Broken

"you know Emily you don't have to go out and drink on your 21st birthday!" I hear a little giggle and hear heals on my hardwood floor come closer to me. "Selena I am not you, I know you weren't interested in drinking on your 21st birthday but I am. If you don't want to join me thats fine ill go alone no problem"

I put down the curling iron and turn around. "Emily freaking Osment I got dressed up I have on heals I did my makeup and I am almost done curling my hair. I am too invested in this now to back out plus its your birthday there is no way I am letting you go anywhere without me."

I see her let out a big smile "perfect" and see her walk away. I let off a laugh and go back to curling my hair. Me and Emily have been friends since we were kids. we met at some Disney channel thing when we were kids and have been besties since. She is in a relationship with Harry styles and its been going strong for 2 years now.

I hear the heals again and see her pop her head into my bathroom. "are you going to let loose and drink tonight or are you going to freak out again and go home early? I just need to know incase I have to get a cab later on."

I have something called an anxiety/ Panic disorder, I have learned to control and live with it and I know my triggers but some things I just cant handle.

"I think Imight just dance maybe have a drink I just don't know yet."


To be continued.....

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