My scattered mind is engulfed. A sea of people surround me. I am so embarrassed, I want to get swept in a hole and die.


"Dianna, honey."

"Dianna, love are you ok."

I sit on the ground and then try to get up but it's not a brilliant idea. "Here" Harry takes me by the hands and shepherds me up. . "Ok show is fucking over" Harry rages to my audience.

I am so dumb I should have just taken a seat when I first felt dizzy. But no I thought I could be tough.


Harry calls the car and we wait. I sit on a bench. "How you holding up?" Harry asks me. I AM SO FUCKING EMBARRASSED AND STUPID AND DUMB AND THICK. I CAN'T GO ANYWHERE WITHOUT MY ILLNESS BULLYING ME, BUT I AM EVER SO PEACHY.

Is what I want to scream. "fine" I murmur.




The car ride to the hotel is dead silent my head rests on the window and tear fall. I doubt Harry will be hanging out with us anymore. The pity party is officially over, I want to yell and scream in frustration instead I heavily sigh.

We get back to the hotel and I hastily get out of the car and make my way to dad and mines room. I run into the bathroom and slam the door. I slide down on the floor along with my tears. My knees bought to my chin, I sit and cry and wonder when god will free me from this all.


Harry's POV:

I attempt to run after her. Her dad insists I don't. "Is she going to be ok?" I ask worriedly.
"Yea she probably feels embarrassed."

"What for she absolutely nothing-----."

"Harry I know, I know." Her dad taps my shoulder. He is so used to living with this how does he do it? I've only been exposed for a few minutes and my mind is running.

She has nothing to be embarrassed about it's obviously not her fault. I wanna see, I want to make sure she is ok. But I think she needs space.

"I just want you to know I am not going anywhere. I want to be part of your daughter and your life." I confidently speak.


"Harry, this life. I don't wish it upon anyone. She is my daughter I will always be here for her and never hurt her. So no offence mate but I am the one she can only rely on. You don't want to be part of this uncertain lifestyle."

"I am going to prove you wrong."

It's been a long day I'll let them be, but I intend to keep to keep my promise.

---

it has just reached seven in the evening and I am getting ready for a promo meeting I am having. But before I go I stop by their room.


Her father answers. "Hi."

"Harry." Fuck I hope I haven't pissed him off.

"She's asleep."

"I'll be one minute." He nods stepping aside.

Sleeping ever so still I don't think a tornado could even wake her. I bend down and use my thumb to caress her forehead. "I'll see you tomorrow Dianna." I whisper and move my hand to her lower back and rub it.


Dianna's POV:

"I'll see you tomorrow Dianna." He whispers, but why? why would he want to? My tears have managed to stain the hotel pillow.

It's been a long day so I fall back asleep.

---

It is the next day and dad and I are by the pool. I am not as tired so I enjoy my swim. Harry tried to call this morning but stubborn me ignored. I hop out of the pool and lay in the sun.

"He has a good head on his shoulders." Dad speaks.

My palm rubs my left eye and I try my best to avoid this situation all together. "Call him back Di."

"No dad, I know how this will play out."

"No you don't Dianna. You don't thats one thing we have learnt all too well we don't how things may turn out."

"What are you sick of my company." I joke.


"No Dianna, but I am tired I need a break too." His voice increases. Wow. "So what you want him to babysit me instead." I raise my voice.

"No of course not. But you have never had this before enjoy it go out live a little. Let a boy take you out and just be normal for christ sake!"

My lips start to quiver. I swiftly stand lucky there is no one around, I grab hold of the pool chair and throw it in the pool and escape my unrecognisable father.



"Dianna." I spot Harry in the hall but brush past him. I go back to the room, get changed, grab the essentials.

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I leave the hotel and have no idea where I am going.

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