"Oh you and the boys. Theres one of Niall with his arm around you and you and him walking arm and arm. Oh and theres one of you and Zayn. Him with his hand on your waist whispering in your ear." They all happened but it was all innocent touching.
"Oh well its being blown out of context its-"
"Thats what I thought. Hey listren I got to go. I'll text you later. Oh and my mom said be careful." he hangs up and I am left here completely awake with nothing to do. I love her but she needs to think sometimes. I dont even know if I should tell her about what happened.

I jump out of bed and start getting ready. Its only 7:30 and the boys werent going to be up for another three hours. Ugh I have nothing to do. I go downstairs to get some coffee started. I get down to the kitch and start the pot. I look outside and see Zayn on the balcony sitting there with a cigarette. I open the slidding door and poke my head out.
"Zayn what the hell are you doign out here? Its freezing." I walk outside and sit next to him.
"Did you stay out here all night?" He take the cigarette to his lip and inhales deeply nodding his head in the procces.
"Zayn you have an interview in four hours you should really go get some sleep." He doesnt look at me. He just stares down at the people walking below.
"Why?" he asks. His voice sounding grougy.
"Shit Zayn your voice. Ugh I'll go make you some tea."I stand up and walk inside.
"And get the fuck inside you'll freeze your ass off out there." I yell behined me.
I start the kettle and get a mug out for him. I turn around to grab a teabag and I bump into a hard chest. It was Zayn he was just looking at me.
"Zayn what are you doing? Back off." I walk aorund him and grab the bag just as the kettle gets done.
"Why." Zayn said again this time with more force.
"Why what?" I ask slightly annoyed while dunking the bag in the cup.
"Why did you do that last night?" He steps closer to me. Trapping eme inbetween him and the counter.
"Why did I do the reasponsible thing? Because it was stupid. That should have never happened and you know that." He was looking down at me.
"Why? Cause from all of the moaning it sounded like you quite enjoyed yourself." He stepped closer pushing his chest into mine. He was about a head taller than me and he was taking advantage of it.
"Ugh Zayn stop being an ass." I try to push past him but he doesnt let me.
"I like your ass." He reaches behind me and starts kneeding mine. A gasp escapes my lips.
"Zayn stop." I was quiet. He steps closer pushing us closer.
"Come on you like it. I know you do, you know you do, the guy below us knows you do." Recalling the events of last night.
"Zayn the-"
"I love the way you say my name." He leans downa and lightly kisses my neck. My breathing started to increase as he started to leave wet kisses just below my jaw line. I hadnt realized my eyes were closed until the flew open from one of Zayns hand finding their way inside my leggings and down my middle. He just slightly cupped it.
"I knew you liked it." He said pulling away from my neck. " Just admit it. You like me." His lips almost touching mine.
"I dont like you." I mummble out. My eyes bobbing from his eyes to his lips. He starts to rubs circles on my clit. I held back my moan as hard as possible but one slipped out and they all came flying after.
"But you like that dont you?" His lips kissing my colar bone.
Someone cleared their throat and my hands found their way to Zayns chest and I pushed him off roughly causing him to slam slightly into the fridge. I look up to the stair case and see Louis staring down with a grin on his face.
"Well, well well. Whta do we have here?" he asked as he walked down the stairs. I can feel my cheeks burning from the moments befor and the moment now.
"Nothing." I say while turning away from Zayn and finishing his tea.
"Come on dont lie." Louis said as he took a seat. He slid the hot mug of tea out of my hand and up to his lips.
"Louis leave it mate." Zayn said from behine me.
"I dont know this is juicy stuff. And your tea is shit." I roll my eyes at him and start for the stairs.
"Louis wont tell anybody." Zayn says to me as I walk up the stairs. " Will you Lou?"
"Nah dont worry secrets safe with me. Just learn how to make a proper cup of tea." I smiled at him, thanking him with my eyes.
I looked over at Zayn and he had a grin plastered on his lips. I gave him the finger and walked into my room.